365 Difficult Ways To Live

Chu Dongren's face was already red, but when Chu Yu stared at him, he immediately developed a fever, and fanned the air conditioner to cover it up, thinking that the air conditioner was turned on too much.

Chu Yu was indifferent to his disguise and remained motionless with meaningful eyes.

Chu Dongren sat down, waved his hand, and tried to brush away Chu Yu's sticky eyes, "What are you looking at, what do you suspect, just tell me."

Chu Yu turned his head and carefully read the content of the picture and text again.

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Accompanying text: He likes to drink freshly ground coffee, with two spoons of milk and no cube sugar, but he drinks less, usually twice a week, after grinding, share a cup for everyone

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Caption: In the past few days, after he got off work, he would go for a walk by Wangjiang Lake. From the intersection of South Second Ring Road to Wangjiang Road, he walked for half an hour, all the way home

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Accompanying text: He is currently studying mental illness and its criminal danger. The Graduate School is cooperating with him in conducting experimental research. He often goes to the fifth floor

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Chu Yu read it over and over again, how do you look at it, how does it look like a person who cherishes spring, and records every detail of his sweetheart, down to every cup of coffee he drinks, every mouthful of rice he eats, every piece of toilet paper he uses... …

Chu Yu looked at it, and actually read the pain literature of adolescence, and the accompanying text looked like this in her eyes:

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Accompanying text: His white porcelain cup is filled with thick black and rich coffee, with a circle of white lines floating on the surface, forming the shape of "people" for a while, and the shape of "big" for a while. Is this the bitter water of longing, or the tears of secret love?

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Accompanying text: His back view in the street lights is dreamy and blurred, three points deserted, four points five points leisurely, and zero point five points chic, his walking steps along the lakeside are very like love

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Accompanying text: On the screen are the materials he studied and the notes he made. Although the fonts are all the same, in Song style No. [-], but because he typed it out by himself, every word has become romantic. Romantic rumors about the ancient European Aegean Sea

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Chu Yu felt that her young heart was shaken by a tenth level. She always suspected that her father and Mu Shangqing were "stirring CP", but she didn't expect it to be a real hammer!

Chu Dongren sighed, looked at the back of Chu Yu's stiff head, and knew what was going on in her head, so he acted preemptively and strangled those seedlings to death in advance.

"I know, after reading these contents, you will definitely doubt my relationship with Shang Qing, but I dare to touch my sexual orientation and swear to your mother that I am straight."

Chu Yu turned her head and looked at her father.

Facing Chu Yu's human-shaped polygraph, Chu Dongren was not afraid at all, and bravely looked straight at it. The corners of his eyes were too hard to crack.

Chu Yu looked away, knowing that he wasn't lying. When he was chasing her mother back then, she had heard about the "it's her" spirit since he was born. He doesn't smoke or drink, but that doesn't mean he is gay.

But Mu Shangqing, she can't guarantee it, although according to Chu Dongren, he loves Huang Nan deeply, married her and had children, but the problem is that he is not happy after marriage. He is the only "living" person in the family who can speak.

Under such circumstances, even if Mu Shangqing loved Huang Nan, would he fall in love with Chu Dongren who took good care of him?

In terms of age, Chu Dongren is a round older than Mu Shangqing, like an elder brother, and Mu Shangqing lacked fatherly love in his early years and was brought up by his mother. Fatherly love, male love, is very important in the growing period and will affect The gender identity of the child, the child who cannot get the love of the father in the original family will seek similar emotions from the outside world, that is, the love of men.

For example, look for rebirth families, that is, homosexuality.

And Chu Dongren's gentleness, firmness, tolerance, and patience are all the strength of "father" that Mu Shangqing longed for when he was young.

In addition, Chu Dongren himself is so different, he is a superior, a symbol of power and authority, he can give Mu Shangqing a feeling of relying on; and he knows his mood disorder, but he can be lenient and help him keep the secret , which gave Mu Shangqing a feeling of being protected.

So from a theoretical point of view, Chu Yu has reason to believe that Mu Shangqing has a crush on Chu Dongren.

After listening to Chu Yu's theoretical analysis, Chu moved people to feel ashamed, and focused on debating: "The theory is well deduced, but only the theory needs to be proved by practice. From my actual experience, Shang Qing is also a straight man. , straighter than dried noodles submerged in water, if you break it forcibly, it will break!"

Chu Yu cast a skeptical look: "Don't look at the world with a straight man's eyes, think that everything is straight."

Chu Dongren is confident and confident: "Let me make it clear first that I don't reject homosexuality. I have no objection whether it's professional accomplishment or personal feelings. And I can tell whether I'm a straight man, even if I can't. After so many psychological consultations, I can also feel clearly that Shang Qing's sexual orientation is fine, on the contrary, I think your sexual orientation is a bit obsessed, since you were young, you have never been masculine."

Chu Yu: "..."

No, why did the topic suddenly go to her?Does her sexual orientation have anything to do with this case?

Chu Yu didn't want to "fall off the horse" so early, and forcibly changed the topic back: "Since you said that Section Chief Mu has nothing wrong with you, how do you explain this?"

As he said that, Chu Yu tapped the screen, and the electronic version was written in black and white, expressing his feelings clearly.

Chu Dongren frowned, his voice sank, and another round of memory killing was launched. Chu Yu wanted to turn on the recorder and record him as the fifth interviewee today.

