Mr. Chu

Wei Yu said that in order to make this movie, he had to use up all the resources at hand to open the way.

Without even saying hello to Gu Yang, he packed his luggage again and ran to that dangerous country to collect materials.

Once this director, who has never been very serious, becomes serious, it will be very scary. He is blocking everything he has, and he is going to try it out. As for other people's opinions?don't care thank you.I want to make a masterpiece, I want to burn myself, understand?Anyone who stands in the way will be killed without mercy.

After Xu Kong knew the type of movie Gu Yang was going to accept, his expression was indescribable. He warned the artist under him: "You are a little bit measured. Seeing the posture of the youngest Wei, you are risking your life. Don't mess around with him."

Gu Yang stuck out his tongue at him, but said nothing, and Xu Kong was also speechless. Ever since this actor slaughtered thirteen trophies with a single movie in China, his status is no longer something that other people can shake. Even as his manager, it is difficult to control his thoughts, so he can only follow him to grasp the general direction and give him some suggestions appropriately.In the current situation, he can only think about it, how to get a vaccination with Chu tonight, he is one of the few people who can make Gu Yang obedient.

This movie is still the same as before. Firstly, the actors need to ponder, judge their thinking, and the direction of the characters. Gu Yang needs to make a lot of preparations, because this is also a brand new thing for him. Once again, he has to work with Talk to yourself.

And Gu Yang needed to do this.Because of him, some doubts appeared on the road of life.

In fact, in terms of age, this young man should be a fledgling social person, a student who has just started working for a long time, but in fact, since he entered the Vanity Fair of the entertainment industry, or earlier, from the moment he met Chu Jinye, He lived a different life from the people around him. His sadness and pain are destined to be understood by no one deeply, just like most people can't understand why some glamorous big stars suffer from depression. In their view, depression is purely a disease of the rich and the rich who have too much money to spare—our generation, how can we pay attention to this!That's what people say.

But what happened to Gu Yang is something that ordinary actors can't answer. He became famous too early, and he was inseparable from the role. At his age, after seeing all the prosperity in the world, he will feel a little confused, confused, those The problem is that others can't handle it for him. Only he can tell himself the answer.

"Mom's Attic" is a story that took place in a war zone, but its main line is definitely not describing the war background in the war zone, but describing the cruelty of war from the side through the dialogue between the young Weir and his mother's phantom.Reality and illusion are intertwined, and no one can tell clearly what is real and what is false.

In Wei Yu's setting, Weier's character is very vague, but his mother is clearer than him, she is a young girl, from an ignorant child to a woman, all during the war However, her short life is a story of a powerless person under the war, like a withered flower, plain but magnificent.Through her, her children saw that era and the epitome of this era.

War is an activity that cannot be suppressed. As long as there is a conflict of interest, as long as there is enough desire, some people will take up arms and kill each other. As for the impact of such evil results on innocent people, it is not very clear. important.This movie is like a sword that can eliminate all the confusions that young people have now. Therefore, he has to use [-]% of his strength to face this movie.

First, Gu Yang watched some war documentaries, live broadcasts, and some realistic photos.He specifically went to Song Jing, an old man who survived from that era, and asked him for some advice. Finally, he started his own analysis.

Will, and his mother, the relationship between these two characters, is very mysterious.In other words, the relationship between the child and the mother is inherently mysterious.

According to Wei Yu's idea, these two roles can be played by Gu Yang himself. He has successfully played Salome and knows how to play a woman in a man's body. He needs to be a man, and he can be a man. He is a woman, and he can also act as a woman. This play was originally his one-man show.

Gu Yang accepted this challenge, which meant that when he was doing character analysis, he had to deal with two characters at the same time, and clearly analyzed their similarities and differences, and the connection between them. It is a very difficult job, but it is also suitable for him who wants to challenge the limit.It sounds unbelievable for an actor to play himself and his mother, but this is the most attractive part of this profession.They have a thousand masks and can change their identities at any time.

