365 Difficult Ways To Live

After returning to Superman's place, Chu Yu suffocated in the bedroom for a while. She curled up on the single sofa with the curtains half-opened, letting in some sunlight and shining on the armrest of the sofa, avoiding her body perfectly.

Chu Yu was wearing a blanket, and today the temperature dropped a few more times. She shrank her head into the scarf, feeling that the thoughts in her head had been disintegrated. She was used to proficient analysis and reasoning, and all of them were invalidated at this moment. Zhongli, like countless dust particles, drifts around in the brain, but they cannot gather together.

Chu Yu rested his head on his knees and remained motionless, allowing his brain to be quiet for a moment, so as to facilitate the reorganization of IQ and thoughts.

Half an hour later, she came out of the closed bedroom and came to the conference room.

Fang Datuo waited there after dinner, was in contact with the doctor at Fushan Hospital, and when he looked up to see Chu Yu, he immediately hung up the phone, focusing all his attention on her.

Chu Yu visited the detention center for three days, and every day became more deserted, as if he had been locked up for three days, and he still didn't eat, drink or sleep. Now he looks like a potential patient who needs glucose to save his life. , now a black and blue.

Muyu has been with her for the past few days, seeing her walking farther and farther on the haggard road, she has nothing to do—she didn’t force her to eat, she didn’t force her to sleep, she didn’t go out of the detention center, and she didn’t pester her to talk, as if she had already let her go. She let herself go and develop freely.

Sit down in her old seat. In the past, Chu Yu sat in the first place, and she was able to make the leather chair look like a dragon chair, but now she staggered and slumped on it, as if the interrogation meeting had restarted—she is the party under trial.

Song Qingyang brought her her favorite Snickers bar, and used it as a temporary hug to replenish her energy, fearing that she would be gone after a meeting.

Chu Yu put the "energy bar" at hand, and began to speak: "We are in a difficult situation now, and Xiao Huaihua is more stubborn than we imagined. It seems that we need to find another way to get her cooperation."

Muyu thought to himself: It's just harder than you thought, we almost thought of it.

Fang Datuo: "She is alone now, with no relatives, that wild grandpa does not count, and there is no criminal gang. It can be said that she has no worries and no interests involved. It is really necessary to rely on conventional methods to convince her. Nothing worked."

Chu Yu: "Maybe she still has concerns."

Mu Yu finally spoke: "We're back to the original question—whether she can really have feelings."

Chu Yu was thoughtful, "I remember that Xiao Huaihua has been very friendly to me since we met, until Fushan Hospital, she was knocked out by Xue Jinping, after waking up, her temperament changed drastically, she suddenly drew her sword at me, and even Drive the entire mental hospital crazy."

"This should be relatively normal, right? Now it seems that she approached you just to investigate Superman and get rid of Da Chu. At that time, she had already stabbed five family members. The goal of revenge has been completed, so you have nothing to use." worth it."

Chu Yu: "Indeed, if you really want to talk about it, I was of little use to her at the time, but she should leave quietly, why did she attack me and make a big fuss in the hospital? You may want to say Well, if the hospital is in chaos, it will be convenient for her to escape, but it will not be conducive to her escape. I took her around the hospital at that time. If she wants to leave, she can slip away without anyone noticing. , In desperation, I immediately strengthened the security measures, transferred Chen Min and the others back, and sealed off the hospital, as long as she is a little late, she will be unable to fly."

Song Qingyang looked at the scars on Fang Datuo's and Mu Yu's faces, although most of them had disappeared, they could still be seen.That night, Xia Yihan didn't kill him, but he definitely showed no mercy, otherwise it would be impossible for them to lie in bed for several days.

"Did she always think that there was something wrong with Superman? Although the members had changed their blood, she still wanted to take revenge, so she beat Datuo and Xiaoyu into..." Song Qingyang moved his eyes When he reached Chu Yu, he paused, "No, Chu Chu was not injured. It stands to reason that she attacked you first, and you were in the same room for 10 minutes. You should be cold."

Chu Yu's face was still bloodless, and she was puzzled by it at the beginning - she said that Xia Yihan wanted to get rid of her, but she just let her go, said that she wanted to let her go, but she also let the people around her She was injured and made a big fuss in the hospital, which almost ruined her career.

Such an approach of love and hate is really confusing.

Sure enough, just as Xia Yihan's personality and motives for committing crimes cannot be explained by the characteristics of ordinary antisocial personality disorder, nor can ordinary people's concepts be used to analyze her emotions and moods.

