The following guilty

In an instant, Gu Heng suddenly remembered many things.

It turns out that I like myself, so I come to me for tutoring. It turns out that I like me, so I come to Qinghai Lake, and I buy those gifts for myself. It turns out that I like me, so I am so close to me at this moment...

It turns out that they all like themselves.

"Teacher Gu..." Seeing him turning his head away slightly, making a habitual evasive movement, Liu Yuan leaned forward and said, "You have feelings for me too. Don't you?"

With a bang, Gu Heng's body seemed to have countless hot particles being smashed away, his blood was heated up, rushing upwards one after another, making his brain feel dazed and his scalp numb slightly.He closed his eyes and inhaled slowly, shaking his head, "Xiao Yuan, it's not...it's not what you think..."

"Ms. Gu... don't you like to hear my voice?"

Gu Heng turned his head away fiercely, arched his back and trembled slightly, "No..."

"Is it very emotional?"

"...No...No..."

"Then what's going on down here?"

"...Xiaoyuan...don't..." Gu Heng just shook his head desperately, unable to utter a complete sentence with a trembling voice, he admitted that he did react, only because of Liu Yuan's few words.The great shame was about to bury him, and he wanted to get into the floor under his feet.

"Teacher Gu." Liu Yuan lowered his voice, "I miss you every night."

"Do you miss me?"

"Xiaoyuan!...Stop talking..." Gu Heng stopped loudly, eyes tightly closed.

"Don't let me tell?" Liu Yuan asked calmly, stood up and said condescendingly: "Then behind... you can do it yourself."

Gu Heng opened his eyes in an instant, and stared blankly at the table in front of him, as if he hadn't realized all this yet.

Only the sound of footsteps could be heard, without stopping at all, they gradually drifted away until the door was closed with a bang.

Liu Yuan just left.

After washing, Gu Heng lay on the bed, stared at the ceiling intently with a calm face, as if he wanted to make a hole in the plastered cement and bricks in the wall, and then through that hole, he could see a round silver crooked moon in the sky. .

There was no movement in the community outside, and needles could be heard in the bedroom. It was as if the whole world had fallen asleep, but Gu Heng was the only one who was awake. His fermented brain gradually became rational under the silence, and his thoughts became clearer and clearer.

From the very beginning, Liu Yuan entangled himself in order to persuade himself to give him tutoring.

Why did you agree to come?

It's because... It's because I went to the bar with Zhao Yiming.That bar is still very special, it seems to be...

Gu Heng's eyes widened and he solved a difficult problem like peeling cocoons, he forgot the most important point.

He forgot that Liu Yuan could see him, which meant that he was also inside.Then he is...

Is... gay?

Huge panic swept over Gu Heng's body, he recalled all the things Liu Yuan had done uneasily, and couldn't help feeling terrified.He should have found out!I am just a teacher, and to Liu Yuan, that little value is not worthy of how good he is to me, but I am blindly immersed in the joy of being with him, unwilling to think clearly about the reason.

I blame myself, I blame myself for causing him that kind of illusion, how should it end now?

"Teacher Gu."

"I miss you every night, do you miss me?"

Liu Yuan suddenly appeared in his mind, like a hungry tiger rushing towards him, Gu Heng shuddered all over, and immediately sat up in shock.

He knew that he would not be able to fall asleep again tonight, so he sat down at the table again, reached out and turned on the lamp.Wearing a single pajamas at night, cold and unwilling to move, just want to sit like this all the time, except for the occasional heavy sigh, there is no movement.

Very upset, inexplicably upset, my fingers tore the letter paper on the table.

Gu Heng, what are you bothered about?he asked himself.

If you don't like him, why not just reject him?

Don't you like him?

Gu Heng desperately shook his head, that's not the case.

But his impulse towards Liu Yuan was real, he still remembered the strange trembling feeling just now, no matter how much Gu Heng shook his head, the thought in his mind would never go away.

Do you like him?

Cooking for him because you like him?

Letting him sleep on his shoulder is also because he likes him?

Cheating for him, reconciling with him, knitting gloves for him, taking all the things he gave you...

It's all... Do you like him?

In the next few days, Gu Heng was in a trance, and even made mistakes in class. He walked into the classroom with a stack of textbooks and escaped in a hurry with laughter. He picked up his phone and looked:

It turned out to be Tuesday already.

Tuesday? !

Gu Heng quickly sent a text message:

- I have something to do tonight, so you don't have to come.

After a long time, there replied: Got it.

"Senior?"

Liu Yuan closed the phone, looked up, and was stunned.

"That...have you read what I wrote for you?" Zhao Yiting raised her face and asked.

Liu Yuan thought for a while and said, "Look."

"That……"

"You don't like me anymore."

"Why, why...?" The girl's face suddenly turned pale.

"Why are you all..."

"Why don't you let me like you?"

Liu Yuan sighed and said: "Our matter is a bit complicated, so don't ask, anyway, you should choose someone you like, I'm really not suitable."

"Then can we be friends?"

