the world in which he exists

The snow on the side of the road has been melted by the footprints of pedestrians.In winter, the temperature difference between the inside of the air-conditioned bus and the outside of the bus is too large, and a hazy layer of fog forms on the window glass, making it difficult to see the scene outside.

The bus during the morning commute to school is basically crowded with people, and you can't put your feet down. It's a hell on earth.Gu Chaoming stood by the bus door and grabbed the bus handrail.There were students in the bus rushing to eat breakfast, and the whole car was filled with the smell of noodle.The windows of the bus are not opened in winter, and the scent of noodles is squeezed into the closed compartment and squeezed into Gu Chaoming's nasal cavity.

When the bus arrived at the stop, Gu Chaoming got out of the bus with a large group of students on board, shook off the noodle scent in the compartment, and the white air exhaled from his mouth disappeared into the air at once.

Students gathered from all directions at the school gate kept rushing towards the school. Steam was billowing from the steamer at the school gate, and the boss was wearing a thick cotton coat and an apron to pack breakfast for the students.

Gu Chaoming saw Lin Jianfan who was bending over to pick up milk in front of the shop earlier at a glance.

Lin Jianfan held the selected milk in one hand and paid with the other, as if feeling Gu Chaoming's approach, Lin Jianfan turned his head.

"Morning." Gu Chaoming walked to Lin Jianfan with his schoolbag on his back and stepping on Yu Xue on the ground.

"morning."

When he approached and saw the milk in Lin Jianfan's hand, it was also milk, and Gu Chaoming couldn't help thinking of the yogurt Lin Jianfan liked to drink just by looking at it.

With just one glance, Gu Chaoming associated Lin Jianfan's favorite yogurt with many things in the past. He thought of the day he allowed Lin Jianfan to drink two boxes of yogurt, and the night we spent together on the river bank...

Many of their important memories are tied to a small bottle of yogurt.

Looking at the milk in Lin Jianfan's hand, Gu Chaoming bent his lips and smiled unconsciously.

Gu Chaoming's eyes stayed on the milk in Lin Jianfan's hand, Lin Jianfan looked up at Gu Chaoming after paying the money, wanted to talk to him but found Gu Chaoming in a daze.

Following Gu Chaoming's line of sight, Lin Jianfan looked down at the milk he had just bought in his hand. Gu Chaoming was thinking about something, but his eyes still didn't move.

"Huh?" Gu Chaoming stared at the milk in Lin Jianfan's hand with straight eyes, and finally moved after feeling Lin Jianfan bumping him with an elbow.

Gu Chaoming came back to his senses, looked at Lin Jianfan who elbowed him, saw Lin Jianfan looking at him, and found that Lin Jianfan's milk had already been bought.

"Let's go." Gu Chaoming's hand was used to touching the back of Lin Jianfan's neck naturally.The palm of the hand that took off the gloves touched the cold winter air, and touched the back of Lin Jian Fan Lu's neck in the cold winter air.

The skin exposed to the cold air is definitely not as warm as Gu Chaoming's palms wrapped in gloves.There was warmth on the back of his neck, and there was a piece of cool skin under Gu Chaoming's palm.

Feeling the back of Lin Jianfan's neck that was not warm enough, Gu Chaoming rubbed his palm on the back of Lin Jianfan's neck, trying to convey the temperature of his palm to Lin Jianfan.

In his hand was the slightly hot milk, and on his neck was Gu Chaoming's rubbing palm.Gu Chaoming's "manipulative" Lin Jianfan has become accustomed to it, and Gu Chaoming is always more clingy in winter, or the longer they are together, Lin Jianfan realizes that Gu Chaoming is actually clingy.

Gu Chaoming's clinginess does not mean that he wants to be hugged all the time, but that he likes to touch him, pinch his face, rub his head, and mess up his hair whenever he has nothing to do.

After school, we usually go back to Chaoming's house for dinner, and Gu Chaoming will cook simple but delicious meals for him.Once Gu Chaoming had a slight cold, Lin Jianfan didn't allow him to cook, he was too tired to cook, so he just bought something outside and went home to eat.