Fang Datuo asked: "Before the incident, did she have any abnormal behavior?"

Chu Yu thought about it for a while, but Song Qingyang was one step ahead of her, "Didn't you take her to the hospital garden at that time? I saw you running into the woods, and then she picked up a wooden stick and pressed it against you like a sword. Chest, chattering about something?"

Chu Yu raised his eyes and was stunned for a moment.

"If I had known that you would leave me, I should have turned you into a stone statue and guarded the four corners of the round altar; if I had known that you would not belong to me, I should have pierced your chest with an arrow and made you lose your breath If I had known that you would never see me again, I should have put the fire gem into your heart so that you could never leave again and be the sun in the cave forever!"

She remembered that on the eve of her admission to Fushan Hospital, Xia Yihan asked her to tell a story in the government guest house, so she used her non-existent talent for fairy tales to make up a story for her on the spot, a story about a girl and a witch, ending like many fairy tales Similarly, the girl resisted the temptation, defeated the witch, successfully escaped from the cave, took away the witch's fire gem, and brought warmth back to the world.

Chu Yu edited and talked at the time, and didn't think there was anything wrong with it, and the setting in it was even a little novel.

Traditionally, a princess needs a prince to save her from the clutches of the villain, but the girl in the story, Frieda, is self-reliant, escapes from the magic den by herself, and saves the villagers.

But now it seems that this story has stimulated Xia Yihan, the speaker is unintentional, but the listener is interested, Xia Yihan should have entered the play, and put himself into it, thinking that the story implied that she was that poor witch, Chu Yu used her up , he wanted to take her fire gem away, lock her up, and abandon her.

But guessing like this, Chu Yu felt strange, Xia Yihan is an adult, with mature judgment and thinking ability, so he shouldn't be so sensitive, because a story will completely break up with her in the open.

As far as Xia Yihan's abnormal behavior was concerned, it was actually reflected after Chu Dongren appeared.

After Chu Dongren came to Superman, Xia Yihan was still close to her. "Sister" was longer than "Sister", but he always showed a bit of restraint, and he was no longer as free as he used to be.

What's more, during the period, Chu Dongren also secretly met with Xia Yihan, telling her not to hurt her.

Now it seems that part of the cause of Xia Yihan's abnormality lies in Chu Dongren.

Chu Yu completed a memory analysis in his mind alone, and the brain cells were activated again and became active.

"Da Tuo, do you still remember that when you were doing experiments to check the release of neurotransmitters and hormones under different conditions, when you were talking with Da Chu, Xiao Huaihua suddenly stood up?"

"Oh... yes, I was so scared that I shivered. I went to check the experiment records to see what he said at the time."

Before Fang Datuo left his seat, Chu Yu gave the correct answer: "He said to Xiao Huaihua at that time: She is my closest person, and I am also her closest person."

Fang Datuo paused in place, sighed for her memory, and then sat back: "So...in the villa before, Xiaohuaihua seemed to ask you about it-if Your dad is a bad guy, would you still like him? How did you answer that?"

"I didn't answer directly. At that time, I wasn't sure if there was something wrong with Old Chu."

"But what Da Chu said to her during the experiment is equivalent to an indirect answer to this question - you are the closest people, so even if he makes a mistake, you will still turn to him."

Chu Yu's eyes were a little out of focus. Although Chu Dongren's words sounded normal to others, Chu Dongren himself wanted to bring the topic to Mu Shangqing and learn about Mu Shangqing's situation, but he didn't expect to hit him by mistake. At the point of the gun - in Xia Yihan's eyes, he was showing off his power at that time, showing off to her in front of Chu Yu: I made a mistake, but I will not be punished, even my daughter will turn to me, unlike you , nothing.

Chu Yu raised his hand, put a shelf on his eyebrows, and covered his eyebrows - if this is the case, then the following story will be a big taboo.The villagers who called Frieda away from the witch at the entrance of the cave were none other than charming.

At the end of the story, Frieda left the witch anyway, took her fire gem away and gave it to the villagers.

12 month 30 day.

Chu Yu drove a car, and Mu Yu, Fang Datuo, and Song Qingyang all followed, and collectively cheered for Chu Yu to win this final battle.

In the first three days, she wanted to wake up Xia Yihan, tried to arouse her hatred for criminal organizations, tried to remind her of Mu Shangqing's love and expectations for her, and tried to judge the situation from her own interests. Cooperating with the police is the best choice for her and the society.

But Chu Yu came back in defeat, which shows that now, Xia Yihan doesn't care about hatred, the past, the overall situation, or even his own fate.

