I can't beat her

"Then go and fall in love with Chen Kuan."

When she said such a sentence, Ye Zhiqiu's feverish head paused for a moment, and then she felt that she still didn't drink enough wine, and her mind was still a little too clear-headed, and she felt a little tired that Ami's thin body suddenly became stiff.

Nights at the end of spring always have some dullness left over from the dampness.

Ami's fingers were still in Zhiqiu's hair.

Just now, she almost lowered her head, pressed her lips on Zhiqiu's unusually warm forehead, and then softly whispered good night to Zhiqiu's ear in a mature, steady, considerate and gentle way.

She is always learning to grow up.What is growing up?Just tonight, everyone helped her light eighteen birthday candles, sang her birthday song, and gave her various gifts.She also made a wish.

When making a wish, the corner of her eyes rested on Zhiqiu.

No one told the wish he made.

She was afraid that it wouldn't work, even if it was just an extremely simple wish, she carefully hid it in her heart.

After discovering Zhiqiu's downfall, Ami realized that such a birthday is really just a farce, and everyone is happy.Wishes are hard to come true. Originally, she just thought about making Zhiqiu happy all the time, with easier work, more time, and more smiles.

As soon as the lights were turned off, Zhiqiu felt uncontrollably sad.She said, "Ami, you should like someone else."

Ami turned into a helpless child, into that blind man who sat still, waiting to be arranged by fate.

The only thing she can do now is imitate Zhiqiu's usual warm look, smile at the empty dark night, and say lightly, "Zhiqiu, good night."

Time seemed to stop.

Ye Zhiqiu said, "Ami, good night."

They tried hard to restrain their breathing, wanting to hear more from each other.

After a long, long time, Ami felt that Zhiqiu should be asleep. She carefully imitated Zhiqiu's previous appearance, and put her arm through the gap between the pillows, put it under Zhiqiu's shoulder and neck, and gently embraced her. Guo Zhiqiu.

The two of them got closer together.

Ami patted Zhiqiu on the back lightly, feeling sad for resources + sources + wholes + arrangements + unknowns + knowledge + numbers + return, she just wants to cherish the time when she finally had the chance to sleep together.

But no matter how she adjusted her posture, she couldn't seem to learn how freely Zhiqiu hugged her. In the end, her neck was even twisted, which made her face and Zhiqiu very close, and she even felt Zhiqiu's breathing rate. It seems to be a little different.

Ami held her breath and listened to Zhiqiu's movements.

The sound of breathing seemed to have quietened down again, but her ears were itchy.

She remembered that Zhiqiu bit her ear, and when she bit it, she would feel very comfortable and feel a little happy.

When Ami thought this way, she slowly remembered what Teacher Wen said. Teacher Wen said that there are many kinds of liking, and the deepest liking is possession, and the most intuitive way of expressing possession is kissing.

Teacher Wen said that everyone would like to kiss.

Ami became a little nervous, but she still tried to get close to Zhiqiu's ear slowly, and gently licked Zhiqiu's earlobe vaguely in the darkness.

Then there are the cheeks.

She pulled her arms out from under the pillow, and slowly raised her body. The feeling of pushing the tip of her tongue into Zhiqiu's lips for the first time filled her every nerve, and she kissed Zhiqiu's forehead again. relative.

Zhiqiu didn't move.

She must have fallen asleep, Ami thought, so she went down again and kissed Zhiqiu's eyelids.

The sound of her breathing involuntarily became a little heavy. When her lips brushed down, she could clearly feel the compressed breath of the two of them colliding together, and at this moment, her upper body was already touching Zhiqiu. on the shoulders.

To kiss is to touch, to kiss is to enter.

Ami touched Zhiqiu's lips many times, and every time she touched Zhiqiu's lips, she always felt that Zhiqiu's lips seemed to be moving along with it, there seemed to be a slight slit on the lips, and there was a subtle sound She kept screaming between her soft scalp.

kiss, kiss...

She wants to get to know Qiu intimately, like the people who love each other in TV dramas.

Ami licked her lips boldly, and when she plucked up the courage to lightly touch Zhiqiu's lips, she gently passed the tip of her tongue in. Every movement of her was very light and short, and she only dared to Hold the meeting for a while, then stop, back out, and make sure that Zhiqiu hasn't moved before she dares to continue.

