the world in which he exists

The sweltering heat wave that filled the whole summer and spread to early autumn finally slowly withdrew from the battlefield, and the weather continued in an unsettled state.It was sunny for several days. When people thought that the temperature in this autumn would also be very high, the temperature changed from a slow drop to a cliff-like drop, jumped to the bottom of the cliff and rebounded back to high temperature. After a few days, it slowly returned to calm.

The temperature on the weather forecast was bouncing around, and the temperature gap was too large. Many people in the class caught colds due to improper dressing, and the class was always accompanied by the sound of coughing and blowing their noses.

The teacher said a few words, followed by a cough or two.Every time Lao Chen changed the seasons to cool down, he would remind the students to pay attention to dressing and not to catch a cold. He reminded that there are still so many people catching colds every year.

The hot summer sun has passed, and the school's running activities between classes have begun.Lao Chen himself felt a little uncomfortable after finishing the exercises during the big class break, so he immediately got some boiling water in the office.

Gu Chaoming came down during this year's flu wave.Because he is often alone at home, it has become his habit to read the weather forecast every morning, dress according to the weather, and rarely catch a cold.

After running and exercising, a dark group of people went upstairs together, and the light and shadow on the bright stairs were caught in the crowd.There was a lot of noise on the stairs, all kinds of sounds of going upstairs, talking, and running exercises played on the radio mixed together.

"Autumn is good, just run." Su Bing said after getting rid of the crowd and walking into the corridor.

"If it wasn't too hot this year, we should have started running and exercising a long time ago." Gu Chaoming looked downstairs, and there were still many students who hadn't gone upstairs.

Stepping out in the corridor, eyes and attention stopped downstairs, did not pay attention to the road ahead, unintentionally kicked a piece of soft and light thing under his feet.

"Hey, Gu Shuai, look at the road when you walk, don't look at the downstairs, you kicked everything away."

After Su Bing said this, Gu Chaoming looked away from downstairs, only to see Su Bing walking over to pick up the tissue that he kicked away on the ground, patted Lin Jianfan in front and handed it back to him.

Lin Jianfan was not able to adapt to the ups and downs of the weather, he was hit by a cold wave, and he was one of the army who coughed and blew his nose every day.Gu Chaoming once watched him take medicine after meals, red and yellow pills together.

Su Bing returned the tissue he picked up to Lin Jianfan, and Lin Jianfan said "thank you" as usual.

"It's okay." Su Bing said.

Lin Jianfan and Li Zhao walked into the classroom, watching Lin Jianfan's back turning and disappearing at the front door of the classroom.

He came to school the next day after being drunk, Lin Jianfan returned to his usual serious appearance after waking up, and was still thinking about the cost of supper last night.It seemed that he didn't remember what happened after he was drunk yesterday, and he came over and said that he wanted to pay back the money they had for supper yesterday.

At that time, Gu Chaoming was asking Cen Xili a question, when he heard that Lin saw Fan coming and wanted to pay back the money, Gu Chaoming put down his pen and said to him: "I invited you last night, so you don't need to pay it back, it's your thank you for helping me with my tutoring. I told you when I called."

"You only asked me to go, and didn't say you would invite me, so I'd better give you the money." Lin Jianfan said.

Gu Chaoming couldn't help rubbing his forehead, Lin Jianfan was so stubborn after so long, he hasn't changed at all, it doesn't make sense.

"I've said it all, please, that's it, don't give it away." After speaking, Gu Chaoming remembered another thing, "Oh, and if you can't drink, don't drink it. If you insist on drinking, don't drink so much."

Seeing what Gu Chaoming said, Lin Fan blinked uneasily, as if recalling what he did last night.

Lin Jianfan asked cautiously and softly, "I, what did I do after I got drunk yesterday?"

Gu Chaoming sat on his seat and raised his eyes to look at Lin Jianfan who was eager to know if he did something embarrassing yesterday.

"You don't remember?" Gu Chaoming asked.

Lin Jian Fan shook his head.

Gu Chaoming laughed: "You have done so many things, but you don't remember any of them?"

Lin Jianfan's pupils widened slightly: "What did I do last night?"

Seeing Lin Fan Zhengjing's appearance, Gu Chaoming smirked and said, "You don't know that you did a lot of weird things yesterday."

"I drank it on the spot in the store, and I can drink this little wine. I admire it, and then we won't let you drink it again, so you just treat the water as wine and keep drinking it, keep drinking it."

Speaking of this, although Gu Chaoming is a bit exaggerated, most of it is true, and what he said later is pure nonsense to tease the serious Lin Jianfan.

