my ten years with you

"How do you feel today?" Bai Xiaonan was still driving by himself, looking at the road while asking, pretending not to care too much.

"Very good, Dr. Xu is very kind." Ah Wu smiled, and suddenly remembered: "Master, why do you drive by yourself recently? Is this safe?"

"Hey, I was afraid that you would feel uncomfortable seeing those people in the family before." Bai Xiaonan said nonchalantly, "We haven't figured out what happened between the two of us, so you probably don't want to meet those people. It's convenient and convenient for me to come here by myself." Don't worry about your safety, you don't have to worry about your safety, as soon as my car moves, the same **** will come out with it, don't you all know that?"

Ah Wu nodded, still feeling a little uneasy: "Then you have to be careful, didn't something just happen recently."

"Okay, I'll be careful." Bai Xiaonan readily agreed, quite happy for Ah Wu's worry, but obviously didn't take it too seriously.

"I have something to do tonight. I have to meet some people. I'll have something to eat with you before I leave." Bai Xiaonan looked at him and smiled, "What do you want to eat?"

A Wu smiled, "What do you want to eat, I'll treat you."

They went to a Japanese food restaurant that Bai Xiaonan likes. The restaurant is a little remote, and those who have never been there will usually not find it here. The food is good, the environment is better, it is quiet and has a chatting atmosphere.

Bai Xiaonan ordered a few of Ah Wu's favorite foods, and deliberately said: "Today, there is a treat, so I have to pick something good."

Ah Wu responded with a smile, and Bai Xiaonan asked again, "Boss, can you buy me some wine?"

Ah Wu laughed and said, "Master, don't you still have to drive?"

"I'll ask the driver to come. You can drink with me." Bai Xiaonan scratched his palm, signaling the waiter to bring a bottle of sake.

They boiled a pot of sake, and Bai Xiaonan picked up a lot of things for Ah Wu. He finished eating slowly, but his complexion was not very good. Beads of sweat appeared on his head, and he covered his mouth and ran to the bathroom to vomit in the dark.

Bai Xiaonan worriedly followed, Ah Wu hugged the toilet so hard to vomit, he bent down to let Ah Wu run along his back, Ah Wu was not afraid that he would feel dirty and pushed him away, so he naturally accepted Bai Xiaonan's care.

He vomited and there was nothing in his stomach, so he got up to wash his face, Bai Xiaonan washed away the dirt, looked at Ah Wu's pale face in the mirror, with a worried look on his face.

Ah Wu rinsed his mouth, smiled at him in the mirror, and said a little weakly: "Don't worry, I just... I remembered too many things today, and I suddenly felt a little stressed."

Bai Xiaonan remembered the doctor's order, knew it was normal, and smiled reluctantly: "It's okay, I'm not worried, and you don't have to be afraid, let's take our time, will it feel better after vomiting?"

Ah Wu nodded, Bai Xiaonan half-armed and half-supported him to sit back, refused to let him drink any more, ordered a bowl of udon noodles for him to eat two mouthfuls, Ah Wu drank two mouthfuls of soup, waved his hands, unwilling to eat any more.

He couldn't eat any more, but Bai Xiaonan didn't force her, she took two bites by herself, and asked with concern: "Then I'll send you back to rest later? How about I put off the evening's business and I'll go back with you?"

"Master, I don't need it, I'm fine." Ah Wu was a little tired, and leaned against Bai Xiaonan's arms with his eyes closed to rest for a while, then cheered up and said, "Okay, I'm fine, let's go?"

Bai Xiaonan couldn't push the facts tonight, otherwise he couldn't rest assured that Ah Wu would go home alone. He specially sent a text message to tell the person who came to pick him up that no one except the driver was allowed to show up, and he would only drive away from the car. follow.

After getting in the car, the driver tried to minimize his sense of presence with special winks, without saying a word, he even raised the grille in the middle of the car, Bai Xiaonan asked Ah Wu to continue leaning on him, Ah Wu didn't argue, tired Leaned over.

"You remember the password of that card correctly, I was quite surprised, I thought you would ask me." Bai Xiaonan hugged him, suddenly remembered, and said something with a smile.

Ah Wu didn't even open her eyes, and smiled back, "I've used this card to treat others to dinner before. How can I remember my birthday wrong?"

They remembered together that on Bai Xiaonan's 22nd birthday, Xiao Ning said unintentionally "I thought you were all together", and asked A Wu to change her birthday to spend with Bai Xiaonan on that day, and she never changed it back.

"An Yang's eyes are really good, and Xiao Ning is really cute." A smile appeared on the corner of Bai Xiaonan's mouth, Ah Wu felt a little better, and sat up by himself, Bai Xiaonan asked: "Do you want to see Xiao Ning? Let me ask An Yang to take him out to play, okay? He can play the piano quite well now, and he has also learned to speak."

Ah Wu hesitated for a moment, then nodded in agreement.

