the world in which he exists

Because I hurt my hand when traveling with Gu Chaoming, even if I didn't hurt my writing right hand, it was still extremely inconvenient.Every time he saw Lin Jianfan's bandaged hand resting on the table, Gu Chaoming always felt that it was his own fault for not looking at him well and causing him to get hurt.

Old Chen noticed Lin Jianfan's injured hand on the first day of school, and the expression on his face needless to say, Gu Chaoming also understood that he was wondering why Lin Jianfan sprained his hand in the crucial third year of high school?

"Ahem, it's all here. Take care when the summer vacation is over. You are now real seniors, not quasi-senior seniors in summer vacation. You should study hard, and pay attention to safety, don't get hurt."

Old Chen said the last sentence after looking at Lin Jianfan, reminding the whole class of the injury on Lin Jianfan's hand.

Gu Chaoming turned his head slightly to look at Lin Jianfan's back. Lin Jianfan was wearing a summer school uniform, staring at the blackboard, motionless.After being told by Old Chen, the bandaged arm resting on the table moved and retracted under the table.

After class, Lao Chen really asked Lin Jianfan to go to the office to inquire about the injury. When he first came to class, many students asked him what was wrong with his hand. Lin Jianfan answered countless times: "It's sprained."

When Lao Chen asked in the office, he gave the same answer.

The days of the third year of high school went back and forth, leaving early and returning late, as if entering a closed loop.

In the closed loop, Gu Chaoming felt that Lin Jianfan's hands healed faster than Cen Xili's legs before. It was just because the senior year of senior high school was too boring. In addition to studying, Gu Chaoming's time seemed to be stagnant, as if he only touched Lin Jianfan. The plaster cast on the hand is gone.

The days of the third year of high school seem to be endless, with the same routine every day, always homework in front of my eyes, the sound of the teacher's lectures in my ears, and it is too time-consuming to even get a glass of water.

I don’t know how many times I have read the knowledge and texts to be memorized in the textbooks, and I remember every page by heart.It's a little fun to do the same question type, but if you make a mistake, you will be criticized by the teacher again.

"How many times have I talked about this type of question, and I was wrong! Did you listen to the class seriously? What did you listen to? Did you bring your brain to do the question?"

The math teacher got mad at the lectures in class, but there was no sound at all, and the math teacher didn't know how many hairs were lost by anger now.

It's another math class. The math teacher's voice is not very comfortable recently. A little hoarse lecture and the sound of chalk hitting the blackboard echoed in the classroom.

"Here's the point! I've told you all this, let's see who is wrong next time!"

The countdown clock for the college entrance examination on the wall was hung up early, the number decreased day by day, and the study became more and more tiring day by day.

Gu Chaoming supported his head, his mind was in a daze, and his eyes began to blur. He was still a little conscious at last, his upper and lower eyelids knew how to fight, and he said silently in his heart that I can't sleep, I can't sleep, but the fighting power of the eyelids is getting weaker and weaker. .

When Gu Chaoming was about to make peace with his upper and lower eyelids, the math teacher on the podium finally couldn't stand it anymore.Gu Chaoming has noticed him since the beginning when his eyes were a little dull, and reminded him without calling names: "Some students are very comfortable in class, and there is no need to open their eyelids."

Cen Xili turned his head to look at Gu Chaoming, and found that it was Gu Chaoming that Old Chen was talking about.Cen Xili immediately pushed the sleeping Gu Chaoming with his elbow. Gu Chaoming opened his eyes and looked at Cen Xili who was pushing him in a daze.

Gu Chaoming's neck was as dry as if it hadn't been oiled, and he turned his head to look at the math teacher on the podium. The math teacher saw that he woke up, and thought he was not a repeat offender, so he didn't hold him accountable, and continued to teach.

Gu Chaoming shook his head amidst the math teacher's continuous lecture, repeating in his heart: "Can't sleep, can't sleep!"

After shaking his head and continuing to listen to the class seriously, Lin Jianfan turned his head to look at him, and Gu Chaoming smiled at him.

Chatting at night, Lin Jianfan kept urging him to go to bed early, fearing that he would be scolded by the teacher for sleeping in class tomorrow.

"Okay, okay, I got it, I obey, I'm going to sleep." Gu Chaoming said.

Nerves are numb by the day-to-day study, only the countdown on the wall changes every day, and everything else remains the same forever.The homework is piled up one by one, and the refills are one by one.

