flirting without breaking the law

I can't help but click on it.

He thought he could hear Qi Ling's voice, but nine times out of ten it was the loud disco music from the bar.

Until one time, in the last few seconds of the end of the video, he heard someone shouting from the camera: Brother Ling is with me tonight, you have no part in it!

Di Chu's pupils constricted suddenly, and he threw his phone on the hospital bed like a hot potato, wearing earphones.That strange and ecstatic voice haunted my mind for a long time.

Like the seaweed that hides in the dark and can be seen at any time in the deep sea, it entangles the legs and feet of the drowning person and slowly drags them into the bottom of the sea.

No more air or sunlight.

Di Chu took a deep breath, then turned and walked out of the ward.He leaned against the door and panted a few times, as if someone pinched his neck, and let go when the oxygen was thin.

Qi Ling didn't have to be him, Di Chu pulled out a smile with difficulty, there is no one who can't be replaced.

It wasn't until then that he understood why people always said: two people can quarrel and quarrel, but they must never break up.

Di Chu leaned against the wall, fingertips dug into the cracks in the tiles.He still couldn't stand it, and he admits to this day.

Qi Ling is the most precious part of his life.The person who will accompany him in the future is not himself, but another complete stranger.That person will be embraced by Qi Ling, that person will kiss Qi Ling, and that person will be called a baby by Qi Ling.

They would eat together, go shopping, sleep and have sex.

When Di Chu thought of this, he couldn't bear it.

He thought he could let go calmly and calmly, after all, everything was his own choice.

Di Chu felt regretful for the first time, yes, he admitted, he regretted it.

But what?

Drag Qi Ling back again, and torture them again?The matter of grandma lies here, and perhaps it is still possible to disregard distance and time because of passionate love.

After that, life is so long, and people's pursuits are changing at every stage.

Can I give Qi Ling what he wants in the future?

do not know.

So even if you are sad, keep Qi Ling away.It doesn't matter if Di Chu is selfish, but he just doesn't want to see the dragon trapped in the deep pool.

On the day when the college entrance examination scores came out, the careless phone called to ask about the results.Di Chu reported the truth, and there was silence for a while.

It's a pity in the semantics.

Di Chu thinks it doesn't matter, it's better this way, and he won't sigh because he can go to a better school because his grades are too good, but in reality he can't.

Xu Lu came to firecrackers again, and couldn't understand a few words on the phone, so he went straight to the county to look for Di Chu.In front of Wen Rushui, he almost had a fight with Di Chu.

"That's how you fucking take the exam!" Xu Lu was obviously angrier than the person involved, "How the hell are you going to fill out the application!"

Di Chu pushed Xu Lu out of the ward, and the two walked to the door of the safe passage.Di Chu wanted to touch a cigarette from his bag, but found that he had quit for a long time.

"Fill it in whatever you want," Di Chu said, "You don't have to go if you fill it out."

"Damn!" Xu Lu wanted to get angry again after hearing this, "Go to school for me! Grandma, I will ask my mother to hire a nanny for you. Don't worry about the money, go to school for me! "

"Lu Zi," Di Chu leaned on the fire hydrant with his shoulder, and said intermittently, "The problem of money is still small, and the big deal is that I will pay you back from work in the future. But grandma has only been here for a few years, and you want her to die alone in the end." Walk?"

"At the beginning, you were stubborn, and you were too damn troublesome. What happened to grandma is irreversible. Do you want to make your own future irreversible?"

"It's not likely," Di Chu said, "Maybe I can really write at home. Didn't an editor contact me before?"

"Writing ass, do you think you can make money by writing books? It's hard to get enough food and clothing! My dad has a friend who writes books and is a writer. How is life like? I still rent a house every day!" Xu Lu was in a hurry, wishing to punch Di Chu unconscious. , fill in the application for him, "Anyway, you must fill in one! Otherwise, my brother, the game is over!"

Di Chu sneered and gave him a sideways glance: "So fragile."

