I can't beat her

Ami thought a lot about grandma under the big banyan tree at the head of the bridge, and finally thought of herself.

At a very young age, she had already discovered that she was different from others. She had no parents, no brothers and sisters, and her grandmother was not amiable either.

"When I was not blind, grandma was sometimes not so fierce." Ami and Ye Zhiqiu said.

When the eyes can see, grandma's madness and fierceness are directed at outsiders.

Although she is not very friendly at home, and she doesn't like to laugh very much, but she will never scold her loudly, she will only tell her seriously how to wash clothes and how to clean the house, and will order her one by one. Things are done right.

After she lost her sight at the age of nine, her grandmother became more aggressive.Thinking about it now, it turned out that grandma thought that being nice to her would only harm her and overpower her.Probably because he was afraid of killing Ami, that's why he became more fierce.

In fact, grandma spent these years in fear and suffering every day.

Ye Zhiqiu pressed his hands lightly on Ami's shoulders, smiled and whispered in her ear, "So grandma always has Ami in her heart, right?"

Under the bridge, there is the slight sound of running water and the sound of wind blowing on the top of the banyan tree.

Ye Zhiqiu said: "Ami will enjoy life as grandma hoped in the future."

Ye Zhiqiu actually couldn't understand what grandma said about decency and beauty.Grandma has suffered a lot in her life, all of which are related to poverty, so she thinks that as long as she saves enough money for Ami, Ami can live happily.

Regarding poverty, Ye Zhiqiu didn't quite understand it, she had never experienced it personally.

Ye Zhiqiu's living conditions and family environment make her insensitive to money.However, in the hospital, life and money are always linked. She can often see her life regressing in front of money, and she also sees a lot of dying under the influence of money.

How to enjoy life.Ami didn't understand even more. In her opinion, being able to eat roast chicken with grandma is already a very happy thing.But in the past, not to mention eating roast chicken, there was very little time to eat together.

"Zhiqiu, can you take me to the amusement park?" Ami turned around suddenly, raised her face slightly, her eyes wrapped in white gauze were facing Ye Zhiqiu.

If she could see, it would be replaced by a pair of shining eyes.

Ami got into Ye Zhiqiu's car, which was the second time for her to take Ye Zhiqiu's car.In her life, she didn't take the car much. Just now when Ye Zhiqiu helped her to get on the car door, she deliberately touched the side of the car door.

The car is a bit small, and it is different from the bus I used to take. It should be the kind of car I saw when I was a child.

Ami told Ye Zhiqiu that she went to amusement parks with her grandmother many times when she was young.

"Grandma took you to play?" Ye Zhiqiu thought of grandma's fierce look, and then looked at Ami's smiling face, and it was hard to imagine the two of them in the playground.

Ami smiled lightly and shook her head, grandma is not that kind of person.

"At that time, I was still very young, and there were always children who would get lost or be taken away on the street. My grandmother would carry me and go outside to pick up trash together, and would go to the amusement park."

Although he didn't go there specifically, Ami was still very happy every time, just looking at those colorful rides and seeing those peers who were screaming with joy felt very satisfying.

Ami still remembers that every time he went to the amusement park, he had to walk a long way, and there were not many scraps he could pick up.

Later, when Ami grew up, she seemed to have become a little heavier. On the way to the amusement park, grandma suddenly lost her footing and fell, and her old injured foot was swollen for several days.

Since then, grandma has never been to an amusement park with Ami on her back.After Ami lost her eyesight, she often looked back at the colors in her memory, and the brightest ones were those rides in the amusement park.

Ami seldom rides in this kind of car, and she is a little nervous when she gets in the car, her back is tense, as if she is afraid that she will damage the things inside.Ye Zhiqiu leaned over, gently pressed her shoulders back, and pulled the seat belt to help Ami fasten it.

Just after buckling the seat belt, Ye Zhiqiu suddenly felt that this was not good.

Although Ami can't see her, she is already 17 years old, even though she can count her steps from the street to the end of the street like a normal person in Changshao Street.But the years are long, and no one can guarantee that she will always maintain the current state of life. She will always have contact with the world outside Long Spoon Street. She should learn some basic common sense of life as soon as possible.This is exactly the purpose of her grandmother who has been strict with her.

