The following guilty

Liu Yuan hurried downstairs, annoyed why the gecko drove the car away yesterday, gritted his teeth and wanted to call himself a **** animal.The road in the community has never been so long, and no matter how hard he ran, he couldn’t reach the end. He finally went to the side of the road and called a taxi. The weather was too hot, and the taxi was stuffy like a small steamer. He was soaked in sticky sweat. Hugging Gu Heng in the back seat, calling his name from time to time, her voice trembling.

"Teacher Gu, Teacher Gu." He could only call out these three words back and forth, the palm holding Gu Heng's right hand was soaked, and after holding back for a long time, he squeezed out a few more urgent words: "I am here , I'll be with you, don't be afraid."

Gu Heng woke up slightly as if he heard it, and then fainted again with his eyelids closed. Liu Yuan raised his heart to his throat, and embraced Gu Heng in his arms. Like holding a handful of firewood, the tighter Liu Yuan hugged Gu Heng, the more his chest was about to explode. If it weren't for both hands holding Gu Heng, he would have slapped himself hard.

It was like a war all the way, finally arrived at the hospital, and immediately opened a bed for Gu Heng to do a blood test, the diagnosis was pancreatitis attack, fainted due to too much pain, to put it bluntly, he fainted from the pain.

"That, how painful it is..." Liu Yuan was in a daze in the consultation room holding the bill.

"Everyone's sensitivity to pain is different. Some people are born unable to bear the pain, which is normal." The doctor replied lightly, while writing down: "The patient is fine, no surgery, conservative treatment is fine. Okay, stay in the hospital for two days, go and pay the fee."

After finishing speaking, he raised his head and said, "By the way, you still need to get the patient's medical insurance card."

"Oh, okay." Liu Yuan saw the doctor and summed up what had worried him for more than an hour, and summed it up lightly. He couldn't tell what it was like in his heart. Fortunately, Gu Heng was fine. When he came, he suspected that Gu Heng might have appendicitis. He had an attack, but he didn't expect it to be pancreatitis. He remembered that seeing Gu Heng receive an injection in the hospital in winter was also because of this disease. He couldn't help but wonder when Gu Heng fell into this problem?

He went upstairs to the ward to take a look, and saw that Gu Heng was still asleep, but his face had calmed down a lot, not as painful as in the taxi.One of Bai Chai Chai's arms was stretched out beside the hospital bed, and the needle was inserted in the back of his hand, which was connected to the shelf along the transparent infusion line. Finally, Liu Yuan felt a little at ease, and he closed the door and left without disturbing him.

After leaving the hospital, Liu Yuan took a taxi to Gu Heng's house to get his medical insurance card, went into the bedroom, and opened the desk drawer to search for it.

For some reason, spying on Gu Heng's supplies made him feel uneasy excitement in his chest, especially in the name of a medical card, so calm and guilt-free, he touched Gu Heng's touch with his fingertips. Everything that happened, he touched his textbook full of words, his hand cream, his teacher card, and the one-inch ID photo in a small transparent plastic bag, he picked them up one by one and told Jianbao It seems to have seen it.

He found Gu Heng's card bag, took out the medical card, looked up and saw a post-it note that Gu Heng had pasted on the computer, which was a string of network domain names, so he pulled a post-it note on the table and pulled out Gu Heng's pen , Scribbled it down, folded it into a square, and put it in the trouser pocket together with the medical card. Then he walked to the living room and saw Gu Heng's mobile phone on the coffee table.

Pick it up, press it to light up, slide it to the side, and it's locked.

He weighed the white phone in his hand, said to himself, "What a broken phone...", opened the back cover, took out the card, took it and left.

Back at the hospital, Liu Yuan took the card to issue two receipts and handed them over to the nurse at the nurse station. When she looked at the receipts, she raised her head and said frivolously, "The patient had pancreatitis six years ago. Be careful."

"What? Six years ago?" Liu Yuan was surprised.

"Here, look, here." The little nurse pointed to the receipt, "It's clear, six years ago—almost seven years ago, I came here for a checkup."

Liu Yuan calculated in his mind that the two of them should have been together six years ago, but he really didn't have this image. He frowned and half leaned beside the nurse's station, making the little nurse blush and half smiling Said: "Don't worry too much, and urge your friends more in the future, eat lightly, exercise more, and keep warm at ordinary times."

Liu Yuan didn't know whether he listened or not, with a deep line between his brows, he sat thoughtfully for a while, then nodded.

