the years you weren't around

Lin Chen followed Gu Mingwei without saying a word, stepping on his shadow and advancing. Gu Mingwei was worried for a long time, and asked without thinking: "Lin Chen, do you study literature?"

"arts!"

Gu Mingwei looked back inexplicably, and said lightly, "I'm learning."

"Ah."

Gu Mingwei paused, turned around and looked at Lin Chen, his expression was still obscure and his eyes were a little out of focus: "You should turn the corner."

"I'll go live at your house." Seeing Gu Mingwei's displeasure, the left corner of Lin Chen's mouth raised, with a bright sarcasm: "Why, you're not welcome? It's not like I haven't lived here before!"

Gu Mingwei turned his head and continued walking, his movements and tone were full of bluntness: "It's up to you!" Gu Mingwei comforted himself in his heart, but he just didn't know.He doesn't know anything, so he is unscrupulous.At one moment, Gu Mingwei wanted to speak out and drag him to hell, but at the other moment he was afraid that the two of them would meet in a stranger's way, so he was tormented by the two worlds of ice and fire.

Gu Mingwei was awakened by the music on his mobile phone. When he woke up, he thought he was more than ten years ago, but when he answered the phone, he immediately woke up.It was Gu Xiaoyu, and the voice on the other end of the phone was still soft, "Xiao Wei, since you have already returned to N City, I will also return to China in these two days."

"What are you doing back?" Gu Mingwei was so depressed, Lin Chen was enough to annoy him, and Gu Xiaoyu also joined in the fun.

"It's not you! I've been refusing to come to England to see me, and Charles said he missed you." A man echoed from the other end of the phone.

Gu Mingwei curled his lips, "Stop coming, if it's not because of him... Forget it, call me when we arrive, and I'll pick you up at the airport. Will he come back with you too?"

The other end hesitated, "If you don't want to see him..."

"What does it have to do with me!" Gu Mingwei was already in a state of explosion. At this time, whoever pokes him will be blown up. Fortunately, there is only one person in the rental room who can breathe.

"What's the matter with you, are you on fire?" Gu Xiaoyu felt that his mood was not right. She understood Gu Mingwei's urination, it was very slippery, no matter how much he hated someone, he would never put it on the surface, let alone lose control of his emotions, except , to that person.

Gu Mingwei pondered for a while, and told the truth, "Lin Chen is back, and he has been working in N City since graduation."

really.Gu Xiaoyu smiled wryly. In fact, she has always been guilty. She didn't know about Gu Mingwei and Lin Chen when she left. It took several years for Gu Mingwei to tell her about it. She still clearly remembered that Gu Mingwei's voice on the other end of the phone was depressed and Hoarse, as if a beast was about to burst out of the throat, "Auntie, I can't hold on anymore, I like Lin Chen, but I let him go, if he hates me..."

Gu Mingwei would never show her his inner feelings. It can be seen that he really couldn't hold it anymore. Gu Xiaoyu couldn't imagine how Gu Mingwei, who was still a child at the time, faced his deviant love, how he could bear his own differences, and how he was sneaky. Maintaining the relationship with Lin Chen, and how to send away the person he loves the most.Gu Mingwei just skipped the scene back then lightly, but Gu Xiaoyu always thought that if he was there at that time, he would definitely not let that boy suffer so much, but there is no if.

Gu Xiaoyu closed his eyes and asked tentatively, "Then what are you going to do?"

"What can I plan?" Gu Mingwei looked at the ceiling, "I'll go back when the company is done..."

"Gu Mingwei, don't be perfunctory to me." Gu Xiaoyu interrupted him, emphasizing his tone, "Don't pretend you don't care, these years, you have been unable to let him go, but I have never figured out why you never go to him, even Never deliberately inquire about his news..."

"Because I want to forget him."

Gu Xiaoyu's eyes became wet all of a sudden, he blinked, took a deep breath, and couldn't say anything.

Gu Mingwei put down his mobile phone but couldn't fall asleep anymore. He got up and opened the curtains. Although it was late at night outside, the lights of the city illuminated half of the sky, and he could clearly hear the screaming singing of the nearby KTV.The lights are feasting and the demons are dancing wildly.

The dark night has magical powers, which will quietly release some of the suppressed emotions, perhaps because the night itself is a kind of cover, so there is no need to worry about being exposed.Those who are sad can cry without any scruples, and those who are happy can go mad heartily, and even those distant memories that are deliberately forgotten are particularly clear.

After playing that day, Lin Chen insisted on going home with him, but when he entered the house, he found that the house was in a mess, the cups and vases were all broken, and the pillows on the sofa were discarded on the ground.And there were even more angry quarrels upstairs.

