the world in which he exists

"Hey, bitch."

"I heard that he has sex with other men outside, and sometimes they don't charge money, as long as they are men."

"Bitch, get out of the way."

"Mom, do you owe. Fuck."

"Would he have a sexually transmitted disease after having sex with so many people?"

"Better stay away from him."

"I just accidentally touched him, it's disgusting."

His freshman year was full of ridicule, never-ending ridicule.

He didn't know when this ridicule started, and he didn't know how to end it.

Or it will never end, and only death can relieve it.

The color of the school has faded since the first year of high school, into a gray that can no longer lose its color. It is the color of silent films and the color of printed words on books.

He doesn't know when the ridicule started or what caused it, but he clearly remembers the first time it turned into bullying.

It was a sunny day not long after school started, and it was an art class.The art teacher is a laid-back person. During the sketching in school, he can walk around at will and choose a scene or still life. He doesn't care what happens in class, as long as the homework can be handed in after class and there are many people.

He remembered that it was in a corner, and two boys pretended to talk to him and took him to a corner where the teacher could not see.Along the way, pretending to sympathize with him was ridiculed and discussed by the class, and they changed into another face after arriving at the destination.

They tore up his drawing paper, threw away his sketch pens, and threw his drawing pads in the trash.

That was the first time he was bullied, and also the first time he was deceived.

He chose to tell the class teacher, but the class teacher was busy dealing with a fight between a classmate and another classmate in the class, and had no time to care about him.

After finishing the matter, the head teacher simply asked the two boys who bullied him.The two boys refused to admit it, and said that he framed them because it was uncomfortable to see them.

The first time he was bullied, he just let it go. The head teacher didn't blame anyone, and he didn't talk to him again.

The second bullying came quickly, within a day.

Because it was revenge, he sued in retaliation.

The second time was in the bathroom. They locked him in the women's room and bought women's underwear in advance.

They colluded with the girls who were good with them and pretended to go to the bathroom to find him, and took photos to spread the news that he had a habit of collecting women's underwear.

Since then, he has stepped on countless boats, been with men all day long, and rumors that he may have a venereal disease need to be added-a pervert with a collection of underwear.

A slutty gay man who has fucked tons of guys and likes to collect lingerie?It may sound a bit abrupt, but it doesn't matter, the mouths of everyone will help him plug this abrupt loophole.

"This also makes sense, maybe he was rejected by girls before, and then he became gay, but he feels resentful towards the girls who rejected him, so he likes to collect girls' underwear."

"You are right in saying that."

A red mouth and white teeth are the knife that kills without blood.

Rumors that he had been rejected by women and had a mental illness went viral because of the self-imaginings of the two people who heard the rumors.

He is a virus that walks in people's mouths. He has to buy mineral water every day, because someone from the faucet he used will say: "This faucet is Lin Jianfan's water. Don't use this faucet, be careful of infection!"

At the beginning, the two boys only wanted to take revenge on him. They didn't expect his debauchery and mental illness to spread so quickly. Maybe people always like to hear exciting stories.

He is constantly being added with characters such as loitering, mental illness, and collection of women's underwear.It's unbelievable that a 16-year-old boy's life journey in the first year of high school is so "rich" and "twists and turns".

Not long after, it was reported that he had a femme fatale, and a photo of women's clothing was passed on to everyone on the mobile phone.

He is good-looking, and his grandma has always said he is a handsome boy. The neighbors have always said, "Your little Fan is so cute."

Every time he visits relatives and friends, he is always the most favored one.The elders like him, think he is cute and always pinch his face and touch his head.Peers adore him, enjoy playing with him and sharing toys with him.

Until the age of 16, his life was the same as what his parents expected in his name—what he saw was a world full of flowers and flowers, but his life changed quietly when he entered high school at the age of 16.

He didn't know when the change started, he only knew that some classmates kept avoiding him, staying far away from him, and there was a long "slit" between his deskmate and his desk.

