want a son

Fang Zhen avoided his sight, walked in with something, and walked towards the bedroom without him.Sitting on the sofa, Qin Bai took a deep breath, tightened his clenched fists, and followed Fang Zhen into the room.

Fang Zhen bent down to put the baby on the crib, and Qin Bai walked up to him and called him.

"Hmm." Fang Zhen's voice was flat.

Qin Bai clenched his fists and remained silent for a while before asking: "Do you really... want to be separated for a while?" After asking this sentence, Qin Bai felt a little regretful, and he began to be afraid of hearing Fang Zhen's answer, he didn't know what he should do if Fang Zhen's answer was affirmative.

Fang Zhen paused with her back to Qin Bai's body, and after a while, as if she had made up her mind, she slowly said, "Qin Bai."

Qin Bai didn't respond behind him, he really thought he couldn't hear anything.

But he could even hear Fang Zhen's breathing, and couldn't escape at all.

Fang Zhen's voice seemed to choke for a moment, and then said in a very flat tone, "I want to leave for a while."

leave?

When Qin Bai heard the word leave, Qin Bai's world seemed to have collapsed, and the mental preparations he had already made began to disintegrate in all directions. Resounding, "Only separated for a while?"

He couldn't see the expression on Fang Zhen's face, but could only hear Fang Zhen's voice, "I think I may not be used to living here, and I want to live a more ordinary life."

It is impossible for Qin Bai not to know what it means to leave.

"What about me?" Qin Bai's voice was trembling. If Fang Zhen left, what about him?What should he do?

"You will also have your own life. Qin Bai, this world will continue to revolve without anyone, and you will have a good life without me."

Qin Bai clenched his teeth, his nails had already sunk into his flesh, how should he refute?Is he going to say that he will have a bad time?Do you want to say that you can't live without Fang Zhen?

He couldn't speak.

Fang Zhen wants an ordinary life, what Fang Zhen wants, can he give it?What qualifications does he have to keep people behind?

Even though his chest was aching like he was about to bleed, Qin Bai still gritted his teeth and held on. He absolutely couldn't fall down in front of Fang Zhen.

Compared with the warm sunshine outside the window, the atmosphere in the house seemed to have dropped below zero. For a while, no one spoke, only the humming of the little guy in the crib. He looked at his father, not knowing why Why did my father have red eyes, and there were shiny things in the eye sockets, but unconsciously, he raised his hand and waved it through the air as if to comfort him.

That day, Fang Zhen cooked Qin Bai his favorite beef, and the two sat face to face at the dining table, separated by a small dining table, and they could touch each other with their hands, but they No one chose to reach out, they all sat in their seats peacefully.

Fang Zhen put the beef in front of Qin Bai, then served him a bowl of soup, then lifted her own bowl, and ate the green vegetables in front of her.

Qin Bai picked up the chopsticks and reached out to pick some vegetables in front of Fang Zhen. Fang Zhen paused and looked at him.

Qin Bai ate the food as if nothing had happened, and saw Fang Zhen looking at him, so he raised his head and smiled, and complained by the way: "I really don't know why you always like to eat this kind of food that is either too bitter or tasteless at all."

Fang Zhen didn't speak because he didn't know how to answer.

Qin Bai looked the same as before when he was eating, he still complained to Fang Zhen while eating, but this time he ate a lot of vegetables.

After the meal, Qin Bai took the initiative to put the bowls into the kitchen, Fang Zhen said he would do it himself, but Qin Bai still insisted on finishing the work, collecting the bowls, cleaning the table and washing the dishes all at once.

Standing behind Qin Bai, Fang Zhen watched as Qin Bai was holding the bowl and washing it under the stream of water. Part of the water splashed out along the side of the white bowl and splashed onto Qin Bai's clothes and trousers, but Qin Bai didn't care. Bai continued to wash without paying attention.

After washing the dishes, he turned around to look at Fang Zhen with the bowl in hand, raised his eyebrows, and asked Fang Zhen with a smile, "Am I handsome if I can wash dishes?"

Fang Zhen hooked the corners of her lips and nodded.

"Then don't you want to leave at all?"

"..." Fang Zhen didn't speak, but lowered his head.

Qin Bai continued to smile and said, "Just kidding." He sniffed, "I'm going to put the dishes away." Then, he walked to the cabinet and put the washed dishes in neatly.

Fang Zhen walked out of the kitchen, only Qin Bai was left alone. Qin Bai felt his eyes burn a little. He walked to the refrigerator and wanted to get a bottle of ice water he had bought before, but when the refrigerator door opened, there was a rush of people. Air-conditioning, he saw that the refrigerator was empty except for a few bottles of ice water and a few few things.

He was stunned.

He quickly took out the water, slammed the refrigerator door, then opened the ice water and took a big gulp, trying to freeze his beating heart with ice water, so that he would not think about the empty refrigerator.

Qin Bai didn't leave that night, the two of them lay on the bed as usual, Qin Bai hugged Fang Zhen from behind, Fang Zhen originally just wanted to turn over, but Qin Bai hugged him even tighter, "Don't move, let I'll hold you for a while."

