Baiyun ambition

In the early morning of the next day, the sky outside the house was overcast, the grass was haggard, and a miscellaneous cloud settled in Yu Fangyun's head.

Seventy to eighty percent drunkenness is fake, but waking up with an extremely groggy head is the retribution of frequently pretending to be drunk.Yu Fangyun washed his face and went to work. When he entered the hospital, everyone he met on the way greeted him: "Doctor Yu, happy New Year's Day."

I didn't see Yan Xiru when I was handing over the shift, and I was late after the meeting.He seemed to be the one who was very drunk, with a erratic expression, avoiding his eyes, and couldn't hold back a complete sentence for a long time.It was even weirder during the ward rounds. Before walking a few steps, I would always look back at Cardamom and wait for someone to follow.Today, I was absent-minded, and I fell to the end, unable to say other words except "um, ah".

The behavior of this half-mute really scared Jiang Jian, staring at him: "Boss, what's wrong with you? You are so mentally unwell, did you stay up late last night to watch the teaching video? Your eyes were also beaten? They are all blue!"

Yan Xiru rolled his eyes at him: "What are you looking at? I've never seen a man suffer from insomnia." Last night, he was full of energy, and it was really hard for him to consume it with just one hand. He kept his eyes open until dawn.

Both of them were holding back something.It was approaching noon, and there was no one in the office. Yu Fangyun finally blocked him on the sofa: "Why do you hide from me? Master Uncle."

Yan Xiru rubbed her hair, feeling a real pain in the head: "How dare I hide from you." Seeing this person, his heart hangs high.

"Then I bullied you yesterday?" Yu Fangyun pretended to be drunk and looked at him solemnly.

"Why don't you think I'm bullying you? It's all about self-criticism." Yan Xiru was almost amused by him, "I'm such a penny-pinching person, you have to get back everything you owe me, then I owed you so much last night , how should I pay it back?"

Yu Fangyun opened his eyes wide to see him leaning in front of him, so close, but he just touched his lips with his fingertips.

"Can't answer it? Then pay it back slowly."

A debt of love is lingering, you owe me to owe it, maybe one day it will become a pledge of eternal love, forever.

Yu Fangyunyou was stunned spontaneously, his lips and cheeks cooled down a little bit, and his head was still muddy.He has a plan every step of the way, thinks over and over again, imagines any physical contact several times in his mind, pretends to be naive or ambiguous, and always has to enter the scene and develop according to reason.But Yan Xiru was the one who grabbed him directly and sprinted towards the finish line.

He calculated bit by bit, but until now, he realized that some people simply cannot calculate according to the thinking of normal people.

A group of dark clouds lasted until the afternoon, and finally some rain fell.Yu Fangyun came back from the outpatient clinic and heard that Yan Xiru had been reprimanded by Director Jiang again. He was in a very bad mood now. When he walked to the door, he saw Yan Xiru standing there like a mountain. It was really cloudy.

Not intending to provoke him, he mouthed "Master Uncle" and jumped inside, but he held the hood with one hand.Yu Fangyun took a staggered step and bumped into his hard chest.

"Have you learned how to go on a blind date?"

"It's not a blind date." Yu Fangyun turned around and explained with difficulty, but he was too close, and his height was too high to be eye-level, so he secretly stepped on his feet.

Yan Xi rested his chin on the top of his head: "Isn't it a blind date? Then you went to every house."

The answer is still stubborn. "Your grandma asked me to go."

"You can go on a blind date today if she asks you to go on a blind date, but if she wants to hug her great-grandson tomorrow, will you give birth to one immediately?" Yan Xiru leaned against him tightly.

Yu Fangyun was also annoyed by being suppressed: "You obviously have more times of meeting once or twice, why are you laughing at me like this?"

Still choking back, Yan Xiru was at a loss for words for a moment: "How can I have it? Even if I had it, I don't have it now."

Yu Fangyun raised his neck aggressively: "Then you have never been in a relationship? Have you never provoked others? If you have, you have no right to speak of me!"

Yan Xiru suddenly let go of his collar, took a step back, the two hat strings were still hanging on his fingers: "Dating, male and female, huh?"