"That's all right." The little nurse said with a smile: "You can go to the ward to have a look after the medicine is prescribed. Your friend is already awake." Liu Yuan suddenly regained his energy: "Awake?" left.

Entering the ward, seeing Gu Heng leaning on the head of the bed, holding a thin, transparent disposable cup in his right hand, sipping steaming boiling water, Liu Yuan walked over and sat beside his hand, hesitating for a while without knowing what to say. , looked at his pale face hidden behind the mist, and asked in a low voice, "You had this disease six years ago?"

Gu Heng lowered his eyes to drink water, and said lightly: "No." As soon as he opened his mouth, he realized that his throat was extremely hoarse, and he cleared his cough.

Liu Yuan sighed, "You really... scared me to death today." Then his eyes sank: "Whether there is or not, I have to apologize to you, after all, at that time... I was still your boyfriend, and I didn't take good care of him. You are my responsibility." As he said, his eyes fell on Gu Heng's fingertips holding the water glass, the tip of each fingertip was in an extremely delicate oval shape, making people want to close it Give it a shake.

Gu Heng shook his head, with no expression in his eyes, and said sickly: "It's nothing. Thank you for your hard work in sending me to the hospital today, how much it cost, tell me, and I will give it to you when I go back and get the card."

Liu Yuan was angry from it, and thought to himself, is it so clear that the relationship is so far?Just when he was about to have an attack, he changed his mind and was afraid that Gu Heng would be embarrassed. Considering that he also had self-esteem, he slowed down his tone and replied with a little annoyance: "... Got it."

After finishing speaking, he took out the charge sheet, put it by his lap, looked at it quietly, put it in his pocket and said seriously: "By the way, you just woke up, and I have something to discuss with you. My company will have foreign suppliers next week. The person in charge of the translation company came to investigate, and the translator resigned temporarily due to errands, and there is no one to be found for a while, otherwise you can come and help replace him, just a few days, the price we give is quite high, do you think about it?"

Gu Heng squinted at him, and flatly refused: "I have never been an interpreter before."

"I know that you have never worked as an interpreter. We have simple negotiations with foreign leaders. It is not difficult. Your level is sufficient."

"Why don't you invite someone else?"

"It's a long story. Our vice president has a personal relationship with me. When he heard that the translator had resigned, he recommended his cousin to replace him. But his cousin was too weak and didn't want to do it at all. I couldn't call him The personnel department is openly recruiting people, otherwise it will refute his face, so I have to say that I have an interpreter here. Actually, I don’t have one, and I don’t have time to look for it for a while, so I want to invite you... No, please, Help me, look, okay?"

Gu Heng blew the hot air in the water glass and said, "How can you not even find a translator if you spend more money?"

Liu Yuan didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "We are a regular company, and we pay taxes for our salaries. It's not justified for a translator to pay too much money." Come and do me a favor."

"Didn't you just tell me that the price is quite high?"

Liu Yuan was stunned by his words, thought for a while and said sincerely: "Money, there is quite a lot of money...it's mainly others, I can't believe it—"

"You can trust me?" Gu Heng said lightly, "Didn't you say... I'm dangerous?"

Liu Yuan was so angry that his eyes were staring, he stood up and said in a loud voice: "When is this? I can't wait! My project is almost lost. Now as long as I can be a translator, I would like to be a Buddha offering!" Said After that, he sat down again and faced Gu Heng face to face. Relying on his two-year 'old friendship', he boldly asked him: "In a word, do you want to help?"

Gu Heng lifted a pair of sunken thin eyelids, looked at him, wondering if it was true or not, seeing that his expression was anxious, and he didn't seem to be cheating, so he fell into hesitation.

"This Saturday, come to work at the company." Liu Yuan said neatly, "I'll call the personnel later.

Sitting down with a sigh of relief, he carefully observed Gu Heng's expression, saw him hanging his head, thought he was angry, but heard him suddenly speak softly:

"It hurts, does it hurt?"

Liu Yuan was taken aback, followed his gaze and looked down, and found that there was a small red mark on the side of his hand. He didn't know when it was scratched, and the blood around it had dried up. He half-sighed and looked at it with relief. That wound: "I don't hurt."

Gu Heng nodded.

"Then I'll go to work first, you should have a good rest, and I'll pick you up tomorrow." Liu Yuan subconsciously held his hand by the hospital bed, and suddenly let go with a jerk, Gu Heng didn't have time to react, With an indifferent expression: "No need."

