melancholy summer

He met Sun Xiang during the darkest period of his life.

In the university dormitory, freshman boys who have just been liberated often play until the early hours of the morning, but Zhou Yue finds it difficult to fall asleep when there is even a little noise, and even wearing earplugs can’t block the sound of his roommate typing on the keyboard and clicking the mouse .

Introverted people are always unpopular in the dormitory, and introverted people with a lot of things are not just unpopular.

Zhou Yue was isolated. The boys who were close to 20 years old were at a relatively aggressive age. The more Zhou Yue asked them to keep their voices down, the more they got worse.

Zhou Yue has always been a good student, even if he didn't sleep well, he struggled to get up and go to class, which made the roommates who slept all day until the sun was up and down all the more disgusted.

Zhou Yue also thought about moving out to rent a house, but his family background is average, and he has no extra money, so he can only work part-time.

Zhou Yue used to be introverted and harmless, with a character of "I won't offend others if they don't offend me, and if someone offends me, I can't do anything about it". She went to class every day, worked part-time, and couldn't sleep well when she returned to the dormitory exhausted.

I've been to a guide a few times, but it's of no use. Who told me that I'm just a country boy.

His parents don't like him, his classmates bully him, and his instructors look down on him...

The quality of sleep is getting worse and worse, going to bed later and later, and finally, staying up all night.When a person is not well rested, negative emotions often accumulate, and the accumulation of negative emotions makes it more difficult to fall asleep, and Zhou Yue's mood becomes more and more depressed.

He thought about suicide.

For the first time, everyone was terrified, the instructor talked to him, and the roommate went to sleep quietly.

But maybe it's fate, and the final exam is very close at this time.

Zhou Yue's efficiency in class is very low because of poor sleep, and she spends her spare time working instead of studying.

Even if he tried his best to memorize and memorize in the end, he still failed one of his homework, and his total grade was also ranked at the bottom of the class. Those roommates who played games every day and did not attend classes all had higher grades than him.

'I'm so useless, living is a waste of food, anyway, no one cares about me, it's better to die. ' This thought lingered.

Not long after the test results came down, it was time for the Chinese New Year.

In the past, Zhou Yue was a child of someone else's family. He had good grades and was quiet. He was not like other boys from his relatives.

But now, the Chinese New Year has almost become his criticism meeting.

So there was a second attempt at suicide, but it was unsuccessful. In the end, an idea of ​​survival pulled him back abruptly.

It's unlucky to celebrate the Chinese New Year. Although his parents didn't say anything, Zhou Yue felt that they must have disliked him.

Zhou Yue's parents are both farmers, and they don't know about depression, so they persuaded Zhou Yue well. Zhou Yue promised that he would not do stupid things again, and let him go to school.

When I went to school, the symptoms became more and more serious, and finally developed to sit there all day without speaking or moving.

The roommate was frightened again, and finally the instructor called Zhou Yue's parents, took a leave of absence from school, and went home to see a doctor.

Then, he met Sun Heng.

Sun Xiang is the only person who is looking forward to his arrival. Not only does he not dislike him, but his eyes light up every time he sees him. He also takes extra care of him on weekdays. Knowing that he sleeps lightly, he arranges him in a room with few people and returns it to him at night. Add a little sleep aid.

The antidepressant drugs he took were also taking effect. He felt that his world was getting brighter and brighter. The gentle Sun Xiang gave him a warm feeling. Although it was slow, Zhou Yue did feel better and better.

The days in the psychiatric hospital were very boring, and his eyes began to follow Sun Heng unconsciously. Most doctors were very indifferent, but Sun Xiang always smiled at him and tried to talk and communicate with him.

Sometimes feelings come just inexplicably.

In Zhou Yue's 20 years of life before meeting Sun Xiang, he never felt that he was gay. He was introverted, and he preferred reading and thinking to socializing with others.

The boring life in the hospital made him think about the future of himself and Sun Xiang. He thought of a framework, and then planned to take one step at a time.

He is very smart, introverted and sensitive, so he sees many things more clearly than his peers or even those who are older than him, such as Sun Xiang.

Like that grumpy director.

So, he took the first step: pretending to be sick.

On the day Sun Heng lost his temper at him, he took the second step: leave.

He was waiting, waiting for things to ferment, he was betting, and the moment he received a call from Sun Heng, he knew that he had won the bet.

The author has something to say:

Locked...Strange, I'll try again