born to ashes

Wei Linze didn't mention it when he went back.

If Josh wanted to know, he might not know. If he didn't want to know at all, then why would he say it?

It's hard to talk about things with my family members. After all, the scale is in my heart, and no one else can judge right from wrong.

Thinking about it this way, I couldn't help but think about Ji Hongxiu. Speaking of which, she hasn't called for a long time. Although the money transferred to her card every month has never been cut off, Ji Hongxiu hasn't mentioned it to him for so long. It's a bit unaccustomed to order new requirements.

Or come here whenever you think of it, Wei Linze hadn't thought about it for a few days before Ji Hongxiu called.

That day he was teaching classmate Pan a math problem in the study room, when the cell phone in the living room rang, he went out to take a look, Josh was lying on the edge of the sofa and leaned over to look, when he saw Wei Linze coming out, he quickly stepped aside.

The words "Ji Hongxiu" were written brightly on the screen. It had been a long time since I saw her, but she was still a little friendly.

He went back to his room to answer the phone, called "Auntie", and then began to speak, it was his uncle's voice, "Is that you, Linze?"

When Josh saw that it was Ji Hongxiu's call, he thought it was a bad idea and revealed his secrets, so he rushed to the door to eavesdrop.

Wei Linze said first, "It's me, what's wrong?"

It was time for another sentence on the other end of the phone, and Wei Linze said again: "What usury?"

Completely overwhelmed, Josh hurriedly thought at the door what to do to push Han Huai's responsibility a little bigger.

There was no sound from inside for a long time, and Josh was beating the drum in his heart at the door. After a while, Wei Linze said seriously, "It's not usury."

"That's right, he's a big brother in the wrong way, and he just lent me some money."

Josh listened to Wei Linze's nonsense tone outside, if he didn't do this, he would definitely believe it!This trick is amazing.

Wei Linze changed his bleak tone again: "It's okay, I know you don't have money either."

"Well, don't worry, I will definitely not tell the address of our hometown."

At the end, Josh felt like they were on the verge of tears.

After Wei Linze hung up the phone, he laughed to himself and cursed, "Damn Han Huai is quite creative."

Han Huai has always had a problem with his uncle and aunt, especially his aunt. According to what Han Huai said before, if it weren't for the parasite aunt who dragged him, our Wei Ergou would have changed seven or eight girlfriends with such good conditions. Are you still single?Later, after learning that Wei Linze had no chance of having a girlfriend, he changed the way he said it—if it wasn’t for Ji’s procrastination, Wei Ergou might have been able to start a business and launch a luxury car in these years. Beauty...beautiful man.Wei Linze's response to this is, I still prefer a little muscle.

It must be that Han Huai didn't run away.

Wei Linze didn't intend to scare his aunt, but his identity as a loan shark was too creative, so he couldn't help but just follow along, that's all, it was too creative.

He pressed Han Huai's number, and while walking outside, he called Xingshi to inquire about the crime.

As a result, when he opened the door, he saw Josh sneaking around the door, and Josh smiled awkwardly at him, "What a coincidence."

Wei Linze glanced at him, "It's not a coincidence."

Han Huai's phone call never got through. After Wei Linze hung up, he looked at Josh and smiled, laughing so hard that Josh's hairs were all over his body. He thought it was a famous saying that was different from other charming and philosophical famous sayings: If you know your mistakes, correct them. The child God will forgive.

He muttered: "I'll say it first, most of this matter is due to that Han Huai."

"What do you want to say?" Wei Linze sat down at the next table by the way, just like a head teacher educating students.

It would be even more like wearing gold-rimmed glasses.

"That... the usury, it's me."

Wei Linze laughed all of a sudden. It's not Han Huai who is so creative in his feelings. Fortunately, the phone call just now didn't get through.

"But I think this matter is mainly due to Han Huai. He deleted three call records for you before, and I only deleted one." Josh quickly pushed the fire on Han Huai, trying to get everyone to get up together, no one else. fall.

No wonder he felt that Ji Hongxiu hadn't called for a long time. It turned out that he didn't receive it. It seemed that it was necessary to add a password to the phone.