Yu Fangyun's shoulders were stiff, he was silent for a moment, and opened his mouth: "It's all counted."

"Would you believe me if I said it? I'll be 35 soon, not an innocent boy of fifteen or sixteen years old." Yan Xiru couldn't help laughing, and touched his forehead with the back of his hand, "I'll take you there tonight."

Yu Fangyun turned his head, said "Oh", and blurred his expression again.

Yan Xiru was empty-handed and sighed inwardly. It turned out that God knew that one day he would spend all his time thinking about falling in love with a 25-year-old innocent boy, which made him ignorant until now.

He willingly became the driver, and promised to only deliver to the door, but Yan Xiru had the audacity to follow Yu Fangyun in when he arrived.Qi Qianjin was already waiting at the seat, her makeup was delicate, her eyes were bright and her teeth were shining like a brilliant diamond against the crystal lights.It's just that the temperament is too exaggerated, and it doesn't match the dull cardamom no matter how you look at it.

The little girl was only four or five years old when Yan Xiru saw her last time, but Qi Siqi remembered him, it was this guy who was not allowed to call him uncle, and said his floral skirt was a canopy.After so many years, I still remember his stinky fart when he said "Hua Yupeng, don't follow me".

"I eat mine myself, you don't need to worry about me." Yan Xiru naturally sat opposite Yu Fangyun.

Qi Siqi was extremely dissatisfied: "You still want to have a table with us when you eat by yourself?"

Yan Xiru had a naive face: "Yes, I don't enjoy eating by myself."

He was indeed the only one who enjoyed this meal, and he had to add tea to Yu Fangyun's pickled vegetables face to face, completely treating the heroine as air, if it wasn't for the man on the opposite side staring at him with a knife and fork, he almost wanted to reach out for a tissue Wipe his mouth for him.

Qi Siqi finally couldn't help it: "Everyone knows it's to deal with the elders, why do you have to fight me?!"

Yan Xi smiled, and said in his most gentle tone: "You deal with you, I don't care about you, but I can't let my precious nephew go hungry."

Yu Fangyun was so disgusted that he couldn't swallow water, he kicked under the table, but the uncle didn't change his face.Qi Siqi took a look at him, turned his head to look at Yu Fangyun, and then went back to look at him, and finally realized: "Yan Xiru, are you—"

"Ok?"

"--you have your eyes on me." Qi Siqi covered his mouth, as if surprised, "You went all out to sabotage this blind date just to break us up, isn't that the purpose for you?"

Yan Xiru's eyebrows trembled, and he still smiled: "It's very possible, after all, we are also childhood sweethearts. When you were young, I watched you pee your pants." He triumphantly got up to pay the bill, leaving Qi Siqi with a face full of tears. blue and black.

Yu Fangyun looked up and looked around, and saw Yan Xiru leaning against the bar.He has flat shoulders and narrow waist, long and straight legs, and a silhouette with clear lines on his profile, which is unique in the noise of people coming and going, making people's hearts pound when they see him.

Coming out of the restaurant, Qi Siqi asked Yu Fangyun to take her home, Yan Xiru was not happy at first: "You don't have a car?!"

"I've been drinking." She arranged Yu Fangyun in her driver's seat, and Yan Xiru was so angry that he jumped, so he could only drive behind their car, even when the green light was clear all the way, he felt aggrieved.

They were delivered to the entrance of the garage, and the security guard ran over to pick them up, but the cardamom still didn't get out of other people's cars.Yan Xiru was extremely narrow-minded, with a far light flashing behind him.

Qi Siqi glanced at the rearview mirror, and said angrily about her uncle: "Actually, according to Yan Xiru's temper, if any girl is unfortunately caught by him, it will be really miserable, and she will not be able to run away even if she wants to."

Yu Fangyun smiled lightly, feeling just the opposite.Even if he took a look at him, he couldn't run away even if he wanted to.

Yu Doukou slowly got out of Qi Siqi's car, Yan Xiru was already impatiently leaning against the car door.Seeing someone walking towards him, he secretly pinched his cigarette and pretended to be absent-minded.

"The weather is warm, let's go for a walk and take you home."

Yu Fangyun was pulled forward by him, and he was surprised: "Then where is your car?"

