little transparent love

"Brother Ran, what's the matter with you? Are you feeling unwell?" Cheng Haoyu asked with a worried look on his face as he helped Zhang Ran to stand upright.

Zhang Ran stood up straight, "It's okay."

Seeing that Zhang Ran didn't want to say more, Cheng Haoyu didn't ask any more questions, and the two returned to the box together. After that, Zhang Ran was a little absent-minded, and he didn't actively participate in the dinner table, always in a state of distraction. None of the people here are fools, anyone with a discerning eye can see that Zhang Ran is not in shape, so they don't rush to interact with Zhang Ran, but after the dinner, Qi Luo pulls Zhang Ran and asks what's going on alone.

"It's okay." Zhang Ran smiled.

Qi Luo looked at Zhang Ran carefully, and then said, "I wanted to ask you before, why didn't Jing Yan come?"

"He..." Zhang Ran opened his mouth, thinking of the Lu Jingyan he saw here just now, he really couldn't tell what Lu Jingyan was working overtime, so he could only shake his head silently and said, "He has something to do."

Qi Luo had a full view of his downcast look, and Qi Luo said directly, "There shouldn't be any problems with you two."

Zhang Ran raised his head suddenly, "Brother Luo, we..."

"You look like this, it's clear that something is wrong." Qi Luo sighed, "It's not easy for the two of you to be together. If you have any problems, you should solve them as soon as possible. Don't wait until the end to even meet each other."

Zhang Ran was silent for a while, he licked his dry lips, and said with a wry smile, "I want to solve it too, but there are some things that I can't decide."

Qi Luo didn't know what to say, so he could only pat Zhang Ran on the shoulder to show comfort.

At this time, someone came over and called them both, saying that everyone was waiting to go to the next game. Hey, Qi Luo responded, and Zhang Ran said, "Brother Luo, I won't go."

Qi Luo nodded, "Alright, you can go back and rest."

"Ah."

Zhang Ran didn't take the car, just walked slowly on the road by himself, but after thinking about a lot of things, it was already late when he got home, Lu Jingyan was sitting on the sofa waiting for him, with a document in his hand reading .

When Zhang Ran saw Lu Jingyan, Zhang Ran was in a daze for a moment, as if Lu Jingyan really came back from get off work and never went out at home. This was also the first time that Lu Jingyan was waiting for him.

"Brother Yan." Zhang Ran murmured.

"Ranzi, why are you back so late?" Lu Jingyan put down the file, "Did you have a good time?"

Zhang Ran pursed his lips, lowered his head and silently changed his shoes and took off his coat. Then, as if he had made up his mind, he suddenly raised his head and asked, "Brother Yan, do you know which restaurant we ate at?"

"Huh? Where?" Lu Jingyan smiled, "Which restaurant has delicious food? I want me to take you there next time..."

"We are having dinner at xxx restaurant." Zhang Ran interrupted Lu Jingyan, said directly, and then stared at Lu Jingyan's face firmly.

Lu Jingyan's face became stiff for a moment, and then he smiled naturally, "Oh, really?"

Zhang Ran closed his eyes, "Brother Yan, when did you come back from working overtime? Have you eaten yet?"

Lu Jingyan didn't answer, he looked at Zhang Ran fixedly, hesitantly said, "Ranzi, you..."

Lu Jingyan stood up and walked to Zhang Ran, reaching out his hand to touch Zhang Ran's face, "Your face is a bit ugly, why..."

"Don't touch me!" Zhang Ran knocked off Lu Jingyan's hand like a collapse, tears flowed from his eyes, he gasped as if he couldn't bear it, "Brother Yan, why did you lie to me?!"

Lu Jingyan's pupils shrank slightly. He opened his arms to hug Zhang Ran, but Zhang Ran resisted very much. In the end, Lu Jingyan could only stand there helplessly, "Ranzi, did you see it? Can you listen to my explanation?"

Zhang Ran wiped away his tears, sucked his nose and said, "Okay, tell me."

"I haven't worked overtime these days." Lu Jingyan clenched his fists, "I lied to you, in fact, I've been with a woman..." This was the first time, Lu Jingyan felt that he was stupid as hell, and didn't know where to start .

He paused for a moment, and then continued, "Actually, the premise that my parents promised us to be together is that I must have a child. They knew that I didn't like Yuling, so they specially arranged for that woman for me, and let me get in touch with her." "After speaking in a hurry, Lu Jingyan hurriedly explained, "But I made it clear to that woman from the beginning that I will not have sex with her. I eat with her these days to deal with my parents. Ranzi, You believe me, I'm trying to find a way, I think we can adopt a child, and I'm also convincing that woman these days to help us..."

"Brother Yan!" Zhang Ran interrupted Lu Jingyan, "Do you really think this is feasible? Even I know that your parents' request is just a cover, an excuse! You can have a child as a surrogate, or you can adopt it. , but they just want you to date a woman. Well, even if you convince this woman in the end, you can guarantee that the truth will not come out in the end? Why didn't you tell me? Don't tell me, why did you lie to me! "

Lu Jingyan's face was gloomy, "Ranzi, I think I can take care of everything for you..."

"But you're not solving it at all!" Zhang Ran roared, "Brother Yan, you're running away! Do you think that these days you deal with a woman, deal with your parents, and then slowly avoid this matter?"