Gu Chaoming had a cold and had no appetite, so he put down the dishes after eating less than half of his usual meal.During the meal, Gu Chaoming clung to Lin Jianfan tightly. Halfway through eating, he remembered that he should not infect Lin Jianfan with a cold, and moved away from his clinging body.

As a result, Lin Jianfan felt suddenly empty around him while eating, and turned his head suspiciously. Gu Chaoming chewed the tasteless food in his mouth and said to Lin Jianfan, "Don't infect it to you."

Seeing that Fan couldn't laugh or cry, Lin saw that Gu Chaoming said in the morning that his head was full and he wanted to vomit, so he must be very uncomfortable.

Gu Chaoming took a step back because he was afraid of infecting him. Lin Jianfan moved his position to make up for the distance Gu Chaoming moved: "It's okay, I have good resistance."

"You still have good resistance? You are a weak physique who is afraid of cold and heat." Gu Chaoming said, but his body was honestly sticking to Lin Jianfan's approaching body, and did not move away.

During the day, the head is swollen until dinner, but it is still a little swollen.The body temperature seems to be losing, Gu Chaoming who has a cold just wants to be close to Lin Jianfan, close to his peace of mind.

After putting down the bowl and chopsticks, Gu Chaoming wiped his mouth with a paper towel. He didn't want to spread the cold to Lin Jianfan just now. After eating, Gu Chaoming lifted Lin Jianfan's arm holding the bowl and chopsticks to eat, and lay on the ground like a coquettish kitten. See Fan's lap, resting with eyes closed.

Seeing Fan looking down at Gu Chaoming, who suddenly broke into his arms, Lin saw that he touched the top of Gu Chaoming's head to see if his forehead was still hot. After touching it, he found that it was not very hot, so he finished dinner in this position with confidence.

After eating, Lin Jianfan did not move away from Gu Chaoming, who was resting on his lap with his eyes closed, and Lin Jianfan stroked Gu Chaoming, using gentle techniques, so that Gu Chaoming, who was just resting with his eyes closed, would be lazy for a day. Evening class ideas.

When you are not feeling well, you definitely need company, Lin Jianfan thought while caressing Gu Chaoming who was lying on his lap, looking at the finished dinner on the table.

Thought about being lazy, Gu Chaoming still went to school with Lin Jianfan for evening classes, no matter how much Lin Jianfan tried to persuade him, it was useless.

When I first met Lin Jianfan, Gu Chaoming felt that Lin Jianfan was stubborn, and Lin Jianfan felt that Gu Chaoming was stubborn.He didn't want to break the rhythm of his hard work because of being lazy for a day, no matter what Lin Jianfan said, Gu Chaoming would still go.He always felt that his efforts were not complete enough if he missed a class, and he was afraid that if he lacked the knowledge of this class, he would regret it in the future college entrance examination.

The semester was coming to an end, but Gu Chaoming didn't feel relaxed, but even more nervous.

The final exam is scheduled for the next Wednesday, and after the final, there will be another winter vacation tutoring.The study in the third year of high school never stops, and Gu Chaoming is also ready to go to the end.

There was warmth on his cheeks, Gu Chaoming turned his head, Lin Jianfan held the hot milk in his hand and pressed it against Gu Chaoming's cheeks.

"I'll warm you up too." Lin Jianfan said to him with a smile.

Gu Chaoming also laughed, and the hand rubbing Lin Jianfan's neck touched the back of Lin Jianfan's hand holding the warm milk close to his cheek.

The hands at the school gate were close to each other. When entering the school gate, Lin saw Fan stuffing the milk into the pocket of Gu Chaoming's padded jacket, and explained, "I'm afraid I won't be able to bring it in."

"This shouldn't be blocked, it's just a pack of milk." Gu Chaoming said while touching the milk that warmed his pocket.

Lin Jianfan's padded clothes also had pockets, but Lin Jianfan wanted to stuff them into his pockets. Gu Chaoming smiled, touched the milk that Lin Jianfan had stuffed in his pockets, and was in the sight of the dean with Lin Jianfan Go into the school gate.

