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When I was 17 years old, I fell into a state of bewilderment.

There are countless temptations in front of you, but you dare not touch them, because the future is too elusive.

Jian Zhou's mood has sunk to the bottom recently. Although he had already made a prediction in his heart and kept telling himself that Qiao Yichuan was just joking around, but when he overheard these words from the other party's mouth, Still very disappointed.

If it is said that Jian Zhou still had a little expectation before hearing the final verdict, then, in the toilet, when he heard Qiao Yichuan nonchalantly telling others, "Enough is enough", he seemed to be able to see the executioner raising the knife and dropping it. The head fell to the ground.

The blood splattered all over her body was found by herself.

The desk lamp was a bit dazzling. He raised his hand and lowered it by one gear. Looking at the exercise book in front of him, Jian Zhou couldn't write a single word.

He suddenly remembered the notes that Qiao Yichuan had passed to him before, and it was time to deal with them all.

He opened the drawer, searched for a long time but couldn't find it, and then remembered that he had hidden the notebook with the note in his schoolbag.

Jian Zhou got up and went to the bed to look through the schoolbag, but after looking up and down, he couldn't find the notebook with the note in it.

He suddenly remembered that the notebook was still with Qiao Yichuan, and the note he put away must have been found by the other party.He only hoped that what that guy found was just a note, not his thoughts, otherwise, he might not even be able to hold his head up in front of Qiao Yichuan in the future.

Jian Zhou packed his schoolbag slowly, completely devoid of energy to continue studying.

This time the state was not as good as before, because he knew that his feelings for Qiao Yichuan had already grown branches, but the other party suddenly uprooted the branches. The branches died and the soil was hurt.

He rubbed his temples, trying to adjust himself.

At nine o'clock, his mother knocked on the door and came in to deliver fruit to him. Seeing Jian Zhou's tired face, she asked him, "What's wrong? What's wrong?"

Although Jian Zhou is usually afraid of being fucked, it is undeniable that in this world, his parents are indeed the people who love him the most.

Naturally, you can't say what's in your heart. After you say it, what the consequences will be is simply unimaginable.

Jian Zhou could only pretend to be sick, nodded and said, "I have a headache."

No matter how strict and strict the mother is, she still feels distressed when her son is not feeling well. She touched Jian Zhou's forehead, frowned and said, "I don't have a fever. I'll go get the thermometer. Don't be really sick."

Jian Zhou wanted to say no, because he knew that he was not sick at all.

But in the end he let his mother go, and he could toss around for a while, anyway, he really didn't have the heart to study now.

This night, he took his body temperature and looked for food, Jian Zhou felt guilty, but the lie had already been told, so there was no chance to change it.

He had lied to his mother twice because of Qiao Yichuan, and Jian Zhou felt that his quality had become extremely inferior, and he was ashamed of his parents.

Going to bed at night, he lay in bed thinking about what happened that day, as if almost all the time was spent thinking about it, not doing anything serious.

In the dark, he looked at the "[-]-day countdown to college entrance examination" in his room by the faint moonlight. It was as if a boulder had been crushed on his chest, and he would soon be unable to breathe.

Time walked into May without haste, the weather became hotter, and all of them became more and more nervous.

Since their college entrance examination voluntary has been changed from this year to the results before applying, the chances of being admitted have been greatly increased, but there are still only a few good schools, and it will not become easier to enter because of some changes. .

At the beginning of May, the second mock exam.

Jian Zhou and Qiao Yichuan hadn't spoken much for half a month. He thought about each other almost every day, and was even called up to answer a question in class once, but he didn't know what the teacher was talking about.

There are many people who are in love in high school, and not every couple may affect their studies, but there is no doubt that Jian Zhou, who failed in his crush, was indeed affected.

For the second model exam, he sat in the first position in the first exam room.

Yimo Jianzhou ranked first in the whole grade, and all the teachers had high hopes for him.

But when the results of the second mock exam came out, Jian Zhou lowered his head so much that he wanted to stuff it into the table. For the first time in three years, he was ranked in the top ten by age, with a total score of No. 12, which was far behind No. 1. Scored more than 20 points.

During the break after the grades were handed out, Jian Zhou was called to the office by the teacher.

When walking along the corridor to the office, Jian Zhou lowered his head and followed behind the teacher. Although he knew it was impossible, he still felt that everyone who passed by them was laughing at him.

They seemed to be laughing at him and said, "Look, look, this is that rubbish."

He had never been so depressed, so depressed that every step he took felt fear.

Jian Zhou admits that he is a coward, and his only armor is his grades, but now, this armor is dilapidated, and anyone can defeat him.

When we arrived at the office, teachers from other classes were also there. When we saw Jian Zhou, a teacher smiled and patted him on the shoulder and said, "It's okay, take the exam next time."

Jian Zhou thanked the teacher with a forced smile, and followed his class teacher to his desk.

The teacher took a sip of water and asked him to find a chair to sit down.

"No." Jian Zhou kept his head down, not daring to look at the teacher, "Mr. Shen, I'm sorry."

