shame

"haven't seen you for a long time…"

He rubbed his hands together, feeling a little uncomfortable.After contacting work, Xiahe has traveled to many remote mountainous areas and met too many people of all kinds who are struggling to survive. At that time, he used to put a smile on his face when facing them.After a long time, he always looked like a superficial smile.

Gu Sheng nodded at him, staring at him, whether deep or shallow.He moved a little bit and said with a smile, "You look a little old."

Xia He replied unceremoniously: "You are the same."

The two looked at each other, the feeling was hard to say, whether it was an old lover or a reunion partner, Xia He couldn't remember what he had said to him at that time, so he slammed the door and left.

Hearing news about him these past few days, I just laughed it off, my heart went from raw pain to sourness, and now to peace.So much so that when seeing him in person, the other party is dazzlingly handsome, returnees, suits, his favorite type, but it is difficult to have the urge to turn back.

"walk with me"

Gu Sheng glanced at him, and then looked at the river not far away.

"it is good!"

"The wedding is at eleven o'clock"

"Yeah, everyone hasn't arrived yet."

Gu Sheng smiled: "I never expected that the two of them would hang out together secretly, and even talk about getting married."

Xia He twitched the corners of his mouth after hearing this, and then said: "Yeah, being sneaky is a bit like us back then."

Gu Sheng was taken aback.Xia He doesn't mind talking about it, after all, for him, that time was very good.Originally thought that we could see the four seasons together, the flowers bloom, the snow melted, and finally saw the gray hair.But then it was naive, and parted ways with all good things.Looking back now, it was indeed a rare experience in life.

Gu Sheng walked slowly beside him, and asked again: "You have a partner, right? That Xiangfeng?"

Xia He shook his head: "No, I've been very busy all the time, so I don't have time to think about it."

"Oh oh."

"And you"

"I'm busy too. The company just went public and I've never been free every day. I don't have time to think about that at all."

Xia He asked: "Do you like men or women now?"

Gu Sheng smiled: "I can't say, maybe it depends on the person."

"I think getting married and having children is right for you."

Xia He added, and turned around, "I forgot that Zhou Yu called me to give him psychological counseling, so let's make an appointment another day to greet him when I'm free."

Gu Sheng nodded, followed his footsteps and walked back.

Around noon, the wedding ceremony took place as scheduled.

In the auditorium, Gao Yalam looks as beautiful as a person in a mural, like a princess.Zhou Yu was not bad either, the two looked at each other and smiled, looking very happy.

"Always be loyal, love each other deeply, no matter whether you are rich or poor, are you willing?"

"I do!"

Gu Shengle took the lead in applauding, and Xie Dong sat next to him, silently applauding as well.

Xia He was the best man, standing next to Zhou Yu, watching the couple kiss, he naturally turned his eyes to Gu Sheng.

Gu Sheng also looked over, exchanged glances with him, and then hurriedly moved away.

In the end, amidst the music and flowers and applause, Zhou Yu and Gao Yalan became eternal.

At the banquet, seeing Xia He and Gu Sheng sitting at a separate table, Zhou Yu quietly walked behind him while toasting, tugged at the hem of his suit, and leaned into his ear and said, "Why don't you go talk to Gu Sheng?"

"I said..."

Xia He felt a little presumptuous and frowned.

"You two, don't you decide to never get in touch with each other?"

Xia He gently pushed him away without saying a word.

"Forget it, leave your affairs to fate!"

Zhou Yu felt that he was talking too much, so he went back to toast again.

On the way back that night, Xia He drank a little too much, his face was reddish, and he looked charming under the light.

He insisted on going back, so he quietly put on his coat and slipped away without saying hello.

What he coveted was the lonely student who pretended not to know him well.

Under the night, the lamps and shadows are dim, vehicles come and go, and the moon hangs high in the sky.

He pressed his aching head, sobered up, and walked slowly on those black leather shoes.

A car passed him and pulled over not far away.He didn't pay attention at first, until the people in the car got off, he was stunned and stopped.

Gu Sheng waved at him: "Xiahe!"

Then, he strode forward again, pretending to be natural, pretending not to care.

"Why are you here?" he asked.

Gu Sheng asked back, "Why did you leave?"

Xia He: "I want to go back to sleep early."

