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Shu Yuan refused to touch the guitar when the weather started to drop in a straight line, keeping his hands in his pockets all day long, afraid of the cold.

On Wednesday night, the student union held a regular meeting. The two cadres of the student union who passed three rounds of interviews in 602 went out with their shoulders crossed, leaving only the other two members of the Kyrgyz Association staring blankly.

Wei Yu looked at his watch. He was 10 minutes away from musical instrument class.

"Let's go?" Wei Yu asked.

"You go, I want to ask for leave." Shu Yuan breathed into the palm of his hand, and then rubbed it to keep himself warm.

The place where Jixie attends classes is arranged in the classroom on the third floor of the old library. It takes 10 minutes to walk from the dormitory, passing an artificial lake in the middle. In winter, the coldest place in the whole school is the lakeside.

"My hands aren't cold, I'll cover them for you." Wei Yue tried to pull Shu Yuan's hands out of his pockets, but the other party sensitively avoided, bent over and picked up the guitar bag by the wall and carried it behind his back: "No need , let's go."

Shu Yuan was more afraid of staying with Wei Yu than the few minutes of wind blowing.I can't explain the feeling, Shu Yuan is resistant to comparing anyone with Li Xu, but Wei Yu is indeed like Li Xu in every way, when he can't see or touch Li Xu, Shu Yuan is always worried that he will be in Wei Yu's place. Looking for the shadow of Li Xu on his body.

He felt that this was a betrayal formed under his ambivalence.

After the one-hour class in a daze, the senior who taught the guitar routinely arranged a simple piece of music for everyone to go back to practice and spot check in the next class.

The classroom was almost empty, the senior wiped the blackboard with a wet rag, Shu Yuan sat alone by the window and pressed the chords.

The senior walked off the stage after wiping the blackboard, sat next to him and asked, "Is there anything you don't understand in class?"

"No, it's just that the chord switching is not proficient." Shu Yuan raised his eyes, "Senior, when can I play Castle in the Sky?"

He looked for numbered musical notation on the Internet, but he didn't understand many places. He wanted to ask his seniors, but he was afraid of wasting his time, not to mention that he was a novice, and he might make people laugh if he mentioned too difficult pieces...

Sure enough, the senior was surprised and said: "This song is quite challenging for beginners. If you skip the basics and just learn this song, it will take at least two or three months to practice the simple version fluently. It is because the city of the sky Does it have any special meaning to you so you want to learn it as soon as possible?"

"Well," Shu Yuan smiled shyly, "It's okay, I'll practice the basic skills first."

"If not, I'll go back and find the novice score for you to practice, but you'd better master the basic fingering first, otherwise it will be very difficult to learn by yourself." The senior said.

Shu Yuan nodded his thanks, and when the senior left with his bag, he also got up and put the guitar into the bag.

The classroom where he was alone seemed empty and quiet. After Shu Yuan pulled up the guitar bag, his keen sixth sense sensed that someone was approaching behind him. He quickly turned around and bumped into Wei Yu's outstretched arm.

"What are you doing?" Shu Yuan took two or three steps back.

Wei Yu withdrew his hand with a smirk: "I've been waiting for you outside the door for a long time, let's go back to the dormitory."

"You don't have to wait for me from now on," Shu Yuan put the guitar on his shoulders, walked around the messy desks and chairs and walked to the door first, raised his hand to turn off the lights in the classroom, "You can go back by yourself after class is over."

With a tight wrist, he was dragged back into the darkness by Wei Yu who was following him.

Scattered and sparse fragments poured down, occupying his thoughts in an instant.

Li Xu who pushed him behind the library and secretly kissed him.

In the wooden house, Li Xu was patting him on the back to lull him to sleep.

Let him experience the crazy Li Xu in the dark dormitory.

No one can give him passion and touch, except Li Xu.

The cold air squeezed through the leaky windows of the classroom and got into Shu Yuan's neck.He flinched a bit, he couldn't struggle with the guitar on his back, so he said coldly, "Let go."

"Shu Yuan, tell me," Wei Yu lowered his voice, "Can you feel it?"

Shu Yuan turned her face away to avoid Wei Yu's approaching breath, and flinched back from Wei Yu's tightly squeezed wrist: "Don't say anything, I don't want to hear it."

"Several girls in the class showed love to you one after another, but you turned a blind eye to them," Wei Yu said persistently, "We are the same kind of people, haven't you noticed?"

"So what?" Shu Yuan said mercilessly, "Are you going to force me to be with you?"

As if he didn't expect Shu Yuan to be so straightforward, Wei Yu loosened his grip on Shu Yuan.

Shu Yuan got the chance and slammed Wei Yu's shoulder hard, breaking the distance between the two of them.He kept walking outside, clutching the strap of the guitar bag tightly.

Wei Yu chased after him with strides: "Shu Yuan, I didn't force you, I won't say anything if you don't want to, don't be angry."

Even the flattering looks are exactly the same.

Shu Yuan went downstairs in a muffled voice, and Wei Yu followed his steps, explaining and apologizing, but only Shu Yuan knew that he was not angry with the other party, but hated himself who missed Li Xu all the time.