But when the soft tip of her tongue passed between her teeth and touched Zhiqiu's tongue that was equally soft, full of warmth and humidity, Ami tensed all over her body and was reluctant to withdraw again.

Every movement of her is very clumsy, she can't learn the movements in the TV series, her mind is blank, she only knows to search deep, just when she is a little immersed in it and a little helpless, her lower back is suddenly caught down.

And she was a little at a loss at first, and the tip of her tongue, which was rushing left and right, was suddenly sucked at this moment.

"Uh." The tip of the heart seemed to be connected to the root of the tongue, stretched into a thread, and a comfortable raving sound was found in the throat.

Ami was a little dazed, but she was so comfortable that she didn't dare to act rashly, letting Heqiu, who didn't know whether she was asleep or awake, suck the tip of her tongue, and letting Zhiqiu, who didn't know whether she was asleep or awake, gently turn her body and lift her Pressed down under the body.Let Zhiqiu push the tip of her tongue back to the original place, let Zhiqiu's tongue slowly touch the edge of her teeth, and then go deep.

Ye Zhiqiu is also not good at kissing things, she just instinctively hugged Ami tightly, instinctively provoking Ami's slippery and soft tongue, instinctively, she was extremely excited when she heard the soft uh sound from Ami's throat.

Ye Zhiqiu's hand penetrated into the collar of Ami's pajamas, and her breathing gradually increased, and the sweat that oozes from her forehead carried the residual smell of alcohol.

Her hand was a bit cold after all, it fell on Ami's soft and warm skin, like cold rain drifting into the palm.Even if it wasn't serious, it caused ripples in Ami's drowsy mind.

Such panic made Ami subconsciously hold Ye Zhiqiu's hand, and everything stopped here suddenly.

In the early morning of late spring, it was slightly cold.

The room that was originally filled with ambiguous sounds regained a deathly silence.

They still maintained their up-and-down postures, and Ye Zhiqiu's hand was tightly pinching Ami's collar that had been pulled away, and then her body shook, and she said with difficulty, "I'm sorry."

Then there is the second sentence, and the third sentence.

she says.

I am sorry.

I am sorry.

I am sorry.

I am sorry.

I am sorry.

……

In the darkness, Ye Zhiqiu kept repeating this sentence. .

Some people have never been frustrated, never collapsed, never despaired does not mean that she will not, extreme fear and guilt will tear Ye Zhiqiu's accumulated pride, calmness and calmness to pieces.

Zhiqiu was crying.

Ami felt that something had been stabbed into her heart, she was very uncomfortable and couldn't breathe.

Ye Zhiqiu was still whispering sorry, she was trembling.

"Tell me, I'm sorry, I can bite." Ami was speechless, Zhiqiu shed a lot of tears, looking at her neck, it was so cold, so cold, but she still wanted to work hard, imitating Heqiu to comfort her look.

She even tried to smile a little harder.

She took a deep breath and choked up: "If you say sorry, sorry, you will bite your ears."

She started to feel annoyed, Zhiqiu shouldn't be stopped just now, isn't it agreed, Zhiqiu can do whatever she wants.

Why should I be afraid, why did Zhiqiu become so sad in the end.

Ami's sadness made Ye Zhiqiu want to escape from the uncontrollable sadness. She turned over and lay on her back, and she also wanted to say something cute to tease Ami.

But as soon as he opened his mouth, the tear valve opened again.

Tears flowed down from the corners of the eyes on both sides, and the warm liquid flowed through the trembling temples, and when it rolled down to the pinna, it was already cold. They separated between the hair strands and meandered between the ear bones , Inch by inch, the reason and the final strength were submerged.

Ami sat up in a panic, and reached out to turn on the light.

The moment the light came on, Ye Zhiqiu stretched out his hand and turned off the light. Tears were still streaming down his face, but the voice could be clearer anyway.

They sat in the dark, facing each other.

Ye Zhiqiu's voice was a little hoarse, but it was much calmer than the loss of control just now: "Ami, I'm getting engaged."

Ami couldn't explain why she was crying, since the first time Zhiqiu said sorry, she was extremely sad, and the thorn in her heart was pierced a little more.

"I know it's the fifth of May."

It was the day when Teacher Wen approved her to go out with Chen Kuan.

"Ami, I can't be with you forever like you said." Ye Zhiqiu shook his head twice, his throat seemed to be stuck, and he said after a long time, "I can't do it."