After thinking about it this way, Ye Zhiqiu loosened his seat belt again, and said to Ami: "Remember to wear your seat belt when you are in the car."

Ami was a little dazed.She didn't know what a seat belt was, and this ignorance made her feel ashamed and uneasy, which made her sit up straight again unconsciously, clenching her fists in frustration.

The girl's hands are beautiful, white and tender, without any wrinkles.Ye Zhiqiu stared at Ami's hand and reminded her: "There is a belt on the side of your right shoulder, you pull it off."

Ami's body was still tense, but she followed suit immediately, her hands kept groping around, and when she touched what Ye Zhiqiu said, she relaxed a little, happy and excited with a little sense of accomplishment.

"There is a socket on the side of your left leg, just insert the buckle of the seat belt." Ye Zhiqiu waited patiently for Ami.

Ami tried several times to pull the seat belt straight, and when she finally heard a click, she smiled: "Is that so?"

She smiled very sweetly, and Ye Zhiqiu suddenly thought that grandma wanted Ami to live a good life, probably like this, without any scruples, she could smile and face the world every day.

"By the way, you're doing great."

Ami didn't know at all that there were many other amusement parks in this world besides the one she visited when she was a child.When Ye Zhiqiu asked her the name of the amusement park she went to, she couldn't tell at all.

If I used to walk there, it should be the nearby amusement park.Ye Zhiqiu searched. There is no amusement park nearby, but there is a children's park. Thinking about it again, this children's park was built after the development of the area, and it probably overlaps with the original site.

Ye Zhiqiu did not tell Ami that the amusement park had changed.

Ami's world is all established before the age of nine, and her memory and cognition after blindness are all based on the age before the age of nine.Especially the colors.

"There are poplar trees on the road, and the trunks are painted with white paint." Ami was still a little complacent. She thought that the road they were walking now was still the same as before.

Long Spoon Street made her think that only people in the world can change and leave, and things can go bad and change.She thought that the world would never change, just like her room, everything was always in place.

To suddenly dismantle her memory and return her to a brand new world cannot be done with just a few words.Ye Zhiqiu remained silent, she wasn't sure what to do best.

At least let her keep this precious childhood memory.

Today happens to be the weekend, and the children's park is full of parents with children.Ye Zhiqiu led the nearly 1.7-meter Ami to that stop, which always seemed a little special.

"Is there a big brother who sells popsicles at the door?" When Ye Zhiqiu said that they were standing at the door, Ami was very happy: "There is also a big brother who sells toys."

Ami wasn't sure what the door looked like, she didn't dare to run around when she heard a lot of people around, she only dared to pull Ye Zhiqiu's skirt, and carefully moved towards the direction she thought was the door.

The place facing Ami is the security booth. Ye Zhiqiu took Ami's hand and led her to the intersection. There was a popsicle seller there. She asked for one and broke it into Ami's hand: "There are no popsicles today. But this one is delicious too, try it."

Cool and sweet.

But it was still not as sweet as the popsicle bought by my grandmother before. It was the first time Ami ate a popsicle. The popsicle was square and square without a hard outer skin.

Ami sucked on the popsicle, feeling a little disappointed.

Ye Zhiqiu didn't know what Ami was thinking, but they attracted a lot of attention from the very beginning when they appeared in the park.The main focus is naturally on Ami.

Ami is wearing a white short-sleeved dress, with long legs and casual trousers, clean white sneakers, a mid-length shawl and long hair. Just looking at her back, she looks like a tall school girl.

What caught people's attention was the white gauze on Ami's eyes.

In addition, Ye Zhiqiu, who was standing next to Ami, was exquisitely dressed and had an outstanding face, like the No. [-] character who came out of a star pictorial.It always makes people feel that they are making some kind of movie.

Ami was oblivious to all this, but Ye Zhiqiu was on her back. She didn't like the feeling of being noticed by the public.She took Ami's wrist and walked as far as possible to a place with few people.