Yan Xiru said, "No more."

There was a light rain in the afternoon, and now there is plenty of water in the soil on the leaves, and the temperature seems to have returned to the autumn when they first met.Uncle Shi was rarely quiet, he was silent all the way, he took half a step to see the shadows of the two people stretched long under the street lights.His shadow took his hand.

The road is so long and so close, when it was delivered to the door of the house, Yu Fangyun saw him looking down at him with a smile on his face: "What do you want to say to me?"

"It's nothing." Yan Xiru shook his head, but this time he rubbed his warm palm against his forehead, and said softly, "Good night."

Yu Fangyun jumped up the stairs, and heard him shout for the first time: "Fangyun."

Looking back, Yan Xiru stepped on the shadow of the tree, with a tall and straight figure, only looking at him.

"Actually, today is very bad, and everything is not good. But I can say good night to you at the end, I think this day is still very good."

The new year is auspicious, and Da Wei finally has to go to the fourteenth floor for surgery.Yan Xiru's slightly discouraged mood after being scolded by Jiang before also followed the clouds and sky, and the spring was bright.

Da Wei was sitting in the wheelchair, still shy like a flower bud: "Doctor Yan, Doctor Yu, no matter where I go, I will always miss you from the bottom of my heart."

Yan Xiru sent him to the elevator: "Understood."

Da Wei twisted the silk scarf: "You should also remember me in your heart."

"Understood, understood." Yan Xiru was in a good mood, saying everything went well.

The eyes of the person in the wheelchair turned around and turned to look at Yu Fangyun: "Then, Doctor Yu remembers coming to visit me on the [-]th floor. You are the most important person in my heart now."

"What about Dr. Yan, Dr. Yan doesn't want it anymore?" The nurse laughed.

Da Wei raised his little finger: "Doctor Yan ranks third, and he is just a little behind Da Mao. The main reason is that he is a little bit worse in masculinity." Da Mao is the male nurse in the bed next to Da Wei. And the rough appearance is popular in the nursing industry.

Then Yan Xiru made a strong hand, and the wheelchair slid forward three meters, and Da Wei was so frightened that he covered his heart.

Had to change to a normal person to push him.Outside the elevator, Da Wei raised his head and said, "Dr. Yu, thank you and Dr. Yan for supporting me. I know you are also under a lot of pressure, so no matter what the final result is, it is my own choice, it is my own choice. I am sick. I have to cross such a long river. Thank you for always walking with me. If there is another chance, I will write you a new poem."

Da Wei smiled, but his eyes were red.For a person who looks strong and optimistic, it is more difficult to understand sadness. Perhaps it is because of this empathy that he trusts Yan Xiru so much.It is the doctor's luck to meet a patient like Da Wei.

"By the way, Doctor Yu." Da Wei entered the elevator and turned his head again, "Although you are always gentle and gentle, it is difficult to be happy if you think too much. No matter what, I hope you will always be happy , Whether you are working or making friends, you should always open your heart."

Yu Fangyun was stunned in place, obviously he was a doctor, but the patient saw it clearly.There was a sudden sourness in his throat, and the elevator door closed, and he didn't have time to say "Okay, I'll wait for you to come back".

Yan Xiru went out happily that day, but when he came back, his face was covered with volcanic ash.

Yu Fangyun's head was full of confusion, and he had no time to pay attention to the ups and downs of his emotions.This cardamom has been around for a long time, and I am used to putting on an innocent and ignorant face when thinking about things.Yan Xiru took a look at him, he was completely innocent, and there was nowhere to vent his anger.

The medical records were thrown heavily on the table. "You're leaving tomorrow, why didn't you tell me?"

Yu Fangyun was stunned for a second, and then replied calmly: "There were many patients before, and there was a shortage of people in the emergency department and the ICU. And now, you know it."

Running into such a person, no matter how big the anger is, it will be suffocated into resentment.Yan Xiru crumpled up the prescription and had nowhere to throw it away.

In the evening, when Yu Fangyun went to the office, he heard Jiang Jian's voice: "Boss, even if Dr. Yu leaves tomorrow, we still have to eat dinner."

