The rest of life may not be different

April 3

Gu Zhimo apologized to me and said that he wanted to meet him to see his recent situation. After all, he is the youngest brother, so he can't ignore it. I told him to let Jiang Xiuyun talk to him, maybe your temper will be irritated. He, this is the biggest concession I ever made, Gu Zhimo also agreed, Jiang Xiuyun was a little terrified when he saw Wu Xu staring at the mirror without saying a word, I walked over and took Wu Xu's hand and brought him over, Wu Xu saw Jiang Xiuyun nodded indifferently, Jiang Xiuyun was a little sad, he hesitated to speak but didn't know where to start, they were busy with their own affairs afterwards, they always thought that Su Wuxu and Wei Jing must have a good life in love, But I didn't expect that a person who was quite energetic before would get this disease.

When Jiang Xiuyun left, Su Wuxu said, "Don't contact me in the future." Jiang Xiuyun was taken aback, but he left without saying anything. I sighed and hugged me from behind. Wuxu, I asked, "You used to have a hard time laughing, right?"

He said that at that time his world was like a big stage, countless times he stood in the spotlight and forced himself to be happy and angry with another person, to have a conversation, and all the pretending made him exhausted, but I thought, he Really never made myself happy.

April 3

I took his hand and nestled on the sofa to watch a movie with a high rating. Actually, I wanted to watch a comedy movie, but I was afraid that I would feel a little bit bitter after watching it. Envy, will be bitter, will feel that it is a luxury for me to laugh at him.

Halfway through seeing him suddenly cover his ears, I turned off the screen and almost cried, I said don’t be afraid, don’t listen, it’s just me, but he started muttering alone, and started to see my eyes change, he said, a lot A lot of homeless people crowded in his area, crying, laughing, talking about why he is still alive, isn’t he tired, bewitching him to die, he really couldn’t take it anymore, he was afraid of dragging me down, He said let's break up, I cried so hard, I said you see I'm here, I will always be here, we will definitely get through it.

When Wuxu drank the medicine and went to sleep, I couldn't fall asleep. The phone was always on. It was my mother or my father, but I didn't want to pick it up. Since I believe that Su Wuxu belongs to him in this life, I won't leave , if Wuxu really...can't stand it any longer, I will hold his funeral myself...

April 3

Wuxu is now more and more unable to control his emotions. He feels that if he closes his eyes, someone will stab him with a knife. He dare not close his eyes, and if he dare not lie down, he will feel insecure. The pillow will cover him to death, and the vase The splinters would cut his throat, the scissors would pierce him, and he would throw them all out, and he would become suspicious and sensitive, and even I would be a little hard to get close to him, but he never hurt me, locked in alone during the attack Room, I knocked on the door and asked him to open it, but he said he was afraid of hurting me, he was in so much pain, but he really didn’t dare to leave me behind, my mind was blank, and for a while I thought it would be nice to die with him Well……

April 3

Today, a Chinese-American psychiatrist came. Jiang Xiuyun said that he used to be a top student in the Department of Psychology in Connecticut, USA. When he came to China for an internship, he once treated ten-year-old Wuxu, and at that time Wuxu could communicate normally. Joy, anger, sorrow, joy, I have actually heard of it, but I can only pin my hope here temporarily, and I have searched many before, but most of them think that drug psychological intervention, or electric convulsion therapy, but I see the painless appearance really I can't help but feel worried every time I have walked through the gate of hell.

When I saw him, I felt that he had a very special temperament, maybe it was true.

Dr. Bai said that he didn't want other people to be there when he saw the patient. I was a little worried, but Jiang Xiuyun gave me a wink, so I had no choice but to nod.

April 3

Wuxu didn’t wake up in the middle of the night last night, and he seemed to be in good spirits the next day. I don’t know what you guys talked about yesterday when I asked Wuxu. Wuxu said, when he asked me if I was in a good mood, I said no, he couldn’t ask The specific time, I said, 366.

I curled my lips helplessly, what's the point of talking about this?Wuxu even rubbed my hair and said, he said but I was by his side, he felt at ease.

April 4

Today is Wuxu's birthday, I want to stay with Dr. Bai to celebrate his birthday together, I am very grateful to Dr. Bai, he is the most effective doctor I have seen, and Wuxu is the one who is most willing to talk and communicate, at least psychologically It is really a step forward for the doctor to know what he is thinking.

But he said there was something, I asked Wu Xu what he wished, and he said, he thought about it, that he could be with me safely for the rest of his life.

April 4

Wuxu suddenly had obsessive-compulsive disorder. He felt that the floor was one dark and the other light, so he couldn't get off his feet, so he had to sit on the bed. I said, "You're not making excuses for being lazy, right?" He shook his face sternly. I shook my head, but I still didn't believe it, but when I came back from a trip, I found my quilt on the floor, but he happily stepped on it and said, "It will be fine now."

I actually have an urge to beat him up...

April 4

Wuxu stopped talking all of a sudden, feeling very slow, as if he had a lot in his head, talking nonsense, and sometimes even called my name with his eyes open, his voice was hoarse, I was a little panicked, but no matter how I called him, he would wake up But come here, Bai Lingge said, it's normal, normal your mom!