During the war, there will be mother and child killing each other, and father and daughter killing each other. This is not uncommon, but what Wei Yu wants is obviously not like this. The relationship between Weier and his mother may be stronger than that of a normal mother and child in reality. Be more intimate, because they are soulmates and talk about everything.Weier has never seen this woman who gave him life since he was a child, so that when he encountered the phantom, he couldn't help being extremely excited, knowing that it was a mirage, he wanted to jump into it.

He has the most pious desire and love for his mother, Gu Yang has experienced this.

Because of a lot of analysis, the young man dreamed of his mother that night.

Gu Yang's past is not a secret, and there is nothing embarrassing about it.However, many people, including Chu Jinye, thought that what hurt and left the deepest impression on him was the time when he was displaced and lived under the fence. He didn't have any good memories, so that they kept silent about his past. talk.In fact, Gu Yang also has a past worth remembering.

He met his mother, Mama.

His mother is a very gentle woman, very virtuous, she doesn't have any big opinions, but she is very good, she is very good to everything.She subtly taught Gu Yang a lot of things, in dealing with people, in morality, she is that kind of weak and kind, innocent and simple woman.

Gu Yang is not very sure who has influenced him more, because sometimes he feels that his personality is a little cold and strange, and he doesn't like to be particularly close to others, whether he comes or goes, he doesn't care. Can't make much of an impression on his heart, unlike his mother, who was devastated after his father left.

At that time, Gu Yang was still very young, but he could already understand the concept of leaving.Although when his father was around, he rarely got along with them, and rarely appeared in this house, but when the man opened the door, faced the outside, and walked out without looking back, Gu Yang felt that even The sun is cold.

Something was cut off at that moment.

The family life in country Z is criticized by foreign countries because they always advocate widowed parenting. It seems that the mother of the family is fully responsible for a child from birth to growth. The husband only needs to pay his salary on time to be a good man. Willing to do some housework is rare in a hundred years.Some don't even pay the money, and all the responsibilities are on the women's shoulders. What's even more peculiar is that even if it is a divorce, women are unwilling to give up the custody of their children even if they know that life will be very difficult.Why, because they are the flesh and blood of their October pregnancy, and they have a real love for their children that is willing to sacrifice and dedicate (in most cases).This is also the case in Gu Yang's family, so there is a saying that it is better to follow the beggar mother than the official father.

Because the former will never lose you a bite of food, and the latter doesn't necessarily care about your life or death even if he is sitting on the world.

The young mother is very good-looking and gentle, and she is the type who will be very popular in the blind date market. However, in order not to wrong Gu Yang, who is a fool, she has never remarried. Family, do your best to give your children the best.The scent of milk on her body and the long white skirt are still in the boy's memory.

It seems far away, but also seems very close.

When he thought carefully about his childhood, he couldn't recall anything but the pain and despair of separation, but when he couldn't resist the deep sleepiness and fell asleep, he unexpectedly dreamed of his mother and the past. .

He dreamed that when he was very young, he was standing in the kitchen, his mother was cutting vegetables at the sink, and the woman had long hair, a fragrant body, very thin and white.When the child playfully tugged at the hem of her skirt, she would gently touch his head, telling him not to disturb her, and the food would be ready soon.At that time, the ventilation in the kitchen was not good, and the smell of oily smoke was very strong. She would cough and even choke tears when she was talking.

She looks very similar to him. Everyone says that they are mother and son, and he loves her so much. He feels that he has a rope that starts from his belly button and is held in her hands.He never imagined that he would lose her.

In that dream, Gu Yang turned back into a very small child, standing next to the woman's skirt.For a long time, he felt a dreamy and happy feeling, as warm as being wrapped in water.He looked at the woman's soft chin, and wished that the time was set at this moment.