He learned from a "good-hearted classmate" that it was because he was so good-looking that someone bullied him because he stole the limelight from the gangsters in his class.

Some people also said that he provoked some students in his class by trying to be the class monitor when the school started, and they spread the rumors.

He also heard a saying that he robbed so-and-so's girlfriend in their class, which caused so many troubles.

But he hasn't been in a relationship for 16 years, and he has always been a good boy in the eyes of his grandmother. His grades are excellent, and he is in the top ten of the whole grade, but he didn't understand the meaning of the two words until high school.

Alone in public, forced to grow.

Before he even understood the reason for being bullied, he had tried many times to be alone in public.

Once when he was fetching hot water in a public area, someone pushed him from behind and burned his hands. When he saw the person fetching water next to him take a look, he quickly looked away.

In physical education class, he had to wear prescribed sneakers, and someone wrote two large characters in his shoes with a marker—bitch.Sometimes he also throws away his newly bought shoes, so that the physical education teacher will punish him for running because he has no shoes.

No one in the class made a sound and watched him run silently.

In physical education class, he had to sit alone. Someone hit him with a basketball, and no one helped him when he was hit on the ground. All of them were indifferent faces.

Even in the cold winter, the school's men's room was bustling with activity. A pair of frozen red hands were washed under the cold faucet, and they let him go until they couldn't bend their fingers.

It was also in that winter that he suffered from frostbite for the first time.

He also struggled, he also resisted, but what's the use?

He told the teacher, but the teacher can't help it. If you tell too much, the teacher still thinks you are annoying.

"Isn't it just because of a little fight between boys? You need to communicate more with your classmates, your temperament is too withdrawn."

He has been loved by his peers for 16 years. He was also sunny and cheerful, and his eccentricity was formed only here.

Later, the class teacher was annoyed and said directly: "Why do you have to say something, I am still very busy, if something really happened, why did they only bully you? And what about your clothes? It's not that you have to check today , do I have to wear a school uniform inside? Where's your school uniform?"

His school uniform was thrown out the window by them.

He knew that the teacher had also heard bad rumors about him, and with his quiet personality at school, he thought he had mental problems and always caused trouble.

He turned the distress signal to his parents. He didn't dare to tell his grandma, who had been with him all the time. Although grandma trusted him the most, he believed everything she said. He said that grandma would help him when he was bullied, but he was afraid that grandma would not be able to bear it.Grandma is getting old, and grandpa passed away a few years ago. She has only Guoguo to accompany her, and she is looking forward to waiting for him to come home on Saturday and Sunday every day, so that she can prepare delicious food for him.

His mother often handed him over to his grandmother to raise him when he was young because of work.In the third year of junior high, my mother felt that grandma was too old and it was not easy to take care of him. He has grown up and can go to boarding school, so that grandma doesn’t have to take care of him, and he can get closer to his classmates and learn to live by himself, but my mother will never It would never have occurred to her to send his son to hell with her own hands.

Maybe everything is destined, his score can be admitted to his favorite high school, but he still compromised with his mother and went to the current boarding high school.

He couldn't communicate with the teacher, so he began to tell his parents that he wanted to transfer to another school. His classmates bullied him, but his parents didn't understand. They called the head teacher, who also said that he was withdrawn and didn't want to associate with his classmates.After hanging up the head teacher's phone, the parents told him that it would be good to get used to the dormitory life.

The lights of hope are shattered one by one, like a very dark road, with no end in sight.

In three years, it becomes very long and long, and it lasts a lifetime.

It never ends.

Grandma is looking forward to waiting for him to go home on Saturday and Sunday, and he is also looking forward to seeing grandma on Saturday and Sunday.

Grandma will prepare his favorite meals for him to go home, and he can make up some interesting stories at school and tell grandma.

No matter when, whether eating or watching TV, Guoguo likes to stick to his feet.

Guoguo is a very old dog, and he walks slowly, but when he sees him back, he regains his youthful vigor. Every time he goes home and opens the door, he can get his tenth level of welcome. His heart of being excluded at school got a little solace.