During the conversation, the car had already driven to the downstairs of Ah Wu, and Ah Wu opened the door to get out of the car, Bai Xiaonan gave him a pull, and told him: "Go home and drink some hot water, go to bed early, and call me if you have anything to do."

After thinking about it, I added another sentence: "I have time to ask An Yang to bring Xiao Ning over to play."

Ah Wu smiled and agreed.

He returned home, and as soon as he entered, the room was dark, empty, and lifeless.

Ah Wu felt an unspeakable loneliness. He turned on all the lights in the room, but he still felt empty. He shook his head, feeling ridiculous and pitiful. That person had only been here twice, and he was no longer used to his absence. it's time.

He quickly took a shower, filled the bed with pillows, returned to the bed and lay down with the whip in his arms, only then did he feel better.

He lay down early, but tossed and turned, never fell asleep, always felt cold, suspected that he had a little fever, but was too lazy to get up and take his temperature.

He's not here anyway, Ah Wu thought to herself.

At a little after twelve o'clock, Ah Wu heard footsteps outside the door. He took his watch and glanced at the time. Just as he was about to say it was impossible, his phone rang, and Bai Xiaonan sent a text message: "Going to sleep ?"

Without saying a word, Ah Wu went directly to the door and opened it for him.

Bai Xiaonan reckoned that he hadn't slept yet, so she went in as soon as the door opened, and kissed Ah Wu with her arms around him without any explanation. What a jealous feeling.

"I knew you couldn't sleep well. Does your stomach feel better? I brought you some soup."

Bai Xiaonan put a packing box on the dining table, Ah Wu took out a bowl and warmed it up, and the two of them sat opposite each other, watching him slowly drink the soup.

"Why did it end so early today? Those who went were not interested?" Ah Wu asked.

"What's the matter, they've changed the scene, I'm too lazy to go." Bai Xiaonan said, took out a cigarette, took a look at Ah Wu and put it down, and said affectionately: "No one is more beautiful than you, I'm too lazy to talk to them Blind."

Ah Wu smiled, lowered his head slightly, he always said that before, how much does he like this face?

"Apart from my face, what else do you like about me?" Ah Wu asked while drinking the soup, his tone was very calm, as if he was only asking about the day of the week.

Bai Xiaonan glanced at him in astonishment, remained silent for a while, then lit up the cigarette, thought for a while before opening her mouth: "If you say that I liked you in the first place, it's really because of this face that I wanted to keep you."

Ah Wu was stunned for a moment, obviously didn't expect him to answer so bluntly, but Bai Xiaonan continued: "You look really good-looking, but you don't look that much like Qin Ruo at all. I quickly figured out what was going on, no one can replace anyone, but I still want you, I want to bully you, I want to see you can only be bullied by me and there is nothing I can do, I want you to be completely It all belongs to me, I didn’t understand why at the time, but now that I think about it, isn’t it because I like you, I’ve met so many people, none of them wanted to take them home.”

Ah Wu sniffed, Bai Xiaonan raised his hand to pinch his face, and said frankly: "Back then, liking someone was impulsive, but now I'm not young anymore, it's hard to like someone, and it's even harder to trust someone. But I just feel that if there is anyone in this world who is worthy of my trust and dares me to trust, it is only you." If I still have a chance to feel true delivery and trust, you are my last chance Are you willing to give me this chance? "

Ah Wu choked for a moment, with a crying tone in her voice: "But we have already made a mistake once, do you really dare to trust me again?"

"I have already told you my answer, and I am waiting for your answer." Bai Xiaonan hugged him and whispered in his ear: "I will definitely be able to wait for the answer I want."

That night, Bai Xiaonan didn't leave again. Ah Wu returned to the bedroom after taking a shower, and was surprised to find that he was playing with the whip in his hand. When Bai Xiaonan saw him coming, he put the whip aside and opened his arms to let him come over. .

Ah Wu threw herself into his arms and lay down tightly, there was no gap between the two of them, just like two ignorant and impulsive souls entwined for a common purpose, cuddling and comforting each other.

Ah Wu slept well beside him, Bai Xiaonan drank some wine, but couldn't fall asleep, thinking about what Xu Pingchuan called to tell him tonight, he was as confused as Ah Wu.

Xu Pingchuan told him that Ah Wu liked to be led by him.He even likes possession with a touch of violence, it makes him feel safe, too much freedom can make him feel empty and distant.

Ah Wu needs a reason to live, a sustenance that can accommodate all his emotions, and he is exactly that reason, his little retreat will cause a great panic in Ah Wu, which is why, he gave Ah Wu freedom, Ah Wu would be afraid instead.

Bai Xiaonan asked Xu Pingchuan back, if I possess him and dominate him like this, what is the difference from before?Can he be happy?

Xu Pingchuan said that everyone's definition of happiness is different, he can't define Ah Wu's happiness, he only knows how Ah Wu won't collapse.

Bai Xiaonan's head hurt a little, he thought, maybe the difference is only in his own heart.