365 Difficult Ways To Live

Mu Shangqing closed his eyes, feeling scared and disgusted, he just wanted the man in front of him to disappear quickly, or disappear from this world himself.

But both wishes could not be fulfilled, Zheng Xun was still touching his face, muttering, he didn't threaten or curse, but was reminiscing about the process just now and evaluating his body.

Mu Shangqing was about to vomit, his internal organs were churning, his internal organs were feverish, he wished he could jump into the disinfection pool, only the strongest hypochlorite, acid, and sodium could wash him clean, maybe he should peel off his skin and cut it into pieces. By the way, he transplanted the intestines. He felt that the pig's intestines were cleaner than his own.

He was disgusted, but at the same time he was even more frightened, trembling uncontrollably. He listened to Zheng Xun's threat just now, and his fear soared to the peak, turning into fear, and he didn't even have time to deal with the feeling of nausea.

It turns out that the most terrifying thing is not encountering injustice, but being unable to resist after encountering it, because resistance will lead to worsening injustice and directly threaten life.

Mu Shangqing has encountered the most disgusting thing, and the only thing that can support him now is to resist, fight back, take revenge, kick this person out of the house, let his mother know his true colors, and ruin his reputation.

But what Zheng Xun said just now cut off his thoughts, a basin of water poured down, and the only flame of hope left was extinguished.

Mu Shangqing knew that Zheng Xun would definitely do something as shameless as ruining other people's reputation, not only could he do it well, he could do it in a decent way, and it could even be written as a typical case of "doing evil" textbook.

My mother has been dating him for several weeks, and she often takes him home. The neighbors in the neighborhood know that if he really makes irresponsible remarks outside, the neighbors in the neighborhood will believe that everything else is not pleasant in Huaxieting. He ran fast, but in one day, everyone in the neighborhood would know that Mu Shangqing's mother lived a rough life.

Mu Shangqing's tears are still coming out, many and violently, never ending.

He couldn't imagine what the family would be like if his mother couldn't get a job. He might be able to drop out of school to work, but his mother wouldn't let him. He knew her, and even if she tried her best, she would still let him study. Finished, stand out.

And a woman with a bad reputation, if she wants to survive, there is only one way to go in the end-becoming a prostitute.

Living in the crowded market for a long time, what Mu Shangqing is most familiar with is the way of survival, and he also knows what people can do in order to survive.

He will not allow his mother to have an accident. He wants to give his mother a decent life, which means that this man will always come to the house, appear in front of his eyes, hold his hand with a smile, chat with him, and talk to him on the one hand. Mother loves me. On the one hand, when she is not around, she will take off his pants and rape him again and again.

This is the price of "happiness", but the price is too tragic.

Ever since he was a child, Mu Shangqing has been used to being submissive, but this time, the "rebellion" pierced his spine and knocked him down.

He closed his eyes and tried to admit his fate. He has always been a submissive bitch, but he was thrown into a corner and spat on before, but now he is pushed under him. It's just bullying, and it's no different.

But he was still afraid, the figure of the man on his body enveloped him, like a mudslide, which might suffocate him at any time.After closing his eyes, he couldn't see the man's big face, and the fear still lingered in his heart, but another emotion was like a vine, swaying its branches, and crawled out—a wave of anger, which came suddenly, quickly swept through the whole body.

This feeling is very strange, like drinking alcohol or injecting stimulants, the cells in the whole body are active, burning blazingly, trying to ignite everything around.

The anger quickly suppressed the fear, and after occupying the chest, he rushed straight to the top in one go, became the king, and began to command the battle.

Mu Shangqing's eyelids lifted up, revealing a pair of pupils, staring straight at Zheng Xun.Before Zheng Xun came back to his senses, he received a solid punch and rolled to the ground.

When he rolled out of the bed, he leaned back and hit his head on the corner of the table. There was a bang, and blood came out.

Zheng Xun was beaten to the ground, unable to stand up for a while.

Mu Shangqing lifted his trousers, turned over and got out of bed, stepped on Zheng Xun's finger with his shoes on, Zheng Xun screamed in pain, immediately pulled out his hand, covered his finger, and involuntarily hid back.

Mu Shangqing stood in front of him, but his height was only 1.4 meters and [-], his body was thin, and he didn't even have any muscles, so he had no deterrent power at all.

Zheng Xun suffered a loss, and after the pain, there was an unknown fire in his heart, and he was about to punch him when he got up.

But before he could stand still, Mu Shangqing rushed straight up, and pressed his head on his stomach, no less than hitting his stomach with a Pegasus Meteor, it could knock out all the acid water inside.

Zheng Xun retched, supported his stomach and lay back on his stomach again, he couldn't stop glancing at Mu Shangqing out of the corner of his eye - he didn't expect this little brat to be so strong, he was really a villain and he didn't look good.

