the world in which he exists

The cicadas were finally tired and willing to stop all afternoon, and the duet cicadas rested at an unknown time.Gu Chaoming, who was the only one who listened to them singing in class as their audience, didn't bother to pay attention to when they stopped singing, and didn't bother to think about why they could only live for one year.

Gu Chaoming was taken to the infirmary by Cen Xili, and left the classroom where the two cicadas could be heard singing.

"School is almost over, I don't know if there is anyone in the infirmary." Cen Xili said worriedly.

"If no one is there, am I dead?" Gu Chaoming was still in a poor mood.

Cen Xili looked at him speechlessly: "Gu Shuai, your mouth is really... I can't even say anything about you."

"Don't be so taboo, you won't really die if you say the word dead."

"...The more hurt you are, the less decent your words are. How can anyone curse themselves."

Gu Chaoming smiled while holding a bloody tissue. He just wanted to avoid Gu Tao's topic as much as possible, so he said something that he hadn't even thought about.

There is a clear dividing line between school and family in Gu Chaoming's mind.He didn't want to mention Gu Tao at school, and he didn't want to bring the darkness of his family to school, so when Su Bing and Cen Xili cared about him, he always avoided the important ones and changed the topic.

The fact that the wound was discovered has clearly crossed the line.

Gu Tao's influence on him was not limited to his body, talking about Gu Tao with others, and talking about having such a father would make him feel ashamed.

Fortunately, nothing came true, there was still a doctor in the infirmary, Gu Chaoming sat by the bed, and Cen Xili sat on the stool next to him.

After the doctor checked Gu Chaoming's wound and went to the back to prepare equipment, Cen Xili looked at the doctor's busy back and asked, "Doctor, his wound should be fine, right?"

The doctor came over with the prepared equipment: "The wound is not deep, and I can still deal with it. It's best to go to the hospital after treatment..."

After the doctor finished speaking, he began to treat the wound on Gu Chaoming's head. Cen Xili couldn't sit still, stood up and stared at the doctor's operation: "Doctor, will he leave a scar?"

"It depends," said the doctor.

Cen Xili felt pain while watching, but Gu Chaoming didn't even frown, as if he just came for an injection, and he couldn't tell whether his face was in pain or any other expression.

Gu Chaoming could bear it, no matter how painful the wound was, he would not make a sound.At noon, when I helped Lin Jianfan move the books, he still endured the pain in his shoulder. He didn't say a word, and he was still talking and laughing with Su Bing.

Gu Chaoming didn't say anything, and Cen Xili didn't forget that Gu Chaoming had a shoulder injury.

Cen Xili watched the doctor treat Gu Chaoming's wound, thought of the injury on Gu Chaoming's shoulder, and said to the doctor: "Doctor, he also has an injury on his shoulder, you can help him look at it later."

The doctor stood in front of Gu Chaoming, operating it skillfully with his hands, and when he heard Cen Xili's words, his eyes slid to Gu Chaoming's shoulder: "Finish the head first."

Seeing Gu Chaoming's scabbed lips while talking, he couldn't help but say: "Why are you so young that you are injured? It's not that you go out to fight, afraid that I will tell your teacher, lie I said a classmate made it accidentally."

Ordinary people would think of fighting when they saw Gu Chaoming's various injuries and Gu Chaoming's unruly face.

Cen Xili wanted to explain to the doctor, but he looked at Gu Chaoming, knowing that he didn't want to talk about it, so he didn't open his mouth.

When the doctor almost agreed that the two had fought and dared not go back to the classroom, Gu Chaoming smiled and said to the doctor: "No, I helped my classmates move the books, and I accidentally bumped into each other."

At this moment, there was a sound of footsteps outside the door of the infirmary. It was heard that the sound came from a trot.

The door of the infirmary opened, and the sun was pouring outside the door. Cen Xili and Gu Chaoming turned their heads to look out the door. The doctor raised his head holding the medical equipment.

A boy in a baggy school uniform stood outside the door holding the handle, the sunlight stuck behind him, and a long black shadow was drawn in front of him.

Against the light, the doctor helped Gu Chaoming treat the wound, lamenting how tall this guy is.

When the doctor was examining Gu Chaoming, Su Bing sent a message asking if they would like him to send a schoolbag. Cen Xili glanced at the time and replied "yes", thinking that it was Su Bing who came to deliver the schoolbag. You Xin stood at the end of the shadow.

You Xin held the doorknob and looked over, and saw Gu Chaoming who was sitting beside the bed where the doctor was treating his wound. There was also the paper towel that Gu Chaoming used to stop the bleeding when he came by the bed.