"Ahem," Wei Linze cleared his throat, "Okay prisoner, you can start stating your crime history, you can't choose to remain silent, and everything you say will become evidence in court."

"Ah sir—" Josh imitated Hong Kong movies and said in a twisted tone, Wei Linze waved his hand to stop him.

"You are allowed to sit down and talk."

"Thank you, sir!" Josh sat down and continued, "Actually, on the day you climbed the mountain, your relative called you to ask for money, and I wouldn't stop telling you if she asked for money. It wasn't that she wanted to buy a house for his son. Well, such a large sum of money. I wondered if you were about to pay the manuscript fee, so I didn’t tell you because I was afraid that you would give it all away.”

After he finished speaking, he added, "Don't you always want to buy a house, you haven't bought it yourself yet."

Wei Linze listened to Josh talking to him repeatedly, but didn't say a word, Josh panicked in his heart, afraid that Wei Linze, who was so lonely, didn't like other people meddling in his affairs, and he was afraid that he would get angry.

Who knew that Wei Linze laughed, "I'm an adult anyway, am I so stupid, I don't have money to buy a house myself, and I worry about other people's houses."

"Then who knows if you'll be silly intermittently." Josh pouted.

"My aunt is not very likable, but she is not bad-hearted, she just wants to take advantage of others." Wei Linze turned the phone screen, "When I was young, I was in the fifth grade. My grandma passed away, so she left me For myself, no one cares about me, my aunt took me there, and she didn’t treat me badly, I have everything that the little tiger in her family has, and I lived in their house until I lived in junior high school.”

"But little tiger has always been against me." Wei Linze said secretly.

One thing he didn't say is that he started doing odd jobs when he was in junior high school. When he was in junior high school, he didn't care about his aunt's living expenses. When he was in high school, he didn't even need tuition fees.In fact, his parents didn't leave him much money, and he was too embarrassed to spend money from his uncle's family, so he could only start earning money by himself as early as possible.

Josh pouted, "This is different from the version that Han Huai told me... By the way, sir, this matter is mainly due to Han Huai."

Wei Linze laughed even harder, "goose goose goose" smile, "I don't blame anyone on you."

Josh was about to answer "Quxiang Xiangtiange", when Wei Linze's phone rang, and it was Han Huai who called back.

He picked it up with a smile, and was about to ask him to be lenient when he confessed, when someone said, "Excuse me, is Comrade Han Huai's friend?"

Wei Linze ran from the west of the city to the police station in the east of the city, busily shuttling through various offices to get his seal stamped before leading Han Huai out.Such a middle-aged man, how can he learn how bad boys fight in groups!

Thanks to the fact that the other party was a group of punks, and they had a record at the police station, Han Huai was considered a good citizen, so it was a little smoother to come out.

Wei Linze was educating him, Han Huai got a little annoyed, so he replied, now it's all right, Wei Linze's reasoning makes more sense.

"Then you are so awesome and ran from the east of the city to the west of the city to fight in groups, why don't you dare to let your wife come to pick you up?"

Such a sentence made Han Huai willingly shut up, and could only listen to Teacher Wei's moral education class in peace.

"I'm not talking about you. After all, you also came from the Faculty of Arts as an undergraduate. Why don't you know the truth that a gentleman uses his mouth but not his hands? Is such a trivial matter enough to cause a fight? Don't you just use materials to compete with others for a place?" , Can’t you talk about it, can’t you talk about it? You can’t be reasonable when it’s a big deal.”

"Besides, if you don't take the guy, you have the ability to do it empty-handed. How dare you use the equipment to do it? Why do you think it's too much money to buy a house? Do you know how it hurts people? , thanks to the fact that they have a criminal record! You know, if they also take the guy, you will have to fight with weapons!"

But!Those are a group of punks, when a scholar meets a soldier, how can he be reasonable.Besides, if you can beat me without the equipment, then maybe you will have to come to the hospital to pick me up.

Han Huai nodded again and again with a sincerely convinced face.

Fortunately, Han Huai was not injured. Wei Linze went back and forth from east to west, and then sent Han Huai back. It was already dark when he got home.