"What's even more funny is that after you left the store, you hugged the tree on the side of the road and started shouting, Xiaolu, why are you so thin? You are as thin as a bamboo pole. You also said that you want to fall in love with Xiaolu, and you will be with him for the rest of your life. We couldn't pull her apart when she was together, and you almost ruined the official business and pulled up the tree." Gu Chaoming said and cooperated with the tree-hugging movement.

Lin saw Fan's face getting worse the more he listened to it, Gu Chaoming continued: "It's not over yet, I finally dragged you into the car, but you still refused to get in, and refused to close the door, saying that you would take Xiaolu back , we wondered who this little green is, and then you vomited on the side of the road."

Gu Chaoming couldn't hold back his laughter, and wanted to continue. Cen Xili saw that Lin Jianfan really believed what Gu Chaoming said, and Lin Jianfan would definitely shut himself off after talking about it.

Cen Xili stopped Gu Chaoming, and said to Lin Jianfan, "Don't believe him, he just made up and lied to you."

Gu Chaoming couldn't hold back his laughter, and finally stopped: "Don't believe it, don't believe it, it's all a lie to you."

"Really?" Lin Jianfan was fooled by them.

"Really, if you don't believe me, ask Su Bing, Su Bing also knows." Gu Chaoming dug another hole for Lin Jianfan.

Su Bingcen and Xili still don't understand?Lin saw Fan and asked him, Su Bing could make up more, singing on the road, crying on the road, staying on the ground, everything can be made up for you.Let Su Bing say that Su Bing can talk about a book called "Lin Jianfan's Drunk Records".

Cen Xili shook his head, telling Lin Jianfan not to believe: "Su Bing is the same as him, both of them lied to you, you didn't do anything yesterday, Gu Shuai sent you back."

Gu Chaoming nodded: "Well, I sent you back, and you were still singing on the way, singing about the river flowing eastward, and the stars in the sky looking up at the Big Dipper..."

The more Gu Chaoming teased Lin Jianfan, the more he worked hard, and this time it was Cen Xili who supported his forehead.

Gu Chaoming said Lin Jianfan vomited, sang, and pulled trees after being drunk, and Lin Jianfan, who was sober, went back to the original topic, and still wanted to return the supper money to Gu Chaoming.

Returning to the topic of repaying the money, Gu Chaoming wanted to sigh: "Don't be so stubborn? I told you that you don't need to give it to me. If you want to give it to me, I won't accept anything below a million, and I won't accept snacks either. Band-aids are also not accepted.”

Seeing that Fan stayed where he was, Lin saw that he had been unable to speak when talking to Gu Chaoming.Seeing that Fan had nothing to say, Lin could only rely on his stubbornness to insist on paying back Gu Chaoming's money.

Gu Chaoming had no choice but to ask Lin Jianfan, "Which one do you think is more real, the owner of the supper shop is free for convulsions or the supper shop just opened yesterday for free?"

To the sudden question, Lin Jianfan answered obediently: "Open."

"Okay, the owner of the supper shop just opened yesterday for free." Gu Chaoming said.

Lin Jianfan: "..."

Gu Chaoming stood up and pushed Lin Jianfan back to his seat: "So don't give it to me, it's better to give me a few more questions in the future if you give me the money."

It's not funny to tease people who are too sensitive. Gu Chaoming just likes to tease dull and serious people like Lin Jianfan, although Lin Jianfan is really difficult to deal with when he is stubborn.

Until today, Gu Chaoming felt that Lin Jianfan might not have figured out what he was like the day he was drunk.

Watching Lin Jianfan and Li Zhao walk into the classroom, Gu Chaoming asked Su Bing and Cen Xili: "Is today's physical education class not occupied?"

"I don't know." Su Bing said.

Cen Xili shook his head: "No, the poodle said that she has something to do and she can't go to school, so she will go to physical education class as usual."

"If we don't have English class, why don't we go down to play?" Su Bing said.

Gu Chaoming refused: "I won't go, I have to review in the classroom, the mid-term exam is coming soon."

"There will be a sports meeting this semester, and the sports meeting hasn't even started yet. Why are you in a hurry for the midterm exam?"

Since Gu Chaoming scored [-] points in the test, Gu Chaoming worked harder, did not play ball in physical education class, shortened time for eating, and did not smoke after class, saving some time for studying.

After several days like this, Su Bingguang felt tired looking at it, and seemed to see the shadow of Cen Xili before.

"You and Xili are really at the same table. They both study the same way. You can't do without entertainment if you study." Su Bing said.

