the world in which he exists

The morning sun jumped into the room through the open window, and the water in the kitchen continuously flowed from the faucet, washing the back of Gu Chaoming's hands and the bowl of pasta for breakfast.The detergent was gradually foaming under the washing of the water. Gu Chaoming held the bowl with one hand, and spun around the bowl with the rag in the other hand, still silently reciting English words in his mouth.

Gu Chaoming frowned when rinsing for the second time. Several words memorized yesterday were washed out of memory with the water flow, and he couldn't remember them no matter what.

Until I finished washing a bowl for eating alone, drain it and put it in the cupboard.The moment I opened the cupboard, a word flashed through my mind like a shooting star.

Gu Chaoming, who laughed just because he remembered a word, put the bowl away and closed the cupboard.After wiping his hands and walking to the living room, he first pulled out the school uniform jacket that was pressed under the schoolbag and put it on. It is better to wear more than less in different seasons. Then he carried the schoolbag full of books on his back. The weight of the schoolbag also reminded him to study hard today.

Gu Chaoming carried his schoolbag and walked to the door of Gu Tao's room.There is no sound in the room, it should be out.When Gu Tao went out last night, Gu Chaoming was locking the door behind him and browsing university information at his desk.

After spending several hours browsing the information of various universities, Gu Chaoming finally realized how messy his previous life was.

With a score of 299 points similar to the promotional price, my past self had no plans for the future and no conception.The future is just a word with a total of twelve strokes that the teacher often hangs on his lips. It is a land overgrown with weeds and uncultivated.

He muddles along, has no goals, and decides that he has no future without authorization.

The future is still in the future, as long as everything is not settled, there is still a chance to fight, not to mention that he does not want to fight, but slowly.What is fighting is not the mid-term exam in the near future, but the future in the distance.

After Gu Chaoming checked the university information, he recalled Lin Jianfan's words again. Gu Chaoming set a goal he wanted to achieve in the midterm exam based on the scores he didn't know.

Gu Chaoming is neither greedy nor underestimating, he just hopes to keep the original [-] points without dropping, no longer controls his scores because of whether the test paper is suitable for him, and no longer makes his grades uneven.He doesn't ask for a high score, he just hopes that his score will stop fluctuating and stay on a stable line.Only by keeping yourself stable can you climb up better.

Gu Chaoming no longer blindly seeks to get a high score in the exam quickly to please men and make up for his inferiority complex.He has a clear goal-slowly, step by step, not for others, but for himself.

The night when I realized my insufficiency and the happy morning after the night when I realized my insufficiency, I thought I had awakened and was working hard on the right path. It's the wrong direction to start working hard.

A long life is made up of one ladder after another. When you are on this ladder and you cannot see the scenery beyond the upper ladder, you take it for granted that what you are doing now is correct.When you jump up to another level of stairs, your vision will be widened, and you will see the scene outside the stairs. Looking back, what you thought was right at the beginning is just a mistake made by confusion and ignorance in the past.

In the same morning, the joy of life gradually becoming clearer after having figured it out, the high wall of confusion that was previously blocked in front of me was pushed down step by step, stirring up a cloud of dust.

When Gu Chaoming stepped into the school gate, he was eager to share with others the joy and energy he had after he figured it out.Gu Chaoming has never shared the sins in his heart with anyone, even digesting the darkness alone at night.Gu Chaoming would not directly talk about his inner happiness with others, he just wanted to chat with someone he knew well.

It was the rush hour for school admission, and Gu Chaoming's footsteps in the aisle leading to the teaching building couldn't help but briskly, his mind was filled with the English words he had reviewed in the morning, and he used his height to look for familiar figures in the crowd.

The campus in the early morning is always full of energy, and the noise never stops.Among the noisy and energetic crowd, Gu Chaoming's eyes locked on the bushy-haired young man with a backpack walking by the bushes in front of him.

The sunshine in the early autumn morning faded away the harshness of summer, and the school uniform was blown to both sides because of the wind, the hair on the top of the head was blown by the breeze, and the legs that kept exchanging were running across the crowd to behind Lin Jianfan in a short while , Gu Chaoming patted Lin Jianfan on the shoulder with a smile on his face.

"Group Leader Lin, good morning."

Group leader Lin is the nickname given to him by Gu Chaoming, and these four words are also the remarks Gu Chaoming gave him.

