My personality collapsed after I hit the actor

In fact, the taste in Cheng Lu's mouth was numb to Heng Xing, and he didn't feel it.At least for now.Time can dilute many things, and can also fill in many things.It's a porter of young and old, joys and sorrows, and it's really... magical.

But before it has time to move?Happiness will continue to be happy, and pain will continue, just like Cheng Lu at this moment.

If he hadn't taken the initiative to find him, Heng Xing didn't know how long this guy was going to hide from him.

The two sat on a bench by the flower bed of the hospital, just in the shadow of the back sun, and there were not many people coming and going.

"Change Auntie to another hospital!" Heng Xing curled up his right index finger, and scratched on a leaflet, rustling.

Cheng Lu squinted his eyes and glanced at the distance. There was a forest in the distance, lush and full of vitality. "I also said at first that I wanted to change it, but my dad disagreed. He said it was too far away from home and it was inconvenient to take care of him. After all, he had to live, and Cheng Xiang was still in school, so he needed to take care of all aspects." Cheng Lu looked away. , glanced at Heng Xing, full of helplessness.

"It doesn't matter if you don't change it. I know a very famous oncologist. I have already said hello. I will be here in two days." Heng Xing released his left hand from the leaflet, and moved to the bench. Cheng Lu pressed the edge Leng's fingertip touched it, "You can ask auntie to cooperate with the examination, he is quite experienced in this field. But, you know, this kind of disease——"

"It's okay, I'm prepared." Cheng Lu turned his head and met Heng Xing's eyes.After all, life and death cannot be controlled by anyone.People can't always live in fantasy, reality is always reality, whether you want to or not, you can only accept it, life imposes it, and you have no choice.

Heng Xing completely covered the back of Cheng Lu's fingertip with the hand that just touched his fingertips, and the slender and strong joints seemed a little tense due to a little force. "I'm going to see my aunt."

Heng Xing bought some fruit and milk, it happened to be Sunday, and Cheng's father and Cheng Xiang were also there.

Seeing someone coming, Cheng's father quickly got up and moved a chair over.Mother Cheng seemed to have just fallen asleep, so she didn't say much. "uncle."

Just a simple hello.

Cheng's father didn't seem to be in a particularly good mood, and the two exchanged a few simple greetings, and Heng Xing and Cheng Lu came out of the ward again.

Because the hospital had limited beds for rest, Father Cheng and Cheng Xiang were also there. When the evening approached, Cheng Lu took Heng Xing home.

Open the door and go in, the house is empty.Normally, at this time, every time Cheng Lu came home, he would smell the aroma of rice coming from the kitchen.Especially in high school, this feeling is particularly profound.To be precise, it should not be called Fanxiang, but the taste of home.So until now, Cheng Lu didn't know why Heng Xing was so good at cooking. Maybe it was his way of creating a taste of home.

Cheng Lu glanced at the freshly bought vegetables in his hand, changed his shoes, and said to Heng Xing, "Are you hungry, do you want to cook together?"

"Let me come!" Heng Xing stroked his sleeves, took what Cheng Lu was holding, turned around and went to the kitchen. "You can just take care of the food." After the figure disappeared into the kitchen, another sentence came faintly.

Cheng Lu glanced at the busy figure in the kitchen, walked forward slowly, embraced Heng Xing's waist, and pressed his chin against the only neck bone of Heng Xing's back that he could reach.

"You're like this, how can I cook?" Heng Xing turned around, and because the distance was close enough, his mouth rubbed against the tip of Cheng Lu's nose.Maybe Cheng Lu, who has been depressed for many days, wants to collapse a little bit, and it seems that he has finally found a breakthrough that can be relieved. The body imprisoned in the body finally waited for a beam of sunlight that can penetrate the hard shell, and the sunlight passed through many obstacles. Finally, he burned a hole in his body with his own blazing heat. Although the hole was still small, the flesh inside seemed to have seen the hope that he could be rescued from the darkness.

There was a little redness at the end of Cheng Lu's eyes.

