[Journey to the West] Those things about me and Master

People in the world say that from a demon to a Buddha, you only need to put down the butcher knife, and from a Buddha to a demon, but it is often very small.

See through everything in the world, but it is not easy to regenerate greed, hatred and ignorance, and it is not easy to regenerate obsession.

But becoming a demon or becoming a Buddha is actually only a matter of one thought.

If you feel it, you are a Buddha; if you are lost, you are a demon.

The fish monster followed Avalokitesvara to practice, delved into the Dharma, knew the world's numerous principles, and gradually became enlightened.

Perhaps he could have attained enlightenment and become a Buddha, ranked among the immortals, and enjoyed a reputation in the Three Realms.

But he knew that he had an attachment in his heart.

Cultivating Buddhahood is nothing more than covering the seeds of the world with a layer of oil paper.

One day, he was tired from listening to Guanyin's lectures, so he lay down in the lotus pond and dozed off.

From nowhere came a bird with emerald green wings, like clear spring water.The bird strayed into Putuo by mistake, perched on a branch, and babbled, which disturbed the fish monster.

He looked up with drooping eyelids, "Where are you from? Why haven't I seen it before?"

Kingfisher replied, "I come from the Great Thousand World, so of course you have never seen the Great Thousand World."

The fish monster was taken aback, but it never occurred to him that this bird is also eloquent.

"What are you doing here?"

When the kingfisher heard this, his eyes filled with water, "Spring is here, and I flew north with my tribe, but I got lost on the way, so I had to come here to rest."

It turned out to be a migratory bird in the world of mortals.

The fish monster stayed in the water, looked at the chirping fluffy green bird on the branch, blinked, and felt moved.

"Hey, since you are from the Great Thousand World, can you tell me what the Great Thousand World looks like?"

"You haven't seen it? That's a pity, what a pity..." Kingfisher looked at him in surprise, shook his head and sighed, with remembrance and hope in his expression, "It's really a beautiful place, with three mountains and five mountains. , four pools and six waters, clouds and dreams rising, spring grass and blue colors, beautiful and picturesque...Everything you can see is a beautiful scene."

The fish monster, who had spent half his life in Putuo, felt turmoil in his heart, closed his eyes, and made a hoarse voice.

"Is it really so beautiful?"

"It's really so beautiful."

"When you return to the south in winter, if you pass by this place again... come and tell me about the human scenes you have seen."

The sky was bright that day, and it cast a clear shadow among the branches and leaves.Since then, the fish monster and the sparrow have had an agreement exclusively for the two of them. Winter, south, spring, north, and the end of the day are like poems written in seasons, one line after another.

"Big fish, I saw the capital of the world this time! It is indeed the center of gravity of a country. There are towering palaces everywhere, glazed roofs, green tiles and green tiles. They are so magnificent! ... They also have night markets. At night, the ten-mile-long street is full of lights, and pedestrians are crowded together. Human beings have so much enjoyment, and I really want to be a human being.”

"Big fish, I went to the south of the Yangtze River to spend the winter not long ago. There are ten miles of peach leaves across the Qinhuai River, and there are all riverside water pavilions pierced with leaf and stone fences. It is misty and rainy at all seasons... I spent the winter there, and it was almost crisp. By the way, I also saw a daughter raised her eyes to look at the man, then immediately lowered her head to cover her face with her sleeves, and answered shyly, "What do you always see me doing?" Guess the man How do you say it?"

When the chick talked about this, her eyebrows were curved and her eyes were narrow.

"He said, 'You really look like my future wife'. It's really sweet, don't you think?"

The fish monster listened to her talk about the scenery of the Central Plains and the anecdotes of the world, and sketched out pictures in his mind, unconsciously infiltrating a mortal heart.

"What's so sweet about this?" He replied inexplicably.

The sparrow snorted, "That must be because you haven't awakened yet!" After she finished speaking, she paused, and glanced at him with a buzzing voice, "Do you know what liking is?"

"What is like?"

"I like it... It's like you have seen thousands of lights shining for thousands of miles, but you still only love a star in the endless night. It's possession, and it's also easy to capture."

"I don't understand."

The chick was silent.

"You miss him when you can't see him, and when you see him, your heart churns and it's hard to talk about it. This is liking."

The fish monster suddenly had mixed tastes, and his tongue was twitching with a complicated expression.

"If what you said is liking, then I still like my master."

The bird opened its eyes blankly, as if it had been stunned.

"Why did you say that?"

"Thousands of Buddhas, I only like him. When I didn't see him, I thought a lot in my heart, but I saw him, but I was often speechless and unable to say a word."

