[First-year student] I am not him

Although I haven't had much contact with Jay over the years, we do have a few mutual friends.

But unexpectedly, it took a lot of effort to inquire about his residence.

But this time it strengthened my doubts.

If it wasn't for the fear that everyone would discover Nuan Nuan, why would he hide from the sight of so many people and live alone.

It is said that he lives alone, but he has actually lived in the same city as us all these years. Although it takes some driving, it is not too far after all.

This city is not too big, but since they are deliberately avoiding it, the chance of us meeting is really slim.

But I couldn't help thinking that maybe Nuan Nuan had seen us more than once.

Even though she is still alive in this world, she is already a dead person to all the familiar people. I really can't imagine what kind of life Nuan Nuan has lived in these years.

The sun gradually went down, and our car finally arrived at Jay's residence.

We are neighbors who grew up together. We thought that he would choose a suitable apartment for rent like us when he left home, but we didn’t expect it to be such a wide courtyard.

But without thinking about it, I already understood that it must be that Nuan Nuan seldom went out in the past, and he chose such a large yard because he was afraid that Nuan Nuan would be too stuffy.

Originally, I thought about having a serious fight with him as soon as we met. After all, it is an unforgivable crime for him to hide such a big matter from our family.

But now seeing his care for Nuan Nuan, my anger can't help but subside a little.

But only a little bit.

There is an idiom in China, which is called feeling timid when you are close to your hometown.

And at this moment, I looked at the milky white hollowed-out iron door through the brown car window, and a similar subtle emotion seemed to arise in my heart.

Thinking that Nuan Nuan might be inside that door, my heart couldn't help trembling, and I didn't even have the courage to open the car door.

I turned my head to look at Kongphop next to me. His expression has never been stretched along the way, and it is no exception now.

Ever since I saw those two letters, my mind has been completely occupied by Nuan Nuan, and I have almost no time to take care of his mood.

But at this moment, the fear of reunion made me slow down and re-examine everything around me.

It is true that Nuan Nuan has already said in the letter that nothing happened between them, otherwise Nuan Nuan might not be so desperate.

But that's just a warm side after all.

At this moment, I couldn't help but think about the past.

The bangs I put down for him, the pink panna cotta he bought for me...

These things, on the surface, have become a thing of the past. After so many years, none of us mentioned it again.

Now, I can freely live according to my own preferences, and pink panna cotta has almost become a daily necessity.

I also thought I was relieved already.

But until now I have to admit that everything I had back then is actually still sealed in the deepest part of my heart, and the relief I thought was just a thick layer of dust accumulated on it.

Wipe away the dust, and what is revealed is still full of scars.

I never, ever really let go.

Who is the person Kongphop loves?

If Nuan Nuan really came back and stood in front of him with me, would he still... still want to hold my hand?

These questions, once you think about it, make you breathless.

Kongphop noticed my gaze, immediately put away the loneliness on his face, and smiled at me: "Get out of the car?"

But as he covered up, my heart couldn't help but fell to the bottom.

But still can only show him a hasty smile.

In the face of such life-and-death matters, it seems that everything else should not be considered at this time.

The most important thing is to determine whether Nuan Nuan is still alive.

I ignored the sudden stabbing pain in my heart, got out of the car with him, walked to the door, and rang the doorbell for a long time, but there was no movement inside.

I don't know if it's true that no one is at home, or if we see us outside the door, we refuse to come out.

I couldn't help feeling more and more anxious.

At this moment, there was a burst of cheerful footsteps behind us, stopping beside us.

Immediately afterwards, a cheerful child's voice sounded: "Brother Night! You are back!"

I froze for a moment and turned around.

What stopped in front of us was a little boy of seven or eight years old.

It seems that he should also live nearby, because there are no adults around him.

I looked around and pointed to myself hesitantly: "Are you...calling me?"

The little boy nodded as a matter of course: "Of course! Brother Night, are you stupid in China?"

There was a faint clamor in my heart, as if something was about to come out.

"Didn't you bring the key? At this time, brother Jay hasn't come home from get off work yet." Then, he smiled and turned his gaze to Kongphop, "Brother Night is just stupid, aren't you smart? Singto. "

Kongphop's expression changed again: "What did you call me?"

The boy was obviously frightened by his expression, he stammered and replied, "Sing...Singto, what's wrong? It's...you said you don't need to call me brother..."

I understand that he must be surprised that Singto actually knew Nuan Nuan.

Singto also knows a thing or two about Nuan Nuan. We never thought that he would know that Nuan Nuan is still alive, and it seems that he is so familiar with him.

But I can't care less about that now.

Now, I only feel my heart tightening, and the pain is unbearable.

He gave himself a new name, Night.

night.

In the long night, there is no sun and no sunshine in this world.

He probably... doesn't want to see me again at all.

I couldn't help reaching out and covering my chest.

The pain there was so specific it almost overwhelmed me.

And at this moment, another car sounded, and a car slowly stopped beside us.

The car window lowered slowly, revealing Jay's familiar yet unfamiliar face.

Old friends reunited after a long absence, but none of us laughed.

He looked at us in silence for a long time before he spoke to me: "Have you finally read those two letters?"