Guoguo is the name given by grandma, and it is also the dog that grandma raised since childhood.It is said that it is because Guoguo is not picky about food. When Guoguo was young, grandpa and grandma argued whether it would eat a small fruit.He didn't know what that kind of fruit was called, so grandma told him in dialect.

Grandma guessed yes, but grandpa guessed no. As a result, grandpa lost, so grandma named it Guoguo.

Grandma raised him until he grew up. Guoguo should have liked grandma the most, but Guoguo liked him the most.When he was a child, he could ride on Guoguo’s back at his grandma’s house. He would sleep on the sofa with Guoguo and not be afraid of catching cold if his grandma scolded him. He would run away with Guoguo to play...

Now Guoguo can only wait for him to go home at the door, and accompany them to live an ordinary life under the dining table and sofa.

In the ordinary life, he and Guoguo have a new secret.He would whisper to Guoguo in the room.Guoguo is very obedient, if you hold it, it will not move, sticking out its tongue and looking at you.

He told Guoguo everything he couldn't tell others, all his unhappiness in school, and all his tears.

Whenever he cries, Guoguo will use its tongue to lick his tears, and will automatically lie in his arms and act like a baby, letting you look at it. If it doesn't work, it will anxiously circle around you.

Guoguo is a master at coaxing people, and can always make his tears stop.

Guoguo could understand what he said, he believed it, when he went home and closed the door, sitting on the bed, Guoguo would jump to its owner and listen to him.

He hugged Guoguo to confide, Guoguo was the object of his confidance and his spiritual support, which made him no longer think about the sudden darkness.

The light in front of me suddenly dimmed, like day invaded by night, like white tainted by black, like dazzling light suddenly covered with a heavy curtain, like a crying baby suddenly silenced when it sees a demon.

This Wednesday, he was locked in a locker.

The sudden darkness startled him, his breathing became short of breath, and his back was sweating.

He won't get used to the darkness because he's been locked in a cupboard so many times, he's afraid, and what he fears most is the darkness, because the darkness will consume him.

He kept knocking on the cabinet door, and the cabinet door was knocked loudly, and he heard people outside laughing.The more intense the reaction, the more they laughed.

They caught on to his fear of the dark.

He was not afraid before darkness.

They made him afraid of three things—darkness, loveliness, and the human heart.

The word cute was often praised by his elders when he was a child, but the word changed in high school because he was forced to wear women's clothing and was praised by a group of boys for being cute.

"Fuck, it's so fucking good looking."

"It's not that cute."

"Cute ha ha ha ha ha ha."

"Next time, get a set where the maid shows her breasts."

"Fuck, I'm getting hard."

"Brother, be careful of sexual diseases."

Thanks to the previous rumors about venereal disease, no one dared to touch him, and they didn't even dare to ask for the clothes they forced him to replace with women's clothes.

After changing his clothes, he came out of the toilet. It was pitch black outside, and the sky was dotted with stars. Everyone went back to the dormitory, only he was still in the teaching building.

He looked up at the night sky dotted with stars, his hair was still wet after washing, water droplets slipped down his neck and into his clothes.

No one is waiting for me in front, only loneliness is my company.

His studies are considered good, and he can be stable in the top ten. There was only one big fluctuation, and he almost fell out of the top [-]. The teacher asked him to talk, but he didn't listen to the teacher's advice and questioning. His head was empty and he looked at himself. The grade sheet thought nothing of it.

After being locked in a dark cabinet again, the mind that hadn't thought of anything thought of death.

The cabinet door opened, and he vomited all over the floor as soon as he stood up.

They still laugh without new tricks, never-ending ridicule.

When they left, he saw his torn test papers and his plummeting grades, so he ran to the rooftop.

The lock on the roof of the school was faulty, and he only found out when they took him to the roof to bully him.