Then the dream began to change, and it became that day, that afternoon, he heard an ominous voice coming from the kitchen, he rushed over, and saw her lying on the ground, like an angel, with long black hair scattered and snow white The hem of her skirt was opened, as if she was asleep.He knew at that time that she had a very serious disease called 'cancer', and there were many bad things parasitic in her body, flesh and blood, biting her desperately, trying to take away her vitality, She was trying to tug of war with them, but in the end she lost.

Her body has been haggard little by little, like a shriveled pea, with many ugly marks, which is the inevitable appearance when a person's life comes to an end, her eyes will bulge, her voice will It became hoarse and ugly, and that long black and beautiful hair would slowly fall to the ground.

For some reason, Gu Yang recalled clearly in his dream that one day, he was leaning against her bed, smelling the disturbing smell of disinfectant in the hospital, and listening to the beeping sound of the instrument. Suddenly, he suddenly asked the question that he thought he would never ask.

"Mother."

"what happened?"

"Have you ever hated Dad?"

Such a direct and sharp question should not come from a young boy at such a young age, but Gu Yang asked it like this, and he was so confused. He still remembered that the woman was slightly absent-minded at the time, and then the picture was closed because of illness. And a faint smile appeared on his haggard face.

"No."

"Why? He treated you very badly."

It is also strange to say, what was he trying to prove when he spoke so sharply?After all, he was also his father, and the other party's blood was still flowing in his body, maybe the source of that strange coldness came from there.

The woman looked at him, and with the other hand that was not dripped, touched his head with difficulty. The blood vessels on the pale hand were already very prominent.

She smiled and said, "Because I...have you."

Looking back now, Gu Yang can still clearly feel the anger and anger at that moment. He was clearly a child, but he felt the anger ignited, not only for that irresponsible man, but also for His own hatred and revulsion for his own inability to do anything.

He left the scene, and those things he thought he had forgotten were not lost.

Gu Yang turned back into a boy again.

He stood at the head of the snow-white bed in the snow-white ward, looked at her, put on an oxygen mask, and stopped breathing little by little.

I don't know why, at that time, he didn't shed a single tear, but a voice in his heart announced very calmly that his mother was dead.

This is death.

That clear, unmistakable, weird and transparent feeling enveloped him. At a very young age, he realized that he had lost an important person. She was still joking with him the day before yesterday. Close your eyes quietly, disappear into the world, no one will hug him tenderly, call him baby with a nice voice, no one will love him unselfishly, put his life more in his own above life.

This is the beginning and end of his relationship with her.

The dream was shattered.

"..."

Gu Yang slowly sat up from the bed, he woke up, it was still dark, it was late at night, there was no light in the room, Chu Jinye slept next to him, felt the movement, the man also woke up.

"what happened?"

He turned on the bedside lamp, asked, and then froze.The young man's face was already full of tears.

"What’s wrong with you!"

The man asked in a panic, and then hugged him. His body was also cold, with almost no temperature.

"...I had a dream." Gu Yang said softly, "I dreamed about my mother."

Chu Jinye didn't speak, because he didn't know what to say, he knew everything about Gu Yang.

"I thought, after such a long time, I have forgotten some things, but in fact, there are none at all..."

He looked at his hand, stretched it out, and said lightly, "I'm not that strong, but I'm very lucky."

Gu Yang is not a child that no one loves, nor is he a pitiful child that no one wants. He has a mother who loves him very much, and then Chu Jinye. These two people played different important roles in his life. Everyone loves him deeply, and in this regard, he is luckier than anyone.

"I love my mother very much." The young man said, "I know how to act like her."

He understood part of the meaning of Wei Yu's movie.

This is not a war story, this is a mother's song.

The mother's love for the child, and the child's illusion of the mother in the illusory, these two strange feelings are constantly magnified in the background of war. Injected more tragic colors.

He knows the formation and withering of these two feelings, because he has experienced both.

Chu was silent tonight, not because Gu Yang got involved in the performance again, but because he looked at his lover's bright eyes and thought of his mother.