You Xin glanced at the wound on Gu Chaoming's forehead, then jumped to Cen Xili who was standing aside, after watching Cen Xili, he jumped back to the wound on Chaoming's forehead.

The doctor's hand was in front of him, You Xin couldn't see it, and his eyes stayed on Gu Chaoming's wound for a few more seconds.

Gu Chaoming didn't understand the meaning of You Xin's eyes jumping back and forth between him and Cen Xili.I heard that his opponent was injured, did you come here to take a look?

You Xin's eyes jumped back and forth between him and Cen Xili twice, and finally landed on Cen Xili's face, and then quickly looked away like this morning, sighing, Gu Chaoming's eyes were not the same as when he was talking and laughing with the doctor just now Feeling comfortable, he glared at You Xin who entered the door.

While helping Gu Chaoming treat the wound, the doctor asked You Xin: "What's uncomfortable?"

You Xin turned around and gently closed the door, Sunshine reluctantly blocked the door, and the sticky Sunshine on You Xin's body was also withdrawn, he walked over.

Out of a protective mentality, Gu Chaoming pulled Cen Xili's arm and brought him to his side, pulling Cen Xili who was standing in front of him to his side.

Cen Xili staggered and was pulled to the bedside by Gu Chaoming, and the distance between him and You Xin, who was walking over, increased.

Gu Chaoming made such a big move that the doctor said, "Don't move! The wound is being treated!"

Gu Chaoming pulled Cen Xili to his side before he was relieved, and the doctor asked You Xin who came over: "What's wrong?"

"Doctor, is there any medicine for stomachache?" You Xin asked.

The doctor glanced at him and asked, "Boy or girl?"

You Xin glanced at Cen Xili and Gu Chaoming again, and Cen Xili saw You Xin hesitated obviously before answering the doctor: "Girl."

No wonder You Xin hesitated, when You Xin said the word girl, the three big men in the infirmary immediately understood.

The doctor is not surprised either, he has seen a lot of little boys who help girls to get medicine.

The wound on Gu Chaoming's forehead was almost finished, the doctor asked You Xin to wait until Gu Chaoming finished, and then took You Xin to the medicine area to take out painkillers from the standing medicines for him.

Before taking the medicine and leaving, You Xin glanced at the two people beside the bed again, and Gu Chaoming glared at him nimbly again.

Being stared at again and again for nothing, You Xin seemed to have finally lost the composure and calmness that he had before. After receiving Gu Chaoming's eyes, You Xin looked at Cen Xili, opened the door of the infirmary, and returned his eyes unkindly. Glancing at them, he closed the door behind him.

Gu Chaoming didn't notice anything unusual, but when he saw You Xin's last look, he thought that this guy was also losing his temper. When they asked him that, this guy had never seen such a loser.

Gu Chaoming didn't understand, but Cen Xili knew that You Xin was trying to vent his anger.

Cen Xili knew that You Xin's upbringing was not so good, he didn't eat or sleep, he had to be respectful to his teachers, his classmates needed help, he had to study hard, and he couldn't even close the door too loudly.

Most people don't care about it, but You Xin will definitely turn around and hold the doorknob to close the door gently. This happens every time, even when locking the classroom door.

But this time You Xin didn't, he directly closed the door with his hands and turned away, Cen Xili knew he was angry.

Only Cen Xili could see the silent anger.

Gu Chaoming next to him didn't know, and after You Xin left, he cursed: "Fuck You Sanjin!"

The doctor listened to Gu Chaoming swearing and advised him: "Swearing at such a young age is not pleasant."

Not long after You Xin left, Lao Chen hurried over. When he opened the door, he saw Gu Chaoming sitting on the edge of the bed with an injured head. Lao Chen asked the doctor, "How is it?"

Knowing that Gu Chaoming was fine, Lao Chen finally let go of his heart.

"A hat can't make such a big hole, can it?" Lao Chen thought how much damage a hat could make after hearing what his classmates said about the situation at that time.Still bleeding?

The doctor said: "It's really not possible. It's because the previous injury was about to heal, but it finally opened again."

Lao Chen listened carefully to what the doctor said, sighed, and asked Gu Chaoming: "How did you get the previous wound?"

Gu Chaoming lied and said: "During the summer vacation, I accidentally knocked on my skateboard."

"Can you still skateboard?" Old Chen asked.

"It's just because I don't know how to play, so I knocked it down." Gu Chaoming lied one after another, he didn't want Lao Chen to know so much, and deliberately avoided it.

