The rest of life may not be different

Su Wuxu looked at the wrist in a daze, and suddenly his chin was pinched tightly by Wei Jing, and it turned purple. Su Wuxu glanced at Wei Jing, who was fierce but extremely fragile, and suddenly his nose was sore, then he What should I do...

Maybe Su Wuxu's eyes were too haggard and ashen, Wei Jing suddenly got up and stared for a few seconds and left expressionlessly. Su Wuxu pressed the wound on his wrist again, and a clear pain came to his mind. He sighed, He really can't afford to bet...

Wei Jing didn't come to him for the next few days, but left some bread for him, and the medicine on his body had no effect, but he still couldn't leave this room. He looked up and saw the rusty and mottled sunlight slanting Through the crack of the window, it shines on his thin body, time is meaningless to him, what he does every day is basically looking up the window, he can't do without seeing Wei Jing, and he doesn't know how to change the status quo , can often backfire.

Looking out of the window as usual, he suddenly heard a loud noise, and the door was opened. Su Wuxu's eyes lit up and thought that Wei Jing had returned, but the person who saw it was Jiang Xiuyun. His breathing was a little stagnant for a moment, and Jiang Xiuyun was in a hurry. Running in, "Why are you acting like this? I'll just say that Wei Jing is sick!" Thinking about uncuffing me, Su Wuxu stared at him without blinking, "How do you know that I'm sick?" it's here?"

"I've felt something was wrong for a long time, don't talk about this first, I'll take you out first."

Su Wuxu sighed, "I'm afraid you won't be able to leave either."

"what?!"

"Tsk tsk, what a big show of brotherly love." Wei Jing stood at the door with her arms around her chest, and looked at the two of them with a smile. Jiang Xiuyun frowned in that look, as if he was also his prey, and he was bound to win Seeing the cruel smile, Jiang Xiuyun couldn't help but want to beat him up. Jiang Xiuyun did so, but when he rushed forward, Wei Jing easily stopped him and punched him in the stomach. Jiang Xiuyun groaned and fell to the ground and bowed As a shrimp, Wei Jing twitched the corners of her lips mockingly, walked up to Su Wuxu and hugged him, and said with some satisfaction, "I'm very happy that you didn't follow him."

After finishing speaking, he kissed Su Wuxu's forehead, "wait for me." After speaking, he walked towards Jiang Xiuyun, he lifted Jiang Xiuyun's collar and threw it directly at the wall, his head hit the wall, leaving a bloodstain, Jiang Xiuyun only then realized that the person in front of him People are really crazy, watching him walk away step by step with fear in his eyes.

"Ah Jing!" Su Wuxu stopped it suddenly, Wei Jing's hands stopped, and she turned her head to look at him inexplicably. Su Wuxu felt very tired and wanted to end all this. He said, "You come to me, it's me called him."

Wei Jing then chuckled, "Do you know what you mean when you say that?"

Su Wuxu's messy hair covered half of his face, but his eyes were firm, "So, let him go!"

Wei Jing's eyes turned red suddenly, he nodded, but didn't say anything.

"Wuxu you..." Jiang Xiuyun stood up slowly, Su Wuxu looked at him directly, "Don't call the police after you go out, just take it as my request to you to do so."

Jiang Xiuyun looked at Su Wuxu in disbelief, and murmured for a while, "You are crazy too..."

Su Wuxu chuckled, yes, he was already crazy.

After Jiang Xiuyun left, Wei Jing pinched his face and looked directly at him, "Smile, why don't you laugh anymore, you know he tried to take you away, but he took away my only hope!" Wei Jing shouted hoarsely , Su Wuxu couldn't pull out a fake smile, how could he not know, he has had this mentality for many years, and it will only get worse, but what should he say...

The whole basement was filled with a strong smell of blood, his hands and feet were locked behind the chair and he couldn't move, his body was slashed and kissed by Wei Jing, he was already numb, Wei Jing was crazy, and he was also crazy, looking like a thorn The thorns covered his body ferociously, and he could still laugh, saying innocuous words, "Where have you been these few days?"

Wei Jing kissed the corners of his eyes and put her head on his neck, breathing on his neck, he said, "Do you know why Jiang Xiuyun was able to find this place so accurately?"

Su Wuxu was taken aback, "Why?"

"Because when you ran away last time, you threw away the necklace you gave me, and then someone took it to the auction house to sell, and then he found this place, you said, why don't you let me worry , Then...you gave it to me..." The voice of the last words became softer and softer, as if whispering in the ear, the voice trembling and choking, Su Wuxu remained silent, but his soul seemed to be weightless, he murmured over and over again , The necklace was given to you by me, it is a bit inexplicable to say it at this time, but Su Wuxu's two lines of tears slowly fell down...

But Wei Jing didn't see it, the next second Wei Jing took out an iron rod from the cabinet and hit Su Wuxu's leg fiercely, Su Wuxu immediately screamed hoarsely, his face twisted, he gasped so loudly because of the pain, The lower lip was bitten by himself until it was bloody, and the whole body arched because of the pain, but he smiled wryly as if resigned to his fate. Even though he had suffered so much pain, it was a hundred times stronger now, not only the body, but also... the soul .

Wei Jing cried and knelt down and hugged him and murmured, "Don't laugh, you should cry, I'm in such pain, why are you still laughing..."