Chu Yu thought that Xia Yi was very strong. Even if he experienced the death of his mother, the death of a good friend, witnessed the murder of his father, was abused and tortured in the organization, and faced with the police raids all over the country, he could still be steadfast.

But now she finally realizes that Xia Yihan is actually dead, she doesn't like this world, she hates it, hates it, avoids it, she stays in her own world and doesn't want to come out.

To call her out, she needs to make her care about something, whether it is love or hate, in short, she must have emotional fluctuations, let her feel that the world can also touch her.

Having not slept all night last night, Chu Yu racked his brains to solve a difficult problem: Is there anything in this world worthy of Xia Yihan's nostalgia?

If this question is applied to other people, the answer can be written in a book: the dishes made by mother, the pocket money given by father every month, the teacher’s praise, gossip and gossip with classmates, yogurt tea outside the school, on the windowsill of the office The succulent potted plants, even a kitten, a dandelion, can make people linger and embrace the world.

But Xia Yihan didn't have it, she didn't have anything.People who lack love since childhood have no ability to love.

But fortunately, the trauma of the original family can be made up for one or two through the subsequent attachment relationship, which is the so-called lover.

So Chu Yu boldly wrote his name on the blank answer sheet, betting the final bet on himself.

On this day, the linen dress worn by Chu Yu was refreshing and natural, as if walking from the depths of the forest.

In the cell, it was still her and Xia Yihan's two-person world, but she didn't feel warm and romantic, and it was even difficult for her to walk, like walking on a wire rope, if she made a slight mistake, she would lose everything.

On the last day, Xia Yihan remained unchanged, silent as ice, without any expression or movement, sitting on the interrogation chair in a regular manner, if she hadn't been blinking, Chu Yu suspected that the detention center had lied to her, and what was in front of her now was not Xia Yihan is a wax figure. The real Xia Yihan has been transferred by them, and he doesn't know where he went.

Chu Yu suggested changing the chair for Xia Yihan, otherwise it would be like interrogating a prisoner, which would greatly reduce the effect of the conversation.

But the director sticks to the rules, afraid that something will happen to Chu Yu in his territory, and he can't bear the responsibility.Xu Huaiyu didn't agree either, he was the one who witnessed the "Hua Xie Trial" with his own eyes, he was afraid that if he was not careful, Xia Yihan would strangle Chu Yu to death, or take her hostage, trying to escape from prison.

But Chu Yu knew that if Xia Yihan wanted her life, he would have done it long ago, in the villa, in Fushan Hospital, in Huaxie Court, why wait until now?

She respected the insistence of the director and Xu Huaiyu, did not make any further suggestions, and turned around and walked into the cell.

There is a window on the west wall of the cell, and you can see the small courtyard outside, but through the iron railing, the world seen from the inside is also cut into small pieces, which is not complete.

Chu Yu looked at the window, a little curious, Xia Yihan lived alone and had nothing to do, would he look up and look outside from time to time, would he want to get out of this stuffy small room?

But these questions, Xia Yihan would not answer her.

She moved a stool and sat next to the interrogation chair, and the two of them seemed to be having a long conversation.

"Xiao Han, I came here today to tell you the story. In the guest house that day, I told it anticlimactically. Now that I think about it, there are some regrets. I think you must also be curious about the ending of the story."

In fact, Xia Yihan asked again at that time, and Chu Yu told the ending. The witch who had stolen the fire gem was furious, jumping up and down in the center of the round altar and cursing, helpless about everything.

But this time, the original author of the story felt the sadness of the ending, reaped the consequences, and wanted to continue writing.

Xia Yihan didn't seem interested, but Chu Yu still talked about it on his own, like a conscientious tutor facing students who are not interested.

"After Frieda stole the fire gem, she brought warmth back to the world. The villagers built a fire. They held hands and danced around the fire. Frieda was tired from dancing. She sat on the grass and looked at the fire. She recalled how it looked in the cave, it was brighter and more crystal clear than it is now, she belatedly remembered that the fire gem is a magic weapon used by witches to make fire, the moment she took it off , The walls of the cave are covered with frost, and the cave is extremely cold. It seems that the witch cannot go beyond the range of the altar. How will she survive?

"That night, the night sky was dark and the stars were shining. Frida didn't fall asleep. She began to miss the robes and hard bread made by the witch. In the middle of the night, Frida got up, walked out of the wooden house, and came to the starry sky Underneath, the fire gem is still above the big iron pot in the center of the village, burning for a long time.

