Chu Yi

Just after the New Year's Eve, Chu Guocheng and Ning Xiu left again. Regarding all this, Chu Yi was very indifferent.On the day the parents left, what to do, and the so-called see you in three years from the parents, also fell on deaf ears.

Grandma looked at Ning Xiu full of guilt, as if she was blaming herself for not teaching her little grandson well.Chu Yi watched secretly from the side, looking at grandma's old white hair and stooped body, choked up twice, but still didn't call out "Mom".The words just stuck in the throat, like a thorn, unable to swallow or get out, driving people crazy and suffocating to death.

Ning Xiu rubbed her son's head: "Mom... is gone."

Chu Yi nodded dumbly like a walking dead: "Yeah."

Ning Xiu walked in, turned around every three steps, finally couldn't help running back, lowered her head slightly, looked at her son who was about to be as tall as her, burst into tears, and said to her son in a hoarse voice: "It's cold outside, hurry back Let's go." Instead, Chu Yi didn't shed a tear, and at the end sent the two of them to the train without calling out that name.

The train started to drive away, gradually disappearing at the far end.Standing on the platform, Chu Yi's eyes were dull, looking at his grandmother's sad look, his heart was full of mixed feelings, and he didn't know what to feel.

He fell into a state of fascination, as if possessed.His eyes turned around, and he felt that everyone around him was staring at him, laughing at that "emotionless" heart, scorning and crazily trampling on the dignity of a teenager.

Human beings, because they evolve too fast, lose the most precious things inadvertently.In the final analysis, there are difficulties and difficulties, and the fault lies in the fact that relationships take time to temper, even family relationships are no exception.It is impossible for the wall in anyone's heart to be pried away in three to five days, even for the closest people in the past.

Whoever sighs that he has no home and worries, the world and everything are like dogs.

When something you need has been lacking for too long, so long that you have forgotten what it is, and when you have forgotten what it was like to have, you may not be so eager.When I taste it again one day, I might be a little unaccustomed, impatient, and even less hopeful than before.

People are never perfect.

Chu Yi's family is wealthy, and he can still have someone who is close to him to fill the gap in his heart, so he should be content.But in the cognition of children, there are not so many lucky ones in misfortune. If it happens to a certain individual, it is a complete misfortune.

No matter how sad you are, you still have to live, no matter how unsatisfactory you are, you still have to keep going.At Chu Yi's age, he can't comprehend these principles at all.On the one hand, they feel that they are too insignificant, but on the other hand, they have some selfish intentions. They never came back, so maybe things won't happen so abruptly.Some things, the longer you expect, the more you may be disappointed.

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It was getting dark, grandma called Dong Tang in the yard to stop: "Did you see Chu Yi?"

"Ah? No," Dongtang wondered, "Didn't you send his parents to the station?"

Grandma was a little anxious: "It's all in the afternoon. The child hasn't seen anyone since he came back, and he doesn't know where he went!"

"Then I'll help you find it!" Dongtang responded and slipped out of the compound.

No under the banyan tree on the corner of the street; no video store two streets away; no game hall, even the abandoned construction site that the two children liked to go to when they were young, but there is still no sign of anyone.Dongtang scratched his hair, almost going crazy with anxiety.He had already seen that Chu Yi was not normal these few days, talking to him for half an hour, he could be distracted for 10 minutes.Dongtang was really afraid that something might happen to this person, so he unconsciously quickened his pace, his heart 'thumping' so fast that he jumped out of his chest.

Along the Qingxiang trail, bypassing several ladders.Dongtang didn't know why, so he walked towards the edge of Jialing River, and saw a figure sitting on the empty embankment from a long distance away, leaning on the bridge pier.I've seen that back view countless times, and I can't go wrong with it.With a little relief in my heart, I ran over slowly, the tall and lonely figure of the young man turned his back to him, so lonely and pitiful.

The movement of Dongtang running was obviously noticed by Chu Yi.He turned his head slowly, his eyes red and swollen.Chu Yi wiped his face carelessly with his hands, still not wanting others to see his vulnerable side.It was only after Dongtang came to sit beside him that he asked. : "Why are you here?"

The man's voice was hoarse and hoarse, as if it had been pulled out of his throat.Dongtang frowned, hesitant to speak, and stared deeply at Chu Yi.Chu Yi weighed the hot pebbles in his palm, waved his hand violently, and the stones came out of his hands, making a few floats on the sparkling river surface, and disappeared in the moonlight of the river in an instant.