"Weaker than fragile!"

Di Chu couldn't disturb him, so he waved his hands and kept silent: "Let's talk about it later, there is still a while."

Maybe many things can be delayed until the last moment.But in my heart, I have already made a decision.

Xu Lu was worried and insisted on taking care of Wen Qiongfang.Di Chu had no choice but to let Xu Lu go.

Qi Ling didn't notice the half-true voice at the end of the video: Brother Ling is with me tonight.He was living in a muddle, and he didn't even bother to watch the video after uploading it.

The following comments are nothing more than: The prodigal son "turned back", and the wave is still higher than the wave!

Only Wang Li and the others knew that Qi Ling didn't know what to eat every day.Often sing a song, then turn around and ask: "Chu, is it good?"

After a few seconds of silence, Qi Ling turned back by himself.

This kind of situation is no coincidence. After washing in the morning, Qi Ling asked habitually: "First, where is my towel?"

When eating at noon, I always feel that a pair of bowls and chopsticks are missing on the table.Before going out, the key will not be properly placed in the entrance.

Qi Ling felt that this day was going to be too fucking hard, when sleeping, when walking, when singing, when composing music, when drawing, when alone, or with a group of people.

When alone, the heart is extremely noisy, and in the crowd is extremely lonely.

At these times, Qi Ling would always think of Di Chu, what is he doing now, did he eat, did he sleep, whether he was tired, did he miss him.

Qi Chi saw that there was something wrong with Qi Ling's state, and he didn't dare to mention Di Chu too many times, so he finally had to grit his teeth and suggest, "Brother, why don't you go back and have a good talk with Brother Chu?"

"What are you talking about?" Qi Ling sat on the sofa, facing Qi Baishi's portrait, his eyes were blue, "Let him dump me in front of me again?"

"I think that's not what Chu Ge meant." Qi Chi said, "There must be some misunderstanding between the two of you, it's better to go back and talk about it."

"There is no misunderstanding," Qi Ling refused, "and there is nothing to talk about."

Qi Chi is well aware of his brother's urinating nature, and he doesn't want to show it on his face even if he has internal injuries.

"Well then," Qi Chi leaned his head on the sofa, "I won't ask Rushui about Brother Chu from now on."

"Wait." Qi Ling glanced at him, "Chu... Di Chu recently..."

Qi Chi made an exaggeratedly uncomfortable expression: "It's said that it's not very good, it's said..."

"Ok?"

"It seems that someone is chasing Brother Chu."

Qi Ling almost swallowed the cigarette in his mouth: "Fuck! Which idiot with no eyes?!"

In fact, it was Qi Chi who lied to him. Recently, Wen Qiongfang's health has not been as good as before, and there are already signs that she will not be able to hold on.

Wen Qiongfang called Di Chu to him and asked about his grades.Ask him where he filled it.

Di Chu reported the grades to her. The old man didn't know whether the grades were good or not. She only knew that the grades sounded pretty high.Then he chased after Di Chu and asked the school.

Di Chu hesitated and refused to answer, but Wen Qiongfang understood.She spoke very slowly, "Xiao Chu, you must fill in the school well. If you want to go out to study, grandma knows how long you have left."

Wen Qiongfang's words sounded like farewell, like last words.Wen Rushui felt uncomfortable, and sat at the end of the bed, turned her head and quietly wiped her tears.

Di Chu was still struggling, unwilling to give up: "Grandma, don't talk nonsense, you can live a long life."

"It's boring," Wen Qiongfang said, "Xiao Chu, people are old and sick. It's better to leave happily than to live in torment. What's the point? It drags you down. What's the use of living a long life?"

Di Chu couldn't tell why, but kept silent.

Wen Qiongfang took his hand and said softly: "Xiao Chu, you and Rushui don't have much time to spend with grandma. So, you have to plan for your future. What grandma can do is to watch you through this last journey. .”

