the world in which he exists

The wind carries the smell of summer, and the sun pulses with a dry and hot breath.

The closer to the third year of high school, the more pressure will accumulate virtually, and the more homework will be written.After tiring study, he finally had a physical education class to relax. Gu Chaoming borrowed a basketball and took Lin Jianfan, Cen Xili and Su Bing to play on the basketball court.

Lin Jianfan didn't know how to play very well. When he entered the court, he just wanted to watch and cheer for Gu Chaoming like before, but Gu Chaoming pulled him to prevent him from being lazy: "Combining learning and playing, optics is not enough, and exercise is also necessary."

Su Bing on the side listened to his words: "Gu Shuai, don't imitate my speech, you used to be the same as you don't play with optics."

"That was before." Gu Chaoming said.

Two of the four were not very good at fighting. Gu Chaoming and Su Bing led them to fight until the physical education teacher blew the whistle to gather.After playing, my body is covered with hot sweat, and my body temperature rises vigorously, like a fire burning the sunny playground.

It just so happened that it was Su Bing and Cen Xili's turn to put away the sports equipment together, and Gu Chaoming had the opportunity to go to the sink with Lin Jianfan to wash their hands.

The physical education teacher announced the dismissal, Su Bing walked towards the piled sports equipment, and Gu Chaoming walked through the dispersed crowd to find Lin Jianfan on the other side of the queue.

Looking through the gradually dispersed crowd, Gu Chaoming saw Li Zhao jumping on Lin Jianfan's back as if playing around.Li Zhao's weight bent Lin Jianfan's back downward, and Lin Jianfan pulled Li Zhao's arm hooked around his neck to prevent Li Zhao from falling and getting hurt, with a playful smile on his lips.

Li Zhao is Lin Jianfan's best friend in class, and Lin Jianfan's deskmate. It's normal for a boy to play around with me and I with you.

Gu Chaoming walked up to Lin Jianfan's side and didn't care about Li Zhao who was lying on Lin Jianfan's back. After a few seconds, Li Zhao had had enough fun and jumped off Lin Jianfan's back.

"I'm covered in sweat, and you still jumped on it." Lin Jianfan said to Li Zhao.

Taking advantage of the first moment when Li Zhao jumped down, Gu Chaoming walked behind Lin Jianfan, put his arms on Lin Jianfan's shoulders, and half wrapped his arms around Lin Jianfan's neck, as if hugging from behind.

Gu Chaoming asked softly in Lin Jianfan's ear, "I'm also sweating, so it shouldn't matter?"

Li Zhao was present, Lin saw that Fan pushed it away, and it was not true if he did not push him away.Gu Chaoming's chest was pressed against his back, and through two pieces of thin summer fabric, Lin Jianfan could even slightly feel the breath in Gu Chaoming's chest.

Lin Jianfan hesitated whether to push Gu Chaoming away, and remembered that he promised Gu Chaoming at the hospital gate that day that he would not hide their relationship from others, Lin Jianfan's hesitation finally settled down.

He didn't push Gu Chaoming away, but let Gu Chaoming hug him casually.

If it's Li Zhao, it shouldn't matter, Lin Jianfan thought.

I don't know if Li Zhao saw the clues, anyway, Gu Chaoming finally took Lin Jianfan and walked towards the pool.

On the way, Gu Chaoming suddenly ran up to Lin Jianfan, bent down slightly, turned his back to Lin Jianfan and waved to him: "Come up."

Physical education get out of class ends earlier than usual, and the teaching building is so quiet that only the sound of reading is left. Students in physical education on the playground all go to the teaching building or the canteen.Lin Jianfan looked at Gu Chaoming's slightly bent back and didn't ask why. He seemed to understand why Gu Chaoming suddenly wanted to carry him on his back.

Still looking around worriedly, Lin saw that Fan jumped onto Gu Chaoming's back, wrapping his arms around Gu Chaoming's neck.

Lin saw Fan lying on Gu Chaoming's back and said, "Stingy."

So he knew, Gu Chaoming thought, although he thought it was normal for boys to fight, but he was still jealous.

Carrying Lin Jianfan on his back, he walked to the pool for a simple rinse. There was a toilet by the pool. Gu Chaoming asked Lin Jianfan to wait for him, and he went to the toilet.

After using the toilet, he found Lin Jianfan, who was by the sink, waiting for him outside the toilet door, while a thin and short boy by the sink was facing away from them and wiping the water stains on his face with a paper towel.