"I like you." Zhiqiu said: "Ami, everything is true. The liking I said is true. I really like Ami."

"But I can't face it."

"I don't know how to live with a girl for the rest of my life, and I don't know how to face my family."

"I can't even find a reason for Lu Beinan."

"I haven't dealt with this situation."

"Zhiqiu is a doctor, and Zhiqiu has saved many people." In the darkness, Ye Zhiqiu shook her head again, and she said, "But I don't know how to save myself."

Likes can only be likes.

Ami sat quietly, and her heart finally hardened slowly.

Knowing that Zhiqiu was going to get engaged was a few days ago, and it was raining heavily—probably the last rain this spring.

Lin Lan was very polite, her words were gentle and calm.

Her demeanor and tone of voice really resembled Zhiqiu.

She said: Your liking is useless, your liking will only make Zhiqiu live a bad life, and turn Zhiqiu into a tortoise, living in this world with an ugly shell on his back.Originally, Zhiqiu could live like a princess.

Lin Lan asked Ami: "Do you still remember the incident of Zhiqiu beating someone in school?"

"I'm afraid you don't know that Zhiqiu was arrested by the police and taken to the police station."

When this matter was mentioned, Lin Lan was a little sullen: "Zhiqiu has always been the one who is praised since she was a child. Because of you, she was almost detained."

"The person who didn't make this matter ugly was not you Cheng Ami, but her fiancé Lu Beinan."

"Bei Nan asked the police station not to embarrass Zhi Qiu."

"Do you still remember how your penis came about? You despise Director Liu's penis, but do you know why he died?" Lin Lan didn't intend to let Ami talk.

She even thought that Ami might just say, I like Zhiqiu, and I will always like her, no matter when, where, and who's wife she is.

"During that time, many things happened in our family. Zhiqiu's father was framed and changed from the mayor to the deputy mayor. My company lost tens of millions of dollars a day. Lin Shu was demoted. Also." Lin Lan Sighing, he looked at Amy.

Ami's face tensed.

In fact, she didn't want to treat a little girl like this, especially a girl with a simple mind.

But at such a juncture, as a mother, Lin Lan had to take her own position: "Zhiqiu almost bought the cornucopia in private for you."

"That's against the law." She said, "Zhiqiu almost ruined his reputation because of you, almost lost his qualifications to be a doctor because of you."

"Some time before Liu's accident, many things happened in our family, and Zhiqiu didn't tell you any of them." Lin Lan continued: "Because you can't help her, and you can't even understand her words."

"It is Lu Beinan who helped with these matters." Lin Lan emphasized again: "Ami, what can you do for Zhiqiu?"

"Zhiqiu is not a child. She doesn't need you to play with her. She is not a little girl. She wants to talk about a different relationship. She needs a home now."

"Ami, do you have ideals? Have you thought about your future life?"

"Zhiqiu, can you read now? If you don't, I'll read it to you." Lin Lan pushed a small old notebook in front of Ami.

It was only then that Ami realized that she was a little faster at recognizing characters, and she could see the literal meaning of this at a glance.

【To be an excellent doctor, to marry and have children, to grow old with you, to have this life is a blessing. 】

"This is the life Zhiqiu wants."

"You can't give her anything."

Ami thinks that the engagement with Lu Beinan is just Zhiqiu's affair, she can pretend not to know, she can still stay here, waiting for Zhiqiu to accompany her occasionally when she is free.

She thought that she could pretend that she didn't understand what Lin Lan said.

She thought that she could actually pretend to be as ignorant of the difficulties of the world as she was when she was blind.Like a mermaid, even if it hurts, you can dance happily with a smile.Ami remembered that the mermaid princess turned into many colorful bubbles in the end.The dawn light shines on the bubble, and the figure of the mermaid princess seems to rise up in the bubble.

She thought that she was Cheng Ami, and she was Ye Zhiqiu.

So the ending will be different.

But... that's Zhiqiu.

The author has something to say: I'm sorry, I thought that if I pretended not to understand, the world would not be so cruel.

I'm sorry, it's really not that easy to be happy. Ah Nan probably doesn't know how to make the whole world suddenly simple and easy.

It doesn't matter if you are Cheng Ami or Ye Zhiqiu.How can it be so easy to live and live.