365 Difficult Ways To Live

That night, Chu Dongren and Mu Shangqing chatted until late at night. Under Chu Dongren's constant guidance and encouragement, Mu Shangqing finally opened up, revealing the scars that had been sealed for decades.

He clearly only met Chu Dongren for the third time, but he felt like old friends at the first sight, and became more friendly and trusting. After getting his promise of confidentiality, he was willing to tell him the truth, and he also knew that if he didn't tell the whole story about himself, the mysterious organization would not be able to accept him. he.Although the institution is mysterious, it does not allow insiders to have any mystery, whether it is political background or spiritual psychology.

When he told the story, Chu Dongren changed from an interviewer to a psychological counselor, listening to all his psychological problems.

Mu Shangqing was born in a small place in Xicheng District, Wangjiang City. It is located at the junction of urban and rural areas. It has the typical characteristics of the urban-rural junction, where people are mixed, buildings and tile-roofed houses fly together, and stalls and shops coexist. You can see a stray cat within a few steps, and you may bump into a homeless man after a few steps.

But such a mixed place, the name is not bad, it is called Hua Xie Ting. People who don’t know it will think it is a street of antique buildings, but those who live nearby know that Hua Xie Ting should be changed to Hua Xie Ting. Crying in the courtyard, you have to cry when the flowers bloom.

Mu Shangqing grew up in Huaxieting, and was used to hearing the wild scolding from neighbors since he was a child. If he is lucky, he can review the dirty words in Chinese. If there is this question in the Chinese test, he will definitely get a [-]% perfect score.

But it's strange to say that Mu Xiaoren has been immersed in scolding and dirty words since he was a child. He has a gentle appearance and a gentle temper. His skin is as thin as a candy wrapper wrapped in candied haws. Half of his face was red, and the other half was hidden from the shadows because he lowered his head, so he couldn't see it.

Most of the children living in Huaxieting go to nearby schools. They are close to home and have many acquaintances.

But Mu Shangqing's mother, Zhou Lanxin, is a ruthless person. Although she is poor, she is very ambitious. She saves food and money every month, sends Mu Shangqing to the best elementary school in the city, and wakes up early every day. I use a [-] bicycle to drive him to school, and it takes one and a half hours to go back and forth, pick up and drop off every day, three hours, no matter what.

In the words of Mrs. Wang next door, three hours is enough to pack a lot of clothes and fry a lot of cakes!

But Zhou Lan didn't take it seriously, and squinted her eyes: If I save time, then Xiaoqing will only be able to make clothes and pancakes in the future!

Because of a ruthless mother, Mu Xiaomei has won at the starting line. Since elementary school, he has entered the stage of preparing for the college entrance examination. The children downstairs are playing with mud and he is studying. The neighbor children are playing eagles and chickens. He is studying. The children next to him were fighting, and he was still studying.

But in Mu's world, there is not only study, his life is rich and colorful.Every morning, when he wakes up with his mother, Zhou Lanxin will tidy up. Mu Shangqing doesn't need to comb her hair and put on make-up. When she gets up, she shaved her short hair and wiped her face before preparing breakfast.

Usually at home, he would rush to cook, wash dishes, mop the floor, and change light bulbs. The water in the house was often cut off, so he carried a bucket and went outside to fight. The bucket was almost as tall as others. It was so heavy that he couldn't lift it, so he turned over a broken board in the garbage dump, installed two pulleys underneath, and invented a "three-level disabled skateboard".

He put the bucket on the board and pushed it away, but he had to carry it to go upstairs after entering the house.After going upstairs, one-third of the water was sprinkled, and others were also wet by one-third, so I turned on the pure natural drying mode, moved a pony outside the house, and basked in the sun while doing my homework.

Most of Mu Shangqing's elementary school classmates come from well-to-do families. Not to mention rich and powerful, at least they have more than enough money for tuition and food. If they know the virtues of Mu Shangqing's family, they will definitely cast a sympathetic look—there is a The young master's face, how could he live the life of a servant!

But Mu Shangqing is quite content. Every day, he has his mother, school, and home. Although there is a lot of work and the environment is chaotic, he also feels happy. Although his shoes are broken, his feet are not bare. Little, but Momo can eat enough. Although his house is dilapidated, at least it can accommodate people!

