Mingren don't talk about secret love

During the English test, Xia Jiujia was a little absent-minded.

english...

He remembered that when the first year of high school started, the English teacher Yang Juan asked Qian Hou, a low-achieving student: "Is your English good?" Later he found out that because Qian Hou's mother is a teacher of R Middle School, she once asked her colleagues to "take care" of Qian Hou.

At that time, Qian Hou said: "Nikan Wo's Ying Yuan Yuan Hao?!" It means "Do you think my English is good?" However, the first eight characters are used once, and the last word is used four times. Just like the "foreigner" who is learning Chinese, the intonation is completely English after the trip.

At that time, Xia Jiujia was caught by Qian Houlei and thought: Damn it, pretending to be a foreigner to read and write Chinese means that English is good? !

Wait... Xia Jiujia pondered while answering the paper: Shen Xi took a few younger brothers with him all day long... Could this disease be contagious?No, it's not right, Shen Xi has been sick all along, at most it's aggravated.

Xia Jiujia remembered again that Anzhong's family was very wealthy. He once showed off that he had spent two years in California when he was a child.At that time, he thought that Anzhong’s English was very good, but later he found out that the other party could not understand anything. After asking, he found out that he had stayed in the Chinese area of ​​California for two years, and he did not speak English, but only two sentences: “Howmuch?” and “Creditcard.”

Xia Jiujia was thinking wildly while answering the paper.

He never did.

Xia Jiujia thought it was amazing when I heard that some people were thinking about it during the exam, or singing or reciting poems in their hearts.

did not think of……

In the end, he remembered Yang Juan's translation and reading in the first year of high school, which was "Chinese: Saying "I Love You" is Not Easy", and asked the whole class, "Has anyone ever said these three words?" Shen Xi poked lightly. Poke yourself in the back, say "Crystal Jelly, 'I love you'" and raise your hand high.

For a long time, he thought that Shen Xi was making trouble, and at that time he replied "Don't fucking make trouble", but now...Xia Jiujia moved her finger while doing the question, and chose "C: Always", While silently thinking: I love you too.

Then, one after another, things related to English and Shen Xi poured into my mind, wandering thousands of miles, not knowing where to go, like a big tree suddenly drooping branches.

When it came to composition, he still tried his best, but he still didn't concentrate all his energy.

This time at the end of the term, because of a problem with the machine, the listening test was not taken until the end.The invigilator first asked a teacher to replace him, and then went to other examination rooms to borrow a used machine, brought it back, and then played the recording.

When taking the listening test, Xia Jiujia always pays attention to the back.Shen Xi has a strong handwriting and a loud writing voice.Every time the couple finished reading a conversation, Xia Jiujia listened to it and thought: Well, there is only one stroke, C, Shen Xi is right...well, Shen Xi wrote two strokes, D, and it is also right...Three Pen, either A or B, very likely to get it right...

At noon, the two went to the market to satisfy their hunger.In the past year and two months, Xia Jiujia, who passed the exams, went to the cafeteria to eat, but today it didn't matter.

After being seated, Xia Jiujia asked, "How did you do in the English test?"

"It's not bad, but it's not as good as the end of the first semester of high school." Shen Xi said, putting an empty plastic bowl aside, pouring about half of his free bowl of egg and tomato soup into the empty bowl, and pouring Xia Jiu About half of the Jiana bowl was also poured into the same bowl, and then he raised his hand again, mixed himself with Xia Jiujia's two and a half bowls, pushed it in front of Xia Jiujia, and took the tomato which was already full. The "empty bowl" of soup is placed on his left.

Xia Jiujia: "???"

Shen Xi didn't understand: "???"

"What were you doing just now?" Xia Jiujia asked, "Tossing and turning... I can't comprehend the spirit."

"Oh...there is no ingredient in the free soup, and it all sinks down." Shen Xi explained, "Pour one bowl, two top half bowls for you, and two bottom half bowls for me. In this way, your bowl is thicker than mine. The bowl is light."

