tenderness

The closest time we got together was probably on his birthday three years ago. At that time, he hadn’t come back from working overtime. I carefully prepared a table of meals and ordered a birthday cake. This was the first time in my life that I celebrated someone else’s birthday like this , besides the apprehension, there is also a trace of expectation, what will he say when he sees what will happen.

It was as if the heavens were against me. When he came back, it was close to 12 o’clock. He had worked overtime before, but it seemed like today was the only day at this late hour. God knows how anxious I would be. If I came back after today, it would not be his birthday. What's more, is there nothing going on so late?

The phone has been disconnected, I can't stand the intrusion of the sleepy god, I don't know when I fell asleep, someone is patting me in the haze, "Xiao Nuo, why did you fall asleep in the living room?"

"It's you," I rubbed my eyes, and most of the drowsiness disappeared immediately, "Why did you just come back and still not answer my phone?"

"I'm sorry, this project is very important, and I found out that the phone is out of battery after I was done." He smiled gently and met my eyes, "What's the matter, it's rare for you to find me."

"It's so late, don't you think I'm worried," I whispered, "And today is your birthday, I don't know if it's past midnight."

"..."

"Why don't you talk..." Before I could finish my words, I was hugged into a very warm embrace. It was probably the first time I was hugged by someone else. There was only a faint smell of washing powder on his body.

"Thank you, Xiao Nuo, I didn't expect you to remember my birthday without mentioning it, and even prepared meals for me. I'm so happy..." He rubbed his eyes, "I'm sorry for making you worry, I have something to do in the future I'll definitely give you a call."

This sentence made me very ashamed. In previous years, I would forget my birthday. Every time he surprised me, not to mention the daily meals. He has been taking care of me in recent years. , I have no right to impress him.

"You have always been taking care of me, life and my bad temper, and I'm sorry for causing you trouble," I looked at the clock on the wall, it was less than 5 minutes away, and then smiled and said He said, "Happy birthday, please bear with me in the future life."

At that time, I naively thought that the future refers to the so-called forever, but the final result still slapped me mercilessly in the face, making me realize that wishes are always beautiful, but they are only beautiful in imagination, because the ensuing It was always the cruel reality. This was the first and last birthday I offered him.

In the past few years, I was too slow and unwilling to admit my feelings for him. When I mustered up the courage to accept this step-by-step future, something happened. Who would have thought that we would suddenly face parting when we have deep feelings .

At the beginning, I resented his goodness, his badness, and everything about him. Now I calmly think that it may be God's will. Maybe it's because my fate with him has come to an end.