"Then what can I do?" Pain flashed in Lu Jingyan's eyes, "Ranzi, they are my parents."

Zhang Ran was shocked, "So, in your heart, in the end, you will still choose your parents, right?"

"No!" The calmness on Lu Jingyan's face finally changed, "I'm just...just trying to find a way. My parents are too tough. If we fight against them, we will be separated or temporarily separated. I don't want to be separated from you Pain flashed in Lu Jingyan's eyes, "They were able to raise this condition, which was beyond my expectation. Even though I knew it was a trap, I jumped into it without hesitation, just because I didn't want to be separated from you! I think I have ability to solve it, and I don’t want you to be exposed to these things.”

Zhang Ran shook his head and cried, "Brother Yan, you still don't understand! Do you think I'm useless? I can't share the burden for you, and I want to hide behind you to seek protection. You don't even want to tell me about it. Apart from protecting me, maybe it’s because you don’t believe me? Yes, compared to you, I’m far worse than you, and I’m useless at all, but I’m willing to share the burden with you. Why…why don’t you try more Trust me." Zhang Ran covered his eyes in pain, "I'm so tired, brother Yan, I'm really tired."

"Ranzi." Lu Jingyan couldn't help pulling Zhang Ran into his arms, and kissed Zhang Ran's hair, eyebrows and eyes with great distress, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I was wrong, okay, I..."

"Brother Yan, maybe we really don't fit together." Zhang Ran said with blank eyes.

Lu Jingyan froze, "What did you say?"

"Maybe we are really not suitable for..."

"Don't say such things." Lu Jingyan slightly lowered his head and looked at Zhang Ran, "I don't think it's inappropriate, but we..."

"Yes, how could you have feelings." Zhang Ran looked at Lu Jingyan firmly, "You are high above me, I look at you, think of you, and treat you carefully. How can you feel the loss of these hard-won possessions? We have been together for so long, and I will have a fear of losing you many times. As a man, I have no sense of security at all. I am so afraid that I will die. Negatively thinking that one day you will break up with me, after all, as an ordinary person, I feel that I have exhausted my luck to be with you, and I dare not expect to be with you forever." Zhang Ran stretched out his hand to caress| Touching Lu Jingyan's face, looking into his moist eyes, "Brother Yan, what's wrong with you, in the final analysis, I'm not good enough to be worthy of you. I live in your house and eat your food. Use yours, useless, this kind of fear and insecurity are all caused by myself, I am too inferior and too mediocre, the two of us are together, we are originally unequal in this relationship, and it has developed to At this point, I can't tell whose fault it is." Zhang Ran smiled wryly, "I was still thinking that you could trust me more, how could you trust me like this."

"Ranzi, stop talking." Lu Jingyan's eyes were red and weeping, his heart hurt like it was going to explode, "Stop talking..."

Zhang Ran kissed Lu Jingyan's face, then turned and went back to his guest room.

Lu Jingyan stood outside the guest room door for a long time, but he did not open the door after all.

On this day, Zhang Ran and Rong Kai went to visit Elder Lin again with the manuscript he had specially prepared.On the way, Zhang Ran saw that Rong Kai looked troubled, so he asked, "Brother Rong, what's wrong with you?"

"Hey, I'm a little scared to see Mr. Lin later."

"Huh?" Zhang Ran's eyes widened in surprise.

"I'm afraid the old man will hit me."

Zhang Ran looked at Rong Kai dumbfounded, "Brother Rong, are you kidding? It's for no reason. Why did the teacher beat you?"

"Because the old man entrusted me to do it, I haven't done it well yet." Rong Kai spread his hands and said helplessly.

"whats the matter?"

Rong Kai sighed, "It's not that the old man is getting older, his legs and feet are inconvenient, and his body is getting weaker, so he wants to find someone to take care of him, but the caretaker will need 24 hours, that is, he will live in Mrs. Lin's house and take care of him all the time. He, you know the people nowadays, even if they are looking for a nanny or something, there are many requirements, I have been looking for a long time but haven't found a suitable one."

Zhang Ran's expression changed, and he asked hesitantly, "Brother Rong, that...well, that's..."

Seeing the expression on Zhang Ran's face, Rong Kai's mind flashed, and he asked in surprise, "Ranzi, you don't think you want to do this, do you?"

After being told by Rong Kai, Zhang Ran simply said generously, "Well, I can take care of Mr. Lin, and I don't need a salary, because I'm in a hurry to find a house recently, and I don't have any money in my hand, haha..."

After saying this, Zhang Ran felt embarrassed, but Rong Kai's eyes lit up slightly, "I think this is feasible!"

"Ah?" Zhang Ran really didn't expect Rong Kai to say that, "But...but I don't know how to take care of anything."

Rong Kai waved his hand, "Hey, the old man doesn't need you to take care of him like a baby. To put it bluntly, the old man just wants to find someone to accompany him. It's just that he has no relatives. Who wants to, so I want to find a nurse , at least for the sake of remuneration, I can take care of the old man, but I am worried, and I am afraid that those people have bad character, so I have not found a suitable one because of the combination of many problems, but..." Rong Kai put his hand on Zhang Ran On the shoulder, "But you can do it! I believe you are also optimistic about you. When you see the old man later, remember to be good. I think he likes you quite a bit."

The author has something to say: Say goodbye to Xiao Lu, we are leaving