love letter to summer

Seeing that Ye Ji was online, Brother Nan immediately grabbed him and urged him to change.

Ye Ji opened the novel website casually, clicked on the navigation aimlessly, clicked on the works library, glanced at it and closed it, then opened the ranking list, glanced at it and closed it again.He just wandered around boredly, looking at the colorful rankings and those unfamiliar author names.

After staring at the screen for a while, he thought of Xia Tang.

I wonder if he has read novels recently?

He searched for Xia Tang's username in the comment area, and saw a message - sent last night.

"Xiao Xia, how are you? I have been chasing your articles for a long time, so long that I have forgotten when I started chasing them, 囧. From the first time I saw your articles, I liked them very much, and gradually fell in love with them. You. I don’t know why. You make me feel very warm. Your articles, your replies to readers, and every word you say make me feel warm. When I’m unhappy, I just read your novels. The mood will slowly calm down, like the sun dispelling the dark clouds. You don't know me, and you may even never notice me, but I have already regarded you as a close friend. Many things happened yesterday, which made me very sad. But I don't know who to talk to. My friends and family don't understand me. I have been suffering from insomnia recently, and tonight too. When I was lying in a daze just now, I suddenly thought of you. I want to tell you something.

I broke up with my boyfriend.I grew up with him and lived together for many years. I like him very much, the kind I like very much, but I have never dared to admit it. My family is very against homosexuality. I am afraid that others will look at me strangely. I am even more afraid that my family will be sad, I am a coward.And he is a very brave man, I think he can stand against the whole world for me... It seems to be a second disease to say this, but he really makes me feel this way, I often feel that I am not worthy of him, I Live up to his feelings.He suddenly proposed to break up last night. I was really astonished at the time. I never thought that he would break up with me on my own initiative. I seem to be talking nonsense to him... I can't remember what I said, probably some strange words, I hope he doesn't think I'm crazy, embarrassing...

But compared to breaking up, he did one more outrageous thing last night, he didn't sleep with me!He sleeps in the guest room!Others want to break up even if they break up, but he doesn't even sleep in the same bed as me, how can it be repaired!Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I want to have a sex, I was sad last night, I didn't think about it so much, I just wanted to hug him to sleep, but he didn't even give this chance.

Also, I couldn't sleep that day, and I thought of him when I closed my eyes, so I finally went to sleep with him, and then I asked him to tell me a bedtime story, and he actually told me a ghost story!It's still very perverted and terrifying, it scared me to death.He was obviously not like this before. When he was a child, he was fine. When I couldn’t fall asleep, he would tell me stories to lull me to sleep. If he woke up earlier than me in the morning, he would lie on the bed and wait for me to wake up.Now!now!He stopped coaxing me to sleep. Telling ghost stories is considered pediatrics. Before I pestered him to tell stories, he even told me about organic chemistry!What's more hateful is that I can't understand it at all, and I feel that my IQ has been insulted.Moreover, now when he wakes up in the morning, he just throws off the quilt and leaves, and sometimes laughs at me for being a sleepy pig.Ahhh, I'm so mad, no man in this world is good except me.

But even if he becomes so bad, I will still love him.Last night after he fell asleep, I secretly looked at him and thought he was so handsome, how could he be so good-looking?I secretly kissed him. Actually, I wanted to kiss him longer, but I was so sad, I wanted to cry, and my lips were trembling... Isn’t it often described in novels that couples feel heartbroken when they break up?I can attest first hand that this is not an artistic exaggeration, it is real, it is physical pain, twisting my heart like someone wringing a rag, I was wondering if I was going to have a heart attack...  

I had a lot of things I wanted to say to him last night, I wanted to tell him, sometimes when I was separated from him for a few days, I would miss him and couldn't sleep, I wanted to tell him that I might never meet someone more beautiful than him in my life. The person I care about, I want to say to him, I love you.But I won't say these words to him. Saying these things at this time will only become a burden on him.I hope he can come out as soon as possible and start a new life.Although I feel a little sad when I think of him not having me in his future life, but I am very happy when I think that he can find a person who is more worthy of him, who is as brave as him, and lives a peaceful and beautiful life... I I feel like I'm going to have a schizophrenia...

If I stop writing, I will cry again if I write again.

Suddenly a stranger said this to you, you should feel very inexplicable, haha, because I really don’t know who to talk to, and I feel uncomfortable in my heart, so I have to find you. If it troubles you, I’m sorry, hahaha .

Let's call it a day.Thank you for accompanying me to grow up and let me spend 19 years of happy life.Thank you also for your novels, which have given me a lot of strength.

thank you all. "

Tears gradually blurred Ye Ji's vision, he wanted to cry and laugh at the same time, so he smirked while weeping like a crazy person.

He read this message over and over again, rereading those words that Xia Tang didn't say to him, and his heart was very warm. Although he was sad, it was not sad, depressed, or wronged, but sad with a sense of happiness. .

He looked at those words and shed tears quietly and silently.

Xia Tang, this little friend who grew up with him, loves and cherishes each other with him, and puts each other in the most important position in their hearts.Now they have to separate, but they will always leave a place for each other in their hearts, bless each other, miss each other occasionally, and never forget each other.

Their love is separated by mountains and seas, and the mountains and seas cannot be flattened, but this life is enough without regrets.