love letter to summer

After returning home, Mother Ye went into the kitchen to check the refrigerator. After looking at it for a while, she poked her head out and asked Ye Ji, "What time do you have your exam tomorrow?"

Ye Ji: "10:30."

Ye Ma: "Well, then you can have breakfast at home, I will prepare it for you, but I can't make complicated things, you can eat whatever you want."

Ye Ji hummed, and at the same time put his shoes and Ye Ma's shoes neatly in the shoe cabinet.

After seeing the refrigerator, Mama Ye started flipping through the calendars hanging behind the door.

Ye Ji was about to go back to his room, but she stopped him.

Ye Ma: "When did you finish the last subject?"

"number 22."

Mama Ye frowned.

Ye Ji stood there and looked at her.

Mama Ye was silent for a while, and said, "Your grandfather's condition is not very good, I'm afraid we won't be able to wait until that time." She looked at the calendar, stretched out her finger, and crossed the date with her fingertip, saying, "You'd better, Go see him as soon as possible."

Ye Ji felt cold for a moment, a face appeared in his mind, the features of the face had been blurred, Ye Ji could only remember a rough outline, and there was always a kind smile on that face.At that time, this man was already 60 years old, but he was still tall and strong, with high spirits. His palms were broad and powerful. Every time Ye Ji put his hands in his palms, it felt like a little mouse scratched his paws. Put it in the palm of the lion king.He can still use his strong arms to hold Ye Ji up to his shoulders, and lead him majestically up the street. Because of his impressive height, most passers-by raise their heads when they look at him, as if looking up at him. The god of war who descended from the sky, even his gray hair and beard, has become the proof of "old age", rather than the ruthless witness of the years.

He spends more time with Ye Ji than Ye Ji spends with his own father.He almost replaced Ye Ji's father and became the first adult male whom Ye Ji admired in his childhood.

They have been separated for too long, and Ye Ji no longer knows how he aged slowly and silently. Ye Ji can't even believe that this man who used to be like a mountain was inevitably defeated by time in the end. superior.

Ye Ma: "After the exam tomorrow, when will the next subject be taken?"

Ye Ji: "Seventeen."

Ye Ma looked at the calendar and thought for three seconds, then said, "You go at NO.15 and come back at NO.16, is that okay?"

Ye Ji: "Yes."

Ye Ma let go of the calendar, walked out of the kitchen, and said, "I'll help you book air tickets and hotels. If you have other ideas, please let me know as soon as possible."

Ye Ji nodded.

"You have an exam tomorrow, go to bed early."

Ye Ji stood still, looking at her hesitantly.

"Go to sleep." She smiled, her smile seemed to comfort Ye Ji and herself, but Ye Ji saw a trace of helplessness towards life in that smile.

Ye Ji understood, she didn't want to talk about that matter, she wasn't ready yet, at least at this moment, she didn't know how to face her gay son.

It seemed that she didn't actually know about the matter between Ye Ji and Xia Tang, or she had already noticed something, but she kept deceiving herself and said to herself that it was just her unilateral conjecture, which may not be the case.

Ye Ji watched her turn around, walk through the living room, into the long corridor, and walk towards the study at the end.

She didn't turn on the corridor light, Ye Ji suddenly realized that her body was so thin.Every time she appeared in front of Ye Ji, she always wore a meticulous suit, high heels on her feet, her back was as straight as a pine tree, she looked like a general ready to go to the battlefield at any time.Ye Ji had never seen any expressions of fear, timidity, or weakness on her face. She always made people feel that she would never fall down.

But she was so thin and small, when she walked into the corridor alone, the black shadows in the corridor seemed to be able to swallow her in one bite.

Ye Ji turned off the light in the living room.

The light in the study was turned on, the door was closed, and light leaked through the crack of the door, like the lamp lit by the prow of a lone boat floating on the boundless ocean.

At two o'clock in the middle of the night, Ye Ji woke up suddenly. He looked at the dark ceiling, and only the sound of the air conditioner was in his ears.The back of Ye Ma appeared in his mind again. For some reason, he remembered a passage in "Watching" written by Long Yingtai: I slowly and slowly realized that the so-called relationship between father and daughter, mother and child, only But it means that the fate between you and him is that you are constantly watching his back gradually drifting away in this life.You stand at this end of the path and watch him gradually disappear at the turn of the path, and he silently tells you with his back: don't chase.

Ye Ji got up, he walked out of the room, and went outside the study room, where the light was still shining through the gap in the study door.

Ye Ji knocked on the door, and he waited for a long time before a voice came from inside saying, "Come in."

Mama Ye sat on the sofa, she didn't look back.

Ye Ji walked over and sat down on her right hand side, the two sat quietly, neither of them spoke.

On the wall clock on the opposite wall, the minutes ticked slowly.

They were silent for 5 minutes.

Ye Ma said: "From the first time I realized that you might be gay, I kept asking myself, what should I do? But until today, I still haven't thought of an answer, and I have been avoiding talking about this issue with you , I even thought, maybe I just pretend to be stupid for the rest of my life."

Ye Ji: "Mom, you know that homosexuality is not a disease, I was born with it."

"I know, but others may not think so." Ye Ma said, "If you like Turing, then you should know his final outcome."

Alan Turing, the father of computer science and artificial intelligence, was secretly involved in breaking German codes during World War II, and his work was critical to the Allied victory in the Atlantic.In addition, in 1943, Turing developed a deciphering machine that could quickly read the information storage type from the paper tape. This machine was the prototype of the early electronic digital computer.He is a pioneer in computer theoretical research and the founder of modern computers. He was awarded the Order of the British Empire, a national treasure-level scientist, and a rare genius.But in 1952, he was arrested for being "gay" and was later "chemically castrated". The serious side effects of hormone injections caused his gender characteristics to change. Not only that, the "homosexual" scandal made him suffer repulsion, and can no longer participate in computer development work.Two years later, Turing committed suicide at home.