Because he felt that life was happy and fulfilling, when he saw the homeless children, Mu Xiaomei felt guilty because he was too happy, so he broke off half of his steamed buns and gave them away.

This happy state lasted until he was in the sixth grade. Little Mu was about to graduate from elementary school and completed the leap from elementary school to junior high school. His appetite began to increase, and his tuition fees also began to increase.He can bear the big appetite, but the issue of tuition fees cannot be covered with paper. Zhou Lanxin knows everything about it when the head teacher holds a parent-teacher meeting.

Of course, Mu Shangqing knew her mother's financial strength, she was only ten blocks away from a well-off level - from the urban-rural fringe to the third ring road.In his small head, there is a big philosophical thinking - he wants to read and eat, but he can't have both, he has to choose one of the two.

Mu Shangqing is worried, he is worried that his body is not sensible, he has not developed, he is 11 years old, and still stays at 1.4 meters, he can't pretend to be a teenager, it's annoying!

But the hard work pays off, Mu Shangqing finally found a restaurant that does not "discriminate" against child labor with his tenacious perseverance. The boss saw that he was a small man, but he actually practiced good skills in washing dishes quickly with one hand. He was like a walking dishwasher. .So with a big wave of his hand, he was recruited. Anyway, he hid in the kitchen and didn't need to show his face.

The boss is also a good person, giving him flexible working hours.Because he has to study, he is asked to wash dishes at night and on weekends, but the salary is so low that it may be enough for one meal a day.

Mu Shangqing seems to be engaged in underground activities, he leaves early and returns late every day, and his sleep is compressed to four or five hours, but seeing his gradually bulging coffers, he is quite happy, full of energy every day, and his steps are particularly light.

But the good times didn't last long, and the underground job of Mu kid was still strangled at the stage of thriving. Zhou Lanxin wrenched him out of the restaurant and beat him up on the street.

Zhou Lan was determined to act ruthlessly. The restaurant owner could hear the loud rubbing sound of palms hitting his cheeks when he was in the restaurant. He was so frightened that he closed the door and did not dare to show his face.

Mu Shangqing didn't cry, but he still knew the pain and would hide, tilt his shoulders, move his butt, but he didn't dare to hide too much, he was just on the verge of avoiding and being beaten.

Zhou Lanxin dragged him home, got angry enough, and began to reason with him: Your job now is to study, don't even think about other things, and don't do housework in the future, just finish your homework, you son of a bitch You really need to clean up. If Teacher Wang hadn’t come all the way to tell me, I wouldn’t know that you don’t hand in your homework and often miss classes!

Mu Shangqing had just been beaten, and his body was swollen, but it didn't hinder his standing posture at all. At this moment, he stood neatly, with his feet together, chest out and shoulders out, like an outstanding young pioneer.

But his voice faded, "I know all that knowledge, I don't need to attend lectures..."

"Bah," Zhou Lanxin cut off the words directly to him, "Do you think you are a genius? A child prodigy? Einstein reincarnated? Do you think that just a few days of study by yourself can be worth another year of study by others? Daydreaming, your grades are good now, that’s because I sent you to Suxun Primary School, the best educational resource in the city! You have to hurry up in junior high school, or you won’t even pass the high school exam, so you can come back and pick up trash!”

Under Zhou Lanxin's despotic power, Mu Shangqing finally returned to the right path, embarked on the road of serious study, and was successfully promoted to Su Xun's inner junior high school, but he still had itchy hands from time to time and wanted to work part-time. Don't hide in a hurry, I'm afraid that Zhou Lan will have a whim one day and sue him, and the "time-honored" restaurant will close down immediately.

However, Mu Shangqing gradually discovered that the financial situation of the family has improved, new curtains have been added, and bowls with no gaps have been added. Zhou Lanxin will come back with bouquets of flowers from time to time, and put them in the house, so that the hut that has been dead for many years will emit "spring" breath.

But the fact is that spring has indeed come, but it is only the "second spring". Zhou Lanxin has a suitor. He is a businessman with a small business. When I went to a tobacconist, Zhou Lanxin went to deliver clothes once, and happened to meet, and the two chatted for a while, and the chat sparked.