"..." Xia Jiujia didn't know how to respond.

It's just free soup... Do you have to give the good ones to yourself and leave the bad ones to him?

Unlike before, Xia Jiujia did not refuse meat. The two ordered several dishes, including spicy shredded pork, fish-flavored eggplant, and cold dishes.They didn't study the topic any more, but discussed gossip, for example, the other front desk of the two of them, the deskmate of the "murderous woman" Zhang Meihe-has been sleeping more and more in class for half a year, and the test scores are getting worse and worse. Wan Yuze, who is willing to degenerate and has a bleak future, has parents who graduated from Tsinghua University and Peking University. In the past, they all thought that the other parent didn't care.

At the table next to the cafeteria, a girl was crying.She cried: "He doesn't agree to pull the certificate!! I'm already 18 years old, and he still doesn't agree to pull the certificate!" The girl is not like an R middle school student, she has a sense of society. I'm just 18 years old, I'm still young, wait a little longer... Let's see in two years..."

"It's not young...it's old..."

"small……"

Shen Xi listened for a long time, and found that the two of them couldn't make sense, so she was anxious and interrupted: "The legal age of marriage in the People's Republic of China is 22 for males and 20 for females."

"..." The two girls looked at Shen Xi with strange eyes.

"Cut," Shen Xi muttered, "kindness is not rewarded."

Over there, my best friend is still comforting: "Look at it in two years... now 17, 18, really young, what do you know about 'love' and what is meant by 'lifetime'? Don't be impulsive."

"I know……"

"I don't understand." My best friend already knew that Shen Xi had been listening, so she turned her head and asked Shen Xi, "Is it right? Seventeen or eighteen is still too young to understand what is 'love' and what is 'life'."

Shen Xi picked peanuts from the cold dish, "It varies from person to person, I don't know if there are people who don't understand, but there must be someone who understands well—boss, pay the bill."

The boss immediately came over to check out with the receipt. Shen Xi took out her wallet, counted out 42 yuan, put it back in her butt pocket again, and said to Xia Jiujia, "Love, let's go."

"..." Xia Jiujia thought she had heard wrong, and asked, "What do you call me?"

Shen Xi said again: "Forever, let's go."

"..."

…………

In the afternoon, I will go back to the examination room. I will take the chemistry test for one and a half hours, and then I will take the biology test for one hour.

Xia Jiujia wrote the entire test paper in five to ten minutes in advance.He filled up the answer sheet and looked up at his watch—10 minutes to go.

Check it out.

Xia Jiujia recalculated from the beginning to the end, but the cerebral cortex was very chaotic.

At the end of this semester, there are a total of five subjects and hundreds of questions, all of which can be done.

Wait for 8 minutes to fly by, stop writing by himself, and the teacher will collect the paper, and he will be the first in the second year of high school.

However, rare, this time, Xia Jiujia was not only happy and relaxed, but also sad and heavy.It seemed like so much of him was celebrating, while the deep, original part of him was struggling.

Shen Xi couldn't get 140 in Chinese, and yesterday she missed a B in physics, and she took the exam...it's impossible.

And the next monthly exam will have to wait until April - more than three full months in between.

At the beginning, it was Xia Jiujia who forbade Shen Xi from speaking or writing love letters, and in exchange, offered that he would "try" as soon as Shen Xi became the top of the list, and Shen Xi also complied.That is to say, if Shen Xi doesn't take the first place in the test or takes the first place, if she wants to fall in love, she has to take the initiative.However, he has always been aloof and independent, and it is very difficult for him to say that he likes, needs, and cannot leave, and he is naturally serious and serious, and he is not very good at flirting.Secondly, I used to clearly refuse with strength, and said that I would not fall in love with a bear like Shen Xi, and I didn't want to slap myself in the face, let alone in front of Shen Xi.People like him always feel that they can see and control everything clearly, and they make changes from day to day, and they seem to be completely clueless and unintelligent about life.It was already difficult to speak up, and I still lost face.Thirdly, Shen Xi has always abided by the agreement, but she himself, set the standard when he said to set the standard, and canceled the threshold when he said that he would cancel the threshold.Fourthly, with a personality like her own, putting aside her face and voluntarily professing her love will make Shen Xi very embarrassing, which is very detrimental to her "family status".In five years, Xia Jiujia is not Shen Xi, so she can't think of a romantic scene, and I hope the other party can think of something.