Fang Zhen didn't move.

The two hugged like that for more than half an hour. The air was very quiet, as if they had already entered the fragrance of dreams, but they both knew that the other was not asleep, but neither of them spoke.

Qin Bai lowered his head and began to suck kisses on the back of Fang Zhen's neck, leaving clear marks one by one. Fang Zhen retracted his neck, but he didn't struggle, and he let Qin Bai be on his neck and ears.There were still hickey marks on his face, Qin Bai propped himself up to cover Fang Zhen, buried his head on the pillow above Fang Zhen's left shoulder, Fang Zhen called him, Qin Bai didn't speak or move.

There was a worrying silence in the air, and after a while, Qin Bai opened his mouth with a choked voice, "Can... can you not leave?"

Hearing Qin Bai's choked up voice, Fang Zhen couldn't hold back the emotions in his heart at that moment, his eyes also became moist, and his voice choked up, "...I can't."

Qin Bai moved his head down a little, Fang Zhen felt the wetness on his shoulders, and his heart was twisted into a ball. He raised his hand to hug Qin Bai, but he stopped when he was halfway up, and finally put his hand away. put it down.

"Then can you tell me where you are going? Can I visit you when I miss you?"

Qin Bai's pleading tone hit Fang Zhen's lacrimal glands, and the tears flowed down his temples like that, and disappeared on the pillow. His neck was stuck, how should he speak?

The wetness on the shoulders became heavier and heavier, "Fang Zhen, can you tell me?"

Fang Zhen clenched her lower lip, held back the pain in her heart for a while, and then said with difficulty: "You know I won't say it."

"Just treat it as a visit from a friend?"

"...no way." Then everything he did would make no sense.

Qin Bai's voice choked up, and he tilted his head and bit Fang Zhen's neck. His teeth were trembling when he bit, but in the end he was still reluctant to use force.

Raising his head, he kissed Hazel's lips where teeth marks had been bitten out. As soon as their mouths joined together, they began to kiss passionately. Tears mixed with the bloody smell oozing from their lips were swallowed by the two of them.

Qin Bai pressed Fang Zhen firmly under him, Fang Zhen felt as if he was about to suffocate, raised his arms and hugged Qin Bai's broad shoulders tightly, and moved up and down as Qin Bai rushed forward.

That night, the two hugged each other tightly, sinking endlessly in the salty sea of ​​tears with desire.

When Qin Bai woke up the next day, he picked up the mobile phone beside the bed, turned on the camera lens, pointed at Fang Zhen who was still asleep, and carefully took several photos.

Fang Zhen, who was swept by the camera, was unconscious, his eyes were still closed, and he was breathing evenly.

Qin Bai put away the phone, stretched out his hand to caress Fang Zhen's cheek, then bent down and pressed a kiss on it, moving his mouth but making no sound, "Good morning."

This good morning kiss didn't wake Fang Zhen up, but made him turn over slightly. Qin Bai smiled, then got out of bed softly, and put on his clothes and pants.

He walked up to the sleeping little guy and knelt down, lightly poked the little guy's soft face with his fingers, then stood up and left quietly.

He hopes to keep this state forever, he hopes that the home in his mind will always be like this, he hopes that Fang Zhen in his mind will always sleep so soundly, and then he can wake up before him every day, Then print a good morning kiss on his face.

He hoped that all these beautiful things could be completely kept in his memory.

As if everything still existed.

On the day Fang Zhen packed his luggage and left, Qian Yi ran to Qin Bai's house to look for Qin Bai, only to see Qin Bai sitting in the yard of his house smoking a cigarette.

Although the deterioration of the problem between Qin Bai and Fang Zhen has nothing to do with Qian Yi directly, he still blames himself a little in his heart. Of course, part of it is because Qin Bai is his best brother and he wants to help him .

Qian Yi rushed to Qin Bai, "Qin Bai, Fang Zhen is leaving!"

Hearing this, Qin Bai took a puff of the cigarette in his hand, "Yeah." The sky had already darkened, and Qian Yi couldn't see the expression on Qin Bai's face clearly.All that could be seen was the smoke that hung between the two of them.

Qian Yi was very puzzled by Qin Bai's reaction. Qin Bai obviously liked Fang Zhen very much, so when he heard that Fang Zhen was leaving, shouldn't he be chasing him back?

Qian Yi felt that he was more anxious than Qin Bai now. Seeing that Qin Bai didn't take any action, he took Qin Bai's hand and was about to run away. He wanted to help Qin Bai save Fang Zhen, and he didn't want to see Qin Bai like this now .

But he dragged on for a long time, Qin Bai still sat motionless, Qian Yi was so anxious, "I said, why are you so calm? Don't you always like him? He is going to leave now, why don't you?" How cool is it to smoke here!!" After finishing speaking, he continued to tug Qin Bai.

"Qian Yi." Qin Bai finally spoke.

"Brother, cherish the time, let's talk while walking!"

"I agree to break up."