"Just wait for the mid-term exam to pass, and the results will come slowly in the future."

Su Bing's persuasion was ineffective, and Gu Chaoming still didn't go to play in the physical education class, but stayed in the classroom to study in the name of catching a cold.

During the high incidence of colds, several students in the class stayed in the classroom, most of them were unwilling to run, and Lin Jianfan was persuaded by Gu Chaoming to stay.

After lunch, Gu Chaoming recalled Su Bing's words, and felt that he could not improve his grades quickly by studying alone, so after returning to the classroom, Gu Chaoming asked Lin Jianfan if he could help him with a surprise tutoring in physical education.

"Yes, but you also need to attend physical education class." Lin Jianfan said.

Gu Chaoming waved his hand: "It's okay, leave it to me, I'll ask the PE class representative to ask for leave."

Gu Chaoming helped Lin Jianfan ask for leave. After class, the students who were going to take physical education went downstairs to the playground one after another. Gu Chaoming sat in his seat and did his homework.

The black 0.5 fountain pen made the last stroke on the draft paper, and Gu Chaoming turned over the materials to check the answer.

The answer was right, Gu Chaoming didn't move on the surface, but happily marked himself with a red pen in his heart.

The class was empty, and Cen Xili beside him also sat unshakably in his seat doing homework.

"Aren't you going to go to PE class?" Gu Chaoming asked.

Before Cen Xili answered, Su Bing's voice came: "We have asked for leave."

Gu Chaoming turned his head when he heard the sound, Su Bing came over with a textbook and a pen, and a plastic bag in the other hand.

"Why are you taking leave?" Gu Chaoming asked.

"Study, just like you." Su Bing pulled away the chair at the front desk of Gu Chaoming and sat down.

"You? Study? Don't you want to play ball?"

"I don't want to fight anymore, you have already studied, it's boring to fight." Su Bing lifted the plastic bag to Gu Chaoming's desk.

"There are four of us here, plus a few over there. If so many people ask for leave, the physical education teacher will get angry." Gu Chaoming said.

"Four?" Su Bing asked, "Who else is there besides the three of us?"

Gu Chaoming raised his chin in Lin Jianfan's direction: "Our team leader is also my tutor, Lin Jianfan."

Gu Chaoming called Lin Jianfan's name, Lin Jianfan turned his head, Gu Chaoming beckoned him over: "Come here."

Su Bing leaned on the back of the chair and saw Lin Jianfan who turned his head, and waved to him: "Come here quickly, we need help."

Lin Jianfan packed up the things to be used, and walked over quickly holding the textbook.One second Su Bing was helping Gu Chaoming to call Lin Jianfan over, and the next second he was expelled by Gu Chaoming.

Lin Jianfan walked over with something in his arms, Gu Chaoming shook his hands and patted Su Bing: "Sit over here, this is for Lin Jianfan."

A question mark appeared on Su Bing's face: "Why, you value sex over friends? Gu Shuai didn't expect you to be such a person."

Gu Chaoming was speechless: "I didn't expect you to be such a stupid person. Lin Jianfan taught me to sit opposite me of course. You are full of messy thoughts every day."

"You didn't say it earlier." Su Bing moved the plastic bag he brought to the position opposite Cen Xili, and greeted Cen Xili: "Hi, Xili Xueba, here I come."

Lin Jianfan came over and stood by Gu Chaoming's table. Seeing that Lin Jianfan was still standing there, Gu Chaoming pointed to the seat opposite him: "Why don't you sit down?"

Gu Chaoming got up and took the book in Lin Jianfan's hand, and put it on his desk. Lin Jianfan was sometimes numb, so he asked him to move.

When Lin saw Fan sitting down, Gu Chaoming opened the book and wanted to ask him a question. Su Bing, who was diagonally opposite, opened the plastic bag he brought. The plastic bag made a sound, and in the next second there were many snacks on the table.

Gu Chaoming looked at the table of snacks buried in homework, and asked Su Bing, "Are you here for a tea party or to study?"

"I can't use optics, I have to learn while replenishing my energy," Su Bing rummaged through a pile of snacks on the table, "I even bought a Snickers bar, I'm hungry, let me have one."

Cen Xili looked at Gu Chaoming apologetically: "...I'm sorry, Gu Shuai, I should drag him down to PE class."

With Su Bing as a living treasure, this section of physical education class that is going to be studied seriously will definitely not be peaceful.

Su Bing smiled and took the snacks on the table and handed them to Lin Jianfan: "Here for you, take whatever you want, don't be shy."

