The following guilty

As if fulfilling a promise, since Gu Heng got out of the car that day, they haven't seen each other again, and they have lived peacefully for more than a month.

As soon as May arrived, the weather started to heat up. Sitting in the office, Liu Yuan turned his head to look at the floor-to-ceiling windows, only to realize that it was raining again.

It rains a lot in early summer, leaving transparent vertical lines on the floor-to-ceiling glass, like the traces of earthworms.

Whenever it rains, I will think of that person.

Until now, Liu Yuan finally has to admit that he still loves Gu Heng, and has not let go of it for so many years.But this kind of love does not conflict with his hatred for Gu Heng. These two opposite emotions are often mixed together, like densely fused bubbles, winding ups and downs, falling, and rising and falling again, even Liu Yuan himself can't get rid of them Distinguish clearly, or suppress it.

A sharp ring rang, Liu Yuan picked up the phone, and said, "Zixin is out of school." He said he got it, hung up the phone, put on his coat and left the office.

Rushing to the entrance of the kindergarten, the yellow fence gate has been closed, and there is an immature and well-behaved little girl standing at the gate, her round outline has been fringed with a layer of yellow fur. When she saw Liu Yuan appearing, she immediately cheered happily, naively A big smile appeared on that round face.

"Sorry, I'm late." Liu Yuan panted slightly, bent over and rubbed her slender hair, took her schoolbag again, and then took her soft little hand and said, "Let's go."

So, in the hazy and humid weather, Gu Heng walked out of the supermarket carrying two plastic bags, thinking that he had read it wrong.

He couldn't believe it when he saw Liu Yuan leading a little girl towards him. Today, he was wearing a neat black suit with a very eye-catching yellow schoolbag on his left shoulder. It made him extraordinarily tall and burly, like a solid and stable ridge on a map, Gu Heng was so shocked that he was at a loss, his mind went blank.

The two gradually approached and stood facing each other. Liu Yuan didn't look surprised when he saw him. He only glanced down and saw that he was holding a shopping bag in his hand. He asked, "Go shopping?"

Gu Heng nodded, his eyes unconsciously fell on the little girl.Seeing his gaze, Liu Yuan grasped the girl's hand knowingly, and said, "Hello, Uncle."

"Uncle - Uncle - good -" the little girl immediately said in a childish voice, a smile bloomed on her chubby cheeks, and a pair of big obsidian-like bright eyes blinked.

Looking at this soft and innocent little thing, Gu Heng slowly smiled, bent down and said softly, "Hello. How old are you?"

"My name is Liu Zixin, and I am three years old this year." It seems that I often introduce myself.

Gu Heng nodded, looking at the bright pupils of the little girl, with such a dark expression, it was almost exactly the same as that person upon closer inspection.He laughed more and more heavily, the muscles on his face seemed to have been anesthetized, and he couldn't accumulate a smile.He realized that he shouldn't be too embarrassed, so he nodded vigorously to the little girl's bright smiling face, bent his eyes and said, "You are very good."

"Are you ready to go back?" Liu Yuan interrupted him.

Gu Heng looked up at him, straightened up, and hummed.

Liu Yuan looked at those light-colored pupils, which were looking straight at him urgently, with a hint of yearning expectation flashing inside.He knew that Gu Heng needed an answer, but he just averted his eyes lightly, squeezed the little girl's hand and said, "Zixin, goodbye to Uncle Gu."

"Gu—uncle—uncle—see you again—" the little girl shook her fat, white arm like a lotus root, and smiled sweetly.

Gu Heng was taken aback for a moment, his eyes suddenly dimmed, but the corners of his mouth were still raised, maybe because he felt a little uncoordinated, so his eyes curled up again, and he said softly, "Goodbye."

Then look at the backs of them leaving, gradually, the corners of the mouth come down, looking at a dusty shadow under the feet, which is reflected faintly on the ground with light rain, it becomes a kind of... lonely.

Gu Heng couldn't remember how he got home that day, he only remembered that after Liu Yuan left, he stared blankly at the tall and short backs, turned around and walked home, and was very calm along the way, staring at Liu Yuan intently. For the road ahead, I almost didn't think about anything, and I didn't dare to think about it.

No, you can't think about it, don't think about it, that's it, that's what you see, it's nothing.

Think about today's news, no, I haven't read the newspaper yet, so I think about what I want to eat... It's worth thinking about, by the way, what food is left in the kitchen?

In the evening, eat at night... eat, stir-fry meat with bamboo and bamboo shoots, and make tofu soup...

No, can't think about it!How to make tofu soup?Put the water to boil first, then cut the tofu, if necessary, cut neatly, not spread...

Next, put a spoonful of salt, no, half a spoonful, and then, then...then what to do?Hurry up, hurry up and remember...

Gu Heng pinched his palms with his fingernails, constantly forcing himself to think, thinking wildly, first thinking about today's meal, then thinking about school affairs, thinking about the students' mid-term grades, the director's speech during the meeting, what to do tonight ppt, the revised teaching plan... As he thought about it, he went upstairs and opened the door, mechanically changed his shoes like a marionette, then walked to the bedroom and sat down at the desk.