The water of the Jialing River flows slowly, and wave after wave hits the beach on the shore, and then gradually recedes, leaving only a piece of silver light.Across the pier, you can see the crescent-like outline of the opposite bank.A gust of evening wind blew by, echoing the horns of cruise ships on the river.

woohoo~

Dongtang sat cross-legged next to Chu Yi: "What's wrong with you?"

Chu Yi didn't speak, clapped her hands and supported her thighs.With erratic and aimless eyes, he weighed the pebbles in his hands twice and threw them out.

"Grandma is looking for you." Dongtang said sullenly.He knew that the man was in a bad mood, so he didn't argue with him about smoking.

"I see." Chu Yi fell silent after finishing speaking, and spoke again after a while.

The fishing boats on the river were lighting their lights, illuminating the darkness.

"I'm not a fucking person, are you right?" Chu Yi punched the stone of the embankment, hugging her head in pain and curling up into a ball.Grandma's discouragement, strange eyes from people around her, parents' disappointment and self-condemnation.Everything was piled up on him, like a five-fingered mountain pressing down on a monkey grandson, unable to move, it was trying to drag him down.

"What can I do?"

There was a sound of despair, dejected and helpless.Seeing the man being negative and frustrated, Dongtang comforted him as usual, held the man's hand, and gently clasped it. In order to make him more comfortable, he brought the man closer and leaned against him.

But Chu Yi's grievance this time is obviously not simple.This kid has never been a dull person since he was a child, so he can say whatever he wants, maybe he was born in his mother's womb, he was born with his father; solution.Because of this, according to this kid's personality, it would be really terrible if he got into a dead end.

There is a limit to all patience. Before reaching the critical point, no matter how tired you are, you will look like a normal person, but once the limit is exceeded, the capacity will be full and it will overflow.There are only two ways, either to explode and rebound completely, or to suffocate internal injuries and leave a heartache.

Chu Yi was running wildly in her own space, and when she broke through that barrier, what came out was a demon full of longing and desire.

Obviously Dongtang's method didn't work.Chu Yi was extremely sad and angry at the moment, she really got on top, she didn't care what was going on, and when her temper came up, even her closest brother would be punished.Dongtang's hand was thrown away angrily, Chu Yihong stared, and stood up gnashing her teeth, her lips were almost bleeding from biting, and she was suffering from no place to vent, so uncomfortable.

Holding a sharp stone full of edges and corners tightly, the strength in his hand continued to increase.The gravel and stones sink into the flesh, and the severe pain can always wake people up.

Seeing Chu Yi's self-mutilation venting, Dongtang was almost frightened, so he hurriedly got up and dragged him.Chu Yi's body was so limp. She was wearing a heavy down jacket weighing more than 100 kilograms. Even Dongtang couldn't drag it.Chu Yi's back broke out in cold sweat, soaking the cotton padded clothes inside to the bottom, and the skin and clothes were stuck together so sticky that they couldn't be separated.

Chu Yi trembled slightly, and a chilly wind came from the palm of his hand. Dongtang held his hand and blew it with pity on his face.In his mind, he recalled the moment when he was just attached to Dongtang, that dry and clean body seemed to have sucked away all the resentment and sorrow on his body, along with the cold sweat on his back.The nerve that was constantly tense in the brain couldn't hold it anymore, it disconnected and collapsed limply, but his mouth was still ruthless.

"Get lost!" After speaking, he pushed Dongtang violently.

Dongtang was also puzzled, he was pushed, stepped on a stone and almost fell, cursing: "Why are you crazy?"

"You go too, fuck off!" Chu Yi roared, as if she was in hell.He fell powerlessly to the ground, his eyes lost. "Don't want me anymore! Don't want me anymore!"

Dongtang stared at Chu Yi, who had a nervous breakdown, and only after a while did he say, "I! I want you!"

After Dongtang finished speaking, he lowered his body and half-kneeled in front of the man, with his palms on Chu Yi's tear-stained face.Chu Yi sneered twice, then turned around: "My parents don't want me anymore, who the hell are you?"

The words spoken and the water spilled cannot be taken back even if one wants to.Chu Yi was on the verge of anger, and the grief and indignation in her heart turned into an evil thought, which could not be suppressed no matter what.Some words just poured out without passing through my brain.In fact, I regretted it after I finished speaking, and knew that I had said the wrong thing.