The sparrow waved its paws, afraid of leading the fish astray.

"This is not liking, this is not!"

The fish monster looked up, squinted and stared at her, "Then tell me, what do you like?"

The chaffinch opened its beak and stammered for a long time.

At the end, she lowered her head and buried her head in her plump body, her voice was as soft as a mosquito.

"For example...for example, I want to give birth to you."

Spring and summer came very early that year.Cuiyi spreads the heaven and the earth, dyeing layer after layer.As for the sparrow, it flew away as early as the weather warmed up, and the sky was so dim that it couldn't leave a fleeting trace.

After all, he didn't have time to ask her what the last sentence meant, just as he didn't know the words of love, he had already entered the dust net first.

He still stayed in his pond, listening to Guanyin's lectures every day, facing thousands of disciples, and facing the mighty sentient beings.

And he is just a drop in the ocean, a mustard in the floating.

Occasionally, just like the momentary ripples in the water, Avalokitesvara would turn his head and cast a gentle glance in his direction, seeming to be looking at him, but not seeming to be looking at him.

At this time, the fish monster's heart would thump and jump loudly.

He tightly grasped the lotus leaf next to him, buried his head in the bottom of the water and spit out a series of bubbles, not daring to look back at the man.

Panic.The warbler flies and the grass grows.

That year, when the finch passed Putuo Mountain for the last time, she found something inexplicable in the bottom of the fish monster's eyes.

She knew it was crazy.

She has seen this look in the eyes of thousands of people, and in her own eyes reflected in the water.

She didn't expect that one day, that dull fish would finally open up.To someone who is not her.

"Que'er, he just smiled at me, did you see that?"

The fish monster held its breath, suppressing the ups and downs of its voice.

"I see."

"Then tell me, does Master also like me?"

The fish monster asked her for proof, or for a kind of comfort, with a faint light in his eyes.

Chaffinch looked down at him, a sudden flood of sadness welled up in her heart.

The biggest illusion in this world is that you see him smiling at you and think he likes you too.

She has seen too many beginnings like this, and is familiar with all unsatisfactory endings.They are often deeply obsessed and unable to extricate themselves, and in the end they can only drag and sink together and end in death.

Tiffin shook her head, "Go and ask him yourself."

She knew that any solution would be powerless.

When others tell you that the cliff is dangerous, it is better to prove it completely by jumping off the cliff.

The fish monster opened its mouth to say something, but in the end there were only endless bubbles left, annihilated in silence.

That day, he turned into a human form for the first time, naked, dripping water all the way, walking towards that person step by step.

"Master."

When Avalokitesvara turned her head, what she saw was the blind man looking straight into his eyes, obstinate and crazy, like fireworks burning all over the mountain, with dazzling brilliance.

"what happened?"

The fish monster bit its lip and clenched its fists, but never looked away for a moment.

"Since master loves all living beings, then I am one of them. Does master also love disciples?"

Avalokitesvara didn't know why he came here to ask, she nodded without hesitation, her expression unchanged, "Naturally."

The fish monster's eyes lit up, "Master saves all sentient beings, so I am one of them. Is Master also willing to save disciples?"

Guan Shiyin felt that this disciple was a little strange today, and had a faint premonition in his heart, but he didn't show it on his face.

He nodded, "Naturally."

The fish monster bit his lip for joy, knelt down on one knee, and bowed to him upright.

"The disciple's suffering is the master. The master saves all sentient beings from suffering and loves Purdue, so the master...will you also save me?"

"..."

Avalokitesvara looked at him silently but with gloomy eyes.

Looking at this naked boy, looking at his half-scaled face that is neither human nor demon.

"How to save you?"

When he spoke, his voice was no longer gentle, but cold.

The fish monster didn't notice it at all, and still looked at him with hope, as if looking at the light of a lifetime.

Forever just to chase that phantom.

"Pity me, cherish me, love me, protect me... love me."

The bamboo forest is quiet and the wind blows silently.

Avalokitesvara's response made him wait for half a quarter, his heart was beating like it was going to explode.

He said, "...OK."

As if the dust had settled.

……

"Que'er, there is one thing I still don't understand."

When the fish monster told her the old song of confession, his eyes were blurred like mist.

"He said pity, he said wish to cross, he said yes. But why..." He recalled all the traces that were vaguely accompanied by him, his expression was in a trance, "Why, nothing has changed?"

He is still just one of the disciples of Avalokitesvara who are as numerous as grains of sand, and he can only look at him from a distance, unless he suppresses all his humble shame and takes the initiative to find that person, that person will never come to find him.

Except for the occasional inadvertent name-calling during the lectures, except for a few moments of generosity in the Dharma dialogues.