Su Bing knew that Lin Jianfan was not very active in these matters. If he didn't tell Lin Jianfan, he might not reach out for a class.

"You are really more and more like the elders of those relatives," Cen Xili said to Su Bing, "Those elders are like this, you are welcome, come and eat, don't be shy, eat more."

Su Bingsai gave Lin Jianfan the snacks, but Lin Jianfan didn't open them immediately, but took the snacks and looked at Gu Chaoming first, as if asking Gu Chaoming whether he should eat it or not.

Gu Chaoming laughed when he heard what Cen Xili said, and caught Lin Jianfan's eyes asking for help from the corner of his eye.

Lin Jianfan's eyes were a puzzle that Gu Chaoming couldn't understand. Gu Chaoming didn't know if he interpreted it correctly this time, so he smiled and nodded at Lin Jianfan.

The people passing by outside the window made Gu Chaoming stop verifying whether his interpretation of Lin Jianfan's eyes was correct.

The sunlight outside the window is soft and no longer harsh, Cen Xili seems to have installed a radar, You Xin walked outside the window under the bright sunlight, Cen Xili sensed You Xin's presence, raised his head, and met You Xin who was walking alone outside the window.

You Xin turned his head outside the window to look into the classroom. He was the only one without Chen Haiyang by his side. It was obviously much quieter, and the power of You Xin's eyes also decreased a lot.

The two looked at each other, the person outside the window tilted his head to look into the window, and the person inside the window looked up and out of the window.

It suddenly broke into his world again, and he was defenseless.

Cen Xili was looking at You Xin who was passing by outside the window when his face was suddenly held by a pair of big hands.

Cen Xili was stunned, his eyes widened, Su Bing squeezed his face with his hand, and said with a smile: "Look at the question!"

Su Bing pinched Cen Xili's face, turned his head to show off to You Xin outside the window, and saw the disgusted expression on You Xin's face as expected.

Su Bing gritted his teeth and scolded him with his mouth: "You Sanjin."

You Xin endured the scolding with a disgusted expression, and left quickly without wanting to cause trouble.

Seeing You Xin leaving angrily, Su Bing seemed to have won the battle and wanted to pinch Cen Xili's face, but Cen Xili avoided him.

Lin Jianfan didn't know the reason, and he hadn't started studying yet. Looking at Su Bing and the tall man he didn't know outside the window, they seemed to have enmity.

Lin Jianfan asked Gu Chaoming softly: "What happened to them?"

Gu Chaoming said to Lin Jianfan: "Look at the question, don't talk."

After You Xin left, the four of them really started reviewing.Gu Chaoming said to Su Bing in advance: "If you want to play with your mobile phone, go back to your seat and play."

In one class, Su Bing was bored. He read books, ate, listened to their lectures, and did English, which he was good at.

After one class of study was over, the bell rang for the end of get out of class, Su Bing stretched his waist, and the two next to him were still talking about the topic.

After the classmates assembled and returned to the classroom, Gu Chaoming came back from the front desk, Lin Jianfan could only pack his things.

Before leaving after finishing the lecture, Lin Jianfan asked, "How much do you think you can score in this midterm exam?"

"I don't know." Gu Chaoming cleaned up the snacks on the table.

Gu Chaoming didn’t know what to do, he only scored [-] points last time, even though it was only one subject, it was just a test, maybe he was better at other subjects, maybe the test papers weren’t suitable for him, but Gu Chaoming was always concerned about his scores. No bottom.

When Lin Jianfan heard Gu Chaoming's answer, he held the book and did not return to his seat. When Gu Chaoming came back after throwing out the trash, Lin Jianfan said to Gu Chaoming: "It is not feasible to study blindly. You must have a goal."

"You should know what you are trying to do."

Gu Chaoming also planned to do the wrong topic again, but when Lin saw Fan uttering this sentence, Gu Chaoming stopped the pen in his hand.

Lin saw Fan holding the book and walking back to his place, but Gu Chaoming didn't write a single word on the draft paper.

What are you trying to do?What are you working on?

Lin Jianfan's words made Gu Chaoming ponder, what was the reason for his efforts since that night?

Is it to impress that man?Is it because of this?what about now?

Gu Chaoming has not been able to find the answer. When he first started studying, he thought that his grades should make the man who he met only once and who might live together in the future happy, so as not to embarrass his mother, and not let the little girl compare himself.

There were setbacks in his studies, and the [-]-point test paper, Gu Chaoming realized that he still had a lot to learn, and he could go a long way on this road, so he said to Su Bing, "Take your time after the mid-term."

Take your time, Lin saw the three words Fan said to him.