Wen Qiongfang seemed to be in better spirits. He patted Di Chu's hand and smiled kindly: "Grandma is going to find grandpa. The old man has been waiting for me for many years. I'm afraid he won't find me, so I'm in a hurry." , he will be sad."

"Your grandpa is a machismo and cowardly man. He is afraid of thunder, afraid that I will leave him, afraid that time will go too fast. I will not go to him because he is afraid of floating on the river or by the bridge of Naihe. "

"Xiao Chu, it's enough for grandma to live these days. Even if I leave one day, you don't cry. Crying is for the dead, grandma is still here."

"Xiao Chu, like water. Grandma can't leave you anything. This life is poor and empty, living an ordinary and boring life. I just hope that you can live a good life and be a kind person in the future."

"Grandma told you that good people are rewarded with good rewards."

Before filling out the application form, Di Chu was still thankful that grandma's spirit had improved a lot, and she seemed to be discharged from the hospital soon.

So when the bad news came, Di Chu still didn't know, there is a word called Hui Guang Hui Zhao.

On the day of the accident, Wen Rushui stayed at the hospital, and Di Chu just went home and fell asleep when Xu Lufeng called in a hurry: "Chu! Hurry to the hospital! Grandma is dying!"

Di Chu only felt a thunderbolt from the blue sky, but he didn't react for a while.He could clearly remember that grandma had dinner at noon, and joked with him that he wanted to eat mapo tofu very much. Di Chu dried the porridge and agreed to make it for her as soon as he was discharged from the hospital.

When Di Chu rushed to the hospital, Wen Qiongfang entered the operating room.

The area of ​​cerebellar hemorrhage was too large, and rescue was ineffective.

this is the last time.

Sitting on the ground as warm as water, with cold fingers.

Di Chu walked over to pull her, but remained motionless.Di Chu called her: "Ru Shui, get up."

Wen Rushui didn't answer, his eyes were glazed and frighteningly red: "Brother, they said grandma is gone. Let me express my condolences. They lied to me, right?"

"Like water, get up."

"They lied to me, right?!" Wen Rushui grabbed Di Chu's trousers, tears streaming down the corners of his eyes unconsciously.

Di Chu felt distressed when he saw it, his mind was buzzing, his nerves were like clockwork: "Rushui, you get up first."

"Grandma is fine this morning, they lied to me, right? Brother, tell me! Say they lied to me!"

"Warm as water! Get up!" Di Chu roared, "It's gone! Grandma passed away! Can you be more mature!"

"I don't care, I don't care, I don't care!" Wen Rushui covered her ears, sat on the spot and screamed. "Give me back my grandma! She was fine this morning! Give me back my grandma!"

Di Chu had no choice but to squat down, and forcibly looked at Wen Rushui: "Wen Rushui, grandma is here. She's gone. She passed away. Can you see the reality clearly?"

"You lied to me," Wen Rushui burst into tears, and his voice was trembling, "Even you lied to me, grandma... she's fine..."

"I didn't lie to you," Di Chu choked up, "Rushui, grandma is sick, very seriously ill. She can't hold on, grandma, I'm going to find grandpa."

Wen Rushui suddenly felt that all the strength in his body was gone, like a thousand-foot tall building falling apart in an instant.The big teardrops continued one after another, and there was a sigh of relief in his chest.She bit her lower lip and forced a row of white marks. She shook her head, obviously not wanting to accept the reality: "Brother, do you know that grandma, in fact, is most afraid of being alone."

"Many years ago, my grandma told me that our family is like water, and we must go out. I asked her, what about grandma? Grandma said, I, I will stay at home and wait for you. If you are tired, come back, grandma must at home."

"Grandma is the most timid one. When grandpa left, grandma dared to cry behind my back. She said she was very strong, and then peeked at grandpa's photos behind my back. Grandma is most afraid of being alone. She must be alone at home. Turn on the TV. I asked her, grandma, don't you waste electricity?"

"Grandma said, turn on the TV to make the house more lively."