Old Chen didn't know which of Gu Chaoming's words was true and which was false. He didn't doubt Gu Chaoming's words, and said to Gu Chaoming: "I'll go to the hospital with you later, don't leave any sequelae."

Upon hearing this, Gu Chaoming quickly said, "No need, I'll go by myself. Teacher, don't you still have something to do?"

"Your forehead is hurt like this. What else can I do? The most important thing now is your injury. By the way, I have to call your parents."

Call Gu Tao and Qu Yingyi?This is not acceptable.

Qu Yingyi and Gu Tao had just divorced. One was lying in the hospital, and the other was waiting for him at home with a knife. It was impossible to call either one.

Gu Chaoming lied again: "My dad is away on a business trip and is not at home, and my mom is sick in the hospital, right, Xili."

Gu Chaoming patted Cen Xili beside him, and Cen Xili nodded in confusion.Cen Xili didn't know that Gu Chaoming's father was waiting for Gu Chaoming at home, and Gu Chaoming needed help, so Cen Xili nodded slowly.

"Then it's impossible not to tell them, at least call and inform."

"I'll tell them, teacher, if you call, my parents think I've done something wrong again."

Old Chen smiled: "You are still afraid of your mother and your father."

Lao Chen recalled Gu Chaoming's mother whom he met at the parent-teacher meeting, a gentle and virtuous woman who didn't look like she would be childish.

"I will tell him about this, and I will also go to the hospital. I can't let the teacher spend money on you." Gu Chaoming said.

"It doesn't matter whether you spend money or not, the main thing is your injury."

"My injury is fine, I don't want to go to the hospital with the head teacher."

Gu Chaoming and Lao Chen talked left and right, but they didn't agree to let Lao Chen take him to the hospital. Gu Chaoming didn't want Lao Chen to know about their family.

I will not go if persuasion eventually turns into cheating.

In the end, Gu Chaoming won the victory. Old Chen couldn't beat him and agreed not to accompany him, but told Gu Chaoming to go to the hospital, and he would see the hospital's list tomorrow.

Gu Chaoming nodded, and Lao Chen was willing to let him go.

Looking at his watch, it was getting late, Lao Chen sent Cen Xili who was staying with Gu Chaoming in the infirmary home.

When Cen Xili walked out of the infirmary, he saw Su Bing sneaking around beside the infirmary with his and Gu Chaoming's schoolbags on his back, eavesdropping like a thief.

"What are you doing?" Cen Xili walked up to Su Bing and asked in a low voice.

Su Bing had a schoolbag on one shoulder. When he saw Cen Xili coming out, he took off Cen Xili's schoolbag and handed it to him: "I've been here a long time ago. I didn't go in when I heard that Old Chen was inside."

Cen Xili put his schoolbag on his back and asked, "Did you mess with Old Chen again?"

Su Bing shook his head: "No, it's just that I still have a pack of cigarettes in my schoolbag. I'm afraid that old Chen Tie will be ruthless, so I took it out again."

"You were charged three packages in the morning, what do you still have?" Cen Xili said in surprise.

"There will always be, you go in and give Gu Shuai your schoolbag, don't talk about me."

"Don't talk about you?" Old Chen's voice floated from outside the infirmary door.

Deja vu scene, exactly the same voice.

In the morning, it was also Lao Chen who suddenly said something from behind, and then he successfully handed in the three packs of cigarettes in his pocket. This time, the cigarettes were put in his school bag, and Lao Chen would definitely not be able to see them, unless Lao Chen's nose is so sharp, through the school bag Can smell it.

Su Bing said quickly: "It's nothing, it's nothing, I'm here to deliver Gu Shuai's schoolbag."

The three of them had a good relationship, and Lao Chen knew that, so he looked at them more, and Lao Chen said, "Don't make it too late to go home."

After Lao Chen left, Su Bing and Cen Xili entered the infirmary.

"It's really you." Su Bing said while sitting by the bed.

The doctor has been listening to their conversation, sighing inwardly: "The children nowadays are really hard to manage."

Gu Chaoming picked up his phone to check the time, and then looked out the window.The sun is setting, and dusk is already wandering by the window.

After sitting for a few minutes, Su Bing's cell phone rang in his pocket.

Su Bing saw that it was his father: "Then I'll go first, or my father will beat me to death if I don't."

"Get out, get out," Gu Chaoming shook his hand at Su Bing, and then looked at Cen Xili beside him, "You go back too, it's so late, your mother will definitely talk about you again."

