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The repeating class had just finished the last exam of this semester. Li Xu walked out of the exam room and went back to class to pack her things. The backpack was hung on her right shoulder, and the bookcase full of books was held in both hands.

When going downstairs, a girl from the same class caught up and asked with a smile on her face, "They are talking about going to KTV tonight, are you going?"

Li Xu usually doesn't talk much in class, he just keeps his head on reviewing, so he doesn't really get along well with other people.At this time, someone took the initiative to invite him to participate in group activities, and from the corner of his vision, he could see a few girls at the corner of the corridor looking in this direction. Li Xu probably understood what kind of mentality they were holding.

In this school, he is not a so-called school bully, and there are no bad incidents. His taciturnity is actually praised by the girls as an advantage. They set up a nearly perfect personality for him, so strange that even he himself finds it ridiculous.

"No, you have fun." He smiled, and stepped down the stairs with the bookcase in his arms, and the girl chased after him again: "Hey, just go once, let's relax, it's been a whole semester. "

She showed a pleading and embarrassed look, Li Xu turned her face and said, "Please send me the time, place and number of the private room."

He was about to turn around after he finished speaking, but the other party stopped him again: "Li Xu—that's it, can you take Ji Ning there too? It's hard to hail a taxi in the evening rush hour, we only ordered two, maybe it's too crowded. Not enough to sit..."

Speaking of this, Li Xu fully understood why she had to call him.

"Who's going in class?" he asked.

The other party said a bunch of names, there were men and women, three men and six women.

Li Xu was very thoughtful: "Then let Junzi sit in my car, he is fat, without him, there will be a lot of empty seats for you."

On the way, Junzi helped Li Xu stabilize the bookcase in the back seat: "They just want you to be careful, can't you see it?"

"I know," Li Xu said, "Didn't I refuse it?"

"Why?" Junzi was surprised, "A beautiful girl like Ji Ning likes you, aren't you satisfied?"

"I have a date." Li Xu looked for a place to park, with his long feet on the ground, "Here we are, get out of the car."

The two walked into the KTV side by side, and were led to the designated private room by the waiter.Junzi gossiped all the way, but he didn't pry Li Xu's mouth open, so he simply gave up.

The others had already arrived, ordered music and food, and were sitting in a pile playing cards waiting for them.

Before Li Xu came in, he rented a power bank and connected it to the cell phone that had not been plugged in for several days and had automatically shut down.While he was busy tinkering with his head down, the sofa beside him sank, someone urged him to sing a duet with Ji Ning.

He looked up at Ji Ning, who immediately looked away, his cheeks seemed to turn red after being swept by the colorful lights.

Li Xu didn't want to be discouraged, so he took the microphone and sang the Chinese song with ambiguous lyrics with the other party without emotion. He didn't know how the two who usually didn't interact with each other became a match in the eyes of the girls.

The phone finally turned on, Li Xu handed the microphone to another boy, and sat in an inconspicuous corner, burying his head in watching the new news that popped up on the screen.

After receiving the signal, the news of Li Wenxuan and Shenmiqun caused the phone to vibrate one after another. There was a red dot in the upper right corner of the mailbox logo. Li Xu opened it casually, and Shu Yuan's name suddenly flashed in front of his eyes.

His heart skipped a beat, and the laughter and noisy noises of the people around him were transmitted into his mind for a split second, distorted into the text sent by Shu Yuan.

——Have you been together this year?

Someone came in with food, Li Xu sat close to the door, watched the waiter carrying two trays, quickly put away his phone, took one and put it on the table.

They ordered quite a lot of food, such as chicken steak with tomato sauce, rice bowl with curry, and fruit salad, but Li Xu lost his appetite. He just took a glass of sour plum juice and drank it slowly. After drinking it, he stood up: "I still have something to do ,I'm leaving."

"Hey, let's play for a while, you haven't sung much yet," a girl dropped a spoon and ran over to sit next to him, blocking his way, then pulled him to sit down, and whispered in his ear, "Ji Ning must be unhappy when you leave."

Li Xu's patience was limited, she would have lost her temper before, now she was holding her breath, she stood up again and beckoned at Ji Ning: "Ji Ning, come out, I'll tell you a few words."