When he got closer, he glanced at it, and Gu Chaoming realized that the boys' school uniforms by the pool were a bit dirty, and there was still a faint red color on the paper towels they were wiping.

Gu Chaoming was very familiar with that color, it was the color of blood wiped on the paper with water, and it was the color he could often see when he was beaten by Gu Tao or fought with others to clean his wounds.

"Did he get bullied? Or did he fall?" After walking by the pool, Gu Chaoming looked back at the boy by the pool and asked Lin Jianfan.

"I don't know." Lin Jianfan shook his head.

The injured boy whose tissue was dyed light red was just an extremely small episode in Gu Chaoming's life, and he was forgotten by Gu Chaoming as soon as he went upstairs.

Life without Gu Tao is a beautiful movement, every little thing becomes a beautiful note.

The world suddenly became beautiful, and the notes danced happily on the keys of Gu Chaoming's life.

There was one thing that Gu Chaoming didn't know whether it was joy or sorrow, because he didn't know Guan Hui, so he couldn't figure out whether it was good or bad.

At the beginning of school, it was difficult not to see Guan Hui. He ran to the sophomore year of high school every day and liked to scare people. He circled around Cen Xili. Gu Chaoming and Su Bing thought he was annoying and annoying, but they couldn't do anything about him.

I don't remember when Guan Hui began to limit the number of times he went upstairs, so Gu Chaoming and Su Bing had to point them out when they saw him looking for Cen Xili.

"Look, outside, Guan Hui."

One day, on the way back from delivering things for the teacher, I met Guan Hui who didn't know what he was going to do. Gu Chaoming greeted him, but Guan Hui grabbed him and asked, "Did you go to KTV last time?"

Guan Hui felt that it was strange enough for Gu Chaoming to hold him, so why should he ask this question?

"Yeah, what's wrong?" Gu Chaoming said.

"I heard from Su Bing that you mentioned me?" Guan Hui asked.

Um?Gu Chaoming felt that Guan Hui's problem was getting more and more strange. He seemed to see a little sign, but Guan Hui quickly extinguished this sign.

"I heard I'm out of action?" Guan Hui smiled when he said this, a curious and indifferent smile, as if this was a very fun thing.

As if it was a game, Gu Chaoming couldn't grasp Guan Hui's temperament, whether he was smiling for real or fake.

It's best that he doesn't like Cen Xili, if he does, then I'm sorry.

Gu Chaoming didn't want to get involved in the matter between him and Cen Xili: "It's true, but Su Bing told you that he mentioned you, but didn't he tell you what Xili said?"

Guan Hui felt that Gu Chaoming was too troublesome, and urged him to speak quickly.

Gu Chaoming repeated the conversation at that time exactly: "Su Bing told Xi Li not to hang himself on a tree, look at others, and then talked about you, Xi Li said at that time, 'how did you talk about him?'"

In order to avoid misunderstanding, Gu Chaoming also said: "I didn't say the last sentence, it's Xi Li's original words."

In the aisle, under the school banner, Guan Hui's eyes moved. Gu Chaoming couldn't understand what Guan Hui's eyes meant.

Before he could understand Guan Hui's eyes, Gu Chaoming had already given up guessing, and decided that there was absolutely no sadness in Guan Hui's eyes, because Guan Hui said later: "I still said how to talk about me, I like seniors very much. Yes, but it's a pity, the senior doesn't like me, hahahaha..."

After Guan Hui finished speaking, he laughed, Gu Chaoming frowned slightly, and Guan Hui was like this again, casually perfunctory, making jokes that weren't funny.

Gu Chaoming was not sure about Guan Hui, whether Guan Hui liked it or was making fun of Cen Xili.But after a few days, Gu Chaoming stopped thinking about which of Guan Hui's words was a lie and which was the truth, because Guan Hui did something that none of them thought of.

Gu Chaoming was not present when Guan Hui did that. Su Bing, who was present, described it in such a way that Gu Chaoming could only think of how Guan Hui, the little devil's apprentice who witnessed them, said that sentence.

"Did he really say it?" Gu Chaoming asked.

"Really, I heard it with my own ears, and it was loud." Su Bing said.

After Gu Chaoming and Lin Jianfan got together, from time to time there would be one less person in the trio of the second and second grades of high school. When he was not around, Su Bing liked to complain about him, complaining that he valued sex over friends, neglected righteousness when he saw sex, and couldn't think of the first time. In the three idioms, these two words are used cyclically.