Teacher Shen sighed, brought him a chair, pressed his shoulders and asked him to sit down: "You, it's not me you are sorry for."

Jian Zhou couldn't take it anymore, he gritted his teeth, thinking that if he said one more word, he might cry for nothing.

He especially despises himself like this, and his deep sense of self-blame makes him feel that it is very worthless for him to live like this.

He is used to being praised and sought after by others, but now he has suddenly fallen to the bottom, feeling that the whole world is laughing at him.

Outside, the blue sky and white clouds, the green grass, the peach blossoms in front of the teaching building are also in bloom, a touch of pink, very beautiful.

But all of this has changed in Jian Zhou's eyes, it seems that the sun and the air are laughing at his failure.

"Jian Zhou," Teacher Shen leaned on the back of the chair, looked at him and said, "The teacher didn't call you here to criticize you or ask you to reflect on me."

Jian Zhou still didn't look up, and didn't make a sound.

Teacher Shen has taken Jian Zhou for three years. He knows his student very well. He has strong self-esteem and competitive spirit. Jian Zhou does not allow any deviation in his life. He is a perfectionist, just like his Same as mom.

So one can imagine what the failure of this exam means to him, from the first grade to the twelfth grade, especially before the college entrance examination, this must be a very big blow to Jian Zhou.

"You put too much pressure on yourself." Teacher Shen looked at Jian Zhou, took out a box of milk from the drawer, put it in Jian Zhou's hand, and said, "Actually, it was right for you to fail once before the college entrance examination. If you know yourself more correctly, it doesn’t mean that you are not good enough, but since there will be failures, it must mean that something went wrong. Jian Zhou, you are the teacher’s favorite student and the teacher’s most trusted student. Don’t be stressed , according to your usual rhythm, have you forgotten, you still have the scores for self-enrollment, so there is absolutely no problem in being admitted to S University."

Before today, Jian Zhou absolutely believed Teacher Shen's words, but at this moment, he felt that he was not worthy of S University at all. At his level, it was the other party's sorrow to go to that school.

He is now very negative, crazily denying himself, and feels that he is a worthless waste.

Teacher Shen tried his best to comfort him and told him not to be so tense. Everyone thought that he failed the exam because of too much pressure and nervousness, but only Jian Zhou knew that the reason for his behavior was entirely because of Qiao Yichuan. .

He almost screwed up his life because of that volatile man.

Jian Zhou was very annoyed, but he couldn't hate the other party. The only thing he hated was himself.

By May, physical education classes have basically stopped.

But every week there will be a class of free activities, which is specially set up by the school to allow senior high school students to rest and adjust.

During the activity class, Jian Zhou hid in the teaching building with the papers and showed up to do the questions. When Shen Weiwei came over, he didn't notice at all.

"Let's talk!" Shen Weiwei said suddenly, causing Jian Zhou's hand to shake in fright, and the pen dropped to the ground.

"Why are you so elusive?" Jian Zhou complained, stretching his arms to pick up the pen.

At the same time, he scored nearly [-] points higher than Shen Weiwei, but this time the other party surpassed him by more than ten points. This is so funny, Jian Zhou felt ashamed to appear in front of Shen Weiwei again.

"You..." Shen Weiwei hesitated for a moment, sat down beside him, and asked him, "Has something happened to you recently?"

Jian Zhou froze for a moment, then continued to work on his questions.

"Could it be because of feelings?" Shen Weiyi smiled faintly and said, "Jian Zhou, I never thought you would have this day."

Jian Zhou tapped the pen tip on the paper, and he didn't write a pen for a long time.

"It's Qiao Yichuan?" Shen Weiwei knew all too well about the two of them in her heart. Although the two of them had been hiding it all the time, and they didn't usually see any special behaviors, but based on Shen Weiwei's years of study and observation, she felt that this was the case. There must be something tricky between the two of them.

She also approached Qiao Yichuan once, and asked him not to affect Jian Zhou's life and study directly, but the other party refused. She felt that Qiao Yichuan was the culprit for Jian Zhou to become what he is now.

Jian Zhou didn't speak, just looked at the pen tip in a daze.

"Actually, you shouldn't worry about everything in your heart. Although you can't tell your teachers and parents, you still have friends!" Shen Weiyi was very worried about Jian Zhou, and she was very afraid that what she was worried about would happen.

Jian Zhou never looked at her, but listened to her quietly.

"You are my idol." Shen Weiwei said, "You are smarter and harder than me. I always feel that there is nothing you can't do well."

Shen Weiwei turned his head to look at Jian Zhou, complaining a bit, "You should give me a reaction!"

"Yeah." Jian Zhou buckled the pen and closed the exercise book.

Shen Weiwei thought he was going to leave, and was ready to hold him, but Jian Zhou didn't move, looked into the distance, and didn't speak anymore.

Seeing him like this, Shen Weiyi felt uncomfortable, sighed, and said: "I think it's a good thing to like someone, even if you fail, it's not shameful, to be liked by someone like you, that guy really Lucky dead."

Listening to her words, Jian Zhou thought in his heart: It's not shameful to like someone, but it's the most shameful to be teased by the person you like.