Before Lin Jianfan turned his head, he heard Gu Chaoming's cheerful and laughing voice behind him, but when he turned his head normally, he saw Gu Chaoming's smile that could carry the whole spring.

He seems very happy today, Lin Jianfan who turned his head looked at Gu Chaoming and thought.

Gu Chaoming smiled, showing his teeth, and his eyes were stained with a bright smile.

Gu Chaoming was afraid that the people in front of him would laugh at him if they knew that he was so happy because of such a trivial matter.

Gu Chaoming smiled, did not mention his joy, walked beside Lin Jianfan, and only said: "I have set the mid-term goals you mentioned yesterday."

"Really? How many points?" Lin Jianfan's mouth and words were infected by Gu Chaoming's bright smile.

Walking up the stairs of the teaching building, Gu Chaoming stretched out three fingers.

"Three hundred?" Lin Jianfan asked.

Gu Chaoming nodded: "My monthly exam is only [-]. My grades are not stable at ordinary times. It's like riding a roller coaster. I want to stabilize my grades first."

Lin Jianfan turned his head to look at Gu Chaoming: "That's also very good. After stabilization, the grades will definitely increase."

Gu Chaoming smiled: "I hope."

"I think you can do it." Lin Jianfan's gaze was firm.

I think you can do it.

Unexpected answer, just after setting the goal, it is a very happy thing to tell others about your goal and get such a positive answer.

At least when Lin Jianfan said these words, Gu Chaoming looked at Lin Jianfan's face and met his firm eyes. At that moment, Gu Chaoming completely believed what Lin Jianfan said, and felt that it was because of it. Really happy.

But then a thought appeared in Gu Chaoming's mind like a shooting star when he opened the cupboard at home in the morning and remembered English words.

Lin Jianfan's mantras are "thank you" and "sorry". Lin Jianfan never refuses other people's requests, never resists others' coercion, and of course he is never stingy with others' compliments.

If you get a question right, he will say you are smart, obviously he is the first in the grade.When you buy a new dress, no matter how beautiful or ugly it is, he will say it looks good.Without any objection or resistance, the people in the class will say that he is pleasing to others.

I am always happy to be affirmed by others, and after I am happy, other people's evaluations can't help but come to my mind.

Does Lin Jianfan really think that he, the bottom of the class, can accumulate a lot of money and achieve his goal?Or are you just pleasing yourself like the people in the class said?

The flashing thought took away Gu Chaoming's joy after being affirmed. He wanted to believe that he was really affirmed, but he couldn't ignore the words of the people in the class.

Lin Jianfan didn't notice Gu Chaoming's doubts about him, and he continued to say: "Work hard and you will always achieve what you want."

"Well, yes." Gu Chaoming nodded, still smiling.

"Is there anything happy for you today?" Lin Jianfan asked.

"Huh?" Gu Chaoming didn't expect Lin Jianfan to ask such a question suddenly, and he suspected that his intention to please was punctured on the spot.

Gu Chaoming concealed it, and spoke faster: "Yes, I am very happy today, because the weather is good."

Lin Jianfan looked at the sky outside the corridor, the weather was really good.

The sun is shining and everything grows.

In such fine weather, the school ushered in the sports meeting before the midterm exam.

Old Chen stood on the podium: "Ahem, let me tell you something. The school sports meeting will start soon. From next Monday to Wednesday, classes will be held normally in the next two days. It will be three days as usual. If you want to sign up, go to Sign up at the sports committee."

As soon as the news of the sports meeting was announced, the whole class cheered. Three days of sports meeting equals three more days of vacation.

"Stop, stop, stop, don't be too happy." Lao Chen stabilized the restless atmosphere in his class because of the sports meeting, "The midterm exam is right after the sports meeting. Last time my grades fell like this, it's okay to play, don't let me play." It's crazy. I don't want to see the results of the monthly exam again for the midterm exam."

After talking, Lao Chen asked the whole class: "Is there anyone in the class who knows how to use a camera?"

Lao Chen's question alerted Cen Xili's radar around Gu Chaoming.Hearing Old Chen's question, Cen Xili opened his eyes without blinking for several seconds.

Lao Chen's question also alarmed Gu Chaoming and Su Bing who were sitting below, Gu Chaoming turned his head to look at Cen Xili.