They are still master and disciple, man and fish, Buddha and sentient beings.

What can a chick say?

She looked at the fish monster with sad eyes, the words in her heart were tumbling, but she couldn't say anything.

fool...

A Bodhisattva is a Bodhisattva after all, no matter how gentle and loving, it is not just because you are regarded as one of the sentient beings.

rather than the only beings.

That is the sentient being of the lofty Buddha, and it is not ruthless to the extreme.

His sympathy, his love, and his protection are things that cannot be seen in abundance.

But it lures the person who is tempted for the first time, sinking step by step into the abyss.

That night, the fish monster appeared and stepped into the Guanyin Hall silently.

There was no light in the hall, and the boundless darkness surrounded the surrounding Buddha statues.And in the very center of the hall, under the glazed tile ceiling, there is a faint golden light.That is the color of golden lotus.

Avalokitesvara looked at the naked/naked fish monster kneeling on the golden lotus, and the air froze for a moment.

He said in a low voice, "What are you doing here?"

The fish monster was not shy, except for a little blush that lowered its figure.

He took Avalokitesvara's white and greasy hand and placed it on his smooth body.

"Que'er said that if you like someone, you want to give birth to him. Master, you said that you love me too, would you like to give birth to me?"

Sexual intercourse is nothing more than natural for beasts.However, because of practicing Buddhism, he has suppressed his desires and pursued the Tao for hundreds of years.

Guan Shiyin looked at him as if he had heard a big joke, with his eyebrows half raised and half furrowed, "You forgot everything my teacher taught you? Form/is emptiness, and emptiness is form, you've lost your mind."

Dare to ask the Bodhisattva to have sex, this fish is probably the No. 1 living being.During these hundreds of years of pure heart and few desires, he taught and practiced Buddhism. He didn't know how much evil thoughts this disciple had, so that he was blinded, and dared to make such a wish to the Bodhisattva.

The fish monster seemed to have expected it, he stared straight at Avalokitesvara, and the words in his mouth seemed to be thinking for many years, "If color/is emptiness, then I am pregnant/sex, isn't it also pregnant with emptiness?"

"You..." Avalokitesvara frowned, before he finished speaking, he suddenly saw the man half kneeling and hugging him.

One is dressed in brocade robes like snow, and the other is naked.

There is nothing outside of one's heart, and one's heart is in the devil's barrier.

"Master, it doesn't matter if you don't want to. I like you, and I can give birth to you."

He almost used up all the humility he had in his life, spreading his self-esteem naked to others, waiting for the final acceptance, or trampling on him mercilessly.

Amidst the scorching waiting, Avalokitesvara remained motionless, neither pushing away nor approaching.

He is like the ruthless, lustless and stone-like Buddha statues that can be seen everywhere in this temple, with no eyes and eyebrows, but he just looks at it indifferently, as if watching a farce, he said softly, "Have you had enough trouble? "

The fish monster bit his lip and stared wide-eyed, he didn't understand how he could treat all this as a show in such a calm manner after he had achieved this.

At that time, he didn't see through it. This was the only gentleness and non-aggression that a Buddha showed him.

He gave him the steps and he ignored them.

But at this point, how could he take a step back and say with a smile that everything was just a joke.

How could his intentions be a joke...

The last tragic thought remained in my mind, like a string of mourning, on the verge of breaking.

Since you are wrong, pull each other and drown together... Let's go all wrong and go to the bottom of the abyss!

The fish monster covered the man's palms on his chest, his eyes were hidden, and the water was like fire, and he was looking at him, "I'll ask you again, in your eyes, am I empty or form?"

The Bodhisattva felt that his fingers had touched a small hard grain, his eyelids did not jump, and he answered him without changing his expression.

"It's empty, and it's not empty."

"What about that?"

The fish monster covered his dust root, kneading it up and down, clenching its teeth. "Am I void or form?"

Avalokitesvara didn't respond at all, he put his hands together and said Amitabha, "It's empty, it's not empty."

It was a tormenting stalemate in the dark of night.

He teased her step by step, Guanyin's eyebrows and eyes were indifferent, showing no emotion/desire.

In the end, the man was lying on his shoulder almost exhausted, his voice seemed to be crying in despair, like half a poem broken in the lonely night.

"Why can't you give me a picture...why can't you let me be your picture!..."

Avalokitesvara looked at the young man who was almost half hanging on her body, but did not answer.

Since the beginning of this confrontation, he never interrupted him harshly, and only turned his head away when the man was about to kiss his upper lip.He knows that any awakening can only come from himself, not from outsiders.