Wen Rushui lowered her head and couldn't help sobbing. She wiped her eyes vigorously with the back of her hand, but the tears grew more and more: "Brother, I have never felt this kind of despair. I grew up with my grandma, and she always carries medicine on her body." .Grandma is not in good health, but she cares about me more than anyone else. Grandma has taught me a lot, and she always tidies herself up very energetically. "

"Grandma is the strongest person I've ever seen. She always keeps the house neat and tidy. The thing she said to me the most is: Rushui, I like you the most. Brother, I also like grandma the most. Then In the days when I had a mother and no mother, I only had a grandma."

Wen Rushui clenched Di Chu's trousers tightly, as if grasping at the last straw.Di Chu had never seen Wen Rushui crying. This younger sister always smiled and was always decent.

Just like my grandma taught me, she is gentle and generous, a real lady.

Di Chu still clearly remembered that the first time he saw Wen Rushui, he felt something different from her.

Wen Rushui said: "Brother, I don't have a grandma anymore. The person who loved me the most has also left."

Di Chu opened his mouth, as if he first asked Wen Rushui to see the reality clearly.Up to now, Di Chu was comforting, comforting, his voice changed, and he found that he was crying too.

The tears seemed to be uncontrollable forever, rolling down without warning.

When his parents died, Di Chu didn't cry, he just felt irritable.When Wen Qiongfang passed away, Di Chu couldn't help it, he thought, the last person who could give them care from the elders also left.

Standing by the side, Xu Lu couldn't help feeling his nose ache when he looked at the two people who were sitting and squatting.He turned his face away, turned to the side.Di Chu's low-level words of comfort filled my ears: "Let's go, let's go."

Grownups are always busy with work, and we are always busy with schoolwork.

When we were young, we asked for it from the old man, but when we looked back, the loving face did not have the last laugh.

Our world is so vast, but the old man only has us in his dictionary.

They don't have colorful circles, feasting night shows, exciting videos, and they can't even keep up with us.

But they are always there until the end of life.

That day, the sentence that Wen Rushui said the most was: Grandma said, for us.She is not afraid of being alone.Grandma loves us the most, so she wants us to get out.

But, bro, grandma is really, most afraid of being alone.

Di Chu hugged Wen Rushui, forcing back tears: "Grandma went to find grandpa, she won't be alone anymore."

Wen Qiongfang's funeral was simpler, and Wen Rushui's mother hurried back to see her.In the end, it was discovered that the real estate was really given to Wen Rushui, and he didn't even finish the wake, so he picked up his bag and left angrily.

Di Chu wanted to say a few words of comfort, but found that there was no wave in Wen Rushui's eyes.

Overnight, Di Chu felt that Wen Rushui had grown up a lot.

This kind of "shortcut" growth does not know whether it is good or bad.

Life is long, growing up is really tiring.Over the years, countless growths have come from falls.What's more tiring is that you have to be injured all the time.

Life is like a brutal gangster.

It takes everything from you, takes everything from you.

Until you are exhausted and tortured to pieces, it will not show the truth that can only be understood.

It seems that life will only give you pain, give you lessons, and give you blows.

And those beautiful, expected, and abundant things, you can only fight for them by yourself.

It seems that life thinks that if you are not hurt, you will never understand.

People's fragility and strength are beyond your imagination. Sometimes, you may be so fragile that you burst into tears with a single sentence, and sometimes you find yourself gritting your teeth and walking a long way. *

When Di Chu received grandma's ashes, there was only one thought in his mind.

——Is it true that the meaning of life will grow infinitely only through all these things?

In the end, grandma was buried with grandpa. During the burial, there was a thunderstorm in the rainy summer.

Di Chu stood in front of the tomb, holding an umbrella for Wen Rushui.He wondered if Qi Ling was like this back then, standing alone in front of his father's grave, full of sadness.

At that time, Qi Ling must have been very sad and disappointed if he didn't contact him or accompany him.

Di Chu suddenly missed Qi Ling very much, like never before.Only now did he empathize and understand Qi Ling's despair at that time.