He was angry and anxious: "You fucking wait for me. When your mother comes back, I will tell her that you are dissatisfied with me. You beat me while I was not paying attention. I have a wound on my forehead. Do you think your mother believed me or not?" trust you!"

Mu Shangqing stared at him coldly, without any sign of fear. He was angry now, and other emotions had no place at all.

"Okay, just say what you want. I have your semen in my body now, and there are traces of your destruction in the gang door. I will go to the police station in a while. You can see whether the police believe me or you!"

Zheng Xun panicked. He might be sentenced to prison. He didn't want to go to jail for such a trivial matter.

"You are so fucking shameless!"

Mu Shangqing's back was straight, but he really had a tender face and a feeling of fearlessness, "No bastard like you is shameless."

After finishing speaking, he couldn't hold back his temper, grabbed Zheng Xun's hair with one hand, and clenched his fist with the other, ready to fight.

How could Zheng Xun allow him to manipulate him, his hands jammed his wrists, trying to pull him down, Mu Shangqing let go of his clenched hand, and instead grabbed the piggy bank on the window sill, which was ceramic, and smashed it on Zheng Xun's head Finally, the flowers bloomed, and the penny coins were scattered all over the ground, and the sound resounded with joy.

This time the ground was a bit hard, Zheng Xun covered his head, his whole body bent into a cooked shrimp, Mu Shangqing didn't give him a break to catch his breath, he went up and started beating, whatever he swung in his hand, he covered his face like a tiger.

In the end, Zheng Xun's face was covered with blood, and his facial features could no longer be seen. He felt that he had really encountered a ghost. Normally, Mu Shangqing looked gentle and quiet, and he was very easy to handle. He didn't expect that he would be so desperate!

Feeling that he would really die if he allowed the fight to continue like this, Zheng Xun played the spirit of "a good man never suffers in front of him", crawled out, raised his feet while crawling, and kicked Mu Shangqing down.

Mu Shangqing dodged a few times, was kicked on the knee, and fell backwards. Taking advantage of this moment, Zheng Xun got up, staggered, and rolled down the stairs, not even daring to take his wallet .

Mu Shangqing rushed up and yelled at his back: "My surname is Zheng, if you dare to spread rumors outside, I will let you sit in prison!"

Facts have proved that Mu Shangqing's ruthless words have a shocking deterrent effect. After Zheng Xun left, he didn't dare to fart. Zhou Lanxin asked him what was wrong, but he didn't say anything. He just kept saying that they were not suitable for each other. , directly closed the door and disappeared.

After Mu Shangqing got angry, he was still very scared, but he was relieved to see that Zheng Xun didn't say anything.He told Zhou Lanxin that Zheng Xun was not a good person and that she was not at home that day, so he beat him up.

Mu Shangqing didn't want to cover up Zheng Xun, but he felt that being raped was a shameful thing, especially since he was still a boy. If it got out, those children who rejected him would definitely intensify and bully him. look.

However, Mu Shangqing's worries were unnecessary, because since that night, the fire of rage in his body was ignited, and when he encountered being bullied, he began to fight back frantically, fearing nothing.

In the past, when others saw that he was easy to bully, he would take it easy and take it out on him. Now, whenever other children dared to touch him, he would beat him until he became incontinent.

Over time, no one dared to bully him, but Mu Shangqing was not happy because someone gave him a name - "mental illness".

Because when he got angry, it was like a mental illness, and he didn't want to kill him, and he beat him to death.

This name is not pleasant, Mu Shangqing wanted to control himself and avoid getting angry again, but he found that the anger could no longer be taken back, and the anger became more and more irregular, and he would come when he said it, and he would not leave when he said it!

He began to dislike himself. In order to get rid of the name of "mental illness" and escape the original living environment, he volunteered for the college entrance examination and filled in the capital city thousands of miles away from home. When he was in college, he worked part-time and part-time. Most of the money she got was remitted to Zhou Lanxin, hoping that she would rent a house in the city and stop working day and night.

In the last semester of his senior year, Mu Shangqing hesitated when faced with the opportunity of graduate school. He always wanted to work after graduation, earn money to support his family, and let Zhou Lan truly "liberate".

But Zhou Lanxin didn't wait for the dawn of "liberation", and she was plagued by long-term illness, which made her die early. Mu Shangqing was the only guest at her funeral, and she was also Mu Shangqing's last relative.

From then on, Mu Shangqing truly became a polished commander, without any worries, he successfully completed his postgraduate study, and met Huang Nan, who was four years younger than him, and she was only a freshman when he was in his second postgraduate study.

But Mu Shangqing fell in love with her crazily, because in her, he saw the shadow of Zhou Lanxin, stubborn, strong, and with a trace of girlish innocence.