The "romantic relationship" between the dean and Gu Chaoming has long since ended, and except for the dean's visit to the third floor, Gu Chaoming hardly sees him.

I only met him a few times in the third year of high school. From correcting his mistakes every day and scolding him for not making progress, I now tell him to study hard when I see him. Lin Jianfan stuffed the milk into the pocket of his cotton coat.

"The director still values ​​you very much now." Lin Jianfan said to Gu Chaoming with a smile.

Walking into the school gate, Gu Chaoming took out the milk in his pocket and returned it to Lin Jianfan. Lin Jianfan took it, inserted a straw and handed it back to him.

"Here, I'll drink it for you." Lin Jianfan stuffed the milk into Gu Chaoming's palm.

At the school gate, Gu Chaoming stared straight at the milk in his hand, and Lin Jianfan gave him the milk generously.

Lin Jianfan didn't know that Gu Chaoming was thinking about things in a daze, and thought that Gu Chaoming wanted to drink but was too embarrassed to say so.If Gu Chaoming, who took the milk, knew why Lin Jianfan gave him the milk, he would never have accepted it, and would have said, "Do I look so greedy?"

Drinking the milk that Lin Jianfan gave, Gu Chaoming felt warm in his heart, and asked Lin Jianfan: "Have you brought all the things that Lao Chen asked to bring?"

Yesterday, Lao Chen made it useful to bring student ID cards, ID cards and other documents, and he also specially reminded him twice that he was afraid that some students would not bring them.

The end of the semester is approaching, and the semester is over, and there are more and more miscellaneous things in the third year of high school.Some classmates always forget what was explained yesterday, and Lao Chen, who was already nagging, became even more nagging.After hearing Lao Chen's advice twice, Lin Jianfan will never forget it.

Lin Jianfan nodded: "I have brought them all."

Gu Chaoming is not only Lin Jianfan's boyfriend, clingy, but also an old lady who cares about big and small things.

"Oh, that's right." Walking in the aisle leading to the teaching building, Lin Jianfan remembered something and said to Gu Chaoming who was beside him: "Li Zhao said that Shi Cancan celebrated his birthday a few days ago and wanted me to accompany him. Agreed. If I go, I will also buy a gift for Shi Cancan, and you will accompany me to buy it when I go back to dinner at night?"

Gu Chaoming smiled and nodded, "Okay."

The air in the winter morning is cold, but Gu Chaoming's heart is warm, and the milk in his hand seems to remind him - this is a good time, let's go on a date!juvenile!

Drinking the hot milk in his hand and not walking a few steps, Gu Chaoming bit the straw, looked at Lin Jianfan who was beside him, and coughed lightly: "Aren't you going to buy a gift for the crying bag, or should we go out for dinner at night? "

When Gu Chaoming asked Lin Jianfan, he felt inexplicably plotting something wrong.Gu Chaoming scolded himself, they are all boyfriends, just a normal date, why did you cough before?

Gu Chaoming "conspired against the law" in his heart, thinking that he was a bad guy.He didn't know where this feeling came from, as if he wanted to trick Lin Jianfan, a little white rabbit, into the cage, but Lin Jianfan was already his boyfriend.

The little white rabbit simply nodded and agreed: "Okay."

"But is it time to win? I'm afraid of being late." Seeing Fan's promise, Lin became worried again.

Gu Chaoming grabbed the worried Lin Jianfan: "It's okay, let's eat quickly, and you can buy gifts quickly."

Lin saw Fan smiling in Gu Chaoming's arms as the padded jacket was pressed closer.

After school in the evening, after having dinner with Gu Chaoming to choose gifts for Shi Cancan, Lin Jianfan asked Gu Chaoming: "What gifts do girls usually like?"

He specially chose a store that looked very pink and there must be something girls like to go in. Gu Chaoming followed Lin Jianfan and looked at the dazzling array of products on the shelves. He didn't have any advice for Lin Jianfan in his mind. .

"You should ask Su Bing this question. He is a friend of women and an expert on women." Gu Chaoming touched a bag protected by a glass cabinet on the booth, and it was marked not for sale underneath.

