love letter to summer

When Xia Tang was crying with tears in his eyes, a car stopped beside him, Xia Tang ignored it and cried on his own.

The car window opened, and Mama Ye poked her head out. She was taken aback for a moment, then quickly took out her phone and took a photo with Xia Tang.

Xia's mother looked from the co-pilot: "What are you shooting?"

Ye Ma: "A teenager crying on the side of the road in pajamas in the morning. Is it a loss of morality? Or a lack of humanity? Let us approach science together."

Xia Tang looked down and saw that she was wearing pajamas, and then remembered that she forgot to change clothes when she went out.

Oh my god, thinking of so many passers-by looking at him just now, Xia Tang blushed, hurriedly opened the car door, and got into the car like a burrow.

Mama Ye looked back at him and asked, "Is pajamas the latest fashion?"

Xia Tang cried and said: "I'm already in such a miserable situation, don't laugh at me anymore, please let me go, woo woo woo..."

Ye Ma laughed and stopped teasing her.

The car pulls into the highway and goes fast.

Mama Ye said, "Xiaotang, Auntie will tell you a story."

Xia Tang cried hard, choked up and nodded.

Mama Ye: "Auntie has a college classmate with excellent grades. After graduating from university, she plans to continue to study for a master's degree. Both King's College London and Massachusetts Institute of Technology are willing to admit her, but King's College London gives her a full scholarship, while MIT There are very few scholarships given. My classmates are very entangled and don’t know where to go.”

"At that time, she was troubled by this matter every day and asked for advice everywhere. So, something that was originally happy made her upset. When our professor learned about this, he talked to her and asked her why she hesitated. After being admitted to MIT, the students were very happy and went there without hesitation. My classmate told the professor that she felt that the tuition fees were too expensive and the scholarships were few. Her study there would increase the burden on her family, while King’s College London did not need it. She paid the tuition. So the professor said, "In this case, you can go to King's College London." My classmate said that she felt that she was losing money, and she was unwilling to give up MIT just because of the tuition. And she thought MIT can provide her with more resources and better development space, and she really wants to go to school there.”

"The professor told her that if you are obsessed with academics and want to do research, then you will choose MIT without hesitation. If you are from a poor family and money is very important to you, you will choose King's College. However, this You are neither of the two kinds of people. You are from a good family and your parents are able to support you in studying. You don’t need to save the tuition fees. You want to save money only out of filial piety. At the same time, you don’t want to do academic research. You can find a good job and make money, but at the same time you don’t want to live only for money, you want a broader space for development.”

"You know what you want, but you don't know exactly what you want. So you don't have a clear goal, you want everything, and you are reluctant to give up many things, which puts you in a dilemma. When a person has clear goals, he can Among the many choices, find the one that can help him achieve his goal, but you want everything, but you lose your way and don’t know how to choose.”

"Xiaotang, do you understand what I mean?"

Xia Tang looked dazed, he looked at Mama Ye's back, recalled that passage, and as he thought about it, a vague shadow gradually appeared in his mind, but the shadow was hazy and he couldn't grasp it.

Ye Ma: "Life is a one-way street, but the road is full of forks. Everyone is making choices throughout their life, and once they make a choice, they cannot repent. People always want to choose the best thing, but most Sometimes, God did not provide the best option. Therefore, the so-called choice is to make a trade-off.”

She still wanted to say something, Xia's mother suddenly said: "Xiaoya, when I get to the gas station later, I will go to the convenience store to buy some snacks."

Mama Ye was stunned for a moment, Xia Tang looked into her red eyes and said, "Mom, you obviously don't eat snacks."

Xia's mother didn't respond, and Xia Tang's heart skipped a beat when she saw her expression.

Mama Xia must have known something, Mama Ye should have told her, although I don't know how much the two communicated, but she must have known the most important things.

Xia Tang had mixed feelings, he was panicked and afraid, but he was relieved, these things had been suppressed in his heart for too long, and now it was revealed suddenly, he no longer needed to cover up, sneak around, let him relax like a stone falling to the ground.

What should come will always come, let it come, Xia Tang suddenly became a revolutionary martyr, this martyr frankly wiped his nose and tears, with a look of generosity to die.

Mama Ye said: "Sister Mei, I recently fell in love with a street shop and wanted to buy it. Today I made an appointment with the real estate agent to see it. Do you have anything to do later? If you have nothing to do, come and take a look with me."

"Okay, where is the shop? How much is it?"

The two started talking about the shop, and Xia Tang was forgotten by them.

Xia Tang sat alone in the back seat with a dazed expression on his face.

The scenery outside the window receded quickly, they were getting closer and closer to the airport, and the closer they were to the airport, the closer they were to Ye Ji.

What should I do after meeting?Wish him a safe journey, and then hope that he will return to China as soon as possible to serve the motherland?Speaking of which, Ye Ji might not be able to resist beating him up in public.Maybe the two of them will be on the news, and the headline will be "Two young people fight at the airport without saying a word, attracting hundreds of passengers to watch." Thinking of this, Xia Tang made himself laugh, he laughed for a while, and wanted to use his mobile phone to send this idea to Ye Ye Ji, but he didn't bring his mobile phone, he suddenly felt very lonely, Ye Ji was gone, no one could share his little thoughts, ideas, jokes and thoughts with him.

Xia Tang lay down on the back seat, looked up, her nose was sore, and her heart was melancholy.

Life is indeed composed of multiple choice questions, as Ye Ma said.Before, he wanted to be with Ye Ji, but also wanted to maintain his heterosexual image, just like Ye Ma's classmates, he wanted all the benefits and was reluctant to give up everything, so he was suffering, entangled, and struggling all the time.

In the end, Ye Ji helped him make a choice. Although he was sad, he still followed Ye Ji's arrangements smoothly. He never dared to think seriously about it, and didn't dare to ask how he felt. He pretended that everything was fine.However, this morning he really thought that he would never see Ye Ji again, at that moment, he felt like the world collapsed.In order to meet, he can beg others without caring about face, even crying on the street in pajamas is nothing, it doesn't matter how others look at him at that moment.

He once chose a seemingly correct path, he used to want everything, and he was unwilling to give up everything, but now, he suddenly felt that it was nothing to lose some things, and those things were insignificant compared to Ye Ji.

Go to the gas station, Xia Ma gets off.

Mama Ye looked at Mama Xia's back, Xia Tang got up and asked, "Aunt Jing, have you confessed to Mama?"

Mother Ye: "Sister Mei wanted to introduce a girlfriend to Ye Ji. Your cool ex-boyfriend came out to her even if he didn't agree with her. I couldn't stop her. On the way back, Sister Mei suddenly asked me, are you Not gay, does Ye Ji like you? I said frankly, Ye Ji likes you, but you are not gay. Then Sister Mei asked me, do you like Ye Ji, I said I don’t know. "

Xia Tang was both rejoicing and melancholy, thankfully Ye Ma didn't talk too much, even Xia Ma already knew that Ye Ji was gay, but as long as she denied liking him, Xia Ma could just pretend that nothing happened, and the matter would be over The sad thing is that if he has been cornered, unable to refute, unable to deny, he will smash the can, simply explain everything, and then chase that cool ex-boyfriend back.But now, the force that forced him to move forward suddenly disappeared, and he had room to retreat.

what can we do about it?