Liu Yuan stared seriously at the gloomy and last hopeful eyes in front of him, knowing that she was Zhao Yiming's younger sister, and clearly wanted to reject her, but perhaps his heart had softened after staying with Gu Heng for a long time.

He took a deep breath, nodded, took out something from his bag and said, "Take this to you, Mr. Gu, be careful."

"What is this?" Zhao Yiting took it carefully and asked.

"A decoration, tell him that it won't break this time."

Gu Heng had to admit how timid he was, and he didn't even dare to go to school every day. The moment he stepped out of the house, his steps became heavier and heavier.

Yesterday I received what Liu Yuan asked Zhao Yiting to give me. When I opened it, I saw a Guanyin that was so sticky that I could hardly see any cracks. There was also a carved wooden one next to it, which was the same size and shape as the other one.

"Senior Liu Yuan said that it will not break again in the future."

"Well, I see."

Gu Heng held the Avalokitesvara in his hands, looked left and right, he knew that the child carved it himself, and groped gently with his thumb.

He thought with shame and trepidation: Liu Yuan was too kind to him.

But myself, why should I continue to enjoy his goodness?

He couldn't even break with Liu Yuan.

Walking up the stairs after class, Gu Heng kept reminding himself, don't think about it, as long as you don't think about it... When the kid's novelty wears off, they can go back to the past...

"Teacher Gu."

As soon as Gu Heng raised his head, his eyes widened in horror.

"Are you avoiding me?"

Liu Yuan looked no better than him, the two faint black shadows under his eyes must have not slept well, and made his whole body even more gloomy, and suddenly turned into dark clouds and pressed towards Gu Heng.

"How long are you going to hide?"

"...No, no."

"Teacher Gu, whether you are hiding from me or not—"

Gu Heng turned his head away, waiting for him to utter a harsh word, but the person in front of him said:

"I haven't seen you for a few days, I miss you very much."

Gu Heng's heart tightened, he held on to the railing, his chest was slightly sucked in, he subconsciously took a step back with his right foot, and suddenly stepped on the stairs——

"Be careful." Liu Yuan grabbed his wrist.

Gu Heng stabilized his body and set his eyes on that hand.The two were very close, and Gu Heng's breathing began to be abnormal, faster than before, and he felt that the surrounding oxygen was not enough, like being covered with a plastic bag, the more he breathed, the thinner he was.

"Mr. Gu, I have a lot to say to you, I didn't finish that day—"

"I do not want to hear."

"I'll just say it once. There is an equipment room diagonally across from the old playground in the South Campus. I will wait for you there at noon. If you don't come, I will wait until you come."

His voice was very calm, as if he was reading out some legal document, which would take effect immediately after reading.

Gu Heng was still standing, desperately inhaling a large amount of oxygen secretly, unable to refute a word.The hand was still held on his wrist, and a thin layer of sweat formed at the joint, moist and slightly hot.

"What are you thinking?" asked the person in front of him.

When Gu Heng raised his head, he was facing the pair of thick black eyes staring straight at him.

"Thinking about how to reject me?"

Gu Heng shook his head slowly, no, I won't refuse you, because I won't go at all.Thinking of this, he suddenly stretched out his left hand, and wiped off the burden on his right wrist, then turned around and ran down, quickly disappearing between the stairs.

Gu Heng no longer remembered how he escaped to the office, and when he regained his composure, he was already sitting on the office chair.

dong dong.

Teacher Li at the next table knocked on the partition,

"Ms. Gu, this is the form you made last time, please paste it before handing it in."

"Hey, okay."

Gu Heng picked up a roll of transparent glue and slowly tore it apart, recalling what Liu Yuan said just now, due to extreme nervousness, he almost forgot what the two of them had said.

Only the phrase "If you don't come, I will wait forever" is particularly clear.

He rubbed it hard with his fingertips, but the transparent glue was not broken.

Gu Heng lowered his avatar to compete with it, he stuck a thin hand of glue but he kept pulling it no matter what, like an omen.Gu Heng was out of breath, snapped it away, leaned over and buried his face in his arms.

The air conditioner was turned on in the office, exuding a sense of comfort. No one spoke to the teachers, only the sound of flipping papers. Gu Heng hid himself behind his sleeves. After a while, his eyes were wet Yes, blinked, but no tears fell.

He sniffed, got up and flattened the homework paper with his hands, and began to correct the homework.

After a while, I lost my mind again.

Still holding the red pen in his hand, a piece of red ink had gathered on the gauze homework paper, Gu Heng looked down, was startled, and quickly took out a tissue to absorb the excess ink.

An hour later, the teachers in the office packed up their things and got ready to leave work.

"Teacher Gu, don't you want to go?"

"Well, you go first."

Gu Heng sat in the office by himself until 12:30, and the graph was half done, and he couldn't do it anymore.

Want to see it?

Just take a look and see if the child is really waiting for me to heal. Letting others wait is not my style of doing things, and I will feel guilty.

While comforting himself, Gu Heng got up unconsciously, and walked towards the playground in the south courtyard.

The author has something to say:

Mr. Gu is also one of thousands of ordinary people, it is not easy for him to make a choice