It's not that Lao Chen's question has any special meaning to Cen Xili, it's just that the person who raised his hand after Lao Chen asked this question last time has special meaning to Cen Xili.

"Teacher, I will." Someone in the class raised their hands.

"Well, you don't have any sports, do you?" Old Chen asked.

"No."

"Then you will be responsible for taking pictures of our class during the sports meeting." Old Chen said.

"it is good."

Because he knows how to use a camera, he later notified the division of arts and sciences. When the class leader suggested making a video as a souvenir, he was the first person in the class to think of. He said that he was not good at editing videos, and told the class leader to shoot videos, edit Chen Haiyang is especially good at videos, and he has the equipment.

Looking back now, even You Xin felt that it was a wrong decision for him to shirk and recommend Chen Haiyang to the monitor.

If he hadn't done this at the beginning, maybe he and Cen Xili would not be in the current situation.

"Teacher, I will, and I also have a camera." The class stretched out an arm.

As before, overlapping questions, overlapping answers, memory and reality almost overlap.

Listening to the voice, Gu Chaoming looked towards the answering voice, and saw the hairy head found in the school aisle that morning.

Lin Jianfan was chosen to take pictures of the class. After class, Gu Chaoming was doing his homework on the seat. Cen Xili asked him to go to the corridor to bask in the sun. He said he would wait until he finished the problem.

After finishing his homework, Gu Chaoming stretched his waist and walked to Lin Jianfan's desk and asked, "What are you writing?"

Xu Shi saw that people in the class were in groups, either fighting or chatting, but it seemed special for Lin Jianfan to sit alone and write something quietly.

Or is it lonely?The word loneliness popped into mind, and Gu Chaoming thought it was appropriate, but at the same time felt it was inappropriate.Lin Jianfan is just writing something alone, why is he lonely?

Gu Chaoming bent slightly and looked at the notebook that Lin Jianfan was writing. The content on it was in line with Lin Jianfan's personality as a schoolmaster, and he was sorting out his notes again.

"The day you were eating supper, you said you were watching TV. I thought you were a genius, and you could get a high score without studying. It seems that your grades are not for nothing. Team Leader Lin, you worked so hard." Gu Chaoming said with a smile.

"No, I'm not a genius," Lin Jianfan said slowly, "This is a note for you to organize."

It was obviously for Gu Chaoming to sort out the notes, but now that the person involved is in front of him, Lin Jianfan covered the notes he wrote with his hands in embarrassment.

"Ah? For me?" Gu Chaoming asked in surprise, "Why do you help me organize my notes again? Didn't you give me a knowledge manual last time? Are you going to organize every subject for me?"

"No." Lin Jianfan shook his head, "Didn't you say that you have determined the goals of the midterm exam? I just want to help you organize your notes. It will be more convenient for you to study like this."

Lin Jianfan's words blocked Gu Chaoming's speech. In the morning, he doubted Lin Jianfan's affirmation of himself. Now Lin Jianfan is sorting out his notes. Gu Chaoming doesn't know whether Lin Jianfan is really helpful or just a flattery from his classmates. .

"Thank you then." Gu Chaoming said.

"It's okay." Lin Jianfan raised his head with a smiling face.

"Don't delay your own study by organizing my notes." Gu Chaoming said.

Lin Jianfan smiled and said, "No."

I just wanted to come and see what Lin Jianfan was writing alone. Cen Xili was still waiting for him to bask in the sun in the corridor outside. Gu Chaoming pointed to the back door of the classroom and said to Lin Jianfan: "Then I'll go to bask in the sun first. Don't want to be together?"

Hearing Gu Chaoming's invitation, Lin Jianfan blinked his eyes, his eyelashes fluttering quickly, and after a few seconds Lin Jianfan nodded: "Okay."

The corridor is full of sunlight, and the corridor is full of greenery.

Gu Chaoming walked in front, and Lin Jianfan followed Gu Chaoming, walking to Cen Xili and Su Bing one after the other.

"Gu Shuai is here," Su Bing said after seeing Gu Chaoming approaching, "It's been a long time since you've been working on this topic."

"Not only did I do the questions, I also brought a handsome guy here." Gu Chaoming said with a smile.

Cen Xili and Su Bing raised their eyes and saw Lin Jianfan following behind Gu Chaoming.