Gu Mingwei stuck on the spot in a daze, because his aunt, whose voice was two points lower than others, shouted angrily at this moment: "Let's go! I'm going back to England now!"

The other voice was his grandma, who was obviously mad with anger: "Prodigal bastard, why did I give birth to you!"

"You should have strangled me! Let me tell you, I'll never come back again, and I won't come back until you die!"

When Gu Mingwei heard this, he glanced at Lin Chen blankly. Lin Chen shrank his pupils and supported him worriedly. Only then did Gu Mingwei realize that his body was shaking violently.

The sound of pulling boxes upstairs slowly turned into a loud cracking sound, which shattered Gu Mingwei's peaceful life.

Gu Xiaoyu went downstairs angrily, and saw that the two people standing at the door were obviously stunned. The anger on their faces suddenly blurred, and the great sadness enveloped them. Be yourself, I'm sorry, my aunt won't be coming back."

Gu Mingwei shook his head, his throat was slightly choked: "I, I accidentally heard you calling him a few days ago, so I knew it." There was hot liquid wet his shoulders, but Gu Mingwei was just at a loss.A man from far away in the UK called and said that he wanted to marry someone else. On one side was his lover, on the other side was his mother and nephew. She made a choice, but Gu Mingwei didn't even have the courage to criticize her, he was not qualified.For so many years since his parents left, Gu Xiaoyu has been taking care of this broken home in two places. Gu Mingwei has always regarded himself as her biggest burden, but he has no choice. Everything he has is in N City. This land is his His root, his soul, uprooting him and growing him elsewhere will only cause him pain, so he can only pretend that he doesn't understand the resentment in her heart, and live under her blessing in deception.

"Xiaowei, it's not because I hate you, nor because of Charles." Gu Xiaoyu let go of him, looked at Gu Mingwei and said word by word: "I hope one day, you will understand why I have to leave."

Many years later, Gu Mingwei would always think of Gu Xiaoyu's eyes at this time, that kind of indescribable, full of pain and compassion, and some kind of happiness similar to relief and freedom, and then the emptiness after calm.

Gu Mingwei always believed that it was Gu Xiaoyu who couldn't bear his burden and fled back to England through her boyfriend's marriage. However, remembering the look in her eyes at that time, he suddenly didn't believe it, and eager to know the answer, he dialed the number. Strangely, he called again, "Xiaowei, what's the matter?"

"Auntie," I found out that my voice was very dry and hoarse, "Why did you leave, not because I dragged you down, not because Charles forced you to go back with marriage, then, what is it?"

Gu Xiaoyu was silent for a while, then smiled softly, "Xiaowei, you have had your own opinions in doing things since you were young, and you also know how to figure out other people's thoughts. This has allowed you to make many friends, and you will never go out of the circle. You believed so deeply in your own mind that I always thought you'd be so stubborn until you died."

"I'm sorry." Forgive my belated sensibility and trust, only children will always be stubborn and turn a blind eye to their own mistakes.

"Xiaowei, Lin Chen has changed a lot, right?"

"Yeah." Gu Mingwei smiled softly, "It's much gentler, I almost don't know him anymore." That young man has learned how to treat others well and cherish others' kindness.

"But these years, you haven't changed at all." You were the only one who stayed where you were, clinging to your own world, unwilling to take a step forward. "At that time, when you called me and told me about you and Lin Chen, I thought you would finally believe me, but you didn't. And do you know, when your grandma was alive, she told me almost three times a day that I should go to school hard Work, pay for your schooling, buy you a house, these things, I understand even if she doesn’t say, after all, you are the only child left by my brother. But you know, the look in her eyes when I said I’m going back to England? That kind of defensiveness , panic eyes, I will never forget it for the rest of my life..." As he spoke, Gu Xiaoyu was already crying. "She never believed me..."

In fact, the biggest harm a person suffers in this life is not from a trusted friend or an intimate lover, but from a relative who is relative day and night.

Gu Xiaoyu never felt that there was anything wrong with being nice to Gu Mingwei, treating him like her own child, but even so, her mother still felt that Gu Xiaoyu would leave the house at any time, and Gu Mingwei still treated him like an outsider forever. Wen Wenlai trapped himself in a world, he couldn't get out, and others couldn't get in.

Staying in a seemingly harmonious but indifferent home day after day, Gu Xiaoyu felt that her soul was going to be burnt out, so she had no choice but to take the opportunity to escape. If she didn't leave, she would collapse or even go crazy.

No one can bear the pain of paying heart and soul but not getting anything in return, let alone what Gu Xiaoyu wants is the trust and understanding of his relatives.

A man's soft comforting voice came from the other end of the phone, and Gu Mingwei murmured, "I'm sorry." This apology was 12 years or more late, and Gu Mingwei can only be thankful that it was not later.