Heng Xing felt that it would be better for him to cry, but this was what he was afraid of.

Heng Xing pressed his forehead against Cheng Lu, rubbed the tip of his nose against his, raised a hand to touch the rough green stubble on his chin and said, "Look at you, your beard has grown so long, and you don't even know how to shave it. Scratch. How else can I be a national idol?"

Cheng Lu twitched the corners of his mouth with dry lips, and finally squeezed out a smile.But the corners of his eyes were still red, as if the strong camouflage he had been pretending to be for so many days could finally be unloaded, and his emotions were so unscrupulous that he couldn't take it back no matter what.The two hands changed from tightly grasping the cloth of Heng Xing's waist to tightening it backwards, rubbing the tip of the noses of the two of them at an angle and lifting their chins to come closer.

Cheng Lu kissed endlessly, and finally Heng Xing stopped with a strong will and put his forehead against his, covered Cheng Lu's cheeks with both hands, and opened a little distance again, "Could it be that you Don't plan to eat, fill your stomach with kisses?"

"It's okay, anyway... I don't feel very hungry recently. I don't have much appetite." After Cheng Lu finished speaking, he was about to post it up again, but Heng Xing took him into his arms directly before him.

"Baby, you are just in your 20s, and your days are still long. There will be more accidents and surprises waiting for you to face in the future. The only thing you can do is to take good care of yourself Facing the blows brought by these accidents. Some things will happen sooner or later, but some will come early and some will come later. You have to learn to be open. Do you understand? Remember, do everything you can That's fine, after all, life has to go on. Everyone and I are still waiting to see you shine on the stage." After Heng Xing finished speaking, he turned his face and kissed Cheng Lu on the base of the ear before letting him go. "Okay, you go to the living room and wait, otherwise we will have to eat this meal until midnight—"

Speaking of being strong, Cheng Lu felt that he was ashamed of himself in front of Heng Xing, and even a little hypocritical.

"Then I'll just stand here and watch, it's okay." Cheng Lu took a step back, leaned against the door frame, and put his hands in his trouser pockets again.

A meal was cooked intermittently, and eating was extremely slow. It was the first time in half a year that Cheng Lu ate slowly in front of Heng Xing, but it was not something to be thankful for.

But early the next morning, Cheng Lu's gloomy mood seemed to dissipate in a flash, and he looked very normal. Heng Xing also knew that he didn't want to worry about himself.

Forget it, let it be like this, there are some things that must be left for time to digest.

……

Time can really make people get used to everything. Half a year is neither short nor long. Cheng Lu went from being unacceptable at the beginning to becoming flat, until finally he sent Mama Cheng away calmly. , It seems that there is not much fluctuation in emotion.

On the day when Cheng's mother left, it was raining, and the mood of everyone present was as gloomy.Cheng Lu also couldn't tell whether it was tears or rain that covered the tip of his eyes. In short, it was so gray that he couldn't see clearly and blocked his sight.What was supposed to come finally came, but he was already mentally prepared for this matter as early as half a year ago.Today, he has been able to face all this very well.

After half a year of mileage, Lu took care of both ends, and his body, which didn't have much fat, looked even thinner. At the same time, it also earned Heng Xing a lot of distress.The kind of pain that involves the heart, liver, spleen, lungs, kidneys and internal organs.So Heng Xing would come over to accompany him whenever he was free at work, and often research some delicious, stomach-friendly dishes for Cheng Lu to eat.

Half a year later, "Returning to the Past" was also officially launched, and the response was very good, ranking first in the ratings, and the word-of-mouth was overwhelming.Cheng Lu, who started again, also devoted himself to his work, like a workaholic.

Nothing seems to have changed.But only Heng Xing knew that he had become clingy, very clingy.

Cheng Lu came down to announce to return to the hotel, took out his mobile phone from his pocket, turned to the familiar number and dialed it:

The phone was connected after two beeps.

"Baby, what's the matter?" Heng Xing's nasal voice seemed a little heavy, as if he had a cold.