Because of meeting her, Mu Shangqing felt that he was slowly getting better. He controlled his temper, and his irritability became less and less. After getting married, facing his wife and daughter, all he would do was pamper him.

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After learning about Mu Shangqing's past, Chu Dongren had an idea in his mind. He asked Mu Shangqing several questions in a row, ruled out organic mental disorders, and the influence of non-psychoactive substances and non-addictive substances, and finally judged The result is mania with psychotic symptoms.

According to the classification of CCMD-3 (Chinese Classification and Diagnostic Criteria for Mental Disorders-Third Edition), mania is a kind of mood disorder, with high emotion or irritability as the main clinical manifestation, accompanied by vigorous energy, increased speech, and increased activities , accompanied by hallucinations, delusions, nervous symptoms and other psychotic symptoms in severe cases.After each attack, enter the intermittent remission period with normal mental state, and most patients have a tendency to relapse.

In patients with mood disorders, only mania or hypomania always occurs very rarely, and mania is often accompanied by depression, which becomes bipolar disorder [1].

But Mu Shangqing has no obvious symptoms of depression, and his condition is gradually improving as he grows older.

After finding out the situation, Chu Dongren's judgment was that Mu Shangqing was not suitable to join the Superman, but he admired him so much and was moved by his sincerity.

Seeing that Mu Shangqing showed signs of gradually improving, that is to say, his personality foundation was good, and it was entirely possible to return to normal. Chu Dongren couldn't bear to miss this talented person, so he asked: Are you willing to cooperate with me in the treatment?

Mu Shangqing's eyes were shining brightly. He thought that if he put his black history aside, his chances of getting a job would be slim.

But hearing what Chu Dongren said, he seemed willing to help him get back to normal and join the organization!

Mu Shangqing agreed to come down and told his family that he would hold a long-term seminar in other places. He packed some luggage and lived on the third floor of Superman's Office, just like living in a nursing home.

When he was at Superman, his daily routine was to drink tea in the coffee room, read books in the billiard room, and listen to music in the reading room.

The happiest thing every day is to wait for Chu Dongren to come up to the third floor, chat with him, and have psychological treatment.

The effect of the treatment was beyond expectations. In less than three months, when he was checked again, both the neurotransmitter and the neuroendocrine system returned to normal. Chu Dongren conducted a psychological test on Mu Shangqing, and there was no abnormality.

After passing the re-examination, Mu Shangqing officially joined the Superman Department and became the chief of the analysis department. He was the only one in the whole department. He was both the chief and the member of the department. He was very busy every day. The interest in psychology has become stronger and stronger. Under Chu Dongren's supervision and guidance, his studies have improved by leaps and bounds. Within a few weeks, he has killed several psychology textbooks. He can try to cooperate with Chu Dongren to conduct behavior analysis.

Two years later, Mu Shangqing has become a mature profiler and can handle it alone. At that time, there were frequent murders around Chu Dongren. He often went in and out of the Public Security Bureau and joined the special case team to help the police conduct criminal psychological profiling. Write, hoping to catch the murderer.

At the end, Chu Dongren made a concluding gesture, pointing at the conference table, "In general, Shang Qing has made outstanding contributions to the Superman Department, and has also helped many mentally 'supernormal people' to return to normal. , or go on with your normal life."

After hearing about Mu Shangqing's past, Chu Yu and the three staff members felt suffocated for a while. Although they had seen a lot and had seen many terrible things, when the terrible things happened to people they knew well, they felt a sense of suffocation. The congestion level doubled.

But resisting the tightness in his chest, Chu Yu cleared his throat, if he should ask, he still had to ask.

"In the initial medical examination report, the examination and diagnosis results must be filled in truthfully, including his psychological trauma and childhood experience, so as to serve as a reference for future psychological examination and treatment, but Chief Mu is unwilling to disclose it, so It was kept secret by you, only you and the central government know, right?"

Chu Dongren nodded. He promised Mu Shangqing that he would not tell anyone else about it. Although he had recovered at that time, the shadow of his childhood, every time he thought of it, would still be like raising a whip out of thin air. , so that his whole body hurts.

He doesn't want others to know about his history, and he doesn't want to be called "mentally ill" anymore. He knows that people are not so tolerant of mentally abnormal people, which is why he joined the Superman Department—trying his best Do your best to help people who may have the same experience as him and become abnormal.

But today, under Chu Yu's despicable power, Chu Dongren had to say that if he continued to resist, Chu Yu would probably be punished.

After being silent for a while, Chu Yu quickly bit his lips, and when he spoke again, he tasted a bloody smell: "Da Chuchu, do you think this has nothing to do with the Sophora japonica project?"