Cen Xili looked at Gu Chaoming: "Then you..."

"What else can I do, I'll take a rest." Gu Chaoming persuaded Cen Xili.

Cen Xili thought about it, and went home with Su Bing with his schoolbag on his back. Before leaving, he told Gu Chaoming: "Remember to go to the hospital."

Gu Chaoming said: "I will definitely go, I have to show Lao Chen the list tomorrow."

The two walked out of the infirmary in peace.

Gu Chaoming agreed to go to the hospital, but Gu Chaoming just responded casually, leaving the door of the infirmary and feeling that the injury on his head was okay, so he didn't plan to go to the hospital.

When I walked out of the infirmary, the setting sun had already slanted to the west, hanging lazily on the horizon.The setting sun transitions from golden to dark yellow, stretching along the sky.The dark yellow clouds struggled to emit streaks of golden light, transparent and fragile, floating above the clouds in a straight line.

Summer sunsets and sunsets are always so beautiful.The place where the sun sets struggles to emit golden light, and the place far away from the setting sun is dark without sunlight. It is a dark yellow ink painting with heavy water marks.The dark yellow sunset is like butter flowing from a bite of bread, flowing in the sky.

The sunset was brilliant, and Gu Chaoming was standing on the small lawn in front of the infirmary with his schoolbag on his back. The surrounding flower gardens were lush with greenery, and the hot temperature of the day remained.Gu Chaoming's whole body was illuminated by the dark yellow sunset, and he looked up at the brilliant sky.

He suddenly laughed, God was merciful, maybe he wanted to make him feel better, so he created the brilliant and beautiful sunset glow all over the sky.

The more brilliant the sunset, the more desolate Gu Zhaoming felt.

The sky is boundless, vast, full of territories of sunsets and sunsets, they can go wherever they want, and he is a man with nowhere to go.

There is no room for him anywhere.

Trying every means to drive away Lao Chen, let Su Bing and Cen Xili go home early, Gu Chaoming didn't hate Lao Chen to accompany him to the hospital, nor did he dislike being accompanied by others, but he was afraid that after going to the hospital, Lao Chen would ask him where his home was and send him off. go home.

The sky is vast and the earth is boundless, but he has nowhere to go. He doesn't know whether he should go home or not, and he doesn't know which direction his legs should go.

go to the hospital?Going to the hospital, Qu Yingyi will definitely let him go home in the end. There is no vacant bed in the ward, and he can't rest in the hospital, let alone have to study tomorrow.

The answers were negative one by one, and they all pointed in the same direction in the end-the home he didn't want to go back to.

Gu Chaoming's inner reluctance to walk with fear, Gu Chaoming is not sure, not sure what to face when he returns home.

He can be as free as the sunset, he can go wherever he wants, without restraint, but he doesn't have a home like the sunset.

He can't be like sunset, he can only go home.

In the past, his only home, his only home, now does not welcome him, and is also expelling him.

Abandoned, as if there is no reason to live in this world, the steps taken are light and light, stepping on the stone bricks of the school.

In the last class, Gu Chaoming once thought that maybe it would be better for him to die under Gu Tao's sharp knife.

In that way, all those who are willing and reluctant will be thrown away for him.

He doesn't need to bear the sins in his heart anymore, and he doesn't need to be a murderer in people's mouth.

But he was afraid, he never thought he could face death calmly, but he also longed for relief.

He fears death and desires death.

He is afraid of survival and yearns for survival.

Gu Chaoming is a contradictory body, fear of death, fear of life.

The world is not all darkness, there is still light in his life, they pull him.Gu Chaoming thought of Qu Yingyi, of Su Bing who was nagging old mothers, of careful Cen Xili, and even of Lao Chen who was driven away by him, he was reluctant to end his life hastily so early.

Gu Chaoming walked slowly. He looked down at the floor tiles on the ground, passed the small square made of floor tiles to form the school emblem, walked through a corridor, and wandered in the school.

The corridor is covered with green leaves, and there are long stone benches connecting the corridor for people to rest on both sides. Gu Chaoming sat on it for a while, hesitating whether to go home or not.

After school, the school is empty, and the boarding students are busy taking a shower and eating, so there is no leisure time to come here for a walk at this time.

There was no one around, Gu Chaoming turned on the phone, and there was a sound of footsteps behind him.

Gu Chaoming slowly turned his head when he heard the sound.

The man was standing at the statue of a celebrity behind the corridor, surrounded by flowers blooming, and he stood there quietly in a glow.