When he opened his eyes, he found himself in the operating room. He thought that he was really vulnerable this time. Even the oxygen mask was on, and his body had no strength. He seemed to be pulling back. He hated the hospital, or Said fear, mixed with alcohol disinfectant and a faint smell of corruption. He wanted to escape, but he couldn't move, and it seemed to rush to the nasal cavity. He glanced at the operating room from the corner of his eye. Wei Jing's face was pale Staring at him, his face was still bloodstained, his eyes were straight as if he wanted to pierce a hole through him, with a cold light, Su Wuxu smiled wryly, and also wanted to cry, the only thing he thought about in his life was Wei Jing Yes, this person is on the top of his heart, but he ruined his lover step by step, it really is an unforgivable crime.

Su Wuxu closed his eyes and said in a trembling voice, "So, Ah Jing's leg...was broken by me?"

The surrounding pictures suddenly withered, falling down piece by piece, falling to the ground and turning into ashes, only Su Wuxu sitting on the chair in the darkness, and Bai Lingge sitting opposite.

Bai Lingge watched Su Wuxu come back and raised his eyebrows and smiled, "That's not the case. You have to know that there are causes and effects, or first tell me about your biggest impression after going through this circle?"

Su Wuxu looked directly at Bai Lingge, telling the truth, "Painful, numb."

Suddenly he laughed at himself, "If this is the case, why did Wei Jing bear it for me, and I just obeyed you and went through it again."

Bai Lingge still had no expression on his face, but his obsidian-like pupils glowed a little, "You know that all of us have limited cognition, and the idea of ​​everything in the world is because everything has a cause and effect, and everything can't be taken away. , only karma is with you, nothing will go away, only karma is with you..."

"So, no matter what you become, you will follow you?" Su Wuxu leaned back and leaned on the back of the chair, his body was already a little stiff from the cold, and laughed at himself.

"If you look at mountains as mountains and water as water, it's like healers who heal others can't heal themselves, and those who can save others can't heal themselves."

"You are really open-minded." Su Wuxu said in an unclear manner.

"Life is an uncertain road. The world is impermanent. The reason why people are afraid of death is because they have too much nostalgia." Bai Lingge smiled.

In fact, if you don’t think about cause and effect carefully, it is very suitable for comforting the soul. When facing death, you will not be caught in the pain of impermanence and unable to extricate yourself, and you will not drive yourself into a dead end, and even die based on resentment.

Su Wuxu knew and sorted it out, he sighed, "Why haven't I woken up yet?"

Bai Linge smiled lightly and said meaningfully, "I hope you will take good care of your new life."

Before Su Wuxu could react, the white light in front of him suddenly made his eyes sour. He opened his eyes and found that he was in the apartment that he bought with Weijing. He almost fell down and staggered to hold on to the closet, his body was still very thin and thin. He glanced at the notebook on the closet, and stretched out his pale and slender hand to open it.

April 2

This year is the fifth year that Wuxu and I have been together, and this year, Wuxu's condition also began to deteriorate, to the point that sometimes he could not sleep peacefully even after taking medicine. I asked him "Why?", and he said, "Someone Crying in his ear, making him unable to sleep.” Whenever I hear this sentence, I always feel sad and want to cry, but I can’t help him, I can only talk to him, this feeling is really Terrible.

April 2

I came home late in a traffic jam today. I found that the house was cleaned very clean, even the TV cabinet that hadn’t been opened for a long time was wiped clean and bright. His blood was flowing backwards, the water in the bathroom was flowing all over the floor, Wuxu lay curled up in the bathtub filled with water, his body was silent, the wound on his wrist was not closed, he wanted to commit suicide, he wanted to leave, but he couldn't bear me , I hugged him almost collapsed, but I was colder than him.

April 2

I took him to see a psychiatrist, but he didn't cooperate and did nothing, so he lowered his head and said a little aggrieved, "I don't want to go out." I hugged him and said, "It's okay, then I'll call the doctor to come home." , but he stared at the psychiatrist with trepidation. The doctor prescribed some medicine and hurriedly wanted to leave. He asked me to observe him for a few days. fuck off.

April 3

Wuxu suddenly said to me, "He feels that he is in a dream, he is afraid that he will not see me when he wakes up, and he is afraid that he will never wake up." So helpless and fragile, I kissed him , I said, if you can’t wake up, you can do it forever. Don’t worry, I’m always here.

April 3

I am taking care of him every day now, I am afraid that something will happen to him, I am afraid that he will really leave me, I am using all my connections to find the best psychiatrist, and he suddenly told me to buy a psychiatrist. He said, "His life is actually better spent in a wheelchair, so that at least he can relax a little bit." But my chest was so heavy that I couldn't breathe.

April 3

Gu Zhimo and Jiang Xiuyun wanted to see him. After I talked to Wu Xu, Wu Xu said, "He won't see anyone." To understand, he came in and said, "Su Wuxu, you were not very happy before, how could you have this disease?" Wuxu's expression couldn't tell whether he was crying or laughing, the whole person looked tense, and I was shocked when I saw it , I knew he was afraid of hearing concern or questioning, so I pushed Gu Zhimo out to tell him not to disturb, he hadn't noticed the seriousness of Wuxu's condition.

When I went back, I stood there dazed and helpless, I patted his back and said, it's all right, relax, I'm here.