You deserve it, who made you so angry.Chu Yi was scared, but she still couldn't let go of her face, she kept her face sullen, but she glanced unnaturally at the side, fearing that the man would really just leave like that.

Dongtang was silent for a long time, and Chu Yi's heart was in his throat.After a while, Dongtang squatted down, leaned in front of Chu Yi, and spoke solemnly, without changing a single word.

"I, I want you."

The voice was sonorous and firm, with an unquestionable tone.Speaking to Chu Yi, it was more like making a promise to herself.

Thinking back for a long time later, Chu Yi still felt a little timid.On this day, the seeds finally took root in the hearts of the two of them.In the next few years, Chu Yi would often ask herself, do you regret it?is it wrong?But even though there were still some lingering thoughts in my heart, I didn't have the slightest thought of regretting it. After taking this step, I never thought about turning back.

"I, I want you!" Dongtang accentuated the ending and dragged on, serious and calm, with honesty and sincerity in the boy's eyes.

"I, I want you!"

After speaking for the third time, Chu Yi got up and moved, said "I" and grabbed Dongtang's arm; when the word "you" landed, Dongtang was unprepared and was suddenly pushed down on the grass.The four eyes are facing each other, silent to each other, each other's face is reflected in their eyes.Chu Yi stared at Dongtang's chin, watching the man's Adam's apple wriggling, and a small familiar mole under his neck trembling slightly.Dongtang's eyes were also erratic and firm.From far to near, from lack to completeness, the moon, stars, and night sky are all invisible and inaudible, and the entire pupil seems to be focused, filling Chu Yi's face.The same hand grabbed Chu Yi's wrist, clenched it firmly, unable to break free, but still said with palpitations: "You...you?"

The distance was only an inch, and all the hot air from Dongtang's mouth hit Chu Yi's face.The evening wind blows on the vast and vast embankment, stretching as far as the eye can see.Chu Yi bit her lip and didn't answer, but hugged Dongtang tightly.Several out-of-business fishing boats were docked on the shore, and there were only two heavy breathings left on the spacious embankment.

After a while, Dongtang lowered his voice, and let out a roar from his throat. He also wrapped his arms around Chu Yi's waist forcefully, and the tentative movement had an effect.Chu Yi knocked her head on Dongtang's shoulder, wrapped her arms around and pressed them on the grass, and hugged him tightly like this, as if she wanted to melt him into her body.

The inquiry in Dongtang's eyes completely disappeared, replaced by endless firmness and approval.He took the initiative to reach out to hug him, and pressed Chu Yi's head on his shoulder with the other hand.They were silent and didn't speak, but they pressed their chests tightly to reveal the heartbeats of the two of them, exciting, fast, and violent.Like the rain in a long drought, the blood gushes out all over the body, and the whole body is hearty and happy.

The two boys in clumsy and heavy clothes seemed to have blended into the night, acting like no one else around, showing no restraint.Chu Yi let out a long breath, and hit Dongtang on the neck, watching the man blushing to the base of his neck by the moonlight.Skin-to-skin contact, carcass clinging, a kind of exhilaration that comes from the bottom of the heart, the brain, and the depths of the nerves, passing quickly from the whole body, every cell, every pore is clamoring for comfort.

Their bodies rubbed against each other, and Chu Yi felt hot all over, and the hands of the person under him were also extremely hot, and his brain was almost burnt out.Wandering together in a daze, obeying the primitive instinct of human beings, slowly groping for a way.In the pitch-black eyes, there was a layer of rippling water mist, dreamlike and unbelievable.

The tip of the nose was lingering with hot air, mixed with the scent of fragrant green grass. Both of them were in a daze. Chu Yi put his hand on Dongtang's lower back and poked along his back, searching for the prey that he had been waiting for for a long time.Pinching people's strong and elastic muscles, ethereal and mysterious but unable to stop.Still feeling unsatisfied, he picked up Dongtang's cotton padded jacket, and stretched his hand in from underneath, touching the man's skin firmly, it was hot and scalding.

The rubbing in the ears, the deep nasal voice, and the joy that burst out of the bones.Chu Yi swallowed dryly, looking at Dongtang's face close at hand, some actions came from the heart, without any motive, he just felt comfortable doing that, regardless of right or wrong, it happened unconsciously.