Every day, my mind is full of studies, exams, and nothing else.As soon as he was in the third year of high school, the clothes Qu Yingyi bought for him were replaced by review materials and supplements. She couldn't make soup for Gu Chaoming in different ways like Cen Xili's mother did. She could only do her part Help Gu Chaoming buy something he needs.

Gu Chaoming still didn't tell Qu Yingyi that he moved out. Apart from handing over the things Qu Yingyi bought to him in person, the rest were still sent to his previous home, so Gu Chaoming had to take a car to his previous home to pick up a courier. side to go.

Please, Gu Chaoming doesn't care. What Gu Chaoming cares about is not letting his mother know that he moved out.

Once when I was picking up a courier, I met Aunt Cheng from the canteen on the road. Aunt Cheng took her young son with her. Gu Chaoming followed them with the courier, walking at their pace, not daring to overtake them, lest Aunt Cheng see him ask Dong Ask West.

Aunt Cheng didn't notice him, and walked to the station in a thrilling manner. Gu Chaoming turned over the express box to see what his mother bought him, it was quite heavy.

Before seeing the courier slip, someone patted his shoulder, and Gu Chaoming turned his head while holding the courier box.

Zhou Han had long sleeves and a jacket over his body. The school started and the month of endless study passed quickly. Gu Chaoming didn't think the weather in October would be so cold.

The sun was shining, and the sunlight passed through the tree branches on the side of the road. The shadows of the tree branches and the sunlight fell to the side of the station together. Gu Chaoming only wore a thin unlined garment.

"I caught a cold, and my mother asked me to wear more clothes." Zhou Han explained.

"Why are you back again? Didn't you move out?" Zhou Han asked after explaining.

Gu Chaoming pointed to the courier box in his hand: "I'll come and get the courier."

"Go here to get it?" Zhou Han didn't know that Gu Chaoming didn't tell his mother about his move out.

Gu Chaoming smiled copiously and changed the subject.

"How did you do in the exam this time?"

"It's not bad, it's not bad, it's not bad, it's a normal performance, how about you?"

"I generally."

Chatting with Zhou Han to the car, Gu Chaoming got on the car with the courier box in his arms, found a seat by the window and sat down.

The sunlight outside the car window ran into the car and rested on the courier box that Gu Chaoming was holding.

The courier bill was up, and it was Qu Yingyi who bought him food again.Gu Chaoming held the express box with both hands to prevent the express box from falling, and looked out of the ever-changing window.

Sunshine stuck to his palm, and he accidentally learned that Gu Tao hadn't come back for a long time while chatting with Zhou Han at the station.

"I don't know if your dad didn't come back, or if he didn't see anyone when he came back at night. Anyway, I haven't seen him for a long time."

Zhou Han said so.

Hearing the name Gu Tao again, Gu Chaoming advised himself not to think about it.Fingers clasped the edge of the paper express box.I said at the seaside that the past will go to hell, so don't think about it anymore.

But when he looked out of the window, Zhou Han's words kept lingering in his mind, and Gu Chaoming didn't care at all about the passing scenery outside the window.

After entering the third year of senior high school, the noisy second class was much quieter. After class, many students devoted themselves to struggling with homework.

Quiet time, repetitive time, tiring time, like copy and paste, Gu Chaoming feels that time stands still, just like now.

To solve a difficult problem that he couldn't do, Gu Chaoming exhausted his brain cells and couldn't get the correct answer after using a few pages of draft paper. He was going to ask the No.1 in his class and his boyfriend Lin Jianfan for advice.

Gu Chaoming raised his head from the homework he didn't know, looked in the direction of Lin Jianfan, touched the position where Lin Jianfan was, and Gu Chaoming's eyes were tightly attracted.

In the quiet classroom, Lin Jianfan looked at the exercises on the table, but took the water glass on the table without looking.Blinking eyes, as if thinking of an idea, first write down the idea in the exercise book without drinking water.

After finishing writing, he put down the fountain pen, retracted his hand and slowly unscrewed the bottle cap, and raised his head to take a sip of the water in the water glass.

The Adam's apple twitched, and it was the island where Gu Chaoming's sight landed.

He is already a boyfriend, but Gu Chaoming still likes to watch him secretly, especially in class. Lin Jianfan looks at the blackboard seriously. The boy has a slender neck, and the sunlight adds a circle of velvet light to him.