This is not the first time he ran to the roof. He used to only dare to sit by the door and dare not go up, because he was afraid that he would do something stupid and jump down. But this time he ran to the edge of the roof. He wanted to complete what he hadn't done before. thing.

His life was bad enough, his grades plummeted, and the world didn't seem to want to keep him at all.

He stood on the edge of the roof and saw the people coming and going below. He imagined what it would be like to jump off?

The downstairs was noisy, but the rooftop was silent.

He looked downstairs and suddenly heard a dog barking—it was Guo Guo.

He even heard grandma saying, "Come back early."

When he turned his head happily, there was nothing.

The rooftop was still empty, but his heart was filled with other things.

He has no friends, his grades have plummeted, he can regard study as his friend, study can let him go to a better place, and let him escape here earlier.

He walked down the roof and thought while going down the stairs: "I haven't had yogurt today, how could I just die like this."

He began to study more and more, studying all day long, and his life seemed to be only study.

He has excellent grades since he was a child, but he is not the one who can always be the first.He has his own learning rhythm. He doesn't admire other people's way of walking and reading, eating and reading. In short, he likes to study with concentration. So when he gets the first place in the next exam, the teacher will be a little suspicious of him. Because I don't feel how hard he is trying.

It's just that unlike other students who squeezed time to review, the head teacher denied his efforts.

He knew that the head teacher had a problem with him.

On the day he got No.1, he decided to add a meal to himself, to comfort himself for his unacknowledged efforts.Some of his money was robbed, and some he hid.

In the afternoon, a large number of people poured into the cafeteria. There is a long and wide asphalt road between the teaching building and the cafeteria.Butterflies were flying among the flowers on the roadside, and two big trees were planted beside the long bulletin board. White flowers were densely packed on the branches, and the bent branches hung down to the bulletin board.

The wind blew, the branches swayed slightly, and the whole road leading to the cafeteria swayed with this smell.

The crowds on the road are like rushing rivers, all flocking to the vast sea of ​​the canteen.Lin saw that Fan was caught in the middle, among the turbulent and noisy crowd, he must be the quietest and most cautious one.

The school radio broadcasts English radio at noon.The breeze swirls and swirls, and the deep English accent of the radio station reads famous English sentences pretending to be deep.The crowd pretended that they would hit lunch early, and few people would listen carefully in the noise of the crowd, but he was their loyal listener.

Walking alone on this road every day, he will listen carefully, his steps are always slow, completely different from the rushing river, he is the drop of water in the river that does not want to move forward.

He listened carefully, with his ears turned sideways. Today, a boy changed to read aloud, and he was not used to it.

There are two or three in the crowd, but he is always alone. He talks with the fragrance of flowers in the air and the shaking branches. The radio he listens to every day is his only dialogue with people.

The voice over the radio was his only friend on this journey.

His one-sided friend.

He walked at the end of the crowd, looking indifferently at the rushing river.

Their laughter, conversation, fights, and even silence have nothing to do with him.

He is the isolated water drop, the isolated water drop in the raging river, all the river water melted into one ball, and only he was alone.

He thought that his drop of water would never be noticed by anyone and could only be bullied by others, but God let him know Zhu Shengquan.

Zhu Shengquan is a classmate in their class. He has always known that there is this person in his class, but he has never spoken to him.

He met Zhu Shengquan after school on Friday, in a dilapidated building waiting to be demolished.The building is dilapidated, the walls are covered with dust, and in some places there are words written in red paint.

They're still the same way - let him change into women's clothes.

It won't get boring, he thought as he took off his shirt.

They put so many personas on him, and they are both mentally ill and femme fatale. He thinks that they are the real perverts, and he likes to see his perverts in women's clothing.

Watch it once for novelty, the second time, the third time...

Those who want him to dress up as women are always those people, he scolded in his heart: "If you say that I have a mental illness and lack love in my heart, you have mental illnesses, and you like to see other people's mental illnesses in women's clothing."