Seeing Fan walking ahead, Lin laughed when he heard Gu Chaoming say that Su Bing was an expert on women.

"Do you know what Shi Cancan likes?" Lin Jianfan asked.

"I don't know. I'm your boyfriend, not the boyfriend who is crying. You should ask Li Zhao about the crying." Gu Chaoming looked around from behind.

"Yeah, Li Zhao might know," Lin saw Fan being pointed out by Gu Chaoming, "I'll give him a call."

Just when Lin saw that Fan was about to take out the mobile phone in his pocket to call Li Zhao, the waiter in the store saw the two boys wandering in the store for a long time, and came over and asked kindly, "Are you two looking for a gift for your girlfriend?"

girlfriend?Gu Chaoming's eyes suddenly became vigilant, and he looked at the waitress who thought they were here to buy a gift for his girlfriend who was hesitant and clueless.

Why did you call my boyfriend someone else's boyfriend?

Seeing Fan, Lin quickly shook his head and denied it: "No, I bought it for my classmates."

After Lin Jianfan answered, he looked at his boyfriend Gu Chaoming. If the waitress noticed Lin Jianfan's eyes, I wonder if she would understand, but the waitress didn't notice, and instead turned her words to Gu Chaoming.

The waitress smiled and asked Gu Chaoming with excellent service quality: "What about this one?"

When asked if he was buying a gift for his girlfriend, Gu Chaoming embraced Lin Jianfan who was standing beside him, and hugged him firmly in his arms, showing his intimacy.

Gu Chaoming pointed to Lin Jianfan who was a little embarrassed to be held in his arms: "He, my boyfriend, I will accompany him to buy a gift for a female classmate in our class."

Xu felt that the waitress didn't mean it, she just didn't know their relationship, so it was a bit aggressive to say so, Gu Chaoming finally smiled and said to the waitress: "Thank you, let's see for ourselves."

The waitress had a surprised and bewildered expression on her face. She was shocked by Gu Chaoming's sudden words, but she still reacted immediately, and smiled as she did at the beginning with good professionalism and no weird eyes: "Sorry, I misunderstood, Please choose slowly, and call us if you need anything.”

Gu Chaoming also nodded with a smile.

As soon as the waitress walked away, Gu Chaoming felt a pain in his waist. He turned to look at Lin Jianfan who pinched his waist: "Why pinch me? It hurts."

Seeing Fan pretending to continue pinching gestures: "Don't talk to them like that, they are also working to help."

Gu Chaoming curled his lips slightly, and said obediently: "Oh, I see, didn't he say that Shi Cancan is your girlfriend?"

"People are just asking, you just keep rushing."

"Okay, I get it, I'm just a little..."

A little jealous.

"I'm just a little uncomfortable." Gu Chaoming said.

"Uncomfortable?" Lin Jianfan asked.

"En." Gu Chaoming nodded.

"Actually...forget it." Lin Jianfan turned on his mobile phone halfway through speaking and called Li Zhao.

The words were only half spoken, and Gu Chaoming, who was aroused by curiosity, asked, "Actually what?"

"It's nothing." Lin Jianfan said on the phone.

Gu Chaoming wanted to ask again, but Li Zhao had already answered the phone.

Gu Chaoming could only look at the non-sale items protected by glass cabinets on the shelves in a daze.

Seeing Fan and Li Zhao talking on the phone and looking at the dazed Gu Chaoming, Lin laughed.

The second half of Lin Jianfan's sentence is——Actually, I really want to hear you say that you are jealous.

Gu Chaoming's obvious jealousy cannot be covered up by a word of discomfort, and Lin Jianfan understands everything.

After asking Li Zhao finally bought a gift for Shi Cancan, and walked out of the store with the gift bag, Gu Chaoming checked the time and should be able to go back to school before class.

At night, the street was cold and windy, and the lights were everywhere. I bought a snack on the side of the road, and Gu Chaoming fed it to Lin Jianfan with a toothpick.Lin Jianfan took the gift for Shi Cancan and bit down the food that Gu Chaoming fed, and told Gu Chaoming how happy Li Zhao was when he received the invitation to Shi Cancan's birthday party.