So who are you working hard for?What is it for?Is it to please that man?In order not to embarrass his mother?

Or for your future self?

Gu Chaoming went home with this question absent-mindedly.

After returning home, he found that Gu Tao was at home today. Gu Chaoming's thoughts all the way were disturbed by Gu Tao who opened the door and slept on the sofa.

Gu Tao activated his magical skills again, Gu Chaoming closed the door, Gu Tao moved his body and got up from the sofa: "Cook early today, and pour me a glass of water."

With Gu Tao's peaceful order, Gu Chaoming's heart was blocked by Lin Jianfan's words, and he didn't want to talk to Gu Tao or talk to him.

Gu Chaoming put down his schoolbag, took a cup to pour Gu Tao a glass of water, bypassed Gu Tao's hand to hold the cup, and put the cup directly on the coffee table in front of the sofa.

From Gu Tao's expression, Gu Chaoming could see that Gu Tao was a little sullen because he passed him. Gu Chaoming was unhappy, and he didn't want to quarrel with him.

Gu Chaoming learned to be smart and didn't confront him, so he endured and went to the kitchen to cook.

While cooking quietly and picking leaves, Gu Chaoming was still thinking about Lin Jianfan's words.

Maybe Lin Jianfan just said something inadvertently, maybe Lin Jianfan just wanted to motivate himself.

With something on his mind, the kitchen knife cut by his hand, and the fingers pressing the vegetable leaves brushed against the cold knife surface. Gu Chaoming was startled, and his back was covered with cold sweat.

After eating, Gu Chaoming put away the bowls and chopsticks and walked into the room to study without saying a word.Gu Tao held the bowl and chopsticks and looked back at the closed door, wondering how quiet Gu Chaoming was today.

After eating, Gu Tao walked into the room smoking a cigarette. Gu Chaoming deliberately did not lock it, because he knew that once it was locked, Gu Tao would definitely kick the door and curse people.

Gu Tao walked to Gu Chaoming's table and looked at his pile of books: "You are still studying, what's the matter, want to go to university?"

Gu Chaoming's silence is golden, ignore him, don't mess with him, he just wants to study hard and quietly.

Gu Chaoming's refusal to speak does not prevent Gu Tao from continuing: "I thought you wanted to go out to work, and it would be good to go to college, so you can make money in the future, and our family can also produce a college student."

Gu Chaoming still ignored him, Gu Tao frowned, he couldn't stand others not talking and ignoring him.He was still laughing just now, but now he lost his temper and kicked the stool. Gu Chaoming was on guard against Gu Tao who entered the door, but he still couldn't stand Gu Tao's sudden kick. He threw his whole body forward and threw himself on the desk. A long line was drawn in the homework book.

After kicking, Gu Tao spat and cursed, "Mute."

Gu Chaoming endured desperately, did not have an attack, and just said: "Don't smoke in my room."

"Oh, it's too pretentious to study. I want to see how many points you can get in the test." Gu Tao picked up the review materials prepared by Gu Chaoming on the desk.

Gu Chaoming reflexively wanted to snatch it up and tell Gu Tao not to move, but he knew that responding to Gu Tao would only make Gu Tao more energetic.

Now that you have started to endure, you will continue to endure.

Gu Tao saw the densely packed notes on Gu Chaoming's materials, and squinted at him. In fact, he didn't know anything written on it, and he couldn't understand it, but it seemed that Gu Chaoming was really serious.

Gu Chaoming thought he would say something, but Gu Tao turned over a few times and walked out by himself.

Seeing his son working so hard, Gu Tao felt a little happy in his heart, and helped Gu Chaoming to the door like never before.

Gu Tao only saw Gu Chaoming's efforts, but did not see Gu Chaoming's clenched fist after he kicked.

It was a fist clenched only after enduring much anger.

The door that Gu Tao took for the first time was locked by Gu Chaoming.

Gu Chaoming clicked on the mobile webpage and searched for the entries of various universities. He had heard of them and those he hadn’t heard of. Through the associated words under each university, he searched for a new world one after another.

Just looking at the entry, looking at the words and pictures above, Gu Chaoming seemed to be able to imagine the beautiful life in that unknown palace.

He used to think that his future was an uncultivated wasteland, he had no future, all he had was sin.

But now he feels that his future is gradually becoming clearer. He sees the world after the mist, and his life has a little new hope. The weeds on the wasteland of the future are slowly being cleared.

Gu Chaoming figured it out, he wanted to understand who he was studying for and what he was studying for.

For myself, for myself not to become a person like Gu Tao, for my future self to study.