He thought this time it was just the same "dress-up show" as in the past, and they would leave after being bullied, but when someone stepped forward and touched his shoulder, he was startled and backed away again and again.

"You fucking dare to touch it, you're not afraid of getting sick, just take a look and you'll get it, you'd better go home and settle it yourself." Someone advised him to touch him.

That man didn't give up, it was the first time he faced such a lustful person, he felt disgusted, so sick to his stomach.

"Such a person is worthy of sexually transmitted diseases." The man said with a smile.

A 16-year-old high school student said that.

He retreated again and again, but was grabbed by the man and threw him to the ground.There are four people on the other side, and the other three people don't participate, but that person...

He was so frightened that he fell and backed up to the wall, grabbing the wooden stick beside the wall to defend himself.

He curled up in fear, what was he facing?

He, a boy, is facing being raped by a male student in his class? !

He didn't dare to imagine, he thought that being bullied was already the upper limit, he never thought that he would have to sacrifice his body as a boy.

He desperately took the stick to defend himself, but the man kept approaching.

His hand holding the wooden stick was trembling, trembling constantly, he was afraid, he was just a teenager.

The classmate kept approaching, showing a greasy smile. He felt his stomach churning and wanted to vomit.

It doesn't matter what other people say about him, or how coquettish and cheap he is, anyway, he hasn't done it, so he doesn't feel wronged, but if he and that person today...

He was really forced to grow up again, mentally devastated.

The man approached step by step, when he thought it was hopeless, a sound of footsteps outside the building saved him.

There was a sound of leisurely footsteps.

The people who asked him to change into women's clothes were very timid, and they were scared away by the sound of footsteps.

He was curled up naked, with his back against the wall, and he saw a head sticking out of the building.

That person is Zhu Shengquan.

Zhu Shengquan walked in and saw that he was naked. He immediately turned his head away, picked up the dirty clothes on the ground and threw them to him, and then ran away like those who had just escaped.

Zhu Shengquan is a good man, he thought as he looked at Zhu Shengquan's back as he ran away.

Later, even if Zhu Shengquan didn't help him, he still thanked him.

Zhu Shengquan was not someone who would stand up to help him, perhaps because he was afraid of being bullied.When others bullied him, Zhu Shengquan, like those people, just stood by and didn't make a sound.

Zhu Shengquan only helped him once, and he never paid attention to him again, but he found that Zhu Shengquan looked at him differently than before. He didn't know why, he just felt that Zhu Shengquan was always looking at him.

He privately thought that it might be Zhu Shengquan's kindness, and he was also happy alone, thinking that he might make a good friend.

Zhu Shengquan wore black-rimmed glasses, with an upright appearance, which was very reassuring. He wanted to thank Zhu Shengquan for saving him that day, but he was afraid that people would see him, gossip about him, and implicate Zhu Shengquan.

He waited until it was Zhu Shengquan's birthday, and then he secretly tried his best to slip a note to Zhu Shengquan.

In the appointed corner, he took out the gift prepared for Zhu Shengquan, and expressed his gratitude to Zhu Shengquan that day.

"It's okay." Zhu Shengquan took the gift and smiled at him.

I seem to have friends, he was still thinking.

Lin Jianfan only regarded Zhu Shengquan as a friend, but Zhu Shengquan's next action shattered his imagination.

Zhu Shengquan bent down to kiss him with the gift he gave him.

kiss? !

He finally made a new friend to kiss him? !

He thought Zhu Shengquan was different from them.

It turned out that it was just what he thought.

They are all the same.

He struggled desperately, but Zhu Shengquan forced him to retreat to the corner.

The good friend he thought was just as perverted as the person who wanted to fuck him, when he thought of this, he didn't know whether it was because of grievance or hatred, and he burst into tears.

He kept struggling, but Zhu Shengquan said: "Don't you like me? If you like me, you should pay for me."

I like you?Why do I like you?

"I don't like you!" He shouted directly at Zhu Shengquan in fear, but still crying.

"Why don't you like me and give me presents?"