He seldom heard someone discussing this kind of topic in front of him, because everyone agreed that the relationship between their mother and child was not good.

When they were teenagers, they basically didn't talk. After growing up and becoming mature, Chu Jinye realized that he had missed a lot of things, but he didn't feel that their relationship, or the relationship between her and his father, was any better.

The relationship between him and her has always been very strange, like a layer of veil, and no one intends to lift it, so the indifference continues like this, which is irreversible.

His silence caught Gu Yang's attention, and the other party asked him: "Mr. Chu, what's wrong with you? Did you think of anything?"

"...It's nothing." Chu Jinye replied, "I just think you have a very good mother."

He didn't realize that his tone was a little envious. Hearing this, Gu Yang was startled for a moment and didn't speak.

For the rest of the night, they hugged each other, listening to each other's slow heartbeats in their chests, and drifted off to sleep.

A few days later, at the dinner table, Gu Yang and Chu had a chat about a topic tonight.

"Mr. Chu."

"what happened?"

"What kind of character is your mother?"

Being asked such a question, Chu Jinye was slightly taken aback. He raised his eyes to look at the mature child who was calmly waiting for his reply.

He thought for a while, and replied, "It's... a very powerful woman."

In the memory of Chu Jinye, Mrs. Chu is just that indifferent and noble face, who is somewhat alienated from her children. She always smells of cold perfume on her body. Chu Jinye doesn't know whether it is her It was like this when I was a girl, or it became like this after I got married.

There are tens of thousands of relationships between a child and a mother, and Chu Jinye and Mrs. Chu obviously don't belong to the good one.

If he asked about his mother's girlhood, it would be even more impossible for him to know. Since Mrs. Chu married, she has never contacted her natal family. Even during the Chinese New Year, the head of the Chu family took Chu tonight to make a New Year's call.It is said that this is because she suffered a lot of grievances when she got married, and it is difficult to recover after so many years.

Gu Yang tilted his head, looked at the butler again, and said, "Grandpa, do you know?"

The old butler smiled at them. He walked back to the room, and after a while, he took out a thick photo album.

In the photo album, there are many pictures of women, which Chu has never seen before tonight.

He couldn't help opening his eyes wide, looking at the old man who had watched him grow up, and the other party showed him a gentle smile.

"I've been expecting you to ask me, sir, but you haven't."

He flipped through the photo album with his old fingers, the first one was a very young girl, with a cold face at a young age, not very talkative, wearing a lady's little black dress, holding a balloon in her hand .The second picture shows her playing the piano with her back straight like a sword, and the third picture shows her growing into a poker-faced young girl in a dignified evening gown, with a boy standing beside her.

That was the young head of the Chu family.

They met when they were young.

Chu Jinye looked at them motionlessly: "They know each other." He said hoarsely, "I never knew about this."

The butler showed a tolerant and slightly complicated smile.

"Of course you don't," he replied, "it never occurred to you that there could be such a thing as love between your parents, did it, and that's true, Madame doesn't think she's married to love?" , Sir doesn’t think so either, but they are not complete and emotionless.”

He pressed the photo again and gently brushed off the dust on it.

"They met each other when they were very young. At that time, Madam went to participate in a piano competition, and Mr. was invited as a guest. He came back and told me that he met a girl who played "Memories of Don Juan" very well. The strength, the back is very straight, like a sharp sword."

"That girl won No.1 in that competition, and he gave her the award."

"Later, many years later, they met again at a grand ball for a blind date. He knew that her family background was one of the most outstanding people, but her temper might not be very gentle. At least, as the wife of a big family, she is a little too rebellious. Other girls are much more sensible and well-behaved than her, and are more willing to sacrifice and dedicate to the family. From the perspective of marrying a wife Said she was inappropriate."

"But he still walked over and invited her to a dance, even though at that time, she didn't remember who he was."