Seeing that Fan Gang wanted to deny it by saying "I'm not", a voice came from the other end of the corridor.

This voice attracted the attention of Gu Chaoming and Su Bing.The faces of Gu Chaoming and Su Bing were neither curiosity nor admiration, but the disgust and anger they had when they saw the tall man in physical education class yesterday.

Lin Jianfan looked towards the person who made the sound, the tall man who passed by the window yesterday was also there, walking behind the person who made the sound that Gu Chaoming and Su Bing hated.

Lin Jianfan didn't know about the grievances between them, but the tone of that person's speech was unpleasant to anyone who didn't know what happened.

The man's voice was very loud. The people in the corridor who were sunbathing were just talking normally, so they couldn't disturb each other. When he spoke, the people who were sunbathing in the corridor were disturbed.

"You Xin, I heard that you reported [-], why didn't you report [-], didn't you say you still have [-]?" Chen Haiyang still spoke in an artificial tone.

Although You Xin is his opposite, but hearing what Chen Haiyang said, Gu Chaoming couldn't help but say a word for You Xin.

"Whether others report or not report your shit, you have the ability to report it yourself, you're fooling around all day long."

When Chen Haiyang passed by, he pretended to only see Cen Xili and the others, and deliberately said to Cen Xili, "Does Xili want to deliver water? Anyway, You Xin is the number one, so you can go in the same class, because you used to be classmates."

Obviously, the foreshadowing in front is to satirize Cen Xili at the end.

Lin Jianfan could hear the provocative and ironic meaning in it, whether in tone or words, Chen Haiyang secretly carried guns with guns.

Lin saw Fan looking at Cen Xili, who was indifferent and slightly sullen.

Lin saw that Fan was like an audience, looking at Cen Xili and then at the silent You Xin.You Xin has an extraordinary height. Lin Jianfan heard that the person who took the lead in provocation called his name, so he knew that his name was You Xin.

You Xin looked down at Cen Xili, who was the shortest in the crowd and who had just been provoked by that person.

One tall and one short, the two looked at each other again. As an outsider who didn't know what was going on, Lin Jianfan looked at each other and didn't know what was conveyed in their eyes.

The "two major protectors" standing on both sides of Cen Xili - Gu Chaoming and Su Bing couldn't stand it.

Seeing Cen Xili catch You Xin's "edict eyes" again, Su Bing and Gu Chaoming were ready to go out, Cen Xili held their arms again, reminding them not to be impulsive.

Seeing Fan watching the battle, Lin's eyes shifted from You Xin's face to Cen Xili's hand holding Gu Chaoming.

Cen Xili took Gu Chaoming and Su Bing's hands and quickly let go, and said calmly to Chen Haiyang who was provoking him: "I'm sorry, I won't deliver water. We used to be classmates, but there are people in our class now. I There is no way to deliver water to people in other classes.”

Hearing Cen Xili's words, several people present were stunned. You Xin's eyes fell on Cen Xili for a long time, and he never moved away.

Chen Haiyang was speechless for a while, Su Bing and Gu Chaoming were shocked, and Cen Xili, who had always been patient before, fought back!Cen Xili, who was holding him back just now, actually fought back!Su Bing couldn't believe it, and looked at Cen Xili in shock.

Taking advantage of Cen Xili's retaliation, Su Bing grabbed Cen Xili's shoulders and protested to You Xin and Chen Haiyang: "How is it? Your squad leader will bring water to You Sanjin alone? And come to beg us, Xili, to bring him water?" If you speak human words well, maybe we Xili will be merciful and send you a bottle of water to You Sanjin, and it will be regarded as charity."

Talking about the pain in his waist, the pain caused Su Bing to raise his eyebrows, Cen Xili pinched Su Bing's waist to remind him not to speak so exaggeratedly.

Gu Chaoming, who was not pinched, laughed aside.

Chen Haiyang had provoked Cen Xili so many times, and it was the first time that Cen Xili responded. After being shocked, he became furious and thought about how to fight back.

As soon as he opened his mouth, his mouth was covered by the outstretched palm behind him.

"Stop talking." You Xin covered Chen Haiyang's mouth, which wanted to reply to Cen Xili, and dragged Chen Haiyang to his class.