"Did you catch a cold? Is it serious? You need to take medicine, don't resist it. It is necessary to go to the hospital for a look."

In addition to being clingy, sometimes you will make a big fuss.

It is true that Heng Xing has stayed up for several nights recently, and his body is a bit overwhelmed. "It's okay, I have a common cold, I'll take some medicine and it will be fine."

Soon Cheng Lu's phone also heard some rustling sounds of fingers picking the aluminum foil wrapping paper on the pills. In the past six months, he was most familiar with this sound, and he is also the most sensitive to it now. "Aren't the things we packed up in your house in Nanyun last time still there?"

"Well, not yet. I've been too busy for a while, so I haven't taken care of it." Heng Xing took a pill in his mouth, took a sip of tea, raised his neck and swallowed it.

Cheng Lu took off his coat and hung it on the hanger next to him, poured himself a glass of water, and took a sip. "Then your Guangsha house should have been renovated long ago? When are you going to take me there to have a look?"

"What, are you in a hurry?" Heng Xing lay down on the bed and found a comfortable position.

Cheng Lu found a book from his suitcase, which was about medical health preservation and pathology, and he had been reading it recently. "I'm in a hurry, so when are you going to let me live in?" Between speaking, Cheng Lu had already taken off his shoes, sat on the sofa outside and flipped through a book.

Heng Xing's slightly half-closed upper eyelids narrowed like the half sun that had just emerged from the sea, "Anytime. You're so full of work, I'm afraid you won't have time to live. Why don't we be busy someday? Alright, take a day off to transport the things that Nagumo packed up. By the way, I will also transport you there. How about it?"

"Okay! Let's not talk about this for now. I'm going to attend Weiyun LeTV's all-star banquet the day after tomorrow. They still have some awards to be awarded. I heard that there are many stars gathered. Now I want to know, will your star go to the party?" ?" Cheng Lu flexed the index finger of his right hand and scratched the pages of the book boredly, making a rubbing sound.

Heng Xing took the water glass on the bedside table and drank himself two more sips of water. "I really don't know about this, I need to ask Ah Xuan. How about I make a call later and ask."

"Don't ask, I just said it casually." Cheng Lu directly slid his fingertips under the paper, turned a page, and continued to read, seemingly unaffected at all.

Heng Xing knew that he didn't just say something casually, the two of them hadn't seen each other for half a month, and he was afraid that he was just a little ashamed to speak.Clingy people belong to clingy people, but sometimes, Cheng Lu still likes to express in subtle ways.

Weiyun LeTV's all-star banquet is very grand, and there are quite a few stars present.Cheng Lu sat on the leftmost row of chairs, and the spotlight was not particularly dazzling.

Although the location is not particularly conspicuous, Zu Yuanzheng saw him at the first sight after entering the banquet hall. At the same time, Tang Yibai who was beside Zu Yuanzheng also saw him. Their new play had been completed two months ago. Currently in post-production.

"Cheng Lu, what are you thinking about when you lower your head?" Zu Yuanzheng stepped forward to stroke Lu and snapped his fingers.

Hearing this, Cheng Lu looked away from the phone screen, raised his head, and moved the phone to the side while putting the phone in his pocket, "Brother Yuanzheng, Yibai, long time no see!"

"Brother Cheng, it's been a real long time!" Tang Yibai seemed to be more confident than before, his eyes were bright and shining, especially when he looked at someone beside him.

Cheng Lu chuckled. What he said was true. The two met at the beginning of the filming of "Return to the Past". After he was changed roles, they really never saw each other again. "It's been a long time." Cheng Lu got up and shook hands with the two.

Originally, Cheng Lu was alone, but now there were three people sitting around a round ceremony table. Zu Yuanzheng and Tang Yibai took the seats on Cheng Lu's right hand in turn.

"Brother Cheng, you've lost a lot of weight, but you're really handsome on camera." Tang Yibai took a candy from the plate in front of him, peeled off the wrapper and stuffed it into his mouth.Zu Yuanzheng looked sideways at this little move.