Lin Jianfan imitated Li Zhao who was happy at that time and walked around in the shopping mall.

"Li Zhao is like this, and the smile on his face is like this." Lin Jianfan grinned the most.

After facing Gu Chaoming backwards after imitating Li Zhao, Lin Jianfan asked, "Does he really like Shi Cancan?"

"That's right, he liked Shi Cancan when we met him." Gu Chaoming said.

Lin saw Fan walking backwards, imitating Li Zhaoshi with the corners of his mouth wide open, although now it is not as exaggerated as imitating Li Zhaoshi, but he is always smiling.

With white teeth showing and spicy oil on his mouth after eating snacks, Gu Chaoming worriedly took out a tissue from his pocket: "Look at your mouth."

Gu Chaoming wanted to wipe it for him, Lin saw Fan took the paper towel and wiped it carelessly by himself, and asked him: "Is it gone now?"

Gu Chaoming nodded: "Not anymore."

Lin Jianfan looked at Gu Chaoming holding the tissue that had wiped his mouth and started to giggle.

He also said that Li Zhao is happy, you are the happiest now, Gu Chaoming looked at Lin Jianfan and thought.

When they came home for dinner in the third year of high school, they ran out to eat and buy gifts. It seemed like a short and hasty date, but it was the most exciting and happiest date.

The night outside the building was heavy, and it got dark early in winter. Lin saw that Fan Gang wanted to say to Gu Chaoming, "Buy a roasted sweet potato at the school gate when we go back to school", and someone behind him stopped him.

The voice from behind made Lin Jianfan speechless.

"Lin see Fan?"

Hearing someone call Lin Jianfan's name with an unbelievable tone, Gu Chaoming raised his eyes to look at the person who called Lin Jianfan's name.

The man had a simple and honest appearance, a typical good student appearance, with a pair of black-rimmed glasses with some prescriptions on the bridge of his nose.

A pair of downcast eyes behind the glasses looked at Lin Jianfan who stopped in disbelief just like his tone.

Following the man's gaze, Gu Chaoming looked at Lin Jianfan who was beside him.

Gu Chaoming really didn't want to say it, but Lin Jianfan was indeed terrified, his breath stopped in horror, his mouth opened in horror, and the words that he wanted to tell Gu Chaoming to buy roasted sweet potatoes when he went back to school disappeared as if they had never existed in his brain .

Apart from the panic in Lin Jianfan's eyes, he couldn't find anything else. Gu Chaoming could feel Lin Jianfan's hands trembling slightly, a very small tremor, but Gu Chaoming still felt it.

Gu Chaoming wanted to hold Lin Jianfan's trembling hand to comfort him, even though he didn't know the situation.Before Gu Chaoming took Lin Jianfan's hand, his hand was held by Lin Jianfan instead, using a lot of force, a force that Gu Chaoming had never experienced on Lin Jianfan.

Before Gu Chaoming could react, and neither could the boy wearing glasses, Lin Jianfan took Gu Chaoming's hand and ran crazily and fast in the shopping mall.

Lin Jianfan ran faster and faster without looking back, Gu Chaoming was forced to follow Lin Jianfan out of the mall and into the cold winter wind.

The cold wind did not stop the running Lin Jianfan, Gu Chaoming was dragged by Lin Jianfan, and at a speed that made Gu Chaoming think he was fleeing, Lin Jianfan drove him into a taxi parked by the side of the road.

The two ran into the car, breathing hot air after getting into the car, the driver thought someone was chasing them, so he looked out the window, but there was no one there.

"Where are you going?" the driver leaned back on his seat and asked.

Gu Chaoming in the back seat looked at Lin Jianfan who was sitting close to him, the panic in his eyes had not dissipated. Lin Jianfan didn't speak after getting in the car, and the driver didn't speak when he asked where he was going. He just clung to Gu Chaoming. Hold Gu Chaoming's arm tightly.

The strength on the arm made Gu Chaoming anxious and worried. He didn't know what happened to Lin Jianfan. He had a good date and had a good time. Why did he suddenly behave like this?