Places with few people are usually very simple recreational facilities.

Ami was a little puzzled when he was led past in a hurry: "Zhiqiu, where are you taking me?"

"There are too many people over there, so it's better now." Ye Zhiqiu didn't know how to explain to Ami the scene where they were paid attention to by everyone, so he had to make up a random reason.

They sat there for a while, and Ami handed Ye Zhiqiu the half-eaten popsicle in his hand: "You eat too."

Ye Zhiqiu shook her head, in fact, she regretted buying this thing for Ami just now.How strange, a girl who is about to grow up, walking among a group of children with a popsicle, is envied by the children and expresses childishness.

Ami had no choice but to eat both popsicles. After eating, she took a tissue from her pocket and wiped her mouth and hands.Grandma taught her to be a clean person since she was a child.

So the second floor of the house has always been clean, no dirty things can be wiped off, and many of Ami’s clothes are white, if it is dirty, grandma can spot it at a glance, and then she will be called.

Over the years, Ami has been able to take care of herself very cleanly.

"Where should the garbage be thrown?" Ami asked Ye Zhiqiu as she covered the popsicle shell with a paper towel.

Ye Zhiqiu originally wanted to help her, but changed her mind and dismissed this idea. She still felt that Ami should adapt to the environment different from Changshao Street.She looked around, and then told Ami, "On our right, straight ahead on the right side of the road, there is a trash can."

Amy was a little embarrassed.Ye Zhiqiu didn't tell her how many steps she had to walk to get to the trash can, but she still stood up and walked forward with the trash in her hand.

Every few steps Ami walked, he used his blind stick to explore the side. After repeated several times, he still found the trash can.She turned around to go back to find Ye Zhiqiu, but she heard Ye Zhiqiu speaking in front of her.

"Ami is amazing."

Ye Zhiqiu walked in front of Ami from another path, and she kept looking at Ami.It's clear that Ami is much smarter and more independent than she thought.

The reason why fewer people come to the area where they are located is that the amusement facilities placed are relatively simple, and they are mainly aimed at children under the age of five or six.

At this time, a rare family came here and put two coins into a shaking machine, and the shaking machine sang a song at once, screaming in the shade of a tree in the summer afternoon: "Daddy's daddy!" Called grandpa, father's mother is called grandma..."

Ye Zhiqiu plans to take Ami to a quieter place for a walk, or take her to find if there is a merry-go-round ride.

Then Ami didn't think so. When she heard this voice, she was all shaken: "I know this, I will shake it, but it costs two yuan to sit."

Seems to be.Ye Zhiqiu suddenly had a bad feeling: "There are a lot of people here, let's go to another place."

The family next to him was not far away, and they also noticed that Ami's eyes were probably invisible. They were quite sympathetic at first, but after hearing Ye Zhiqiu's words, they were all stunned, not sure which one was really blind.

Apart from being dazed, the whole family showed a wave of unhappiness in their eyes.This is clearly to drive them away.

Ye Zhiqiu was famous for being well educated and rational since he was a child, but he blushed a little when he suddenly said something nonsense.But having said all that, she planned to bite the bullet and leave like this.

Amy did not.

"I have money now, and I want to sit."

From now on, I have to live on my own. I have to figure out how to be happy or unhappy. I have to do what I am happy and live a happy life like my grandma said.

She wanted to take a ride in the small car in her memory.

Ye Zhiqiu didn't know what to do anymore, she had a habit, every time she encountered embarrassing things, she couldn't help raising her hand and stroking her eyebrows, pretending to be indifferent.

I regret choosing such a place.

Looking at the two-year-old child on the big red-faced cat, Ye Zhiqiu thought about how to gently remind Ami that she was already an adult.

When they entered the gate just now, there was a height measurement wall with a cartoon pattern at the entrance. Ye Zhiqiu paid special attention to it. The 17-year-old Ami is about [-] tall.

And the size of the rocking car is obviously small, and it is for children under the age of six or seven.

Perhaps a larger rocker can be found at the park.Ye Zhiqiu said: "There are a lot of people queuing up here, let's go to other places to see if there are any."