"Really!" Cheng Lu was wearing a dark red suit, which made his skin whiter and more dazzling. His hair was sprayed with hairspray on his forehead, and the strands of hair hung down neatly and neatly, making it hard to mess up.Playing with a piece of candy paper in his hand, he folded it left and right, but it was always irregular and disobedient, looking stubborn and shackled, just like himself when he was young.very stubborn.Not convinced.

Zu Yuan was looking away from Tang Yibai, turned to look at Cheng Lu and said, "You have indeed lost a lot of weight, is it necessary for filming?"

"No, it looks good on camera." It really looks good.Of course I didn't do it on purpose.

"It was good-looking before." Zu Yuan smiled slightly, and turned his eyes to the stage.At this time, the host has already started to adjust the atmosphere on the stage, and there will be applause from time to time from the audience.

Cheng Lu raised his eyes and looked around the banquet hall, his eyes gradually changed from anticipation to bleakness.

At this time, it seems that it will not come.

"I saw Heng Xing when I first entered the arena. It seems to be in the backstage. It must be something." I have to say that Zu Yuanzheng's ability to observe words and emotions is first-rate, and he is as careful as a hair.

"Oh, that's right." Cheng Lu seemed to be deliberately avoiding after being exposed by someone, he quickly retracted the scattered eyes of the audience, refocused on the candy wrapper in his hand, and continued to fight against its shackles.But my heart was pounding.

The show started on the stage, and most of the guests who came to the scene were guests who had works broadcast on the Weiyun platform, such as Cheng Lu and Zu Yuanzheng's "Returning to the Past", which is currently on the air.Although the two are sitting on the far left side of the venue, the spotlights from the banquet hall will still shine on them from time to time, and the super-large screen that runs through half the stage on the stage will also flash a shot of the two of them in the same frame.It's like doing it accidentally and on purpose.

Cheng Lu was a little bored watching the performances on the stage one after another, he got up and said hello to Zu Yuanzheng and Tang Yibai next to him, and then went to the backstage.

Cheng Lu lowered his head and took out his mobile phone from his pocket, swiped it twice, turned around and sank into the bathroom.He went in and opened a unit door, closed it, and just when he unbuttoned the belt buckle to solve the problem, the sound of the phone next door slowed him down.

"I saw your son, and he still hasn't changed his bad manners at all. Now that he's very capable and famous, he doesn't even look at me."

"Oh, I forgot. In principle, he is not your son. He was adopted by your ex-husband, right?"

"That's right, your ex-husband's useless can't give birth to such a bloody thing. Do you regret abandoning him now?"

"What's your name? Now I'm the only one who can give you something to eat."

"Also, don't wait for me tonight, I need to relax."

……

Then the door of the unit next to Cheng Lu was pushed open and closed forcefully, and there was a loud "bang bang" sound.

There was a slight strangeness in Cheng Lu's heart, but his rationality told him not to think about it casually, and a few phone calls didn't mean anything.

Cheng Lu, who quickly solved his physical problems, walked out of the bathroom, turned around, put his hands under the faucet of the automatic water outlet, and washed them. A piece of facial tissue, wiped it, and threw the tissue into the waste paper bin next to it, and then returned to the banquet hall again.

In just a few minutes, it was time to present the awards. Cheng Lu walked inside and looked around, but he still couldn't see the person he was thinking of.Didn't Brother Yuanzheng say he's here?Why haven't you seen me?Thinking of the words I heard in the bathroom just now, I felt a little flustered inexplicably.

I have to admit that since Cheng's mother left, Cheng Lu's anxiety will always be triggered from time to time, which is much easier than before.

Realizing the problem, he is actually trying to adjust to avoid overthinking.

He also finally understood why Heng Xing's reaction was so great when he got closer to Zu Yuanzheng.There may be too much to lose, so any sign of trouble may be misjudged as nothing.

In his diary, he wrote that this is a road he carved out with his life.

Stepping down the thorns, saying that it is to better protect a person.

So on this road, I should walk better and steadily.