my ten years with you

Bai Xiaonan didn't speak any more, gave him time to think for himself, picked up a stack of documents from the side and looked at them slowly.

"You... trust that person, right? Zhang Chengyan?" Ah Wu asked hesitantly.

"Yes, I trust him a lot. There are very few people I really trust, and he is one of them." Bai Xiaonan explained patiently.

"Why?" Ah Wu asked.

"Because I understand, we grew up together, I know who he is, what he values, and what can impress him, so I don't need to worry about him betraying. I have many friends and few brothers, no matter what three seven 21 There are fewer brothers who dare to tell me the truth at all times, and he is one of them."

"Then what about me?" Ah Wu finally asked what he wanted to ask, and the smile on Bai Xiaonan's lips gradually widened, "Why do you... want to trust me?"

"A Wu, did you misunderstand what I said about possession?" Bai Xiaonan laughed, and teased: "If I want to fuck you, do I have to wait until today?"

Ah Wu was at a loss for words, blushing and tilting his head.This time, he didn't feel that Bai Xiaonan was trying to annoy him on purpose, but seriously considered the issue, yes, why did he wait so long?

He has never had the ability to resist.

"You've never been trusted by anyone, have you?" Bai Xiaonan looked at his profile, knowing that what he said was right, knowing that every word he said aroused the longing in Ah Wu's heart, he sighed softly Tone: "Actually, I also want to know how much I can trust you."

Even he himself couldn't explain why he did it.He had never had such expectations for Qin Ruo, but he had such longings for a boy who was equally beautiful and stubborn.

"When you completely belong to me, your body, your emotions, and your beliefs are all mine. At that time, you will become a part of me, and I will be all of you, and you will no longer There is a possibility of betrayal. I am curious and looking forward to the relationship between two people, the relationship between us, how deep trust can be generated. I am not in a hurry to have your body, because for me, sleeping alone It's too easy, isn't it a little ridiculous to feel that you have each other after sleeping once?"

Ah Wu couldn't help but agree with his words, but he couldn't help asking a little confused: "But why? Do you like me?"

Bai Xiaonan laughed, and said with some disdain: "Like as much as last night? If that counts as liking, I have liked many people. But there is nothing I want to keep and have. You want to ask me why, I don't know why it's you, and I don't know either. But if I choose, it won't change."

He wasn't lying, he really didn't know.

From the first time he saw A Wu, he had this desire, wanted to own him, wanted to make a person completely his own, unable to escape, even unable to distinguish, until they merged into one, until he transformed into In my own flesh and blood.

"So, don't you like me?" A Wu asked cautiously, "You...won't you fall in love with someone?"

Bai Xiaonan listened to his question thoughtfully, then smiled and shook her head, and said softly: "Maybe I will. I can love someone, but I just don't believe in love."

Ah Wu's eyes were a little confused, but he didn't ask any more questions. He lay quietly on Bai Xiaonan's lap, and he didn't feel that there was anything wrong with it.

For the next time, Bai Xiaonan leaned against the bedside to read the documents, Ah Wu was thinking about something, and fell asleep unknowingly.

Bai Xiaonan touched his forehead, he was still a little hot, the illness came like a mountain, and the illness went like a thread, and he will definitely not get better in a while.

He sighed, and gently put Ah Wu back on the bed, took a pillow to cushion his waist, stood up and moved his body, because he had been lying down for too long, he had no feeling in his thighs.

Ah Wu didn't wake up during the whole process, Bai Xiaonan looked at his sleeping face, and couldn't help sighing in his heart, the world is tricky, he has never served others like this in his life, he thought that what Li Shengwen found was just a little thing to relieve boredom , who would have thought that so many things could be tossed about.

And it was he himself who wanted to toss out so many things.

Ah Wu's illness came back and forth, her fever persisted, and the fluid in her lungs couldn't be sucked clean. She thought she would be fine in the hospital for two days, but she didn't expect to stay in the hospital for more than two months.

Ah Wu has never suffered from such a serious illness, nor has she experienced the feeling of being taken care of by others. This time, she almost made up for the squeamishness of the first half of her life in one breath. She didn't get out of bed for more than two months. Everything was moved to the ward, and the sheets, quilts, pillows were replaced with home ones. Ah Wu didn't say anything, but every time he thought about it, his eyes burned. Before he fell into Bai Xiaonan's hands, he didn't even have a room of his own, but now Some people worry that he will not get used to sleeping in the ward.

Bai Xiaonan arranged for him a very good nurse. The best thing about a private hospital is the good service. He doesn't have to do anything every day, and someone will prepare for him the things he thinks of. The housekeeper will deliver the home-made meals on time every day. Ask about his condition, Ah Wu has never received so much care in the past two months since he was a child.

It was all because of Bai Xiaonan, he knew very well that if Bai Xiaonan's attitude hadn't told them that he was important, these people would never have cared for him so wholeheartedly, but he would still feel grateful for such care.

Bai Xiaonan would visit him when he was not busy, sometimes he would bring some documents to the ward, and sit there all afternoon, not letting anyone in to disturb him, he was fiddling with the computer, stopping to write something from time to time, Ah Wu would lie down By the side, I fell asleep for a while in a daze, and when I woke up, it was almost dark, and the time flowed quietly and peacefully.

During this time, Bai Xiaonan never talked to him about anything again, he didn't need Ah Wu's decision, their relationship couldn't be completed by one person's decision.

Almost three months later, when the doctor announced that he could be discharged from the hospital, the leaves on the tree had already fallen, and Ah Wu spent the whole autumn in the hospital.

Thinking of leaving the hospital, he still felt a little bit reluctant.

He didn't know how to return to that place.

He didn't know if he should think of it as his home, and it was ridiculous, it was as close to home as he could have, and besides that, he didn't have a home in this world anymore.

Bai Xiaonan said that he would have all of him and accept all of him. He used to think that was scary, but now he is more hesitant. If Bai Xiaonan really knows what kind of person he is, let go of his beautiful face Besides, what else is there to like about him?

Oh, no, it's not liking, Bai Xiaonan said it's not liking.

But what else does he have to make Bai Xiaonan not give up?

If he knew what a vicious, dark, unborn sinful body he was, would he still treat him like he is now?Does he feel blind?

Gradually, Ah Wu discovered that he might not be afraid to deliver himself, but even more afraid that he had nothing to deliver.He has nothing, is worthless, and liking someone like him is simply a joke.

On the other hand, he became more and more reluctant to part with Bai Xiaonan's tenderness.

There are two days before he can be discharged from the hospital. Today, Ah Wu was approved by the doctor to go to the field. The nurse helped him to practice walking during the day. Only then did Ah Wu realize that he would hardly be able to walk after lying down for too long.

Bai Xiaonan took time to look at him. When he arrived at the ward, Ah Wu happened to be practicing walking along the corridor. He stood at the door and waited for Ah Wu to come back. When Ah Wu saw him, his face didn't show anything, but his feet couldn't help but move. He quickened his pace, almost tripping himself.

Bai Xiaonan stretched out her hand to support him, told the nurse to rest first, and said to him with a smile: "Why are you in a hurry, you have to take your time after lying down for such a long time."

Ah Wu smiled awkwardly, touched his nose, and muttered embarrassingly: "I walked very well just now."

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