The girls sitting next to her didn't know what to do, and pushed her over one after another: "Hurry up, hurry up, get out, we'll wait for you while we eat."

The corridors are not much quieter than the private rooms, and the sound insulation of the walls is poor. Various styles of music come from different private rooms, making the air mixed with perfume explode.

Ji Ning leaned against the wall and waited for him to speak, Li Xu said shortly: "They said you like me."

"Ah..." Ji Ning was taken aback, "Yes... yes."

"What do you like about me?" Li Xu asked.

During the long silence, Ji Ning replied in a low voice: "You study well, you are calm and not moving, and your personality is very gentle."

Li Xu sighed in his heart, in their eyes, he was really portrayed as a perfect character.

There were cigarettes and a lighter in his trouser pocket, which he bought while renting a power bank just now. Under Ji Ning's surprised gaze, Li Xu took out a cigarette and held it between his fingers, but he didn't light it.

"Actually, I am very different from what you think. In my old school, I skipped classes, missed exams, fought, and had to conduct a public review at least once every semester. The advantages you mentioned have nothing to do with me." Li Xu Leaning sideways on the wall and looking down at Ji Ning, "So what you like may be just the image you imagined in your mind, and that person is not me."

"If..." Ji Ning moved her lips, but did not continue.

Li Xu put the cigarette in his mouth, lit it with a click, and exhaled the smoke at the other side: "Go in, if they ask you, you will say that I have a date."

It's hard to say no.

After Ji Ning entered, Li Xu finished smoking the cigarette in the corridor, making the air even more cloudy.

Hungry, he drove to Mrs. Gu's private kitchen to order a few dishes, but when someone opened a meal, and Gu Xiang's parents kindly invited him, Li Xu sat down cheekily and rubbed his bowl against other people's food. meal.

"Aren't you so busy that you can't see the end, why are you willing to show your face?" Gu Qu asked close to his ear.

"It's the end of the semester." Li Xu caught the ribs thrown by the other party with his chopsticks, "finally finished the semester."

"Poor boy," Gu Qu threw a piece of bamboo shoots dipped in hot and sour sauce into his bowl again, "Is Shu Yuan still looking for you?"

"I found it, let me tell you this after dinner," Li Xu moved the bowl, "Don't pick it up for me, bury the rice under it."

After dinner, Mao Gu went to the room, and Li Xu showed Gu Qu the text message sent by Shu Yuan.

"I feel like the Virgin Mary, sympathizing with one after another." Gu Qu said.

Li Xu put the phone back: "Why don't you sympathize with me?"

"You, you can't live without doing your own crimes." Gu Qu opened a bag of jelly drinks and threw a bag to Li Xu, "Why, you didn't reply to him?"

"No, he can understand me." Li Xu said with a smile, but he knew how bitter his smile was.

He can't give Shu Yuan hope without assurance. If he fails to get into University A in the end, the future will be a torment for both parties.He doesn't want the other party to wait for him where he is, he just wants to speed up and catch up with the other party while he is advancing.

After dinner on New Year's Eve, Shu Yuan was urged by Liu Mian to pack her luggage, and set off for Baijiang City early tomorrow morning.Shu Yuan put the phone aside, looking forward to it for so many days, but no longer looking forward to it, who is as long-term as he is, like a slut.

Having not been back to Baijiang City for three years, Shu Yuan felt timid, looking through the car window at the refurbished roads and newly opened shops along the street, he couldn't feel any nostalgia.

"Xiao Yuan, cover up your tattoo so that your relatives don't see it and gossip." Liu Mian glanced at his son's wrist.

Shu Yuan tugged at her sleeves, and before the New Year's Eve dinner, she calculated how long it would take to return to Zhujin City.

When I arrived at grandma's house, it was just time for dinner, and my aunt had set up the dishes, while my uncle and cousin sat on the coffee table to amuse the children.Shu Yuan's arrival shocked everyone in the room. A group of people rushed forward to exchange greetings for a long time. The uncle hugged the white boy and said, "Xiao Yuan, this is your nephew. You haven't seen him before."