He didn't know what he was going to do, he touched the pen with his fingers here and there, picked it up as if he was rescued, and pulled off the cap with a crisp sound, there were too many things that couldn't wait to be released from the narrow nib .So he randomly grabbed a piece of letter paper, buried his head in brushing and writing, and the ink faded after only two words were written, leaving only a row of white marks. He shook it a few times vigorously, and smeared circles on the paper like crazy.

I can't write it, why can't I write it! ! ?The nib of the pen was clogged tightly, not even a drop of ink could pour out, just like his heart at the moment.

He dropped the pen, and grasped the letter paper with his veiny hands, gripping it tighter and tighter, and slowly clenched it into an ugly mass of waste.

After only one month, such an unbelievable thing happened out of nowhere—Liu Yuan actually has a family?

He didn't tell himself at all...why, why didn't he tell himself?

So what are you?What are the things you did in Yangzhou?

Isn't such a self... too shameless? ?

Gu Heng was terrified, thinking that he would actually do such a thing, oh my god... He buried his head in his arms in pain, deeply regretting, hating himself for being cowardly, hating himself for not knowing how to refuse, hating himself for nostalgia, hating His body could not help but desire him, he did something wrong, and even became a person who meddled in other people's feelings... Such a self was so humiliating that he despaired!

He suddenly got up and threw himself on the bed, stuffing his head into the soft and fluffy quilt, thinking that in another dimly lit part of the city, someone bought him vegetables, cooked for him, took good care of him, and raised his children. , He had fantasized that that person was himself, he even fantasized that that person would always be himself!

But now, he was only fit to do that kind of adultery with that person in that dark hotel room with the curtains tightly closed!He has fallen to this point!

Once this kind of thought breaks through the valve, it can no longer be held back. The more Gu Heng thinks about it, the more he hates it, the blood in his body is flowing quickly, he feels like a small boat floating on the sea in a heavy rain, being caught by a group of people. I remember that the strong waves beat so high that the fragile hull of the ship was completely smashed into pieces, and it tumbled into the sea and fell into the darkest depths.

What else can save it...

"Brother! I just received the news that Deputy Director Chen has been double-regulated!"

"What!!" Liu Yuan, who just got home and changed his shoes, was stiff and his pupils suddenly dilated.

"The news is true! It is extremely true! At this juncture, our project is about to start, come to the company to think about countermeasures! Where are you?" Gecko said anxiously over there.

"I just arrived at my father's house, so you can wait for me at the company and wait until I go." Liu Yuan stabilized his tone as quickly as possible, and put on his coat again while holding his mobile phone, "It will be fine, don't worry—" —”

"Aren't you staying at home for dinner today?" Mother Liu hurried over from the living room.

"Don't eat," Liu Yuan unscrewed the door, turned around as soon as he took one foot, took off the small pink water bottle hanging around his neck, and stuffed it to Liu's mother: "Zixin's. I'm leaving .”

"Eh?" Mother Liu supported the door frame and said, "Slow down on the road."

The matter of the official getting off the horse was not a big deal, but Liu Yuan rushed to the office and saw the gecko inside, and when the door was closed, he heard him scolding impatiently: "Damn it, you paid us so much money. He was arrested if he didn’t do anything.”

"Shut up." Liu Yuan frowned, "It's already like this, there's no point in scolding."

As the project was about to start, Liu Yuan remained calm. In the next period of time, he quickly contacted his acquaintances and contacted the newly appointed officials to re-fill money and activities.Now I'm busy, I've worked so hard to make appointments for dinner and drinks, I go to sing after drinking, and I find a club to continue drinking after singing.

During this period, Liu Yuan accompanied him all the way, every sentence was guessed by you, and his face was stiff with laughter, and he poured wine into his stomach like water, and finally heard a few looser words. It was finally done, and was carried into the car by the gecko at two o'clock in the middle of the night.

"Mr. Liu...Mr. Liu...?" Gekko turned his head while holding the steering wheel, "Where are you going today?"

Liu Yuan lay weakly on the back seat, and said in a muffled voice, "Go home."

"The one in Chaoming District?"

Liu Yuan didn't say a word, and the gecko thought he had acquiesced, stepped on the accelerator and drove on the road. After driving for a while, Liu Yuan suddenly raised a heavy arm, slapped the front seat hard, and said angrily: "You Where are you going! Go to Shanxi Road!"

"Mountain, Shanxi Road?..." The gecko hesitated to say anything, but didn't dare to say anything, turned around silently, and drove towards Shanxi Road along the empty night road.

The author has something to say:

Is the amount of information in this chapter a bit too much?

Well, the next ten chapters (twenty chapters?) towards the end of the sprint may contain a little bit of information, so please hold on.

Weakly speaking, due to the recent addition of a subtitle group (brain pumped), all kinds of busy dogs, so the update may not be stable during this period, so... no matter what, it will be updated within three days, if I don't update... please You are mercilessly whipping me orz with messages, thank you everyone.

In addition, thanks to the angels who gave me the nutrient solution