I'm sorry, I don't need a son

In the evening, Meng Churan deliberately delayed the time and didn't leave. Seeing that it was almost eight o'clock, he was still playing with Lele there. From time to time, the two of them laughed wantonly from the bedroom.

Zhong Chenxi wanted to remind him that he could get off work, because with him around, he always felt that the air was not right, and there was an unsettling atmosphere everywhere, but seeing Lele playing happily and laughing happily, he wandered around several times intentionally or unintentionally I couldn't bear to open my mouth at the door.

"Brother, this story is really nice, can you tell me another one?"

Meng Churan looked at the time, pretending to be embarrassed, "It's too late, my brother is going home, can I tell you tomorrow?"

"No, no, brother, don't go home, just live here."

"But, dad, he..."

"I'll go tell Dad."

The little guy is smart and can see through a little bit.

Lele ran to the living room and climbed onto Zhong Chenxi's lap.

"Father, let my brother live here, okay? I really like the stories he told me. Now that I'm on vacation, I don't have to get up early, so you allow me to sleep late and let my brother stay with me again."

Zhong Chenxi hesitated and didn't say anything, letting Lele rub against his body.

"Uncle, your hands are hurt and you can't get wet. I'd better help Lele take a bath before leaving."

"Dad, Dad, just promise, don't let brother go, okay?"

The wound was indeed deep, and the entire index finger was swollen, which hindered the movement of the left hand. It was really a problem for Lele to take a bath.

"OK then."

"Yeah, Dad, you're so kind, aren't you~~" Lele kissed Zhong Chenxi on the cheek, ran to Meng Churan's side, and blinked her eyes, meaning 'Look, I've got it done. '

"Brother, let's continue with the story."

Seeing the child's excitement, Zhong Chenxi no longer bothered by the little awkwardness in his heart, but felt much more at ease. How long has it been since the child was so happy? When the two of them are at home, because of their dull and calm personality, Therefore, his son seldom showed such a happy smile in front of him. Most of the time he played there alone, even if he told stories, he read books according to the script. From this point of view, Meng Churan is still qualified.

Even if I feel a little uncomfortable, I should do something for my son. Lele's childhood was monotonous, so I can't add another layer of gloom. Although I didn't do well myself, it is a good way to make up for it with other hands.

After bathing Lele and putting her back to sleep, it was almost 11 o'clock when Meng Churan came out of the room.

Zhong Chenxi was leaning against the bed and holding a law book and was reading with relish, his eyes were focused and his brows were tightly furrowed, giving people of his age an extra Chen Rui, or another kind of charming As for traits, Meng Churan didn't look closely at anyone, let alone pay attention to anyone, so he couldn't help but stop.

At the beginning, Zhong Chenxi was jumping and handsome in the sun, but now he is a still silhouette. The two temperaments are different, but they are condensed into one person. This has to make Meng Churan take a few steps into the room unconsciously, towards that direction.

Maybe he was so absorbed in the content of the book that Zhong Chenxi didn't realize that someone had entered until he got to the bedside.

Looking up, I bumped into Meng Churan's sweet smile, damn it, why do you always laugh like this.

"Chu...Chu Ran." Zhong Chenxi put down the book, flung the loose forehead hair in front of his eyes, and before he stroked to the side, Meng Churan took a step ahead.

"Uncle, you look so charming when you read a book." Hands passed through the hair, and bursts of fragrance invaded the nose, the uncle smelled so good, and the hair was so soft.

"Chu Ran." This action combined with all the previous ones made Zhong Chenxi immediately alert, and leaned his body inward.

"It's getting late, go to sleep, I've put the quilt on the sofa."

The cold breath was like ice cubes poured into boiling water, which immediately cooled down and brought Meng Churan back to reality, with a bit of embarrassment on his face.

Reluctantly withdrew his hand, his eyes drooped like a wounded puppy, "Then I'll go, good night, uncle." His tone was still soft, slipping like silk, but there seemed to be a little bit of disappointment here, Zhong Chenxi My heart was suddenly hit by something, and I felt like I was falling.

In the bedroom, he slid down close to the door, breathing unsteadily. This was the first time in 34 years that he encountered such an unexpected situation. He racked his brains and searched the memory of his brain, but he couldn't find the right words to describe this time and time again. touch.

Maybe I'm being too sensitive.

Probably because I have too much heart.

He was just a child, a boy, almost like his own son.

Zhong Chenxi, from now on, you have to work hard in this home, in this atmosphere with him, absolutely no such embarrassing things can happen again.

The wordless embarrassment was about to move again, which made him fall into a hard struggle.

……

"Of course...Of course..."

The person I was thinking of kept shaking in front of my eyes, the kiss was sweet, and the sweat was also sweet, all I could react was to hold him tightly, step into the vortex together, and be addicted to death.

"Chenxi, my baby..."

There was a violent storm, unstoppable and unstoppable.

"Of course, mine..."

Ah~~~ I woke up in a dream.

The stalling of the heart, the profuse sweating, the thirsty throat, and the wetness.

What's going on here?

How could this be?

It turned out to be with... him.

Everything you touch, feel, hear, and hear, everything happened as if it happened in real life. Just now, the flames of restlessness were still burning.

Zhong Chenxi thought about it, grabbed the hair with both hands and kept tearing it vigorously, trying to tear up this dream, trying to force this terrible feeling out of his body, trying to change himself back to the past.

Meng Churan, why did you come into my life.

The hour hand pointed to five o'clock in the morning, and there was a rustling sound outside the door.

Zhong Chenxi hurriedly got out of bed and went to the closet to look for clean clothes. The sticky wet piece and the dirty drip made him resentful and disgusting.

