the world in which he exists

The overhead fan kept running all day, whistling loudly, the weather was still hot, and Gu Chaoming still didn't listen to Lao Chen's class.

He moved the textbooks piled under the table to the table to build a wall of books. He held a pencil in his right hand and pinched a square eraser with a corner erased with his fingers. The eraser moved on the table with his fingers turn around.

The new classmate named Lin Jianfan at the back was quite quiet, sitting behind him and didn't speak much.

"I hope he will always see a world full of flowers."

Lin Jianfan's parents didn't know whether it should be called strange or wonderful. Who would think of this meaning when naming their child?Most of them, like Qu Yingyi, think more about the future, character, conduct, appearance and so on.

But what Lin Jianfan said made Gu Chaoming remember his name well.

Gu Chaoming guessed that Lin Jianfan's world must be full of flowers and flowers as his parents expected. Only those who grew up surrounded by love can be so kind-hearted, so kind-hearted that they help Doraemon pick up leaflets on the side of the road.

With loving parents, I see a world full of flowers.

very nice.

Thinking of this, Gu Chaoming felt that the quiet boy behind him seemed to exude a kind of velvet white, happy light of being loved by his parents.

Gu Chaoming had to admit that he was still very envious of Lin Jianfan for being loved by his parents.

But that is only envious, he still has a mother who loves him, even though she is lying in the hospital now, even though she can't take care of him under Gu Tao's beating.

Gu Chaoming can still clearly remember that night, there are always so many terrible nights in his memory.

The dim light in the kitchen, the locked kitchen door from the outside, the constant sound of quarreling and scolding outside the door followed the dim light and gradually turned into terrible crying.

Gu Tao's violence made Gu Chaoming have a habit since he was a child. When his parents quarreled, he would sneak into the kitchen and hide all the knives in the kitchen.

He was afraid that Gu Tao would get the knife, and that Gu Tao would go crazy.

That day he ran to the kitchen and picked up the kitchen knife to hide it. During the quarrel, he heard the sound of the kitchen door being locked.

I don't know if the door was locked by Gu Tao or his mother from the outside. At that time, Gu Chaoming thought that Gu Tao was going to rush in, his small arms trembled with fear, and the knife in his hand accidentally cut his fingers.

In the dim light, the bright red blood was covered with a layer of hazy yellow.

At that time, he was still young and his fingers were still bleeding, but he only dared to shed tears, not crying out loud.

Because there are demons outside the house, he is afraid that the demons will come into the house.

There are many such memories. Gu Chaoming is glad that he was still young at the time, and he had no other thoughts but fear when he got the knife.

At that time, he was filled with fear, and the stimulation of bright red blood only brought pain, and did not become the thing in his mind that made him atone for it.

Gu Chaoming was lost in thought, and slowly moved the rubber with his fingers, and the rubber tapped the table rhythmically under his movement.

Deng, Deng, Deng, Deng...

Lin Jianfan in the back hadn't received his textbook yet, he had just come to this strange school accompanied by his mother.The tall boy in front of him has been turning this rubber for a long time, and the turning is getting slower and slower and more regular.

Deng, Deng, Deng, Deng...

Lin Jianfan listened to Lao Chen's lecture while observing the tall boy who was turning the eraser in front of him.

He is different from everyone else, he wears a hat in class.Lin Jianfan knew how hot it was to wear a hat on such a day. When he just stepped off the podium, he saw beads of sweat on the boy's hair.

The school uniform of the tall boy in the front fits well. The school uniform is a standard blue and white color scheme.When his mother gave him the school uniform yesterday, he changed it in his room. He could see his mother sitting by the bed looking at him and smiling from the fitting mirror in front of him.

Deng, Deng, Deng, Deng...

There is a circular scar on the back of the boy's left hand where he turned the rubber.

The scar is sunken, like a crater, like a crater.

Lin Jianfan didn't know how the scar was formed, but felt that the young man probably didn't like the scar very much, because when the dean was staring at the scar on his hand, the young man quietly turned his hand away.

Behind the scars are pains that you don't want to tell others.

Deng, Deng, Deng, Deng...

The scar on the back of his hand rose and fell with the boy's movements.

The boy had a wound on his lip, and there were small wounds on the knuckles of his fingers that turned the rubber.

When the bell rang for the end of get out of class, the eraser in Gu Chaoming's hand finally stopped turning, and suddenly there was a tingling pain of "thunder and lightning" on his right shoulder.

A "five-finger mountain" pressed on his shoulders.

The bell for the end of get out of class and the tingling pain on his shoulders swept over at the same time.

Before Lao Chen could say "end get out of class", Gu Chaoming went ahead with an outburst of "fuck".

The pain in the entire right shoulder came from Lin Jianfan's hand slapping his shoulder.There was no need to report the pain, it stabbed smoothly from the right shoulder all the way to the brain, making Gu Chaoming frown.

At the moment when the pain came, Gu Chaoming frowned almost instantly, followed his head with a bang, drew an arc in the air, and then jumped into Lin Jianfan's ear.