Yan Xiru looked worried, and what was waiting was that the cardamom was the same as before, acting like a baby and talking softly to herself.He was going to leave, so he wouldn't be so narrow-minded.But Yu Fangyun seems to be a different person today, returning to the way he was thousands of miles away before the first meeting, even calling him uncle is too superfluous.So I couldn't let go of the childish resentment in my heart: "What kind of gang do you want to break up with? We have never been in the same group. I feel tired of being a fake uncle for a long time."

Yu Fangyun's steps were awkward, and his hands stopped on the handles.Even if he is full of thoughts, he still feels confused, and Yan Xiru's inexplicable thoughts are always counted, and he feels tired if he counts too many.

Finally pushed the door in. "Before the New Year, if there is no one in the operating room, you can call me back."

Yan Xiru pulled his face, and his tone was not calm: "There is no shortage." When he is something, is it an abacus, he fiddles with it when he thinks about it, and throws it on the table when he doesn't think about it.

He was so angry that he casually flipped through a medical record on the table. Unexpectedly, he pulled out the pen too hastily, with the cap still in his hand, and the pen flew several meters away from the cardamom pen holder.There were two bounces on the floor tiles, the pole rolled back to the table along the slope, but the pen clip jumped into the distant crack of the door—there were a total of three lifelike petals on it, and two of them shattered at once.

Yan Xiru's eyes blurred, Yu Fangyun also said at the door in a daze.The office was dead silent.

The silence lasted for a long time, and I saw Yu Fangyun went to pick up the pen, and packed up the body of the cardamom.The originally thin flower lay in his hand, lost a few petals, and turned into a shriveled flower core, no matter how you looked at it, it was pitiful.

This unlucky fall instantly turned Yan Xiru from an angry appeal to an aggressive perpetrator, without any momentum.

This pen folder was given by Yu Fangyun after studying it for a long time, just like every word he said, he had to think about it for a long time before he said it.Dawei asked him to open his heart, if possible, who wouldn't want to take a sprig of pure cardamom for real.He has never been timid, but in front of him, the closer you get, the more you feel that the barriers are boundless.

The senior brother said he was gloomy and stubborn, but in fact, it was mostly cowardice and low self-esteem.How dare the original him be stripped naked and exposed to the sun, how dare he be liked.

In the past few months, the number of times Yu Fangyun picked up this pen, whether intentionally or not, can't be counted, and this is probably the last time.There will be no chance to wear this perfect skin of fake cardamom in the future. A play has been performed until now, and he is the only one, and Yan Xiru is the only audience, so he will sing after all.

Seeing that Yu Fangyun's eyes were red, Yan Xiru opened his mouth to say something, but the other party only put the pen and the incomplete clip on the table: "If you don't want it, just throw it away."

It is completely unreasonable for Yu Fangyun to become such a narrow-minded person.But he really took off his white coat, opened the door and left.Leaving Yan Xiru holding the broken petal of the pen clip in his hand, he was speechless about his predicament.

……

After getting off work late at night, Shen Weizhou ran into a neighbor at the door of his house, who was carrying cobblestones for Shoushou.

"In order to even out the time for the experiment, you're going back to the department next week, right?" Seeing him nodding, Shen Weizhou kindly reminded, "Don't you tell Yan Xiru in advance. If he knows about his needle-like heart, he will probably be angry if he finds out at the end."

Yu Fangyun smiled lightly: "I know."

This vague relationship is advancing by leaps and bounds, and it seems to be smooth, after all, it is based on the two people getting along day and night.Life can flow smoothly, but feelings always need to be splashed.Playing hard to get is not as complicated as him, Yu Fangyun sighed.

He may not be able to open his heart without burden in front of the person he likes in this life.

That night in the car, Qi Siqi called him to stop, and proposed to meet up alone a few times later.

"I'm afraid not." Yu Fangyun refused gently, "I have someone I like."

The opposite person was surprised: "Aren't you single, so fast. Love at first sight?"

"Not really." According to his gentle personality, the word "see" in love at first sight can last for several years.Walking slowly and alone, Guan Na likes to grow wildly in a quiet and desolate way, and walnuts grow in the drawer.

Yu Fangyun shook his head lightly, and confessed to himself: "I've been pursuing him all this time, and I've been trying my best."