Therefore, Xia Jiujia felt that it was more appropriate for Shen Xi to be at the top of the list, and it was logical for the two of them.

He can accept losing to Shen Xi once and a half.That's Shen Xi, "evenly matched" is also very beautiful.In the next semester, I will work hard on my own, and it will be no problem to overtake and go back.He is not the kind of "aggressor" who wants his wife to be weak and weak.

But... Shen Xi is really weak.

How is this good?

Is it intentional to take fewer exams?

No, it's too depraved.

It's one thing to have a vague hope in your heart, another to act with both hands.

Obviously able to test 730, but only get 720, 710, so that all the teachers and students in R will feel that their scores will drop directly, which is very aggrieved.

Just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes.

In everyone's eyes, it's not that Shen Xi has become stronger, but that she has become weaker.

There is an essential difference.

Do you really want to degenerate and become weak automatically? ? ?

Half the time has passed.

Xia Jiujia read the obverse and turned to the reverse.

Seeing the minute hand pointing to "56" on the watch, Xia Jiujia suddenly became very flustered.

what to do?There was no longer any delay, a decision had to be made.

But has it ever been easy?Xia Jiujia has checked to the last question and the last question, but still can't make a choice.

The last question, 12 points.

Sure enough.

Xia Jiujia weighed over and over again: Is it a voluntary confession?Or cross out the answer? ? ?

Crossing out the answer is sure to be sure, and, after a weekend, by Monday, you will be able to "try".Thinking of this, Xia Jiujia's blood rushed, his brain went numb, and tiny particles appeared on his fair arms.However, there are variables in voluntary confession. I don't know if I can say it, and I don't know when I can say it.

Anyway, a weekend can't be done.

However... crossing out the answer is too depraved, and it is simply not enterprising.

Suddenly, the bell rang for the end of get out of class, which shocked Xia Jiujia! ! !

"!!!" Seeing the invigilator step off the podium, and he himself is in the first row, and will be the first to collect the papers, Xia Jiujia was stimulated, like a frightened little rabbit, swaying like a ghost, "swish" Picking up the black pen, the tip of the pen stopped a little before the last line of the last question, paused, gritted his teeth, and slowly crossed out that line.

And then the penultimate line, the penultimate line...

When the invigilator held the biology paper in his hand, nothing could be changed. Xia Jiujia felt relieved, as if he had finished a very difficult task, and limp on the chair like a deflated hydrogen balloon.

He did such a thing under the stimulus.

Forget it, if you don’t think about making progress, don’t think about making progress.

Because of Shen Xi, this time, No.1, he doesn't want it for now.

Xia Jiujia never thought that he, who valued "number one" the most, would have what he is today, and would not be there anymore.

If you don't rely on yourself, do you still rely on that big fool?

He felt that in his body, there were a hundred or a thousand hearts that had never appeared in the past, all clamoring that he liked Shen Xi very much, and all of them were old fairies who had practiced for thousands of years. With his current skin, There is no way to suppress it.

Xia Jiujia suddenly remembered the famous words of the famous philosopher Simone Weil: "Love is a sign of our poverty."

I didn't understand it before, but now I understand it.

He has changed a bit.

Xia Jiujia thought: Love is really the most authoritarian thing in this universe.He came whenever he wanted, flattened and rounded people, without asking for opinions.It wants you to be like this, and you have to be like this.It wants you to be heartbroken and ugly, and you will be heartbroken and ugly.No matter how far humans have evolved and developed, they can still only be slaves, controlled by it, and mastered by it. There is no institution that can submit complaints and achieve arbitration.