That boy seemed to have stopped time and the wind.

Life in the third year of high school is ordinary and tasteless. Studying is the main ingredient of life in the third year of high school, and Lin Jianfan is like the sweetener of the main ingredient. Everything in the third year of high school, no matter how bitter or bitter, can become sweet with his presence.

One afternoon, when class was about to start, Gu Chaoming was still washing his hands in the sink outside the toilet, not in the toilet on the third floor.Gu Chaoming hurriedly washed his hands and was about to run back to the third floor for self-study in the morning.

After washing their hands and walking towards the third floor, a group of people came out of the teaching they had studied before.

It was almost time for class, and the number of people who walked out of the same class one after another, looking at the textbooks in their hands, Gu Chaoming guessed that they were going to another open class upstairs in the afternoon.

Not wanting to be late, Gu Chaoming, who was in a hurry to go back to the third floor, got in from the crowd, and the dropped homework caught Gu Chao's attention.

Afraid of being trampled dirty by the people behind, Gu Chaoming bent down to pick up the homework on the ground.When he saw that the girl had dropped the homework book, Gu Chaoming hurried to the girl and patted her on the shoulder and handed the homework book to her: "The homework book was lost."

After handing the homework book back to its owner, the class preparation bell rang at this moment, and Gu Chaoming accepted the girl's thank you and hurriedly ran across the third floor in front of her.

When I ran away, I noticed that the girl looked at him as if she knew him. Do they know each other?

On the way back to the third floor, Gu Chaoming recalled the girl's expression, and when he picked up the homework, he glanced at the girl's name—Fang Niya.

I seem to have heard it somewhere, until I ran back to the classroom and saw Su Bing and Gu Chaoming in the seat.

oh!Fanny!

Su Bing said "She knows you, but you don't know her" Fang Niya!

Gu Chaoming never thought that he would meet her.

After class, Gu Chaoming ran over to Su Bing and said, "I saw Fang Niya on the road."

When Fang Niya was mentioned, Su Bing was as surprised as if he mentioned a prostitute for some reason.Obviously there was nothing wrong with Lin Jianfan, but Su Bing looked at Lin Jianfan, and after seeing Lin Jianfan, he looked back at him, tried his best to give him eyes, and used the excuse of going to the bathroom to drag him out of the classroom.

Gu Chaoming: "?"

Lin Jianfan sat in his seat and looked at Su Bing suspiciously while dragging Gu Chaoming to the back door of the classroom.

"What are you doing?" Gu Chaoming broke free from Su Bing's shackles.

Su Bing took Gu Chaoming to a corner, looked around and found that Lin saw that Fan hadn't followed, then turned around and said to Gu Chaoming who didn't know what was going on, "It's different now, brother, don't mention the name Fang Niya."

"Ah?" Gu Chaoming looked confused, didn't he mention it before?He also said to show him the photo.

"What's wrong?" Gu Chaoming asked.

"Uh...how do you say it..." Su Bing organized his words and asked Gu Chaoming: "Faniya didn't tell you anything?"

"We just gave her my homework and left in a hurry. What can I say? Oh, yes, she said thank you to me."

Gu Chaoming nodded slightly after finishing speaking.

"That's good, that's good." Su Bingshu breathed a sigh of relief, as if he was relieved.

"What happened?" Gu Chaoming asked.

Su Bing gave a soft "tsk", then sighed and asked Gu Chaoming: "Do you really want to know?"

Seeing Su Bing's twists and turns, Gu Chaoming hesitated for a moment, and then nodded: "Tell me, why can't you mention it? Why can't you make a precondition in front of Fan?"

Knowing that he can still think of countermeasures, Gu Chaoming hates not knowing, and feels uncomfortable thinking wildly in his heart.

Su Bing said, "Don't be too shocked."

Wait, wait, wait, don't be too shocked, Gu Chaoming: "Speak quickly if you have something to say, and let go of fart quickly."

Su Bing said in a deep tone: "Faniya told me that she likes you."

"She likes me???" Gu Chaoming's doubts were written on his face without translation.

After class, the third floor of high school was not as noisy as it used to be in the second year of high school. There were still struggle slogans hanging on the wall in the corner where Gu Chaoming was standing.

"It's not... this..." Gu Chaoming opened his mouth for a long time but couldn't say a complete sentence.

Fanny?Is that the name?Fania likes him?He was secretly in love with a girl whose name he couldn't remember?