"I thought we were friends."

"Friend? Will a friend secretly give him a birthday present?"

Zhu Shengquan was angry, he liked Lin Jianfan, he peeked at Lin Jianfan in class, and Lin Jianfan would shyly avoid his eyes when he saw his eyes, didn't he like it?

His avoidance was regarded by Zhu Shengquan as liking, he just didn't want to be seen by others, and he didn't want to get him implicated.

Zhu Shengquan couldn't understand at all, in his world Lin Jianfan only avoided him because he liked him.

Zhu Shengquan touched his face, and Zhu Shengquan could feel him trembling.

Is it about to start again?Is it going to be a repeat of that day?Will someone save him this time?

The last time I was in an abandoned building with no one in it, are we going to be at school this time?

Lin Jianfan only had fear and prayer in his heart.

He struggled hard, he could only struggle hard, struggling out of Zhu Shengquan's shackles.Zhu Shengquan was angry with his struggle, and Zhu Shengquan, who was angry, couldn't accept the fact that Lin Jianfan didn't like him, so he couldn't hold back and beat him.

Maybe he waited a little longer, another way, Lin Jianfan might fall in love with him, people floating on the sea always fall in love with straw, but Zhu Shengquan went astray, he started to force, he started Use violence that Lin Jianfan detests.

Zhu Shengquan regretted his impulsiveness, and showed regret after hitting someone.

"I'm sorry." Zhu Shengquan said, grabbing his arm.

But Lin Jianfan was already afraid of him, Lin Jianfan was always on the defensive: "I'm sorry, don't hit me."

Zhu Shengquan felt distressed seeing Lin Jianfan who was so defensive against him, and he slapped Lin Jianfan with regret, and Lin Jianfan's fear of him was irreversible.

What he couldn't restore was not only the violence, but also Lin Jianfan's first belief in a beautiful heart in the dark.

It turns out all are the same, no one is different, they are all the same.He is looking forward to the same people in the distance, and the friends he will make in the future may also have such people.

Zhu Shengquan regretfully pulled Lin Jianfan to hug him, and Lin Jianfan shivered in his arms, as if staying in the cold winter.He was obviously trembling and in a weak position, but when Zhu Shengquan hugged him, he yelled at Zhu Shengquan: "Don't touch me!"

Zhu Shengquan ignored him and tightened his grip on his arms.

"I like you, I love you, and I know you like me too." Zhu Shengquan said almost morbidly.

Zhu Shengquan knew that he was a pervert.He has an upright appearance, but he has a heart that knows he is perverted.

The first time he saw the photos of Lin Jianfan in women's clothing they posted, he realized that he had lost his mind and ran to the toilet.

All his upright masks are fake, and he has collected many photos of Lin Jianfan in women's clothing.He didn't want to expose his abnormality, so he secretly took pictures behind them every time, and that meeting in the old building was not the chance encounter that Lin Jianfan had imagined.Seeing Lin Jianfan's naked appearance, he even thought the same as the person who approached Lin Jianfan.

He saved Lin Jianfan only because he felt that Lin Jianfan could not be defiled by anyone other than him.

Lin saw Fan crying in his arms, with redness and swelling on his face after being beaten by him, Zhu Shengquan just liked him like this.His hand touched Lin Jianfan's back, and Lin Jianfan scolded him for being perverted and disgusting.I scolded everyone I could, but Zhu Shengquan still didn't stop.

Last time he was rescued by Zhu Shengquan, Lin Jianfan didn't expect to be rescued by someone who beat him before.

Zhu Shengquan's hand was walking on his back, Lin Jianfan hit, kicked and scolded him, but he still couldn't stop him.

Seeing that Fan didn't know which action or sentence he had provoked Zhu Shengquan, Zhu Shengquan suddenly withdrew his hand and punched him in the stomach.

Seeing Fan sliding down the wall in pain, Lin frowned, clenched his teeth and still hissed.