He opened the door and found that there was no light inside.No, at this point, Josh should not be asleep yet, could it be that he has gone out?

Too lazy to turn on the light on the porch, he walked forward in the dark to touch the switch in the living room, and when he walked forward, he accidentally kicked Ergazi's exclusive milk box on the ground, which was empty.Wei Linze was even more careful, for fear of accidentally stepping on Er Gazi's tail.Finally, I turned on the light all of a sudden.

For a moment the lights came on.

He blocked his eyes.

Josh sat in the middle of the sofa, tilted his head, and looked up at him with blank eyes, as if he didn't recognize him.

Er Gazi still wanted to be the same as usual, lazily, lying motionless in his arms and sleeping.

Wei Linze called him, "Josh."

Josh's eyes moved, he could hear voices, he could hear what he was saying clearly, but he didn't seem to understand, what did the words that came out of his mouth mean?

Seeing him like this, Wei Linze was startled, and hurried up to him and asked, "What's wrong with you?"

Josh turned his head after him slowly, and said something in a low voice.

In fact, Wei Linze didn't hear the voice, but from the shape of his mouth, he saw an answer that made him feel cold all over.I can't believe it, it's fake, I must have read it wrong, I can't tell by the mouth shape.

"Er Gazi... is dead." Josh said.

Mingming teased it with fluorescent green for a while before going out.

Yesterday I said I would buy a new bag of cat food.

If I had known, it wanted to eat one more small yellow croaker that day, so I wouldn't have stopped it.

Er Gazi looked the same as before, lying there as if he had fallen asleep.If you fall asleep, you won't be able to wake up.

"Have I ever told you how I met Er Gazi?" Josh sat there, quietly, and suddenly spoke. Before Wei Linze could respond, he continued, "I was on the side of the road at that time. While eating skewers, I happened to see a big tabby cat lying on the ground, threw a small yellow croaker, and then took it home, what a fool."

He himself gave a short laugh.

"Ergazi is a cat with a bad temper. If you feed it well, if it refuses to eat, you have to throw it there and wait for it to eat by itself. Not only is it arrogant, but there are also basket after basket of stinky cats, etc. It’s been a year, and it’s been a long time since I’ve managed to subdue it, so why did it die, and why am I still alive?”

I thought I wouldn't survive Ergazi.

He stood up, swayed slightly to stabilize his body, walked gently to the side of the box and put Er Gazi into the box.Then go to your room.

Wei Linze hurried over to tug him, "What are you doing?"

He laughed, "Sleep."

Wei Linze frowned and let go.

They buried Ergazi under the first tree on the street where Josh met it, and Wei Linze put fluorescent green with it. Josh didn't cry or get excited, and watched Ergazi being covered with soil bit by bit calmly.

From that day on, Josh became less and less talkative, and the most he did was to be in a daze.Not only is he in a daze, but his reaction is also a bit slow. He sees everything slowly. If Wei Linze is doing something, the rhythm is a little faster, a little more intense, and he can't react.And he always forgets things, wandering to the kitchen to cook just after eating, watching Wei Linze who was doing the dishes and asking why he did the dishes before meals.

Sometimes he went to turn on the light, and when he saw the stick figure posted next to him, he could look at it for a long time without moving, completely forgetting to turn on the light.Once Wei Linze came back from the outside and saw Josh standing by the window with most of his body leaning out, his heart almost jumped out of his throat, so he hurried over and grabbed him by the back collar and brought him in because he was too hard. Josh didn't stand still, and fell directly to the ground, looking up at Wei Linze as if he couldn't react.

"What are you doing!" Wei Linze shouted at him with sweat all over his back.

Josh still looked at him without speaking.

He sat there and didn't get up for a long time.He bent down to help him up, and Josh stared at him for a while before he said slowly: "What do you say, what do people do alive? To wait for death? To suffer? Then why suffer? For pleasure? I also I didn’t enjoy the fun. I thought I wouldn’t live until I was 13, but I survived, and then I thought I couldn’t live to be twenty, and then I came back, but I don’t want to.”