Gu Chaoming turned his head subconsciously in pain, almost subconsciously, the original comfort in his eyes turned into a sharp blade that could pierce Lin Jianfan, making Lin Jianfan, who wanted to say hello, slowly withdraw his hand.

Gu Chaoming saw that Lin Jianfan's pupils dilated suddenly when he roared.

Touching his shoulder lightly and breathing in the pain, Cen Xili slapped him on the arm without feeling sorry for him: "Gu Shuai, why are you being so fierce to your new classmate?"

Old Chen on the stage also asked them loudly after Gu Chaoming uttered that obscenity: "Gu Chaoming, what are you doing?"

Cen Xili quickly said to Old Chen: "It's okay, Gu Chaoming is under control."

Lao Chen walked off the podium without asking Gu Chaoming or Cen Xili, but walked to Lin Jianfan's desk with concern and asked Lin Jianfan: "What's wrong?"

After the self-introduction, the eyes of the whole class focused on Lin Jianfan again.

Under the gaze of those dozens of eyes again, Lin Jianfan opened his mouth slowly. He pointed to Gu Chaoming who turned his head and said, "His hand is being suppressed."

"Why did he hit you with his hand pressed down?" Old Chen asked.

Seeing that Fan raised his eyes to look at Gu Chaoming, Lin Jian said slowly, "Because... because I caused him to be suppressed."

Although the injured place has been changed, it is still a fact.

"Really?" Old Chen asked.

Lin Jianfan nodded.

After getting this answer, Lao Chen slapped Gu Chaoming on the head with a textbook: "Didn't you just press your hand? Such a fierce classmate is still swearing, afraid that I won't hear you? Don't do this in the future."

After Lao Chen finished speaking, he walked out of the classroom. When Lao Chen didn't leave, most of the students sat in their seats and turned around to look at them. After Lao Chen left, everyone left their seats and looked like get out of class was over.

Gu Chaoming, who was also turning sideways, wanted to turn around, and raised his eyes to look at Lin Jianfan on the way. Lin Jianfan, whose eyes were originally uncertain, raised his eyes to look at him because he noticed Gu Chaoming's gaze.

"…………"

Their eyes met, looking into Lin Jianfan's eyes Gu Chaoming wanted to say something but couldn't say anything.

He is the murderer, and the other party is the murderer, shouldn't he apologize first?

They looked at each other unintentionally, didn't know each other, didn't know what to say, Gu Chaoming wanted to apologize to Lin Jianfan, but the words of apology were already in his throat, but his body turned around first.

The words of apology were never said.

Cen Xili at the side had a panoramic view of the process of Gu Chaoming and Lin Jianfan turning around after quickly looking at each other.

Lin saw that when Fan came, he happened to take pictures of Gu Chaoming's wounds and touched Gu Tao's inverse scales on Gu Chaoming's body, that's why Gu Chaoming treated him like this, not the usual Gu Chaoming.

Cen Xili didn't want Lin Jianfan to be prejudiced against Gu Chaoming because of this incident, so he smiled and leaned over, acting as a diplomat of the trio, fully demonstrating their friendship.

Cen Xili said to Lin Jianfan, "My name is Cen Xili."

After finishing speaking, he pointed to Gu Chaoming next to him: "His name is Gu Chaoming, his right shoulder is injured, he will only be like that when you take pictures of his injury, he usually doesn't do this, he didn't mean to hurt you, don't mind. "

Cen Xili smiled gently, and the kindness called "I'm very friendly" flowed from his smiling eyes, Lin Jianfan felt it very strongly.

This young man had a bright smile, and his whole body exuded a calm and composed aura, like a pond of water, a cloud, gentle and friendly.

Lin Jianfan listened to Cen Xili's introduction and looked at Gu Chaoming in front of him. Gu Chaoming seemed to be looking for something in his schoolbag.

Lin Jianfan grinned at the corners of his mouth, revealing a big smile, completely different from the state he was frightened by Gu Chaoming just now.

He smiled brightly, showing his white teeth, and his smile was bright enough to relieve the heat in the hot summer.

There was a girl in the class who was peeping at him and blushed because of his sudden hearty smile. Seeing that Fan noticed it, Lin turned her head and smiled at her.

The girl seemed thin-skinned, Lin Jianfan smiled at her, her face instantly turned redder at a speed visible to the naked eye, as red as a ripe tomato, the blood all over her body was rushing to her face, it was hot to the touch .

Lin Jianfan just wanted to express his kindness, but unexpectedly got a "red tomato".

The girl covered her face and laughed secretly, sharing her joy with her best friend Jing Jiaru.

Jing Jiaru poked her on the head: "Look at how promising you are."

The girl blushed because of Lin Jianfan's smile. For the boys, Lin Jianfan replied to the friendly Cen Xili: "It's okay, I don't mind, is he injured?"

Cen Xili nodded, "Yes", and pointed to his right shoulder: "His right shoulder is injured, you should be careful in the future, as long as you don't touch it, he is usually not aggressive, and he is easy to talk to."