"They got married, and Madam brought these photo albums that symbolized her memories. She never opened them, so she never knew."

Chu Jinye didn't speak for a long time, and when Gu Yang couldn't help but look at him, he found that his eyes were red.

The next day, they went to visit Mrs. Chu's natal family. She came from a very large and ancient family, and the family still advocated the old rules. It was a shame for a married daughter to return to her natal family. For cooperation and business contacts, we seldom see each other in private.

And when Chu Jinye went to see Gu Yang, he saw his grandfather and grandmother. Both of them were gray-haired and very old. The former had a majestic and cold face, while the latter was kind. , have to bring him something to eat.

After Chu Jinye explained the purpose of coming, the two elders were silent.

Grandpa was a harsh old man. He was silent for a while, then got up and said, "Follow me."

He took them to a room, which was deserted and cleaned very cleanly, and it could be seen that someone cleaned it all the time.

That was Mrs. Chu's boudoir when she was a girl.

Chu Jinye walked in slowly, with a rare blank face. In this room, he saw some things that he thought would never have anything to do with his mother. There were Barbie dolls, Japanese dolls, and some unfinished things. The clumsy handicrafts can be seen to be very serious but not talented. There are some lace and diamond headbands, which are things that little girls like.These decorations and toys are no different from what ordinary teenage girls like. The man even saw a few cheap photo stickers pasted on the old wooden table.

He thought that these would never have anything to do with his mother. His mother always didn't care about anything. She was an indifferent and noble woman who looked down upon and careless about everything. She was the most respected lady among the ladies. She seems to be like this since she was born, but he never thought that she also had a girlhood, and in the time he didn't know, she was still an innocent girl.

He doesn't know anything.

"Is this her room?" He asked blankly knowingly, "It's different from what I imagined."

I don't know which sentence hit the other person's pain point, the old man turned his head and said sharply: "Of course you don't know, she grew up here, she is my daughter, she—"

His voice suddenly dropped, as if the violinist had pulled the wrong strings and made an unpleasant final note.

"...she never came back." Grandpa said, the old man looked at all this in front of him, showing a rare blank expression: "We had a fight before she got married, and then she left, and she went away again." She never came back, and she—never will.”

The old lady suddenly covered her face, and bent down deeply. Gu Yang didn't care about other things, and quickly stroked her back. The bone was scary protruding, and she was so thin that she only had an airs.

"...Really." Chu Jinye said, he looked at everything in front of him in a trance, and suddenly said: "She is not happy at home—she has been looking in one direction, I know that is the south, and that is you—— "

After that, he couldn't continue. Grandpa suddenly closed his eyes. After a long time, there were only a few heavy breathing sounds in the room.

——At this time many years ago, there was a lonely girl who had a big fight with her family and married far away. Because she was holding her breath and resenting their ruthlessness, she refused to take the initiative to contact her. , her stubborn father also thinks that he is not wrong. In such a stalemate, time is wasted day by day.

Later, the girl became a mother, and she had her own child. She began to understand how parents exist and how they feel. She regretted it, but she didn't know how to get along with her children and her father. She could only watch helplessly. Watching her child grow into the person she was back then, only she knows what kind of mood she has in the process.

Then, one day, she mustered up her courage and wanted to reconcile with her father. She got on the plane with her husband by her side. After a long period of running-in, they finally had an understanding of each other. At the beginning, she was glad to have his company, this silent but very reliable man, gave her support.

She thought everything would be fine, and she even thought about how to get along with her child when she went back. She wanted to bring him a gift, maybe that ugly scarf that she had been knitting for a long time but was unwilling to give up.

Then there is no more then.

That plane fell from the sky, taking all hope, life, or otherwise.

Those possible possibilities were stifled at once.

Never again.

"...you are very similar to her." Grandpa opened his eyes, looked at Chu Jinye complicatedly and said, "You look like your father, but your personality is like her, but you are luckier than her, you live very clearly. "

This was the first time that Chu Jinye was said to be like his mother since he was a child.