"Then you pay attention to safety on the road tomorrow." Liu Yuan didn't force it, got up and wanted to leave, then turned his head and took out a mobile phone from his pocket and handed it to him, writing lightly: "By the way, your mobile phone is broken, use mine. "

"How could it be broken..."

"do not know."

"You—" Gu Heng looked at the closed door of the ward, and turned his head sullenly.

Walking out of the door of the ward, Liu Yuan spread out the palm of his right hand and looked at it, feeling a little shocked.Just now, my brain short-circuited, and I touched Gu Heng's hand.

However, the cold touch at that moment seemed to be still in the palm of his hand.The thin joints were so light that they were weightless when pinched, and he exerted great restraint to release them.

He has a premonition, and since this time, he has always had a premonition, as if there are some huge things, dormant and hidden in the dark, only revealing the tip of the iceberg.This feeling made him very uneasy.

He took a taxi back to his parents' house, went straight to his former bedroom, rummaged in the bookcase for a long time, and finally found a sculpture design, which was his competition work back then. Looking at the date in the lower right corner, his heart skipped a beat.

Sure enough... Gu Heng was hospitalized when he went to Beijing, what was his reason at that time?I have almost forgotten, in short, it is definitely not the truth!He didn't have the slightest impression of Gu Heng's illness!

Thinking of the two people living under the same roof every day, he actually did so many things so quietly and secretly, but he didn't know anything... He still came back every day to eat his meals and hug him to sleep. I didn't realize that there was something strange about the person in my arms!

Liu Yuan turned pale with shock, and could even be said to shudder!A strong sense of guilt spread throughout his body, and his anxiety became more and more intense. His chest was itchy and panicked, as if a bell was hanging to remind him:

How many things did Gu Heng hide?

He took out the folded paper from his pocket, turned on the computer in the bedroom, entered the domain name on the desk, and a blog popped up on the screen, with some pictures and simple text, like a diary.

He put his index finger on the mouse wheel, and gently wiped it down, and a picture of the sculpture room appeared. The silver classroom was empty, and the seats were scattered around. Only some gray plaster statues stood still, with an English sentence below :

rainyday, someone was sitting here.

Liu Yuan's heart froze, and his nasal cavity was a little sour. He hadn't missed this classroom, missed the faint smell of mud, missed the loneliness of sitting there and carving, just waiting for someone to appear, in order to show him Hearing his praise and admiration for his proud works, he did not hesitate to wear calluses full of pain.

Thinking of the past, Liu Yuan's eyes dimmed.

He continued to browse.

[I am a person who follows the rules and never dares to deviate from the track of life.I have only been to the bar twice, once I met you, and once I was myself.The ending proved that I was not suitable for that kind of place.

I don't think I'll ever go in again for the rest of my life. ]

twice?The first time should be when he and Zhao Yiming went to a gay bar and happened to be bumped into by him

When is the next time?Why did Gu Heng go to the bar by himself?

His eyes widened, his heart beat uncontrollably, and he remembered that morning, the morning when they finally broke up!He smelled a strong smell of alcohol on Gu Heng's body, could it be...he went to the bar to drink alone, without Zhao Yiming?

But why did he get out of Zhao Yiming's car early in the morning?

Liu Yuan was at a loss, no matter how he stroked it, he couldn't figure it out.

Below are some photo records, a maple leaf, ice flowers on the window, holiday cards sent by students, and some small daily things.

[The anchovies at home gave birth to small fish, and from today onwards, there are fourteen more cute little things to accompany me. (/smile)(/cute)]

Liu Yuan evoked a very light wry smile, put his fist around his mouth, and shook his head.

When the mouse slid again, I was taken aback.

[Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry]……

The whole page is full of three words sorry!Liu Yuan opened his eyes wide, unable to imagine what happened at that time.

He scrolled down the page with trembling hands, and found that it hadn't been updated for a long time, except for the last one, which was dated the day he caught him having dinner with another man in a restaurant and drove him home.

And there was only a short sentence that day.

April 4

how do i accept two farewells

Liu Yuan held his breath, and his eyes fell on the user name above the blog.

Solitary marks

The author has something to say:

Speaking of this user name, I typed the name 'Gu Heng' once, and the input method displayed 'Guhen', it seems that it also knows that Mr. Gu is really lonely.