Gu Sheng looked at him, leaning against the car door, looking a little thinner, and the edges and corners of his face became more prominent.

"You drank too much"

"Probably, my head hurts a little, Zhou Yu won't blame me."

Gu Sheng replied: "No...he knew you were gone, let me come over..."

Xia He smiled, "Why are you here?"

Gu Sheng hesitated for a moment, then opened the car door and signaled: "I'll take you back, it's not easy to take a taxi here."

"No need, my house is not far away, just walk there."

Gu Sheng stared at him coldly, "You want to avoid me that much"

Xia He hesitated, the smile on his face gradually faded, and then said: "Idiots are hiding from you on purpose, what is there to hide?"

"Yeah, you're an idiot!"

Xia He lowered his eyes, then stepped to sit in the car, stared at him and said: "Then trouble you to see him."

Gu Sheng closed the car door, returned to the driver's seat, and did not reply to his words.

Xia He was talking nonsense, and said to the back of his head, "I won't pay for the gas."

"..."

Gradually, the car became quiet and no one spoke.Xia He fell asleep on his back, only slept for a short while, but dreamed of many things.I dreamed that the year my mother died, I couldn't cry looking at the portrait.When I dreamed that my father got married, everyone was smiling like a flower.She dreamed that Gu Sheng was leaning against her chest, her fingers gently circling his stomach.

When he was woken up, his mind was completely confused.

Gu Sheng stretched out his hand to pull him: "It's here!"

Looking at the unchanged yard and the big tree with fallen leaves, Gu Sheng fell silent.But only for a short while, he got into the carriage and helped Xia He out.

Xia He limply paralyzed on him, like a child.

Gu Sheng helped him upstairs, then took out the key from his trousers pocket, opened the door, went in, and slowly put him down on the sofa.

Then he turned around, went to the bathroom to find a towel to pass through the water, walked around Xia He, squatted down, and wiped off the marks on his face.

The balcony is always open, and the night breeze blows in slowly, making everyone comfortable.

Xia Zhendong moved out after getting married, and Xia He insisted on staying in this house, so he was reluctant to move away.

Gu Sheng stared at his reddish handsome face, and slowly opened his mouth: "If you don't wake up, I'll kiss you."

Xia He opened a gap slightly, turned over, and deliberately buried his face in the sofa.

"..."

"Go back to bed and lie down, it's a bit cooler."

Xia He didn't move, Gu Sheng knew he wasn't asleep.

Then she reached out to pull him up again, carried him on her back, and walked into the room.I didn't forget to add: "You are heavier than before."

Xia He couldn't help laughing out loud, his mind was cleared up, with dazed eyes, he kissed the strange yet familiar smell on the man's shoulder.

Later, he was gently placed on the bed, took off his shoes, covered the quilt, and there was no movement around him.

When he woke up, it was six o'clock in the morning, and the outside was still dark with a faint blue light.

Xia He coughed for a while, and turned to the bed, coughing until tears came out.

Suddenly, I felt a warm hand caressing my back and patted it slowly.

He turned his face away and saw Gu Sheng.

"Did you not leave last night?"

Gu Sheng withdrew his hand: "No, I want to talk to you."

"say what"

"Anything is fine."

Xia He looked at him, hesitated: "You didn't sleep all night, did you?"

"Uh-huh……"

"Then go to sleep, I'll get up..."

After saying that, Xia He wanted to get up, but was grabbed by the other party again.

Gu Sheng's eyes were reddened, and he said in a pleading tone, "Xia He, please forgive me, please."

In an instant, Xia He's inner strength suddenly collapsed.He hesitated and didn't know how to respond, so he could only ask back: "You didn't do anything wrong, why should I forgive you?"

"Xiahe, I love you!"

"..."

"Let's...start over, shall we?"

"..."

He said, "let go, let me think about it."

Gu Sheng let go of his hand, and Xia He left the big bed and walked outside.But just as he stepped over the threshold, tears flowed out.He gritted his teeth, wiped away his tears, and stood still.

There was no sound in the room, so he turned around and went back, pounced on Gu Sheng almost at the fastest and most unpredictable speed, cupped his face and kissed him.

Sunshine, birdsong, breeze.

He opened his eyes and looked at the sleeping man in front of him. He didn't do anything, just watched.