He felt that there seemed to be no better compliment than this.

When leaving, grandma secretly pulled Gu Yang aside and gave him a piece of jade, saying that it was owned by the juniors in their family. She begged Gu Yang to take good care of Chu Jinye.

"...You are very good, I can see that, please be good all the time, so that I can have an explanation with my daughter, please..."

Gu Yang looked at the old man's earnest expression, and hugged her vigorously without saying anything.

Because of this incident, they didn't speak when they returned, and the atmosphere was always heavy. Finally, the driver drove the car to a cemetery, where Gu Yang's mother fell asleep.

At that time, because the family had no money, the tombstones they chose were all very cheap, and there were many designated positions in one row. Gu Yang walked up to one of them, put the flowers bought on the way, and said nothing.

He looked at that tombstone for a while, and the woman on it was smiling, with two pear dimples slightly showing at the corners of her mouth, exactly like him.The older they get, the more alike they look.

"Let's go."

Chu Jinye put down the incense in his hand, and asked in a low voice, "Don't you have anything to say?"

"No need, my mother knows everything about me, she understands everything when she sees me coming with you." Gu Yang paused and said: "I have finished what I should say, mother, I very good."

The man stopped talking, and they got into the car again. This time, they went to a little-known place, the Chu family's own cemetery.

Inside, Chu Jinye's parents were asleep.

This was his first time bringing Gu Yang here.

The man took the flowers and incense, and finished offering them without saying a word. Gu Yang followed behind him, silently, offering incense as well.

Under that exquisite and expensive tombstone lies a person who will never wake up again.

Chu Jinye finally spoke, and he said, "... Mom and Dad, I'm fine."

"I have someone I like very much. I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I will bring him to you today."

Gu Yang silently bowed towards the tombstone.

"My personality is actually very bad, and I can't be filial, but Mom and Dad, I want to tell you that I love you."

He paused for a long time and then said, "I know, you love me too."

"I met a very good person, he can tolerate everything about me, give me spiritual support, I know no one can be better than him, he is my flesh and blood, my soul, the most important part of me .”

"The Chu family will be fine, and so will I. I just want to tell you this, thank you, if there is an afterlife..."

Please be my father and mother again.

He bent down numbly and silently, a tear flowed from his eyes, and fell on the tombstone. At that moment, he remembered many things, some things he couldn't understand at the time and now he took it for granted, and some things he thought he was right but completely misunderstood. .

In the end, he remembered that afternoon, he went to that courtyard by mistake and met Gu Yang.

That might be one of his few, correct choices.

He turned around, and the young man was staring at him, his eyes were also red, just as Chu Jinye said, he could understand everything about him and share his joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys.

Their hearts are originally common.

There are so many regrettable things that can no longer be undone. Whether it is Gu Yang or Chu Jinye, their childhood and youth cannot be truly called happy. Both parents died, they were displaced, and they were alone.But so what, in the end, they came from two completely different roads, came to the end of the convergence, saw each other, held each other's hand, from then on, just like what Wei Yu said , They are an indispensable existence for each other.The suffering and sorrow they have experienced can actually make the present happiness last longer.

Chu Jinye looked at Gu Yang as if it was a long time ago.The other party also looked at him, and there was never any fear in those eyes. Every time he saw him looking at him like this, he wanted to give him some warmth and disperse some loneliness.

So he reached out and took his.

They held hands and walked home together.The shadows of those two figures melted together again.

As the breeze blew, the white flowers beside the tombstone moved slightly, like a woman sighing and smiling.

The author has something to say: Gu's mother's problem is a matter of fate. She has done her best. There is no big regret between her and Gu Yang. They are both very good.

Mrs. Chu's problem is that she has misunderstood many things, and she has no chance to solve them.In the first episode, I will write he, the appearance of Mr. Chu when his parents were both alive.