To still do this in your thirties is not only embarrassing, but shameful.

"Hey, uncle, you're awake. Did I disturb you? We have to wait for a while for breakfast, so you can sleep a little longer." Seeing Zhong Chenxi coming out of the door, Meng Churan sent out a good morning greeting with a smile. The pampering of his face made Zhong Chenxi almost think that the wet area was not a dream, but a reality.

Why is the heart beating violently even a few meters away? Is there really something wrong?

The sound of something falling in the bathroom.

"What's the matter?" Meng Churan ran over and saw that Zhong Chenxi was bending over to reach for the toothpaste that had fallen on the floor. Obviously, it was because of inconvenient hands that he couldn't unscrew the cap smoothly.

"Let me help you." He reached out to take the toothpaste in his hand, squeezed a little on the toothbrush, and handed it to Zhong Chenxi. The former smiled sweetly, while the latter avoided it.

Meng Churan also discovered that as long as he smiled at him, his eyes would be unnatural, and he blushed instantly and then avoided it. It turned out that the uncle was so shy, and seeing his cute kitten-like expression, his heart was tickled unconsciously, but the timing He didn't want to scare the uncle away before he arrived.

"You, aren't you cooking, why are you staring at me?" He took the toothbrush and pretended to be calm, and asked naturally.

"It's already done. Uncle's hands are not convenient. I'll wash your face for you later." Meng Churan supported the sink with both hands, looked sideways at the person in front of him, he could see all the expressions of the person in front of him, and felt very unhappy.

Zhong Chenxi never felt that brushing his teeth, washing his face, and shaving his beard was such a labor-intensive task. He didn't know what he experienced in that hour. The breath from the other party, the gentleness of his fingertips, and the eyelashes that swept from time to time made him feel more and more suffocated , The heart couldn't bear the load, and finally fled to the bedroom after washing it with clean water, and didn't come out until Lele trotted to call.

This uncertain desire made him blame himself, and he fought hard to cover it up.

Very hard.

After breakfast, Meng Churan planned to teach Lele an hour of English. Zhong Chenxi was fully dressed and stood five meters away from him: "I'll go out for a while, and I'll be back at noon."

Meng Churan got up to see him off, but Zhong Chenxi had already put on his shoes and gone out.

"Uncle, come back early. Let's take Lele to the playground together in the afternoon." Meng Churan opened the door and added, smiling as he watched his back disappear on the third-floor terrace.

Uncle, you can't hide from me.

In the hospital, Zhong Chenxi walked into the doctor's office holding the tortuous electrocardiogram.

"Doctor Chen, the examination is over, do you think there is something wrong with my heart?"

The continuous sudden increase in heartbeat made him restless and unable to work and live, so he finally decided to take a look.

Dr. Chen took the report card, looked at it a few times, and then at him.

"What's the condition of your heart now? Is it still beating hard?"

"It's normal now, no discomfort."

"When did you feel sick? How long did it last?"

"It didn't take long, about a week or so. The onset time is not fixed. It's just that when I come into contact with something, my heart beats faster and I feel out of breath. Sometimes I think about it."

"Can you tell me what it is?"

Zhong Chenxi lowered his head slightly, his face turned crimson, "This..."

Dr. Chen probably knew what was going on, so he didn't ask any more questions.

"From the list, you don't have any abnormalities, and they are all within the normal range. You can rest assured that there is nothing wrong with your heart. It may be caused by your excessive pressure recently. If you have time to go out for a walk, relax, and don't worry about some things." If you’re too stubborn, let nature take its course, don’t be optimistic, and don’t worry about it, just listen to your heart, listen to music, look at the scenery, these are all good for your health.”

"Don't I need to take any medicine?" Zhong Chenxi was still worried, what would he do if he encountered such a situation again, he couldn't always hide under the same roof.

"Hehe, comrade, you should look pretty big. You know if the medicine is three-point poisonous. What's more, what medicine do you take if you are not sick? Don't hide when things happen, but face them bravely. This is the solution to the problem." methods and medicines to cure diseases.”

He didn't even know the problems that old doctors over half a century old could see in him. We can't describe him as pedantic, but we should explain his behavior as deluded.

Yes, for the first time in my life, how can I blame him.

Walking out of the hospital with the report, half relieved, half still depressed.

What should I do, can anyone tell me what's wrong with me?

Sitting in the car in a daze for a while, I didn't know how to face Meng Churan when I got home, and how to breathe freely in the absorbing air.

"Uncle, when are you coming back?" When the phone was picked up, my heart began to feel uneasy again when I heard the voice.

"What's the matter?" He took a deep breath.

"Lunch is ready, we'll wait for you to come back, and we'll go out to play together after eating."

"Dad, come back quickly. I want the three of us to go to the playground together." Lele added, her tone full of anticipation and excitement.

Ever since Meng Churan came into life, Lele's laughter has never stopped, Zhong Chenxi has to admit this.

"Oh, I'll be home soon." Hanging up the phone, he let out a sigh of relief, started the car and sped away.

Along the way, he was thinking about what Dr. Chen meant by being brave in the face, whether he should accept Meng Churan as a man, or accept him as Lele's teacher, and if it was the latter, why would his heart feel so uncomfortable? Then if it is the former, how can this body change be explained? Could it be that he is... homosexual.

Impossible, if so, why is there still Lele, and why is she still married to a woman.

It must be caused by hormonal disorder and pheromone mutation, how could it be that.

This is simply more touching than a troublesome case.

The life that had been peaceful all the time suddenly splashed with small splashes, which made him extremely uncomfortable and even flustered.

The author has something to say:

Stupid uncle.