When it comes to relationships, although foursomes are fun, they always need a little time for two.When Guan Hui said that to Cen Xili, Gu Chaoming and Lin Jianfan were spending their time together.

Su Bing was stretching out of boredom in the classroom, and was called by the girls in the class to move materials together.

"Hey, what about the boys in our class, why do you ask the flowers in our class to carry materials?" Su Bing stretched his waist and said with a smile.

They called Cen Xili, who was also fine, and the two girls walked in front, while Su Bing and Cen Xili followed behind.When he met his classmates on the road, Su Bing pulled them and wanted them to move books together, but none of them could shirk.

Su Bing and Cen Xili went to the textbook room only to find that there were not many textbooks at all, and both he and Cen Xili moved a little less.

Maybe a lot for girls, Su Bing thought.

The two girls in the same class wanted to move some more, but Su Bing took them and said, "This is too much for the two of us, give it to us, and we will move it."

The girls came back empty-handed and walked ahead arm in arm to chat together. Su Bing and Cen Xili walked together with the textbooks in their hands, and the girls chatting in front looked back from time to time.

Su Bing held a pile of books in his hand and looked at the cover to see which subject it was.Walking to the canteen and wanting to buy something, he asked Cen Xili if he could go, but Cen Xili said he was troublesome.

"Go shopping after finishing the book," Cen Xili said.

"I don't want to come down again." Su Bing said.

Cen Xili did not accompany Su Bing to the canteen, but went to the side under the shade of a tree and put the materials on the road one step higher under the shade of the tree to wait for Su Bing.

Last summer, when Lin saw Fan just came to school, Gu Chaoming and Su Bing helped him move books and rested under the shade of this tree.

Cen Xili put away the materials in his hands, and before he got up, he felt someone pat on his right shoulder, but he didn't find anyone when he looked to the right, only the road leading to the teaching building and the green shade on the roadside.

Someone moved behind him, and someone patted his left shoulder again. Cen Xili knew that Guan Hui must be behind him. Except for Guan Hui, no one would be so boring.

"Stop making trouble." Cen Xili straightened his back and said.

Guan Hui, who was teasing Cen Xili, was caught by Cen Xili who turned around.The captured Guan Hui's Adam's apple twitched, swallowed a mouthful of saliva, and retracted his hand that wanted to continue messing around.

Suddenly the obedient Guan Hui and Guan Hui stopped teasing his hands, making Cen Xili almost think that he was speaking too harshly and scared him.

But just now he just said a normal sentence, without any particularly strong tone, what's wrong with Guan Hui?

Cen Xili felt an inexplicable mistake in his heart.

Just like talking with Gu Chaoming about whether he likes Cen Xili or not, Guan Hui is always very serious at first, and then he makes a joke to let you know that your self-blame or worry just now is bullshit, and he is just lying to you.

Seeing the worried expression on Cen Xili's face, Guan Hui laughed: "You don't think I'm scared by you, do you? I'm not that timid."

One sentence made Cen Xili feel that his self-blame just now was bullshit.

When Cen Xili felt that his self-blame was bullshit, Guan Hui laughed on the surface but scolded himself inwardly.

What are you talking about?What about being calm?

Senior Cen was worried about you just now.

Forget it, I've said it all, but the way senior Cen said just now to stop making trouble is so cute.

Cen Xili didn't know that Guan Hui was so talkative in his heart, he didn't know what Guan Hui was thinking, he didn't know and he didn't respond.

"Who are you waiting for?" Cen Xili didn't speak, but Guan Hui asked.

"Su Bing."

"Why did he go?" Guan Hui walked over to the materials that Cen Xili had put down, took a copy and casually flipped through it.

"Shopping at the commissary," Cen Xili said.

"The senior is also in his third year of high school, so he won't be in the same building as me."

"Ah."

Cen Xili stood under the shade of a tree and looked towards the canteen to see if Su Binghui had returned.Guan Hui found that Cen Xili's attention was not on him, and continued: "Senior, what do you want to study in the future? My father asked me to study medicine and let me inherit his mantle."

Guan Hui smiled and took the material book in his hand as the mantle in his words, and held up the "mantle" that his father wanted him to inherit.

Cen Xili glanced at him and asked, "Do you want to learn it yourself?"

The material book fell and fell into Guan Hui's arms.Guan Hui took a step closer to Cen Xili: "Sure enough, it's better to be a senior. Only you ask me if I want to study medicine. My family is all doctors, so I agree to study medicine. The same goes for driving a motorcycle. Only you, senior, will listen to me about driving. "

Cen Xili didn't want to lie, he told Guan Hui the truth: "Actually, I also heard you say that the racing car is about to fall asleep, and I'm not interested."