"I'll tell you why I'm alive!" Wei Linze sighed, "For humans, life is temporary, and death is eternal, but the death we see may be what we call 'life', because it is something we cannot In the dimension of understanding, death does not necessarily mean losing your mind, you may live in more pain there. Moreover, because we know that we will always enter an eternal dimension, we must cherish this limited world even more.”

"To live is for yourself."

Josh shook his head, "I have nothing to do. Yang Kangping and Qiao Zhen are dead, and now even Er Gazi is dead. Those who tormented me are dead, and those who need me are dead. I don't need it anymore. "

Wei Linze pursed his lips when he heard Qiao Zhen, he really knew.

He suddenly looked up at Wei Linze, his eyes sparkled, "Er Gazi just wants to take me away."

The sweat on Wei Linze's back was still wet. Hearing what he said, he immediately burst into flames. The sweat seemed to have been evaporated by the fire. He raised his hand and slapped him unexpectedly, pointing at Josh, "You fucking Fart! Doctor Zhang! Zheng Fei! What do you think of them! Me! What the hell do you think of me! For a cat, you will die! How old are you! When it dies, you jump from here? You he Mom, why don't you find a higher floor and finish it off, you fucking dare to die!"

Josh drooped his eyelids and was stunned. It took him a long time to laugh and walked back to the house slowly.

Wei Linze secretly rubbed his palms with his fingers. Damn, why don't you take it easy and put so much effort!

He glanced out the window, and there were two cats running around in circles downstairs.

Hold! Josh didn't want to jump down at all, did he just want to see these two cats?

Wei Linze stood at Josh's door for a long time, not embarrassed to knock on the door.Being yelled at and slapped for no reason, who would be angry? Josh was in a good temper if he didn't pull it back on the spot.

He hurriedly called Zhang Zhihe and told him what had happened in the past few days, but he didn't have the nerve to talk about the good things he did today.Upon hearing the situation, Zhang Zhihe said, "It's broken."

"The symptom of delirium is unresponsiveness. Josh's situation was not dangerous before, but now it's really a big outbreak." Zhang Zhihe shouted on the phone, and sighed again and again, "It's all on me, the past few days I didn’t take care of some things when I went home, so I’ll rush back tomorrow.”

"I have to give him compulsory interventional psychotherapy when I go back, regardless of whether he agrees or not!" Zhang Zhihe was in a hurry, looking for the car keys while talking, "No, I'll go back tonight , arrive tomorrow morning."

Wei Linze didn't get much sleep all night, he thought that the quarrel before was the most serious situation, but who knew it was just the early signs.Mingming checked it before, and the results clearly stated that the symptom was a slow reaction, and he forgot all about it when he turned his head around, and it was only at this time that he realized something was wrong.

When he woke up the next morning, Josh was already sitting at the dining table, sucking on a straw and drinking milk, his eyes fixed on the screen of his phone, he pressed a few times and then quickly turned his head to eat a mouthful of buns, puffing his cheeks and continuing to look at his phone.

No matter how Wei Linze looked at it, he felt that the left side of his face was a little swollen, and he regretted it again.

After shuffling at the door for a while, he went over and stood aside and said in a low voice, "Yesterday... I'm sorry."

Josh didn't speak, he was still chewing on the bun and looking at his phone.

"Why don't you come back, can you beat me?" Wei Linze had never lost his temper in his life, and it was the first time he hit someone with his hands. Just this time, he made a big fuss.It was only two days ago that I educated Mr. Han Huai to use his mouth but not his hands. You said, why can't you explain the reason well, why can you get started after only one round of reasoning.

The sound of "snoring" came from Josh's straw. He raised his eyelids and said lightly, "It hurts."

"Then hit me quickly, and hit me with a rounded arm." Wei Linze said, "I reflected all night yesterday, and I was really wrong."

Josh put his phone on the table, hooked his fingers at him, "Come here with your face."

Wei Linze was obedient, moved his face closer, and Josh grabbed his ear and yanked it twice, "You fucking have no brains and I have no brains, why should I hit you? Hand hurts, do you know that the effects of force are mutual?"

Wei Linze was still in a daze, Josh gave him a push, "Fuck, sit over there and eat, and accompany me to cut my hair after eating."