Chen Haiyang was dragged away, and Su Bing gave the middle finger to the two who had gone away.

You Xin dragged the annoying Chen Haiyang away, Su Bing and Gu Chaoming changed their faces in an instant, and they surrounded Cen Xili: "Okay, Xili, what you said just now was really enjoyable."

"Are you enlightened today? Xi Li, I thought you were going to endure fur seals again." Gu Chaoming said.

Lin Jianfan couldn't understand the nicknames and abbreviations between them, so he just watched from the side.The last time I asked about what happened between Cen Xili and You Xin, Gu Chaoming asked him to read the question, but Lin Jianfan didn't ask any more.

"If you hadn't pinched me, I would have scolded more." Su Bing said.

The people around were quiet and didn't say a word. Compared with the lively discussion between the three of them, they seemed out of place.Gu Chaoming turned his head to look at Lin Jianfan who was quiet beside him, Lin Jianfan smiled at him formulaically, and Gu Chaoming smiled back.

Tell him to come out to bask in the sun by yourself, and you can't neglect others when you are excited.

Thinking about saying something to bring Lin Jianfan into the topic, so that he would not feel like he was isolated by himself.Just when he wanted to talk to Lin Jianfan, Su Bing patted him on the shoulder and said, "Gu Shuai, you are the fastest runner among the three of us, please cheer us up."

Gu Chaoming didn't have time to talk to Lin Jianfan, so he asked Su Bing suspiciously: "Why am I the fastest?"

"You said it yourself, did you have to run long-distance running in junior high school and tied for the first place?" Su Bing asked.

Gu Chaoming nodded: "There is such a thing, why?"

Su Bing beckoned to Gu Chaoming mysteriously, telling him to come over.Gu Chaoming walked over, and Su Bing came to Gu Chaoming's ear and whispered to Gu Chaoming.

Lin Jianfan didn't know what Su Bing said to Gu Chaoming, so he only heard Gu Chaoming say, "Why don't you run away?"

Su Bing said, "I have old arms and legs."

"Your legs have grown white." Gu Chaoming said.

Cen Xili knew that the two of them must be secretly making some plan to punish You Xin and Chen Haiyang, so he asked them, "What are you doing?"

"We are going to participate in the sports meeting." Su Bingsong said to Cen Xili as he let go of Gu Chaoming.

"Sports meeting?"

"That's right, it's one thousand and five thousand. Gu Shuai's junior high school run is still three thousand. If it's less than half, he will definitely win." Su Bing began to show off.

"Su Xiaoma was lazy and let me do it." Gu Chaoming walked back to Lin Jianfan and complained.

"Don't mess around." Cen Xili said worriedly.

Su Bing hugged Cen Xili's shoulders: "Don't worry, we just tortured them, let them see how good Gu Shuai is, and see if Chen Haiyang dares to casually say that You Sanjin is number one."

Young people are wayward and competitive. If you say you are the first, I will definitely grab your first place and show you.

Gu Chaoming turned his head to look at Lin Jianfan who was completely acting as the background board beside him, who was silent and unable to get in the way.

Su Bing didn't quarrel with him, Gu Chaoming was finally able to talk to Lin Jianfan.

Gu Chaoming grinned and asked Lin Jianfan: "This year you were in charge of taking pictures, and last year it was You Xin. The one who just walked over was taller, you know?"

Seeing Fan nodded, Lin Jian replied seriously: "I don't know him, I only know his name."

"It's better not to know each other," Gu Chaoming said, "You're a hypocrite."

"Forget it, let's not talk about him," Gu Chaoming shook off the expression of disdain for You Xin on his face, still smiling just now, and said to Lin Jianfan: "I ran for a thousand and five, you must take pictures of me, and you must take pictures of me. Come on, do you hear me?"

Hearing Gu Chaoming's request, Lin Jianfan opened his mouth slightly, looking flattered.

"You want to make me look handsome." Gu Chaoming said with a smile.

Lin saw Fan looking at the smile on the corner of Gu Chaoming's mouth, Gu Chaoming's smile was so bright, he probably wouldn't notice if a smile was stolen from the corner of his mouth.

Seeing that the corners of Fan's mouth curled up, Lin nodded and said, "Okay."

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-01-3000:44:40~2020-01-3013:02:43期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 4 bottles of Yixi;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!