Everything indicated that Lin Jianfan's changes were related to the man who stopped him in the mall.

I don't know if Lin Jianfan wants to go back to school or go somewhere else. The driver asked again, but Lin Jianfan still didn't answer.

Gu Chaoming lowered his head and touched Lin Jianfan's hand that was gripping his arm: "Let's go back to school, can we?"

Lin Jianfan nodded.

When the taxi arrived at the school, the night wind was cool, Gu Chaoming got out of the car and helped Lin Jianfan put on his hat.

Lin Jian saw that Fan Cong never said a word after meeting that man.

Gu Chaoming didn't ask him what's wrong, nor who was that man, he just asked: "Do you still have to go to night class?"

Lin Jianfan nodded again, didn't speak, and looked around after getting off the car. Gu Chaoming's mood changed from being happy in the shopping mall to worried.

Lin Jianfan didn't talk all the time, and he didn't tell Gu Chaoming that he wanted to buy roasted sweet potatoes when he passed the school's baked sweet potato stand.

As if he had never wanted to eat roasted sweet potatoes, he walked past the grandfather who sold roasted sweet potatoes.

What happened to Lin Jianfan, Gu Chaoming also wanted to know, but Gu Chaoming didn't ask.During the summer vacation, Lin saw Fan and said to him, "Cen Xili will tell you when he wants to tell you."

Gu Chaoming remembered Lin Jianfan's words, he wanted to wait until Lin Jianfan wanted to say it.

Walking in the aisle leading to the senior high school building that we walked together in the morning, Lin in the morning saw Fan Sai handing him a bottle of hot milk, and the two in the evening did not speak a word.

Class is about to start, there are almost no students on the road, only a round and a half moon and the dark night sky of winter nights for companionship, walking to a tree not far away and a few steps away, Lin Jianfan stopped, and Gu Chaoming followed stop.

"Can you wait for me? I don't want to say it now, can you wait for me until I want to say it?"

In the dark night with light moonlight, Lin Jianfan had tears in his eyes.

Gu Chaoming didn't know what happened to his boy, he was at a loss what to do, he could only look at Lin Jianfan's tearful eyes and said, "Okay."

Lin Jianfan didn't know that Gu Chaoming had decided to wait for him, when he wanted to talk.

Maybe Lin Jianfan will tell him tomorrow, maybe he will never know who that man is for the rest of his life.

Gu Chaoming didn't think about it, he just wanted Lin Jianfan to change back to the happy look he had in the shopping mall, to turn back into Lin Jianfan who was like Li Zhao turning around.

"Are you in the evening class in the third year of high school? Why don't you go? You're going to be late." A beam of flashlight came, and the school security patrol urged them to return to the classroom.

Gu Chaoming pulled Lin Jianfan to answer the security guard, and he promised that the security guard would return to the classroom, but he took Lin Jianfan into the toilet when the evening class bell rang.

The light in the toilet came on, and Gu Chaoming pulled Lin Jianfan into the toilet cubicle and hugged Lin Jianfan.

Gu Chaoming's hug came so suddenly that Lin Jianfan couldn't refuse.

Seeing that Fan was not struggling, Gu Chaoming hugged him tightly: "I don't know what happened, but I know you are very unhappy now. It doesn't matter if you don't want to say it, and I won't think about it, I just want to tell you, you Don't be alone, I'm always here."

Gu Chaoming stroked Lin Jianfan's back, and Lin Jianfan hugged Gu Chaoming tightly with both hands like a floating person grabbing a life-saving straw.

Holding Gu Chaoming's shoulders tightly with both hands, Lin Jianfan's chin rested on Gu Chaoming's shoulders, Gu Chaoming could not see Lin Jianfan's face, nor could he see what Lin Jianfan saw.

Lin Jianfan saw the door of the school toilet cubicle, saw the light on the top of the toilet, and saw the light falling from the top of the toilet into his world.

He hugged Gu Chaoming tightly, and for a moment he couldn't tell whether it was the light from the toilet that fell into his world, or the light that Gu Chaoming brought to him.

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