love letter to summer

Xia Tang: "I'm sorry, can you stop asking such strange questions?"

Zhen Peixuan: "Are you shy? Don't dare to answer? Then I'll ask Brother Ye."

Ye Ji: "I don't know."

"Ah? No way, are you really innocent?"

Xia Tang: "How many times do I have to clarify before you believe..."

"Okay." Zhen Peixuan smacked her lips and said with regret, "Forget it."

Before Xia Tang breathed a sigh of relief, she asked another question: "If the other party fell in love with someone else, what would you do?"

Xia Tang: "...Sister, I seriously doubt what is your intention in asking us to do a hundred questions?"

Zhen Peixuan: "Hee hee, I just want to promote your communication. You are so procrastinating, I feel anxious. How about it, what is your answer, senior?" She emphasized again, "Supposing Brother Ye really Completely changed my mind, I don’t like you anymore~”

Xia Tang fell silent suddenly, his long silence was like a period suddenly dropped into a long sentence, forcibly truncating the important content.

He looked at the floor and said, "I, will bless him."

"Ah?" Zhen Peixuan seemed to be stepped on her foot, screaming as sharply as a screaming chicken, "Senior, what are you talking about?! Are you serious? Are you crazy?"

Xia Tang didn't speak, he lowered his head, looking at the shadow under his feet.

"Senior, Brother Ye is going to run away with someone else, don't you care?! How could you..." Ye Ji pressed the end call button, and Zhen Peixuan's voice stopped abruptly.

The room returned to silence, and the two were relatively silent.

"I will tie you up at home, not let you go out, and not let you see that person." Ye Ji broke the silence.

Xia Tang raised his head suddenly, his eyes opened into a pair of round glass balls.

Ye Ji waved.

Xia Tang hesitated for a while, and finally walked in front of him, Ye Ji grabbed his arm and pulled him forward, Xia Tang didn't resist, he was pulled forward by that force, and sat on Ye Ji's lap.

"You know I won't like other people, you know that." Ye Ji kissed his ear lightly and whispered, "Don't be sad for this kind of thing that won't happen."

Xia Tang turned to look at him, Ye Ji smiled at him.

Xia Tang looked at his eyes, his nose, and his lips.

Ye Ji closed his eyes.

A kiss fell gently on his eyes, cautious and timid.

Ye Ji didn't speak, and didn't open his eyes.They use silence and darkness to build a wall to isolate the troubled world.

Designating the ground as a prison, isolated from the world, or, is deceiving one's ears and stealing one's ears.

Ye Ji hugged Xia Tang and stood up, leading him staggeringly to the door, he turned off the light, the light disappeared instantly, and they fell into darkness.

The cloth fell and covered the candy jar.

They hide in jars, hide in the dark, and stealthily enjoy the sweet taste of candy.

Ye Ji lifted Xia Tang's clothes, exposing his flat and thin chest, he couldn't wait to touch it, like a traveler who has lost his way in the desert for a long time and finally sees an oasis.

They hugged skillfully and naturally, kissed naturally and jerky, and touched each other jerky and impatiently.

The last time they did this, Xia Tang was terrified. Although he relaxed a lot later, Ye Ji felt that he was resisting, so he hurriedly finished the matter. The result was that Ye Ji swallowed that experience like a gulp, There is no time to savor it carefully.

This time he's going to take it slow.

When he touched Xia Tang's aroused part, he suddenly felt that Xia Tang was very cute there. As for why it was so cute, he couldn't explain why. He served Xia Tang meticulously and patiently, and admired his body by moonlight. The body, the child he had grown up with, was now a man, with hair growing where it was once bald, and muscles that were once soft became hard.

Xia Tang grabbed his shoulder very hard, Ye Ji felt pain, but the more pain the better, the more pain, the more awake he was.He knew he was awake, he knew clearly what he was doing, and he was consciously bearing the whip of reality while enjoying himself in a masochistic way.

They embraced each other alone in this silent night as dark as an abyss, like moths rushing to a candlelight together.

Ye Ji vaguely recalled his first wet dream experience, when he was 14 years old, he unconsciously completed this important event in his sleep in his sleep.

This incident happened at Xia Tang's house. When he got up for breakfast one day, he not only found a strange white stain on the bed, but also a certain organ on his body that was always soft stood up in a strange shape.He thought he wanted to pee, although he didn't want to pee, he went into the toilet and stood in front of the toilet, but he didn't pee out after standing for a long time.It was many years later that Ye Ji found out that most men would find it difficult to urinate when excited, but he didn't know this at the time, he felt confused, and he wondered if he was sick.He stood blankly in the toilet thinking about why he became like this, and when he came back to his senses, the swelling in that place had disappeared by itself, which made Ye Ji feel even more confused, and at the same time, he felt a kind of joy as if he had escaped bad luck.

Afterwards, Xia Tang's parents belatedly discovered that the first young adult had appeared in the family.One day after dinner, Xia Tang's father called Ye Ji to the balcony alone.Ye Ji clearly remembered the embarrassment of this conservative middle-aged man at that time, so much so that Ye Ji almost mistakenly thought that what they were about to discuss was not their own body, but a woman's body.Throughout the conversation, the middle-aged man tried his best to avoid mentioning the word "sex". In fact, even if he hadn't deliberately avoided it, the word would never have been mentioned at all, because what he told Ye Ji was nothing more than " It's a normal biological phenomenon", "It means you're growing up", "Every man goes through this, it's normal".

Xia Tang's father's attitude confused Ye Ji, but he soon discovered that this attitude was not unique to Xia Tang's father. Almost all adults had the same attitude as this middle-aged man when they talked about "sex". Do you have to wonder if it is him who has a problem with his thinking?He has always been unable to understand the thinking of adults, especially when he later learned that sexual behavior is a necessary step in reproduction, he felt more and more unable to understand them, why such a thing that is crucial to human reproduction, people mentioned it Will it be so embarrassing and embarrassing?

In fact, until today, seven years later, he is still puzzled by this.

In fact, this is not the only thing that confused him. As he grew older and came into contact with more and more people and things, his confusion increased day by day. He finally found that he did not understand the world at all, or that he Do not understand the human world.

Ye Ji stood in the dark, looking at the moonlight outside the window, he thought of "Shouting in the Drizzle" written by Yu Hua.He read this book when he was 16 years old.At the age of 14, the protagonist in the book had the same experience as Ye Ji at the age of 14—a sudden awakening of primitive desires.But his situation was more miserable than Ye Ji's.Although both of them have poor sexual knowledge, at least Ye Ji faced his own desires calmly, and that poor boy did not have such good luck. , while feeling resentful and disgusted with his own filth after dawn.

When Xia Tang hugged him and said "I'm afraid" in a hoarse and sad voice, Ye Ji suddenly had a wonderful resonance with the boy in the book.

All the pleasures of the night turn into torments when the day comes.

My soul was turbulent in those days, and it was often obvious that I was torn in two, with two parts of me glaring at each other like a pair of enemies. ——"Shouting in the Drizzle"