Real men don't engage in fake gays [Interstellar]

There should be no love in Auston's life.

His love is a kind of romance that almost deviates from reality. It not only requires the compatibility of soul, but also requires that the body can break free from the natural shackles born with it.Auston is a noble Alpha, destined to be entangled with Omega in this life.

However, he hates Omega.

It's pheromones that he hates, exactly.

Before he was a teenager, Auston never felt that he was very different, but the older he got, the more strange he found himself. Gradually, he had to admit that he was not simply different, but even deviant.

No Alpha will hate Omega, most of them will show that yearning expression when mentioning Omega, they enjoy their current status very much, enjoy Omega.Auston originally thought that this pursuit was the tragedy of the Alphas, but later found that it was even more the tragedy of the Omega.

The reason why Alpha is interested in groups like "Omega" rather than a certain person is because they enjoy the pleasure brought by Omega pheromones in the process of chasing after them. This kind of pleasure is purely physical desire, which is different from love ...It turns both Alpha and Omega into slaves of pheromones, and it is frightening to think about it.

It's not that he didn't think that Omega would have his own love, but in order to eliminate the interference of pheromone, he would rather not.Auston was also attracted to Roy when he first met him, but his instinct told him that there was no love between them.Roy's eyes are always as cold as ice. He follows him because he can see hope from him. Auston admires his bravery, and admires his courage as an Omega to dare to resist the world's vision.

——Appreciation, or meeting the same kind, sympathizing with each other, and the extra emotion is the dominance bonus of pheromone.

Alston loathes being dominated, even if it seems reasonable to everyone around him, he finds it hard to accept.Just like he was born as a nobleman, but he hates nobles. He is greedy for the game of power, so he hates people who break the rules the most.

Fortunately, for Auston, love is not a necessity—of course, it is not a condiment—he regards it as a treasure that can be worshiped in the spiritual hall, just like his belief, yearning for it, but not Must have it.

The variable is that he met Lu Mingze.

Of course, Auston would not immediately confirm his love. When he was rescued on Snow Planet, he only had the idea of ​​using Lu Mingze.

The most powerful thing about Auston is that he can quickly and accurately determine a person's character through some small details when getting along. During the period of recuperation, he was testing it almost every day, from the beginning pretending to be harmless and kind, until later...

Strangers are always easy to have a good impression of harmless people. Auston knows that he is in a disadvantaged situation. He also thought about how to please Lu Mingze, but before he could figure it out, he discovered one thing. He was sure that he would not Will be thrown out easily.

Lu Mingze has a dog with a strange name called Colonel.It was so well trained, Auston once boasted about it.Lu Mingze said a few more words, saying that it was very disobedient when it was a child, and it always chewed things at home.

"Then why don't you throw it out?"

Lu Mingze stared at Auston for a long time with an expression of "does your mother know you are so mad?" "The environment here is so harsh, and it is so small. Wouldn't throwing it out be equivalent to killing it again? Then I Why are you picking it up?"

Auston was slightly taken aback, but there was a gentle smile on his face: "That's true."

——Then he saved himself, doesn't that also prove that he won't be thrown out easily?

——even though he talks about "throwing it out" all day long.

Afterwards, Auston was surprised to find that there were such people in this world.He has come into contact with a lot of people with honey and swords in his daily life, and when he occasionally meets Lu Mingze, he feels surprised.

But Auston's favorite thing to do is to bully good people.

After bullying him once calmly, he discovered the difference again. Lu Mingze was not a fool, nor was he cowardly. Every time he gritted his teeth at his back, it seemed as if he wanted to tear him into pieces.

He is enduring.

It's just that people can't help it sometimes, not to mention that he can see that Lu Mingze's forbearance skills are not ordinary bad.He can predict a kind person, but he cannot predict an impulsive person.

Auston decided to hold back.

He didn't remember when he first found out that he felt differently towards Lu Mingze, but it happened many times after that... He really wanted to kiss him.

Alston had never had such a strong thought about a person, his first reaction was pheromone, he thought his perception was misled again.But then he remembered that Lu Mingze had no pheromones.

Auston began to consciously get to know him deeply. Soon, he realized that Lu Mingze's heart was not as casual as he appeared on the surface. He and himself were two completely different sides. Lu Mingze's desire for the body was very Be honest, and don't mind having an affair with someone you like during your spare time.

Then Alston found sadly that he seemed to be included in the objects he could have an affair with...

He didn't know whether to be happy that he was at least worth something to him, or sad that he was only valued to this degree.Auston is certainly not satisfied with this relationship. For him, love is only divided into having and not having, and there is no middle state.

But Auston will not be anxious about this. He is an extremely rational person, and he is no exception when it comes to emotions. Since Lu Mingze is interested in his body, he must not be allowed to succeed.It's the same with fishing, let the fish take the bait too quickly, and it won't be as easy to take the bait.