"Who said I'm easy to talk? Didn't you see me being so fierce just now?"

Gu Chaoming took out the cigarettes from the interlayer of his schoolbag and put them in his pocket.

Because he didn't apologize, Lin Jianfan helped him again. After Gu Chaoming turned around, he felt a lump in his heart. He kept picking up things while listening to their conversation. When Cen Xili told Lin Jianfan that he was very talkative, Gu Chaoming made a joke. He interrupted casually to ease the atmosphere between him and Lin Jianfan.

Obviously joking, Cen Xili also accepted Gu Chaoming's joke and said to Lin Jianfan: "Don't talk to him, he is the worst talker, just ignore him."

Seeing that they were both joking, Lin Jianfan also smiled and said, "Then should I talk to him or not?"

Gu Chaoming didn't hear Lin Jianfan's words. He just stood up and looked at Su Bing's position, but found that there was no one in Su Bing's position.

Yesterday we said that we would go to the toilet together during the big class break, but now we don’t see anyone?

Gu Chaoming turned his head and asked Cen Xili, "Where did Su Bing go?"

Cen Xili shook his head, he didn't know either.

"I was still here just now, but in a blink of an eye there was no one there." Gu Chaoming stood in his position and said a little to himself.

Lin Jianfan at the back looked up at Gu Chaoming who got up from his seat, his eyes followed Gu Chaoming.

"Why are you looking for my little mother?" Cen Xili asked, "Go to the bathroom?"

Gu Chaoming nodded: "He said it himself yesterday, but now he doesn't see anyone."

Gu Chaoming hesitated between waiting for Su Bing to come back and going by himself, glanced at the clock on the wall and decided to go first.

Gu Chaoming turned his head to look at Cen Xili, and from the corner of his eye he accidentally left Lin Jianfan behind him.

He sat there quietly, staring at the desk with nothing on it, as if thinking.

"When Su Bing comes later, just say that I'm going to the bathroom and tell him to come to me." After Gu Chaoming finished speaking to Cen Xili, he walked around Lin Jianfan's desk and prepared to go out through the back door.

The body moves, the angle of view changes, Lin Jianfan has a full face in the moving line of sight, and it is no longer the faint silhouette in the peripheral vision.

Gu Chaoming seemed to see determination and affirmation in Lin Jianfan's eyes for a moment, like a soldier determined to die on the battlefield, before he could walk out of the classroom, Lin Jianfan called him to stop him.

That was the first time Lin Jianfan called his name.

The voice was not loud, as if he was a little unsure if his name was that.

"Gu Chaoming?"

After class, the classroom was noisy and noisy, Gu Chaoming stopped and stopped behind Lin Jianfan.

Lin Jianfan was sitting on the chair, Gu Chaoming turned his head to look at Lin Jianfan, sitting and standing, just like last night, Gu Chaoming once again saw the top of Lin Jianfan's head with thick hair.

Gu Chaoming smiled at the hair volume that the dean envied: "Why do you call me?"

The pockets were bulging, and Gu Chaoming put his hands in the pockets, touched the cigarettes in the pockets, and rubbed his fingers against the half-smoked pack.

Getting used to chatting with Su Bing, Gu Chaoming waited for a long time before Lin Jianfan spoke up, and blurted out "Tell me something quickly".

It wasn't Aunt Su, so Gu Chaoming still tactfully kept the phrase "Fart, let go" in his stomach, and kept it for Aunt Su.

Su Bing didn't know where he went.

Gu Chaoming glanced at Su Bing's position again, but there was no one there.

Lin Jianfan still didn't speak, Gu Chaoming didn't know what he was going to do.

The pimple of not apologizing in his heart has not disappeared. In the atmosphere where the embarrassment is spreading faster and faster, Gu Chaoming hesitates whether to apologize to Lin Jianfan to break the deadlock.

When Gu Chaoming was about to apologize, Lin Jianfan, who had been silent all this time, finally spoke.

Seeing that Fan turned sideways and smiled at Gu Chaoming, "I'm sorry just now, I didn't mean it either."

Gu Chaoming was stunned by his sorry words.

Lin Jianfan is apologizing to him?

"What wasn't intentional? Pat me on the shoulder?" Gu Chaoming thought he heard it wrong, and was still a little uncertain.

Lin Jianfan nodded.

Gu Chaoming: "..."

Is there such a thing as the murdered person coming to apologize?Doesn't this have the same nature as when someone hits you, and you boast that you played well?

What a weirdo.

Taking advantage of the opportunity, Gu Chaoming also apologized to Lin Jianfan to relieve the knot in his heart: "I'm fine, you don't need to apologize, I haven't apologized yet."

Seeing Fan, Lin smiled again.

Gu Chaoming looked at the smile on his face, this should be considered reconciliation.

"Is there anything else?" Gu Chaoming asked.

Lin Jian Fan shook his head.

"Then I'm going first?" Gu Chaoming said to Lin Jianfan using his index and middle fingers as a walking figure.