Di Chu and Wen Rushui finished toasting grandma, arranged flowers, and stood silently for a while.

They had a thousand words to say, but now they faced a cold tombstone.I feel speechless again.

Wen Rushui bowed and said, "Grandma, after many years, I will be the same. I love you the most."

Holding an umbrella, Di Chu stretched out his hand and slowly slid across the rain-soaked tombstone.In the end, there was no more talking.

When Wen Rushui turned around, she was startled.Di Chu looked down at her, and then followed her line of sight—Qi Ling and Qi Chi, dressed in black formal attire, stood behind with flowers in their hands, with solemn faces, without saying a word.

Di Chu was taken aback, but didn't have time to make a sound.Qi Ling took Qi Chi and walked forward on his own, placed flowers in front of the tomb, and bid farewell to grandma.

After the two of them finished worshiping, Qi Chi took the lead and pulled Wen Rushui under his umbrella, and the two walked forward quickly.

Di Chu came back to his senses, feeling a little awkward in the atmosphere.He looked at Qi Ling almost greedily. This person has lost weight, his eyes are darkened, and his hair is longer than before. This person must not have had a good rest.

Di Chu's eyes traced Qi Ling's face, from the tip of the brow to the tip of the nose, from the upright person to the still sexy lips.The young man has matured a bit, with a slim suit and a slim suit, his youthfulness has faded away, and he is entering a new age stage.

The things revealed in Qi Ling's eyes also changed. When he received Xu Lu's call, he became more determined to the conclusion he had come up with after shutting himself in the room for so many days.

He couldn't let go of Di Chu.Qi Ling learned to walk twice in his life, once when he was a child, and once when he walked towards Di Chu.

The two walked out of the cemetery in silence. The rain continued to wash the umbrella surface.Drops of water fell in lines from the eaves of the umbrella.

It took a long time for Qi Ling to find the courage to say, "Di Chu, let's talk."

"Talk about... what?" Di Chu unnaturally took a step aside.

"Don't hide," Qi Ling followed closely, "Tell us about us."

"I'm not in the mood right now."

"That's why you need someone to talk to you," Qi Ling said, "otherwise something will happen sooner or later."

"If you just want to talk to someone, there are so many people on the road, you can do whatever you want." Di Chu glanced at him, afraid of falling into Qi Ling's star-like eyes, "Why don't you talk to me?"

Qi Ling sighed, and said pitifully, "I want to talk to someone, not someone, but you."

Di Chu's heart softened for no reason, he thought, this man is still so foul.Seductive without prior notice.

Then, Di Chu moved to the side again, there was a puddle in front, so as not to dirty the shoes.

I didn't want this move to be particularly glaring to Qi Ling, thinking that Di Chu was still avoiding him.

Qi Ling was furious, he gritted his teeth.He grabbed Di Chu's arm and stared into his eyes.In an instant, the aura was fully on, domineering.

He lowered his face, nose to nose with Di Chu, eyes to eyes.In an instant, the breaths of the two were entangled.

He gritted his teeth and said, "You fucking hide a little longer, and I will rape you right away."

Di Chu was obviously taken aback, thinking, why is this person getting more and more hooligan.

Seeing that he was no longer hiding, Qi Ling thought to himself, as expected, we need to meet to communicate.

The rain was still falling, and it was getting bigger and bigger. The water splashed on the ground wet the trousers of the two of them.

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Note:"*"

① "The Way of Human Fragility..." - Maupassant

②There should be a double update tomorrow, and the first chapter is a special episode, from the perspective of Qi Chi and Wen Rushui, using diary form to describe the situation in Di Chu and Qi Ling's breakup period in their eyes.

The other chapter is the main drama of the couple.

In fact, these chapters are quite difficult to write, because of emotional conflicts, contradictions, and behind-the-scenes thinking, you have to think about how to convey them.I don't want to be too cruel... Then I found out that pure sweetness is the best, and I can write without thinking.

But everyone has read and written here.