"Because I am a Buddha." Holding the Buddha beads, Avalokitesvara's eyes were clear, without the dust of desires and thoughts, "I have no appearance, and I can't see appearance either."

This is doomed, for that person, apart from emptiness, there is nothing but meaningless emptiness.

And never will be phase.

It will not be attachment.

The fish monster listened, his body trembled, and he slowly climbed up from him, his eyes were red.

"There is no appearance, can't see the appearance?" He smiled, but the redness in his eyes was even more red, and he looked straight into the bottom of his eyes, "Your Dharma name is Guanshiyin, have you ever watched your own sound?"

That was the first time in thousands of years that Avalokitesvara was asked this question.

It is not Buddha or Bodhisattva who is asking, but only him.

His complexion changed for an instant, but it was only an instant after all.Such as the moon in the water and the flower in the mirror are not worth mentioning at all.

He shook his head lightly, "I have no pain, and I have no desires. You don't have to look at yourself."

"Heh... But I think the greatest pain is without pain, and the greatest desire is without desire!"

He grabbed Avalokitesvara by the collar, and the two of them were very close to each other.

"Master, I know what you want to say, saying that I have fallen into a demon barrier. But you," he swallowed the last choked sob, clenched the human dust root with one hand, and pinched his five fingers so painfully, "you are not much better Go. I have a demonic obstacle, and I just face it. But you have a demonic obstacle, but you are blind to avoid it!"

With a silly smile, he stepped off the golden lotus, exited the hall, and disappeared into the night step by step.

"Bodhisattvas are afraid of the cause, and all living beings are afraid of the result. Avalokitesvara, you will never become a Buddha."

[——He vowed never to become a Buddha before all the sufferings of the world were rescued! 】

"You can't get over me...and you can't get over yourself."

That was the last time they met.

It was as if the night had been torn into half pieces, pulling the deep pain.

Talking like a dream, the fish monster looked dazed, self-deprecating, and stuck in the past.

"You are so smart, you should be able to see clearly that he was a Buddha in the past, he is a Buddha now, and he will be a Buddha in the future. He will not be emotional with you, let alone be selfish with you."

Sun Wukong had a complex complexion and a slightly hoarse voice.

The fish monster finally came back to his senses, and Liang Liang smiled, "But I can't get what I want...it's too bitter."

He would rather fall to pieces and end vigorously than be pulled like a dagger in the two worlds that worry about gains and losses.He does not seek the cause, but the effect.

The fish monster raised its head and took a breath, stretched out its hand and handed something to Sun Wukong, "If I die someday...you can give this thing to him for me."

He didn't say who, but Monkey King already knew.

He finally took a deep look at the fish monster, took it and nodded.

"it is good."

It's just that no one expected that day to come so soon.

Like the end of the night, the stars have dimmed before dawn.

As soon as they got up the next day, they saw a man in white clothes like snow standing outside the tent with his hands behind his back.

It's just a solitary silhouette, like a deep mountain and still water, blue clouds and white cranes, captivating and taking people's breath away.

"Sun Wukong?" Avalokitesvara turned around slowly, her sleeves were like snow, and her eyes were calm.He raised his eyes to look at Sun Wukong, his voice did not fluctuate, "Give me the fish monster from the Tongtian River."

The moment he saw the bodhisattva, Monkey King suddenly realized what the man meant when he said that the time of death was approaching.

[——In order to escape the hunt in the early years, I deliberately went down to the realm to find a hiding place. 】

The fish monster fled to the lower realm to harm the living beings, and Guan Yin, his master, naturally would not ignore it.

After so many years of ice isolation, their arrival finally broke the game.How could Avalokitesvara not notice the escaping aura?

No wonder, he was able to find this place overnight.

The fish monster didn't wait for everyone's response, it turned out of the pouch first, and the moment it landed, it became bigger and returned to its original size.

"You came."

Avalokitesvara looked at his disciple whom he hadn't seen for hundreds of years. He had scars all over his body from nowhere, his body was gray, he was down and out but still as unruly as before, he pursed his lips and didn't answer.

"You escaped from Putuo and killed all living beings. The crime is heinous and the blood is countless. Naturally, I can't sit idly by."

The fish monster listened, and for some reason, he smiled, his brows and eyes curved, "It feels pretty good to have been chased by you for hundreds of years."

Guanshiyin raised his eyebrows and waved his sleeves, "It's really nonsense! How can you treat human life like a joke?"

"Child's play? You save all beings but you don't want to save me. Naturally, I want you to see how demonic, delusional and hopeless the world is!"

The fish monster and him looked at each other, no one took a step back while fighting each other.