"You still want to seduce me?!" Zhu Shengquan suddenly changed his face.

Lin Jianfan didn't know why Zhu Shengquan had the complete opposite change in an instant. One second he said he liked him, and the next second he said he seduced him, but when he saw the people in his class walking towards this side, Lin Jianfan After seeing Fan, he understood.

Lin Jianfan laughed suddenly, that's what it meant.

He wanted to thank those who beat him, for saving him from Zhu Shengquan's mouth.

"Old Zhu, I didn't expect you, who usually don't participate, to come." The person said.

"A straight person like Lao Zhu can't be seduced." Someone laughed at him.

"Hahahaha..." Several people laughed loudly.

Seeing that Fan stood up and wanted to run away, Lin saw that he was beaten up.He lay on the ground to protect himself with his hands, and Zhu Shengquan's fists and feet were among them.

When those people dispersed, Zhu Shengquan looked sorry again and wanted to pull him up.

When Lin saw Fan open Zhu Shengquan's hand, he no longer believed anyone.

He tried his best to escape, and Zhu Shengquan tried his best to pester him, but he didn't dare to defend Lin Jianfan in public, so he often made funny scenes of beating Lin Jianfan with the people who bullied Lin Jianfan.

After the fight, he hoped to make it up with an apology. He didn't know that he had opened a huge hole in Lin Jianfan's heart.Lin saw that the only sliver of trust left in Fan, and the only remaining yearning for beauty, all disappeared in his double-faced style.

While Zhu Shengquan said he loved him, he beat him with others. He didn't know that in Lin Jianfan's heart, he had become a violent humanoid, an untrustworthy humanoid in this world, and a dark world humanoid.

He destroyed Lin Jianfan's hope for the world without knowing it, and he still wanted Lin Jianfan to love him.

Lin Jianfan didn't know who else he could trust in this world. Grandma was old, and Guoguo was also old, and recently fell ill. Grandma said that Guoguo would die soon.

parents?Heh, when Lin saw Fan laughing on the rooftop, his parents would only listen to the teacher's words and blame him for not being gregarious and withdrawn.

At such an old age, Guoguo was expected to be ill, but Lin Jianfan did not expect Guoguo's death to come so suddenly.

He even touched Guoguo's head when he was carrying his schoolbag to school, and he was still hugging Guoguo on the bed and whispering, Guoguo was acting like a baby in his arms, and he didn't look sick at all, but his father called and told him He really died.

Guoguo is dead? !Lin saw that Fan seemed to be still, and he watched the pillars of his life collapse.

He couldn't imagine Guoguo's death, he couldn't breathe under the pressure of the world's collapsing rubble.

He was breathing desperately, and the strong wind on the roof could not save his exhausted breathing.

He ran to ask the head teacher for leave, but the head teacher thought it was a big deal, and when he heard that it was a dog that died, he immediately rejected his leave request.No matter what Lin Jianfan said, the head teacher just disagreed. The head teacher had already had an opinion on him and thought he was making trouble for no reason.

The request for leave was once again denied, and Lin Jianfan, who had always been patient, yelled at him in the office.

Swearing all the swear words in his mind, he pointed at the head teacher, and the teachers next to him were startled by the sudden outburst of Lin Jianfan. Scold them all.

Tears were suppressed by him, but they still fell down.The homeroom teacher is not someone who can be scolded by others. When Lin Jianfan scolded her, she and Lin Jianfan scolded each other directly.

The teacher and the students scolded each other, and several teachers pulled them away. Lin Jianfan threw off the teacher who was holding him and ran to the school roof to cry bitterly.

Guoguo died, and when he went home, there was no Guoguo waiting at the door, and he could no longer hug Guoguo and whisper.

The only one who can listen has left, and everything will be borne by one person.

Seeing Fan crying on the rooftop until he couldn't shed his tears, Lin stood up and looked downstairs.

When the head teacher scolded him back, he said: "Flies don't bite seamless eggs, why don't you think about your own problems?"