Later I found out that although I don't quite know what Bai Lingge refers to in the dream state, I seem to understand that Wuxu is in an independent space of my own imagination, and there is no shortage of bad and good things in my own imagination. The number of times is actually quite a lot. He seemed to be leading something clueless. I asked him if he would not want to wake up if he relied too much on the imaginary world. Bai Linge smiled meaningfully and said he was sure. will be back.

April 5

Wuxu's mental state is very bad, he seems very tired, he feels very indifferent to everything around him, everything is quite normal except that he doesn't talk much, but the look in his eyes is very indifferent, not as eager as before, which makes me a little unaccustomed, I tried to ask him, what is in the dream?

I was amazed when he described it to me, it seemed to be a brand new story, one after another, basically similar to the real characters, even Bai Lingge was there, and he actually suspected that Bai Lingge was not serious When I was kind, I wanted to laugh a little, but I still wanted to sigh. The stories he experienced were so cruel, they were roughly the same, but the characters had so many complicated grievances and hatreds. If I think too much, I really can’t walk. , will sink again and again...

April 7

When Wuxu came in, his emotions fluctuated a lot. I asked Bai Lingge why he still didn’t wake up after so long. I was a little uneasy. Bai Lingge said that it would take a while. The story he told told him step by step, and he completely cleared Su Wuxu's heart. As for why he was so clear, he said that he was once funded by Aunt Mu, and he was always very grateful. When he saw her medical record by chance when he was receiving the grant, he felt that he should repay it, so he went to study this major. Unfortunately, when he came back, Aunt Mu passed away, so he started to investigate all this, and he was afraid of going silent. Yihua also has a potential mental illness, and it turned out to be true, so Bai Lingge thought of a strong medicine, which completely made Wuxu stop this idea, and he didn't know how effective it would be.

There will be no more after that, Su Wuxu is a little bit dumbfounded after reading it, the effect is really that I dare not even have a single thought in my life

so……

He ran out in a hurry, wanting to find Wei Jing more and more impatiently, but he was afraid that seeing him would really be unbearable, but his eyes were fixed on the busy figure in the kitchen, and his breathing seemed to be still. At this moment, he felt at ease like never before. He walked over and hugged Wei Jing, Wei Jing was startled, and smiled lightly, "Are you awake?"

Su Wuxu gave a muffled hum, and rubbed his head against Wei Jing's cheeks and neck. Wei Jing felt a little itchy and retreated, Su Wuxu hugged him even tighter, and Wei Jing didn't ask any more questions. He said, "How is it? It's better. Just now, Doctor Bai called and said that he had something to do and he couldn't get away. Let us go there, is that okay?" He asked a little nervously, he was afraid that Su Wuxu would be disgusted and resist, but this time Su Wuxu Wuxu nodded obediently, "Okay."

Wei Jing breathed a sigh of relief, "That's good, let's eat first."

Su Wuxu's words were still a bit sparse, and his eyes were fixed on Wei Jing almost while eating, as if he was afraid that he would run away.

It's late autumn now, and the weather outside is a bit cold. Su Wuxu hasn't gone out much since he was sick. Wei Jing was afraid that he would be cold when he went out today, so he wrapped a red scarf around him, and then he wanted to wear it himself. Without saying a word, she took it over and put it on for him personally. Wei Jing was a little dazed, but Su Wuxu's eyes were very focused. Looking at him seemed to be his eyes in the past and present, which made Wei Jing's chest ache. Su Wuxu kissed Wei lightly. Jing's forehead, and then took his hand, "Let's go."

Wei Jing was a little dazed, but also a little unbelievable, "Wuxu, you..."

Su Wuxu nodded and smiled, "Thank you for what you have done for me."

Wei Jing opened her mouth in surprise, the corners of her eyes were slightly red and mist rose, and she hammered Su Wuxu's shoulder, "You're finally back to normal, it's not in vain to wait for my hair to turn white!"

Su Wuxu hugged Wei Jing tightly as if he was afraid that he would run away, and said with a smile, "Really, let me see if there is any." After finishing talking about Wei Jing's hairstyle, Wei Jing squinted his eyes and suddenly burst out, Su Wuxu had a premonition that he was going to run, and Wei Jing chased after him and shouted, "Don't run away, do you know how long I endured you, and I still have the face to mess up my hairstyle!"

Su Wuxu smiled heartily at the front, and when he ran to a small, sparsely populated park, he suddenly knelt down alone. Looking at Wei Jing, she took out a men's diamond ring from her arms and held it in front of Wei Jing, "A Jing, I love you, let's get married."

Every word seemed to be nailed to his heart, Wei Jing was a little unbelievable, it was as if countless fireworks exploded in his head and heart, when he raised his eyes, the dark and bright eyeballs were hazy, and the mist slowly condensed into small water droplets and slipped down, as if Finally, when this day came, the strong emotions seemed to have been stored, but his focus was, "When did you buy the diamond ring?"

Su Wuxu grinned, his smile was never so free and clean, and he said, "I actually bought it a year ago, but then I got sicker and I didn't dare to tell you, thinking of you leaving doesn't have to be too burdensome. "

"What are you talking about!" Wei Jing suddenly knocked on my head, snatched the ring and put it on the ring finger of his left hand, then flashed it to the sun, and smiled silly at Su Wuxu, and the man who was still kneeling also smiled Be silly.

They accomplished what they wanted to do, had a long future, loved each other unscrupulously, trusted each other, got everyone's blessings, and finally, lived their lives.