"Come back with me." Avalokitesvara took a slight breath, "Go back and atone for your sins. Don't make the same mistakes again and again."

The man laughed and shook his head mockingly, "Now, do you think I will really go back if you want me to go back?"

He stared at Avalokitesvara, his tone was sad and his words were sharp.

"Master, I can't turn back."

After hundreds of years, he called him Master again for the first time.

Unexpectedly, it was in such a dire situation.

Guan Yin frowned and took a step forward, "I don't want to force you. Don't let me do it."

Facing this disciple, he gave in again and again, but he let him down again and again.

Buddha also has a bottom line.What's more, he has already been reduced to a Bodhisattva.

The fish monster retreated step by step as he approached, and the coolness seeped into the gap between his teeth little by little, making him feel sore.

He nodded and said, "Okay, I won't make things difficult for you."

Just such a light and faint sentence, as if responding to a routine.

But at the moment when the words fell, no one thought that there would be a sudden change!

I saw that person floating in mid-air, his body burst out with light as bright as day, almost blinding people's eyes.

Sun Wukong reacted suddenly, Guan Yin's pupils also widened, and his lips opened and closed, faintly saying no.

But the fish monster looked at him with a half-smile in the white light, as if separated by a layer of veil, his lips and teeth were lightly parted, and fell silent.

... Let me ask you again, in your eyes, am I empty or form?

Avalokitesvara stared at him intently, heard this sentence through the shape of his mouth, but his face was startled as if he hadn't expected it.

After wandering around for so many years, the only thing that man thought about was this sentence.

I am empty or form to you.

But the fish monster didn't wait for his answer, as if it knew it well and didn't want to know anymore.

Almost at the moment when he finished speaking, he crushed the inner alchemy that emerged from his chest, and the white light suddenly burst and died, flying into scattered fragments, like catkins flying in the air, falling into the palms of everyone, and in a blink of an eye into a void of nothingness.

The sky and the earth floated and fell silently.Like a mourning memorial.

That person once stained his hands with blood, causing others to explode and die, but now he himself also ended up in the same way.

It's like a shadow, or maybe this ending has already been thought about.

Avalokitesvara clenched the traces that had long since disappeared in her hands, and her eyes were closed like that of snowflakes.

Monkey King didn't expect that person would choose such a tragic ending to end his ridiculous life.

He clenched his teeth, but still couldn't help trembling slightly, the coolness of the tide permeated his chest, making it painful.

"This is what he... asked me to give you."

He took a breath, took out a kit with a goldfish pattern and stuffed it into the man's hand, he was so heavy that he didn't know what it contained.

"What is it?"

Avalokitesvara's eyes were deep and her voice was low and hoarse.

Sun Wukong looked at the invisible light in the sky bit by bit, clenched his fists and remained silent for a long time.

"He asked me to tell you...the Buddha said, don't say it. Don't say it."

【—Aren’t you the most hated Buddha?No matter how you speak, the Buddha said the Buddha said? 】

【—The story between me and him started with Buddha and will end with Buddha. 】

Avalokitesvara held her breath, and slowly opened the pouch.

What was unexpected inside was a bag of scales.

He was completely stunned, and when he reached out to touch the blood-stained fish scales, he paused for breath.

He is a Buddha, he naturally knows the causes and conditions of everything.

There seemed to be a deep sea sinking in front of my eyes, and the black figure huddled in a dark corner, gritted my teeth and forcibly pulled out the bloody scales.

Reflecting the dark scars that have already criss-crossed on the body.

And the man was talking, talking to himself—

I told myself that every time I miss you, I pull out a scale from my body.

When the scales are all gone, I should miss you.

Master...

Master...

division……

The world was silent and silent, as if everything you saw was black, red, and bloody.

It's all depressing to the extreme noise and silence.

Avalokitesvara got up slowly with his back to the crowd, and when he turned around, there was no expression on his face.

No one knows what this lofty Bodhisattva thinks in his heart.

"I will remove the fresh air from Tongtianhe and the villagers. You have already passed this difficulty, so you can continue on your way."

His voice didn't fluctuate, it was as clear as water.

When he squeezed the pouch in his hand to attract auspicious clouds to drive away, Guan Yin was in a trance for a moment when he saw the clear sky light hitting him.

He knew nothing would change in his life.Still living the same day, the pace has not changed since ancient times, and there is no way to entertain myself.

Then, wait for the final extinction, Nirvana in heaven and earth.

As he thought about it, nothing moved in his heart, as it was thousands of years ago, as it was thousands of years later, it was all dead silent.

It's just that the memory seems to have lost its voice.

Hey, you said your name is Guan Zizai...

But are you really at ease?