love letter to summer

The nurse came in with the medicine, Ye Ma wanted to help Ye Ji get up, Ye Ji said: "I can do it myself." Ye Ma did not let go, and said while busy: "Let Mom take care of you once."

Ye Ji was stunned, looking at her, Ye Ma didn't look back, she continued to pour water and take medicine, and said: "After I received the call from the hospital last night, I kept thinking, what if I was not in China but abroad? What if I really have an important contract to sign and can't leave? What if I am sick and old myself, who will take care of you?"

She handed the medicine to Ye Ji and watched him take it.

Ye Ma: "A thousand-year-old father can't take care of a hundred-year-old son. As I said before, I will leave one day. At that time, you will really start to live alone. Every time I think about it, I feel very uncomfortable. So I I always hope that you can find someone who loves and takes care of each other and spend your life together, and it doesn’t matter if this person is a man or a woman.”

Ye Ji didn't speak, and Ye Ma sat by the bed, looking out the window.

The sky is bright, and the birds are singing on the branches.

Ye Ma said: "If that person is Xia Tang, I will be very relieved. It's a pity that even he himself didn't see his feelings for you clearly."

Ye Ji stayed in the hospital for one night, and was discharged the next afternoon. Mother Ye picked him up and went home. He passed by a cake shop on the way home, and he bought a blueberry cake.

As soon as he entered the house, Ye Ji felt that the house had become strange. The things and furniture hadn't changed, but there was an indescribable strangeness, as if he had strayed into someone else's house, which made him at a loss.

Xia Tang's slippers were placed by the door, Ye Ji put the slippers in the shoe cabinet, no one would wear them anyway.

After dinner, Ye Ji went back to his room, Ye Ma was watching TV in the living room, and the blueberry cake was still on the dining table intact.

Ye Ji occasionally went out to drink water and go to the toilet, however, he passed by the living room several times, as if he didn't see the cake, and walked directly past the dining table.

"Ye Ji." When Ye Ji passed by again, Ye Ma pointed to the cake and said, "If you don't eat it now, put it in the refrigerator, or it will spoil."

Ye Ji stopped and stood by the table.

He looked at the cake without moving.

"What's wrong?" Ye Ma asked.

Ye Ji's expression was in a daze, as if he hadn't realized something until that moment: "No...it's nothing." He shook his head mechanically, and said in a blunt tone, "I won't eat, will you?"

"I don't eat cakes, because I'm afraid of getting fat..." Mama Ye suddenly realized something, her unfinished words stopped on her lips, and her voice gradually faded away, like soot blown away by the wind.

The two stood beside the small cake, silent all the time.

Ye Ma opened the chair and sat down, opened the cake box, and said, "Give it to me, it's just a small cake, I won't get fat."

Ye Ji went back to his room and saw Xia Tang's casually placed coat hanging on the back of the chair. He hung up the coat on a hanger, tidied it up carefully, and put it in the closet.When he opened the closet, the smell of Xia Tang's clothes hit his face. The fruity smell was refreshing and pleasant. It floated out of the closet and permeated the room, soaking into every corner. This smell used to reassure Ye Ji, but now it made his heart tremble with pain.

He slammed the cabinet door shut.However, the smell was lingering, as if Xia Tang was in this small room, Ye Ji looked back, trying to catch something, but behind him was only an empty room, cold air, and pale walls.Xia Tang is not here, at the moment he is in his own home, his own room.There are mountains and seas between them.

He ran into the bathroom to wash his face.

He looked at the person in the mirror, water dripped down his face, even that face became unfamiliar, Ye Ji suddenly couldn't recognize who it was.

Do I look like this—he asked himself in his heart—is what I see now my real life?

He looked at himself blankly and caught sight of the sink out of the corner of his eye.Xia Tang's toothbrush and cup were placed next to his cup. The two cups were closely attached to each other, like two fat children standing side by side holding hands. Ye Ji stared at them for a while, then poked Xia Tang's toothbrush with his finger, and said to himself To himself: "Do you know? Your master is gone, and he doesn't want you anymore."

If Xia Tang saw this scene, he would definitely look at him with hellish eyes, and then laugh at his childishness.Thinking of this, Ye Ji couldn't help laughing.

However, Xia Tang will not see this scene, no matter how naive he is from now on, no one will laugh at him like this.

Ye Ji's smile froze on his face, like the ebbing waves, gradually fading away.

He picked up Xia Tang's toothbrush and cup and walked towards the trash can—maybe he wouldn't be so sad if he couldn't see it.

The trash can opened its mouth wide like a glutton, waiting to swallow all the abandoned things.

Ye Ji stood by the trash can for a long time, but still couldn't throw the toothbrush cup into it.This is Xia Tang's stuff, if you throw it away, you can never buy it back, even if you can buy the exact same product in the supermarket, it is not the one in your hand.

Ye Ji was reluctant to throw away Xia Tang's things, how could he be willing to throw them away?

Ye Ji looked at the toothbrush cup in his hand, and suddenly felt very heartbroken.He carefully put the cup back in place, neatly placed, and snuggled up to his cup.

Then he returned to the room, the computer beeped, and Brother Nan happily talked about interesting things in the Internet literature circle in the group.Ye Ji lacked interest, just watched, didn't speak, watched for a while, and thought of the past events of Brother Nan, at that time, he only heard a sad and beautiful story, although he was sorry, but he still couldn't empathize with him, but at this moment, he thought of Brother Nan again. Only those words that I really feel sad come from.He also understands why Brother Nan couldn't cry at that time, and he can't cry now either. Although it is uncomfortable and heartbroken, the pain is like a seed buried in the sand. It is depressing, wronged, and faintly stinging, and there is nowhere to tell others. , unable to vent.

He suddenly felt that everything in this world was ridiculous, like an illusory game, like an illusory dream.After waking up from the dream, the game is over. Those few clothes in the closet, the pair of slippers in the shoe cabinet, and the toothbrush on the table will all become a dusty memory, where they will be kept forever, no one wears them, no one uses them. , as if they never existed.

And he, from now on, perhaps in this life, will not need to buy desserts for others. The only person who likes desserts has left this family.

He seems to have become a dusty memory, just like those clothes and toothbrushes.