"But you still listened." Guan Hui took a step closer to Cen Xili holding the material book, "No one else wants to listen to me."

Getting too close, beyond the normal range, made Cen Xili feel uncomfortable.Cen Xili did not move away silently, Cen Xili felt that the movement of moving away silently would be very hurtful to those who approached actively.

When rumors about him and You Xin were in full swing in the first year of high school, he stood in line at the cafeteria window to buy food, and behind him was a classmate who might have heard about the affair between him and You Xin.Ben stood behind him without incident, but after realizing that the person in front was him, he silently moved away a distance where others thought there was a person between them.

Cen Xili had received such treatment, he didn't want Guan Hui to experience this feeling, and he didn't want to do such hurtful things himself.Cen Xili did not dodge silently, but chose to say directly and clearly: "Don't get so close."

Cen Xili thought he had chosen a more appropriate method, but he didn't know which method would actually hurt Guan Hui.

Because Guan Hui likes him.

Because he doesn't like Guan Hui.

After Cen Xili finished speaking, he took a step away, and when he moved to a normal distance, he saw Chen Haiyang who happened to be passing by, looking towards him.

There was no You Xin around Chen Haiyang. Before seeing Chen Haiyang, you could always see You Xin, but not recently. Cen Xili heard that they seemed to be arguing and no longer communicated.

Heard that the quarrel was fierce, Cen Xili didn't know if it was true or not, he just heard it, but it is true that Chen Haiyang and You Xin have not been seen walking together recently.

I don't know if it's because of the quarrel with You Xin or seeing Guan Hui beside Cen Xili, when Chen Haiyang passed by Cen Xili, he didn't provoke him as before, but walked past him pretending he didn't see anything.

Cen Xili didn't care about him, but Guan Hui beside him, like Su Bing and Gu Chaoming, was angry with Chen Haiyang who passed by.

"He's been alone lately," Guan Hui said.

"Who?" Cen Xili didn't realize it for a while.

Guan Hui nudged his chin and pointed to the gone Chen Haiyang with his chin.

Cen Xili wondered how Guan Hui knew about the relationship between Chen Haiyang and You Xin. Before Cen Xili could ask, Guan Hui spoke again.

"I heard that you like You Xin?" Guan Hui still had not put down Cen Xili's class material book in his hand.

Cen Xili didn't understand why he suddenly mentioned You Xin.

Cen Xili hadn't started to explain yet, Guan Hui only gave him a few seconds to explain after he finished asking him.

A few seconds later, Guan Hui took the information book and said to Cen Xili: "Come and like me, brother will make you happy to heaven."

Cen Xili looked at him: "Stop joking."

"I'm not joking," Guan Hui said.

Guan Hui asked Cen Xili if he liked You Xin. He did not just think of it by chance, nor did he think of asking when he saw Chen Haiyang. It was Cen Xili's step back and Cen Xili's words "don't get so close" that made him ask. out of that problem.

Cen Xili would retreat because of his approach, but would willingly follow You Xin who was pushing the cart.

Obvious gap.

Guan Hui's expression was serious when he said "I'm not joking", and Cen Xili saw his serious expression on Guan Hui's face for the first time, no longer the indifferent expression of a child.

Guan Hui was serious because he felt that Cen Xili should make up for the step back. Cen Xili took a step back and he made up for it. .

Cen Xili felt Guan Hui's seriousness, the seriousness of his junior who was only a kid and never considered being a boyfriend.

The sudden confession made Cen Xili stunned for a moment, and the question on his face showed Guan Hui that he was surprised, and that he had never thought of him like that before.

It's true that they don't like it, Su Bing and Gu Chaoming are not lying.

Faced with Guan Hui's confession that caught people off guard, Cen Xili chose to back up again. The step back just now was just a step under the foot, and the step back now is a joint step back of body and soul.

Cen Xili picked up the pile of material books on the ground and ran away in a hurry, leaving behind only one sentence, "Be modest when you joke, I'll go first."

The textbook in Guan Hui's hand was forgotten by Cen Xili, who fled in a hurry. Fortunately, Su Bing, who came out of the canteen, brought it upstairs.When Su Bing came out of the grocery store, he heard Guan Hui shouting in the direction where Cen Xili was leaving under the shade of a tree.

"I'm serious, Cen Xili."

That was the first time he was actually called Cen Xili by his full name.