No wonder Su Bing didn't let him mention it in front of Lin Jianfan.

"Are you serious?" Gu Chaoming looked at Su Bing suspiciously, "Didn't you lie to me?"

Su Bing's expression was unbelievably exaggerated, even Gu Chaoming could hear his sudden angry breathing.Su Bing spread his hands and said angrily to Gu Chaoming: "My ancestors, why did I lie to you? You still suspect me, what good is it good for me to lie to you? Why did you lie to me?"

Seeing Su Bing's angry look, Gu Chaoming knew that he had said something wrong, so he quickly appeased the angry Su Bing: "Okay, okay, it's my fault, I didn't doubt you."

"I'm telling you seriously, I'm not joking with you." Su Bing said seriously, "I know you like Lin Jianfan very much. It's hard for you to be with someone. As a brother, I can't destroy it. I know Fang Ni Ya likes you, and you like Lin Jianfan, I don't help her anymore."

"Huh?" Gu Chaoming felt something was wrong when he heard it, "What did you help her?"

"Uh, this...it's nothing," Su Bingang was still serious, but felt guilty again, "Just...sent a photo to her."

Having been with Su Bing for so long, Gu Chaoming knew that Su Bing had not "confessed leniently" when he saw Su Bing. Gu Zhaoming approached Su Bing: "What else? Have you revealed my whereabouts to her?"

Su Bing shook his head immediately: "How is it possible? That's personal privacy, what if she follows you?"

"You still think about the consequences, which means you have thought about it." Gu Chaoming said.

Su Bing was forced back by Gu Chaoming: "...uh... Anyway, I didn't tell her, don't worry."

"What else did you do for her?" Gu Chaoming asked, "How did you betray your brother?"

"Where is this betrayal? She said that you are his male god, so she asked me to give her something. I gave it to you at the beginning and you didn't want it."

"Send something? When?"

"Grand one." Su Bing answered truthfully.

Freshman?Gu Chaoming's freshman year in Gu Chaoming's memory was like a lump of paste, so sticky that he couldn't tell what happened at which time, it seemed like a snowball, and the whole freshman year was kneaded together.

The main reason is that during that period of time I was too muddled, I didn't know what I was thinking or doing all day long, and I still had the cynicism of a 16-year-old boy.

The past days seemed to be in another world. Gu Chaoming, who was promoted to the third year of high school and prepared for the college entrance examination, recalled those days and felt as if he had changed his body.

In the past, his body was covered in mud, smelly and dirty. Gu Chaoming, a senior in high school, seemed to have gone through a baptism to wash away the mud on his body and lived once.

The baptism of Gu Chaoming's life happened in the second year of high school, a year that happened frequently, a year that changed his life.

In that year, his parents divorced, he began to study hard, and was with Lin Jianfan...all happened in that year.

After being baptized, Gu Chaoming really couldn't recall anything about Fang Niya, so he asked Su Bing, "Did Fang Niya talk to me?"

"It seems not." Su Bing said with a reminiscing expression.

"She likes me without even saying a word? It's still in the freshman year of high school?" Gu Chaoming found it incredible.

"I don't know either. She didn't say it before. I just said that you are his male god. Don't tell me not to tell you. I didn't say I like you. I didn't care."

"I know you weren't with Lin Jianfan when she liked you, but I can see that you like Lin Jianfan, so I didn't tell you."

Gu Chaoming didn't expect that his good brother would "sell" him without him knowing, let alone that there was a girl who liked him since the first year of high school.

It didn't feel like being crushed by someone, and now I don't feel any real feeling.

"The last time I mentioned her to you at my house, before she told me that she liked you, I thought she was a school girl who admired you. After all, there are so many things in school where you swung You Sanjin into a one-armed chair. Everyone knows that she is your fan girl, and I am not surprised. At that time, I could feel that you liked Lin Jianfan, and Lin Jianfan also liked you, and I felt that neither you nor him were just for fun. You finally had one The person I like, of course I will help you match. Although I was just talking casually at first, but later I saw that you like each other, I stopped joking, and really hoped that you would be together. Fania told me She likes you, and I don't want her to trouble you, and I'm not sure about her sincerity, so..."

It turned out that there was such a complicated reason behind Su Bing's teasing of him and Lin Jianfan. After hearing Su Bing say a lot of things he couldn't think of, Gu Chaoming looked at Su Bing and couldn't say anything.