The babbling child grinned at Shu Yuan, and the cousin smiled and said, "It's quite similar to Xiao Yuan when he was a child."

While talking and joking, the haze in Shu Yuan's heart dissipated a little, and he only hoped that the relatives he was going to meet tomorrow would not reveal his scars.

He found his grandma's room upstairs. The old lady was still leaning on the bedside looking through the photo album. She was also surprised when she saw him. She wanted to lift the quilt out of the bed, but her legs and feet seemed to be inconvenient.

"Grandma, what's wrong with you?" Shu Yuan stepped forward to stop her, covered the old lady with the blanket that had slipped off, and put the heavy photo album together on the bedside table.

"Xiao Yuan, it's been a long time since you came to see grandma." The old lady's voice was more vicissitudes than it was three years ago, "Your father said you would come back this year, and I thought he was joking."

Grandma's tone was very gentle, but Shu Yuan knew that she was blaming herself - that's how people of the older generation talk, small thorns are hidden in big balls of cotton.

Shu Yuan sat by the bed, with a clear smile, talked about interesting things at school, and then recalled the past when he was a child, and when he had finished talking, he helped his grandma downstairs for dinner, only to find out that the other party fell once in the first half of the year, and hit him there. The legs don't work as well after that.

Shu Yuan's previous personality was not really shy, and he could have a chat with anyone, so during the chat, he tried his best to play himself as the boy who hadn't been hurt three years ago, and pretended to be indifferent in front of them .

But the next day, when there were more relatives, he couldn't handle it anymore. Someone who had no eyesight would always mention the events of the past: "Xiao Yuan, how did you deal with the incident at school?"

As if a time bomb had detonated, Shu Yuan's expression changed drastically, no matter how well-trained he was, he couldn't pretend to be calm, pretending not to notice Liu Mian's eyes, he ran out of the room on the spot without saying a word.

There are a lot of migrant workers in Baijiang City, and they all go back to their hometowns during the Chinese New Year. It seems that the streets in this area are deserted.

Shu Yuan ran out in a panic, and couldn't go back right now, so he just walked to the gate of Baijiang No. [-] Middle School by himself, blowing the cold wind against the road.

The gate of the school is closed. Looking in through the retractable door, the spacious school road is covered with dead leaves blown by the wind, which reminds us of the scene in those days.

A strong wind blew, and the dead leaves on the ground rubbed against the concrete floor and chased each other, making a creaking sound.Shu Yuan's heart sank, and he walked step by step along the outer wall of the school. The closer he got to the back door, the more remote the road became.

Shu Yuan grasped the scarf tightly, not daring to blink or breathe hard.A hundred meters ahead is the place where he was bullied back then, just turn a corner.

If he can stand there without changing his face, will it prove that he has come out completely?

A little further, a little more...

The sound of the old warehouse door being slammed suddenly rang in my mind, Shu Yuan was like a frightened bird, turned around and ran suddenly, covered her ears and ran for hundreds of meters, until she ran to the open street, holding on to her knees and gulping gasping.

He returned to grandma's house in a daze, and before he entered the door, he saw his mother standing in front of the yard looking around.It was getting dark quickly, and the garden lights were turned on early, and Liu Mian's shadow cast on the bluestone board was stretched very long.

"Why did you come back?" Liu Mian pulled Shu Yuan's arm, never mentioning today's events, "I don't worry about the cold when I run out with so little clothes on."

"Haven't they left yet?" Hearing the banging sound of playing mahjong coming from the room, Shu Yuan stopped in his tracks, "Forget it, I'll stay here for a while."

Liu Mian followed him, and sat with him on the wooden chair by the pond: "Xiao Yuan, I can understand you, but you can't just cut off relations with relatives just because of that, can you?"

"Didn't you say that the first generation of relatives, the second generation, the third generation's mouth, and the fourth generation don't call out when they see each other," Shu Yuan said, before laughing, "Let it be."

Liu Mian didn't smile, she seemed to be thinking about something, her hands on her knees were clenched tightly, her expression hidden under the darkening night was serious.

"Xiao Yuan, your father and grandma and I have discussed it," she grabbed Shu Yuan's shoulder and squeezed, "Or, let's move back."

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