In fact, in terms of appearance, Zhou Lanxin has three courts and five eyes, which can be called beautiful, and Mu Shangqing's son-in-law appearance is mainly thanks to her.After Mu Shangqing's father ran away, Zhou Lanxin became a widow, and attracted many suitors, but after hearing about the oil bottle, they were all hesitant, and gave up the idea of ​​raising two mouths at once.

Mu Shangqing didn't care about it at all, he thought it was good for his mother to be single, he could take good care of her, and when he grew up, he would be a man who could pick, resist and work, no worse than the bosses outside.

Zhou Lanxin herself is living a chic life, her mind is on raising her baby, and she has no time to think about her life's major events.But Zheng Xun made her think about remarrying because he was different. When others heard that there was a baby at home, they all smiled and said goodbye. Show me it!

Zhou Lan's heart was so moved by these words, her love sinus, which had been closed for many years, sprouted again, and it grew very fast, and within a few days, it was luxuriant and ready to bloom.

When Zhou Lanxin brought Zheng Xun home, Mu Shangqing was very repulsive, as uncomfortable as meeting a rival in love, he loves his mother, and mother and son have been living together for so many years, suddenly a man came to his house, holding hands with his mother, Mu Shangqing felt that his mother had been snatched away.

But he hid the rejection so seamlessly that no one else could see it except Zhou Lanxin.

Mu Shangqing smiled and called his uncle, poured him water, cut him the fruit he brought, sat beside him, and chatted with him.

The living environment all along has taught him how to hide his emotions, how to please others, how to suffer, and survive in an unsuitable environment.

He was very successful. Zheng Xun liked him very much, and his feelings for Zhou Lanxin became stronger. He bought her daily necessities, cosmetics, and gave her living expenses. Mu Shangqing's tuition problem was officially over, and Zhou Lanxin didn't need it. Working from dawn to dusk to make clothes and sew fabrics, the sciatica also eased a lot.

Mu Shangqing's rejection of Zheng Xun gradually decreased. He felt that life was a monster, and seeing his mother and son living in a bit of a shabby life, he finally showed kindness and sent a nobleman to lead them to a well-off life.

Mu Shangqing began to look forward to Zheng Xun's arrival. Every time he came, he would bring some candies and snacks. For Mu Shangqing, these things belonged to the Arabian Nights—I had only heard of them, but never seen them at home.His only snack may be the rice crust at the bottom of the pot, which is very chewy, and he will keep it for a day.

Mu Shangqing felt that Zheng Xun was a good candidate to be an uncle, until one day, when Zhou Lanxin went out to deliver clothes, Zheng Xun closed the doors and windows of his house tightly.

Before Mu Shangqing could react, Zheng Xun successfully brought him down and raped him.

Mu Shangqing was in so much pain that his lower body was completely numb. He breathed violently, and his throat was about to split open.Zhou Lanxin beat him before, no matter how hard he beat him, he didn't cry, but this time, the tears overflowed like an overstock, rolled down the corners of his eyes, and wet the sheets, puddle after puddle.

After finishing the work, Mu Shangqing wanted to take a few breaths, but Zheng Xun suddenly held him down like an iron hammer, and he leaned closer to him, his voice hoarse after being happy: "Don't tell your mother, Do you hear me!"

There were tears in Mu Shangqing's eyes, and he couldn't see the face on his body clearly. He was terrified in his heart. Fear not only tore his body, but also eroded his heart, ravaging him like a shadow puppet, at the mercy of others.

As if feeling that the effect of the threat had not been achieved, Zheng Xun grabbed his neck and squeezed his voice out from between his teeth: "You are a fucking little bastard! You shouldn't have been born, you know how much trouble you have caused your mother huh! She has to support you, she has to work, she has to eat chaff, and she can't even afford sanitary napkins! You're a fucking parasite! But now that I'm here, I can make her live a good life, if you Tell the story, and I will go outside and say, your mother is a coward, and see who will ask her to make clothes at that time, you two, just sit in the toilet and eat maggots!"

After finishing speaking, he let go of Mu Shangqing's neck, squeezed his cheeks with both hands, and said with a smile: "Now is the time for you to repay your kindness. Look at how much your mother has paid for it. Now you fucking shouldn't do it for her." A little sacrifice?"