"Frida walked over, she put her hands on the gemstone, closed her eyes, her mind was full of thoughts, so she wanted to ask this fire gemstone, does it have any brothers and sisters, like it, it is born to light fire?

"Frieda felt the warmth in her hands. She opened her eyes and found that she held two flames in her hands. Her hands could start a fire! Frieda was very happy. She carried a small cloth bag on her back, Pack the food and return to the cave.

"The stone walls of the cave were covered with frost, and the cave was pitch black with no light at all. It was even more gloomy than the fire hell. Frida walked to the innermost part of the cave, trembling, holding the flame with her palm, Seeing that the three elves were still guarding the three sides of the round altar, but the altar was frozen and covered with ice, and the witch was nowhere to be found.

"Frida held the fire and carefully heated the stone pillars of the round altar to melt the frost. She spent a lot of effort and finally restored the altar to normal. She walked to the center of the altar, put her palms together, and held a cluster of Flames, the light of the fire is like a fledgling bird flying around in the cave, making the whole cave warm and bright. The stone door opened, and the witch came out of the stone room. She saw Frida standing in the center of the round altar, which became a cave the sun in."

After finishing writing, the corners of Chu Yu's lips curled up, and he smiled hopefully: "So in the end, Frieda returned to the witch. She brought warmth and light back and became the sun in the cave."

After finishing speaking, Chu Yu stood up, she walked out of the cell, and soon came in from the outside, squatting down beside Xia Yihan, raised her head and looked at her with focused eyes: "I'm back, if you follow I speak, make me a black robe, make me hard bread, and I will never go again, I will always stay in the cave and be your sun."

1 minute, 2 minutes, 10 minutes passed, and there was no response. The whole cell seemed to be frozen and lifeless. Even the warmest sun couldn't thaw the cold air all over the place.

Chu Yu panicked. She felt that the wire rope under her feet was cracked and was about to break. Below was a bottomless ice hole.

She stretched out her hand to hold Xia Yihan's finger, and held it between her palms.

"You really don't want me? Didn't you say that I am a guardian elf, the elf you are most proud of?"

Xia Yihan didn't answer her, Chu Yu thought: Does she know this is the last day?Does she know that after today, she will never see me again?

Xia Yi was cold and icy, as if wrapped in frost and snow.

Chu Yu guessed that she probably didn't know, but she didn't want to know either.

The door of the cell opened, and the guard reminded Chu Yu that it was time for the suspect to rest.

Mu Yu also came, standing by the door, she saw everything in her eyes, and said with relief in her tone at the moment: "Doctor Chu, your mother just called, she made you soup, we should go back to eat. "

In fact, it was Muyu who asked Song Qingyang to call Pan Yi and ask her to come over, in order to distract Chu Yu's attention, fearing that she would not be able to bear it for a while.

Chu Yu turned her back to the door, her expression changed, she became pale, her eyes widened, a little confused.

She stood up suddenly, stretched out her hands to hold Xia Yihan's cheeks, trying to make her lift her face up: "Xiaohan, look at me, look at me!"

She seemed to wake up suddenly, she wanted to understand something, her heart was in pain, because she was too excited, she became incoherent.

"You are not a witch, silly boy, I am a witch, I am a witch, I am that ugly and weird witch, I have never let you go, I became a poisonous snake, I became a baby, wobbling and standing In front of you, I tried every means to stop you, because I don't want you to go!"

Xia Yihan's face was held up by her, and he looked at her with empty eyes.

Chu Yu hugged her, put his hands around her shoulders, buried his head in the crescent of her neck, and asked her about her usual smell.

Xia Yihan was trapped on the chair, her body was limited, she was surrounded by Chu Yu, she leaned forward, her head was forced to lift up, her chin rested on Chu Yu's shoulder, shaking with the ups and downs of her body.

"You are Frieda, you are the elf, you are always going, you are always going, you don't want to come back, you are not coming back..."

At the door of the cell, the guards and officers stood silently, no one spoke anymore, and they didn't know what to say.

10 minutes later, at the gate of the detention center.

Xu Huaiyu carried the supervisor back to the Public Security Bureau, Muyu and the others stood beside Chu Yu, looking at her: "Are you okay?"

Chu Yu's face was as pale as the whitewashed walls of a detention center, and his eyes flickered from time to time. Mu Yu put a velvet coat on her body, fearing that she would freeze.

Chu Yu nodded, did not speak, turned his head to look at the closed gate of the detention center, his eyes were blocked by the metal gate.

This moment marked the complete closure of the Sophora japonica case.