"Actually, in the last period, from August and September to November when his accident happened, in these two or three months, Shang Qing's physical condition was worrying, and the work in the department continued unabated, and he was obsessed with the investigation of unsolved cases. , the quality of sleep is particularly bad, and the dark circles under his eyes are heavy. I have persuaded him in private, let him do his job well, and let the matter of the Public Security Bureau be temporarily let go. But he refused to listen and insisted on following up case.

I saw that he was under a lot of pressure and worried, and I was afraid that his mania would attack again, so I made an appointment with him for a day of psychological counseling, but on the day of the appointment, he asked for leave, and I wanted to make up for it later, but he avoided me a bit Meaning, I suspected that his mental state was not very good, and he avoided me because he was afraid that I would see something abnormal. Later, I had to order that if he didn't stop the investigation, I would prohibit him from entering and exiting the Public Security Bureau. "

Chu Yu looked serious: "Is your order effective?"

"At least in the office, he restrained a lot, but I don't know what he was doing after returning home. But during that time, Shang Qing gave me the feeling that he was about to know, or already knew who the murderer was. "

Seeing Chu Dongren's serious words, Chu Yu felt anxious in his heart and his mind was about to split. On the one hand, he wanted to treat him as a murderer, analyze the loopholes in his words, and find evidence to prove that he was a murderer; As an innocent good person, use his words as useful clues to sort out and reason.

The degree of this is difficult to grasp. If you doubt too much, it is easy to reject him too much and miss the key information he provides. If you believe too much, you will rely too much on his information and make wrong judgments.

Chu Yu's brain was hurting, and he wished he could buy a demon mirror and take a picture of her father, so as to distinguish the real from the fake on the spot.

Although she is a walking polygraph, Chu Dongren also has a background in psychological profiling, so she doesn't know how to hide the signs of lying?

A polygraph, an anti-polygraph, put together now, the result can only be "approximately equal to zero."

Chu Yu braced his aching head and followed her father's rhythm: "So you think that he made these records to protect you secretly?"

Looking at the pictures and texts on the screen, Chu Dongren nodded.

"Yes, I was surprised when I saw this file when I checked the computer. My first reaction was the same as yours. I thought that Shang Qing was possessed by a ghost because of his sexual orientation. He actually fell in love with me. But after thinking about it carefully, I ruled out This is possible. I remember I told you that Shang Qing is so obsessed with those murders because they all happened around me, he is afraid that the murderer's final target is me!"

Chu Yu nodded thoughtfully: "But during that time, you have been nestled in the office. If the murderer wants to kill you, he can only start with your daily food and clothing, such as the food you eat, the coffee you drink, or the time you spend On the way to and from work, such as when walking by the lake...Mr. Mu recorded all these, which is for protection!"

"Yes, that's what I think. On the one hand, he avoids me, fearing that I will find out that he is not in a good state of mind and suspend his work. On the other hand, he has always been by my side, secretly protecting me."

At the end, Chu Dongren couldn't help sighing, this kind of feeling that is not love, seems to be more selfless than love.

Chu Yu stared at the screen, his pupils reflecting the light of the screen: "But doesn't Chief Mu have a photographic memory? These details should be recorded in his mind, I believe he has the ability to remember. Even if you are an old man, drinking coffee every morning, Drink coconut milk at noon, drink orange juice at night, and change eighteen kinds of drinks a day, and he also remembers it. Why did he record it in the document and call it 'Matrix Data 2.'?"

Chu Dongren's face was calm. It seems that these problems have been thoroughly researched, "Do you know the state of mania?"

"I know," Chu Yu scratched his ears, "Do you need me to recite it?"

"Emotional high, irritability, and impulsive behavior. When Shang Qing got sick, he had all three of them, and his thoughts were extremely unrestrained, completely illogical. He told me that the most feared thing was a manic attack during the exam. , because the answers to the questions are all random, and the writing is flamboyant, and I feel that I am the best in the world, just like the emperor reviewing memorials."

Chu Yu was surprised: "So in the last few months, his mania broke out again?"

Therefore, I have to write down the details when I am rational, and write them down in the latest work documents, reminding myself when I am manic, and protecting the charming.

Chu Dongren looked melancholy, and nodded slightly, "Do you still remember the scene where Shang Qing's accident occurred, and what was found?"

Chu Yu quickly recalled: "Mr. Mu's shoes, mobile phone, crime tools, and a bottle of benzodiazepine [1]..."

"I didn't prescribe that bottle of medicine to him, but he took it himself. For confidentiality reasons, I never told the staff that Shang Qing had mania. They were also very puzzled about the bottle of medicine, and even suspected that the murderer had illness, I just mentioned it to the colleagues in charge of the investigation of the Public Security Bureau, and asked them to keep the victim's illness in the confidential department."

Chu Yu was in a daze. In this way, the "feat" of Mu Shangqing's single-handed duel can be explained - he was manic, emotionally high, impulsive and blindly confident, bravely confronted the murderer, and finally "Death" is unclear.

But what about the murderer?

From the murderer’s point of view, the situation is very strange——according to the situation at the scene, the two met on the roof of the migrant building. , it is certain that one murderer or several murderers went to the meeting. Anyway, the murderer must go alone and will not bring others, but how can the murderer guarantee that Mu Shangqing is alone?

In case Mu Shangqing, in order to catch him and put him to death, brought his helpers, lurked around, and laid a net, wouldn't he be afraid that Mu Shangqing, who came to the appointment, would come to catch a turtle?

If the murderer dared to make an appointment with him, he was sure that he would go alone, but how could the murderer be sure that he would really be alone?