Ami hesitated, then nodded.

The family next to them looked at a row of rocking carts, and watched the two good-looking people with bad eyes and good looks leave with sympathy.

The park is very large and has many facilities. After the lunch break, more and more people enter the park.Ye Zhiqiu led Ami around, but he didn't see the carousel or the bigger rocking car.

Could it be that you promised to help her find a car, and then suddenly told her that you are an adult, you can't take that car?Ye Zhiqiu was so embarrassed that he wanted to slap himself.

They went back to the rocking carts again, and Ye Zhiqiu bit the bullet and told a little lie in order to show that she really took Ami to find another rocking cart: "Look, I said there are many rocking carts here too." Rock the cart."

Amy tilted her head in thought.Her sense of direction has always been very good, especially when she just took out the trash, she paid special attention to the texture and direction of the floor tiles under her feet, and she remembered the number of steps.

Obviously it's the same place as before.But she didn't argue with Ye Zhiqiu, after all, she felt that Ye Zhiqiu's eyes were better than hers, maybe it was another very similar place.

The family next to him was still there, but the car had stopped, and they left the rocking car site with strange eyes.Ye Zhiqiu put down the hand half covering his face intentionally or unintentionally.

After making sure that there was no one around, Ye Zhiqiu thought that Ami might really want to experience the rocking car, so he hurriedly asked Ami to sit on it.

She chose a pony so that the seat would not be so crowded and adults could barely sit down.

Ami was not in a hurry, she reminded Ye Zhiqiu: "We don't have any coins."

So they went to the small stall outside to exchange coins again, and came back... At this time, it was long after lunch break, and the babies of the surrounding residents were awake, so they would just go out for a walk or something.

It turned out to be empty, and out of the ten rocking cars that stayed in place quietly, eight of them were singing nursery rhymes crazily.Ye Zhiqiu wanted to slap herself again, she tried her best to keep calm.

"There are too many people now, we have to line up." At this time, there were several times more parents around than before. Some of them heard Ye Zhiqiu's words, and turned to look at her and Ami, and then glanced behind them again. aim.

That look seemed to want to find an invisible baby behind the two of them.

Ye Zhiqiu silently pulled Ami, who couldn't feel the strange eyes at all, away from the battlefield where the rocking cars were crazy, and sat in the corner, watching the two empty rocking cars for a psychological struggle.

"It's great now, you can just line up. In the past, even if you didn't have money, you could climb up and sit for a while. But everyone doesn't line up, they rush to grab."

Ami didn't know Ye Zhiqiu's embarrassment and anxiety, but felt happy and grateful: "I exchanged twelve coins, and I can sit six times. You sit three times, and I sit three times."

Ami’s understanding of the world was before she was nine years old, and she rarely had contact with the outside world after she lost her sight, and her grandmother seldom taught her to understand the normal world in a serious manner, so her concept of adulthood was extremely vague.

She felt that everyone could ride the rocking car, and everyone would be as happy as she was, so in order to express her gratitude, she exchanged a few more coins and insisted that Ye Zhiqiu sit with her.

Many children have to sit repeatedly after sitting, and the parents start to cry and make a lot of noise if they don't sit down.But Ami thought it was normal and envious: "I never cried when I was young. Grandma Tang Guo said I was very obedient and obedient."

Speaking of this, Ami's voice became softer: "No matter how sad you are, don't make trouble, I'm afraid grandma won't want Ami."

In fact, who doesn't want to act like a baby, but they are always worried that if they can't get the care of others, they will be disgusted instead.

Ye Zhiqiu can probably understand Ami's mood.Whether it is a child or an adult, there will be a weak side in your heart, and you will want to have room for willfulness. There is only one reason why you dare not be willful, that is, not only will your willfulness not be responded to, but it will also attract you. Fear of consequences.

So I can only work hard to learn to be mature and sensible.

Ami's experience destined her to grow up very early in some aspects, but she still maintains a childlike innocence when it comes to things outside.Ye Zhiqiu stared at the child on the pony in rapt attention—such as his obsession with the rocking cart.

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