Seeing that Fan suddenly felt isolated and helpless, did he think he did something wrong?

Why not blame the person who bullied him, but blame him first?

I have not committed any unforgivable heinous crimes, nor have I violated my morals or my own conscience, so why am I so notorious?

Dress fetish, underwear collector, slutty...

Why is this world so dark?

"No one in this world can understand you, right? Only I can understand you." Lin Jianfan heard the voice of Death.

Tears fell downstairs, as if falling into an abyss.

He also wanted to live, but living was too painful.

He also wanted to jump down, but he was also reluctant.

"I dare not." Lin Jianfan had a conversation with Death.

"It's okay, jump down, everything is solved, it won't hurt, don't you want to solve it? Come and join me if you think about it. I know how much you want someone to help you, but there is no one, you Everything you touch is darkness. Do you want to continue living in such a world?"

"Yes, do you still want to live?" Lin Jianfan looked downstairs and asked.

Lin Jianfan looked downstairs and turned his head suddenly. He heard Guoguo's cry, he heard Guoguo's cry.

Are you telling me not to?Guoguo?

Depleted tears fell down again, falling downstairs at the speed of raindrops.

Guoguo is calling him.

"I haven't had yogurt today." Lin Jianfan said to himself.

His favorite drink is yogurt.

I haven't had yogurt yet, I'm going to the commissary to buy yogurt.

After struggling on the roof, he ran to the canteen, drank yogurt and walked back to the classroom.

The quarrel between him and the head teacher spread wildly in the grades, and when he walked into the class, someone even whistled at him.

Lin Jianfan took the yogurt and sat back in his seat without seeing it. Before he could sit down, he found a big cheap word written in red pen on his desk.

Seeing that Fan turned a blind eye, Lin bought a lot of yogurt, put them on the desk where they wrote cheap words with red pen, and drank bottle after bottle.

Amid the booing and laughter of his classmates, he drank three or four boxes of yogurt.The cold and viscous yogurt passed down his throat, suppressing his heart.

He drank yogurt like crazy, Zhu Shengquan sat in his seat without moving, neither coaxing nor laughing, sitting in his seat as if blending into the crowd of onlookers.

Seeing that Fan had a yogurt straw in his mouth, Lin laughed lightly. The people who laughed at him saw that he was not afraid, but laughed lightly. They walked over and threw away the yogurt on his table, and the yogurt box fell to the floor.

Seeing that Fan didn't seem to see it, Lin picked up a bottle of yogurt on the ground and continued to drink without any reaction.

"Fuck you!" The man grabbed his collar and lifted him to a table in the middle of the classroom, at which time the class teacher entered the classroom.

"What are you doing! It's against the sky!"

The man let go of Lin Jianfan, who lost his footing and fell down, bumping into Zhu Shengquan's desk and chair.

Zhu Shengquan's schoolbag fell out, revealing a corner of the photo in the book.Anyone who has seen this photo knows that it is a photo of Lin Jianfan in women's clothing.

This is the one that Zhu Shengquan was most satisfied with. He only brought this one to school, and he didn't dare to bring more, for fear of being discovered, and kept the rest at home.

Seeing only one corner, Lin Jianfan already felt that the yogurt he just drank was turning around in his stomach.

He looked at Zhu Shengquan, but Zhu Shengquan looked away guiltily.

Lin Jianfan chuckled again, he walked to the classroom window, he just wanted to go home, he just wanted to go home and see Guoguo, even if it was Guoguo's body.

There are many onlookers outside the classroom door, the door is blocked, and his only way out is the window behind him.

He glanced out the window, the building was not high, it was only on the third floor, the taller book should be on the top floor, but this time it was on the third floor for some reason.

Lin Jianfan opened the window.A gust of wind blew outside the window, blowing the boy's hair and shirt, with the summer heat of rain, he seemed to be confused by the wind, looking back, there were ugly and mocking faces.

He suddenly climbed onto the window sill, which frightened Ben.