The urge to kiss him became stronger and stronger, but Alston somewhat enjoyed the process of patience, or the process of waiting for the prey to take the bait.He looked on coldly and looked at himself like a volcano with different appearances. On the outside, it was spring and green and green, but inside it seemed to be boiling, ready to erupt at any time.Auston is very perverted. He is cruel to his students and even more cruel to himself. He even wants to see how embarrassing he will become for this person.If you want to fish, you often need to use your body as bait. If you win, everyone is happy, but if you lose...

He will not lose.

The fact is just as he thought, he didn't lose, but he overestimated himself.Lu Mingze's ability to make people angry is not small, Oston's volcano was almost overflowing with gas several times.

He is not angry that Lu Mingze is reticent, he is ready for a long-term war of resistance, but he is angry that he is capricious. There are many times when Auston has felt his shake, and when we meet again the next day, he is solid and heavy. Meng, as if someone would brainwash him every day, strangling all the buds of emotion deliberately, no matter how hard he worked, he would not be rewarded.

After repeating this several times, Auston finally decided to do something. He couldn't wait any longer. If he didn't take action, Lu Mingze might never face up to his feelings.

Auston has been worried about this for a long time. He is not good at dealing with emotional problems, but he met Lu Mingze, a soft and hard type.The person you like is too inactive and nerve-wracking.

Later, it was Roy who reminded him that maybe Lu Mingze didn't even understand his inner feelings at all, how to respond to him.So he colludes with Roy to act in a play, which can make Lu Mingze aware of the crisis without causing him to misunderstand him.

The test results are gratifying.

After that, the development of their relationship can be said to be smooth, and Lu Mingze is very capable. Oss needs his help in many aspects of his career. Although there are small twists and turns in the middle, the general direction has always been correct.

... until his death.

It was only then that Auston realized belatedly that he himself did not understand his own feelings, and Lu Mingze's position in his heart was far more important than he thought.

Auston used to compare Lu Mingze to his love or ideal. Only then did he know that loving someone cannot be described by such measurable things, because even if the reform fails, he can start all over again. Love has no chance to come back.On the other hand, it is far beyond the controllable range of reason. Even if he is unwilling, it will follow its own track and develop beyond reason, and even exceed normal feelings.

He loves each other more every second than the last.

Life is not the most important thing for Oston, he has long been able to face life and death calmly, so it is not sincere to describe it as "love is higher than life". There is nothing very important in his life-he can only separate Most importantly, there is no inseparable part.

But after Lu Mingze died, he felt another emotion that he had never experienced in his life.

Auston couldn't describe it, and if he had to describe it in words, it should be nothingness... nothing, and he didn't want to think about anything.Oh, giving up thinking is also a novel experience. Since he learned to think, he has never voluntarily stopped one day. In Auston's world, stopping thinking means death.

……

Alston felt itchy on his face, and slowly opened his eyes, facing Lu Mingze's face, he froze for a moment, then gently hugged him into his arms, the cold emptiness in his dream was warmed by the other party Little by little, Oston couldn't help but raise the corners of his lips, and put his face against Lu Mingze's forehead: "Why did you wake up so early?"

Lu Mingze was silent for a moment, then stubbornly raised his head and stared at Auston's face: "Then why did you wake up so early?"

Auston sighed, pinched Lu Mingze's face a few times: "I had a dream."

"..."

"how?"

Only then did Lu Mingze say: "Me too."

He held Auston's face with a smile: "I want to see you more, in case one day..."

Never seeing him again, he always had to think about it.

When he came back here, he lived a very tormented life every day, and couldn't help thinking about a lot of things related to Auston, and couldn't help wondering if he was thinking about himself too.What really broke Lu Mingze happened in the second week after he woke up-he couldn't remember Auston's face.

Lu Mingze woke up in the middle of the night, trying desperately to think about the appearance and demeanor of the person who walked away from him, but he couldn't remember. He rushed into the bathroom in a panic, stared blankly for a long time, and took off himself in front of the mirror. Clean, he even wanted to use self-blasphemy to generate pleasure to help his brain recall Oston's appearance.

It's useless... He couldn't remember, and even the other party's voice became blurred.

At the beginning, Lu Mingze was worried that he would miss him every day and become in a trance. It wasn't until that moment that he realized that the scariest thing is not not being able to forget the person you miss, but not being able to remember him.

No one in this world can prove the existence of Auston. If even he forgets, wouldn't all his memories of being with Auston become an empty dream.

Lu Mingze stroked his body vigorously, but his heart was filled with sadness. He leaned on the sink and slowly squatted down. This feeling of powerlessness really made life worse than death.

"Will not."

Auston interrupted him, and kissed Lu Mingze lightly on the forehead: "We will never be separated again, no matter where you go, I will find you."

"I don't believe in your guarantee. No one can guarantee this kind of thing... We need to develop a few more photos, and I will post them everywhere."

Auston couldn't help laughing and rubbing the top of his head: "I think you just want to look at me, you can see me everywhere, and make excuses. I was too busy a few days ago and didn't have time to accompany you. I have a vacation tomorrow. travel?"

"Bah! When can you stop being so shameless."

"Then do you want to travel?"

"want."