Downstairs in the dormitory, Shu Yuan stopped in his tracks, took a deep breath of the cool early winter wind, then turned to face Wei Yushi and slowed down his tone: "It's good for us to be friends, don't go any further."

That step of his has already gone towards Li Xu with no way out, and he will never take it back.

Although Shu Yuan said to keep friends, his actions proved that he was escaping - he didn't sit in the same row in class, he didn't go to Jixie on the same road, and he even went to the other side when he slept.

Xu Siye also noticed it, and secretly asked Wei Yu, "Did you two quarrel?"

"It's not noisy," Wei Yu lied, "I played with his guitar without his consent and broke the strings."

"It's so serious." Liu Ziyue only read the books of sages and sages, and didn't understand anything else. "Look at that shiny guitar, it must be thousands if not tens of thousands, right? That string should cost several hundred yuan. Feed the fish, isn't your family The least lack of money, treat him as an apology."

If Shu Yuan was as simple as Liu Ziyue, Wei Yu wouldn't have to worry about it.The closer to the end of the semester, Shu Yuan has more excuses to hide. When there is no class, he will hide in the study room of the library with review materials. Even if Wei Yue goes with him, the study room is crowded and quiet, and he is not easy to make small gestures to harass other side.

In a blink of an eye, the exam week was over, Xu Siye and Liu Ziyue lived far away, they had already bought tickets to go home early, and after the last exam was over, they packed up and left.

Wei Yue's family is in the local area, and he has a car, so he can leave at any time, but seeing that Shu Yuan is not in a hurry to leave, he doesn't clean up himself, and naturally wants to stay with him for a few more days when he has the opportunity.

The University of Foreign Languages ​​has no shortage of introductory textbooks for self-study in various languages. Shu Yuan borrowed a stack of them and read them every day in the single-person booth, and wrote more than half of them in a loose-leaf notebook.

When the students from all colleges were about to leave with their luggage, the library also posted a closing notice.Shu Yuan moved the book to the dormitory to read, completely pretending that Wei Yue didn't exist.

"Do you want to learn French?" Wei Yu glanced at the books that Shu Yuan borrowed, quite curious.

With a "hmm", Shu Yuan turned the pages of the notebook.

Wei Yu still wanted to talk, but Shu Yuan's phone vibrated on the desktop, and he fell silent, watching the other party pick up the phone and swipe it against his ear: "Hello?"

It was Liu Mian who called and asked when he would be home.

Shu Yuan tilted his head to look at the folding pages one by one, and replied, "I'll be back in a few days."

"Should I go back to Baijiang City for the New Year this year?" Liu Mian discussed with him, "Your grandma is not in good health, she wants to see you."

Shu Yuan is noncommittal, counting the two generations of the Shu family, his cousins ​​can't be counted on ten fingers, his grandfather passed away early, and he and his grandmother were not the closest ones since childhood.

But it's not completely emotionless, Liu Mian has mentioned it so many times, it's unreasonable for him to be determined not to have any contact with his relatives in Baijiang City.

Maybe it will be labeled as unfilial, so that parents will not be gossiped by relatives when they go back to pay New Year's greetings.

"We'll talk about it when we get home." Shu Yuan replied.

After hanging up the phone, Shu Yuan stopped reading, took out the suitcase at the end of the bed, and started to pack things.

"Going back now?" Wei Yu put down his mobile phone for ordering food, "Take the high-speed rail or the train?"

"The train, the high-speed rail tickets have been snatched up." Shu Yuan kept two changes of clothes, and put the rest in the suitcase.

"When will you come back? How about I take you to the train station?" Wei Yu asked expectantly.

Shu Yuan glanced at him: "The afternoon after tomorrow, I'll call a car myself."

When it was time to go home, Shu Yuan realized that there were still many people who did not leave the school, and there were also many people who chose to leave school on this day.Normally, the car that can arrive within 3 minutes has not been lined up for 10 minutes, so I finally ordered one, and said that there was a traffic jam on the road and the order was cancelled.

In the end, Wei Yu sent Shu Yuan to the train station, and when he arrived, he quickly unloaded his suitcase and dragged him in.Before the security check, Shu Yuan took her luggage and smiled at the other party for the first time since this semester: "Thank you."

Wei Yu stammered uncommonly: "No, nothing."

"Wei Yu, I'm actually pretty bad." Shu Yuan took out the ticket from his pocket, "Don't think of me too perfectly."

This was the most gentle sentence Shu Yuan had ever said to Wei Yu. After finishing speaking, he dragged his suitcase through the security check without looking back.

During the night train, more than ten hours' drive, Shu Yuan could either sit or lie down, and the pungent smell of cigarettes on the quilt made him unable to sleep.

At four o'clock in the morning, I fell asleep drowsily, feeling like I heard the arrival reminder on the radio not long after.Shu Yuan touched the mobile phone next to the pillow and looked, unexpectedly, it was past ten o'clock in the morning.

There was still some way to go to Jinjin City, Shu Yuan bought dry food before boarding the car, took advantage of this time to drool, and ate another piece of bread.When he was about to get off the bus, his phone vibrated several times. Liu Mian and Wei Yu sent messages at the same time asking if he had arrived at the stop.

Shu Yuankong didn't bother to type, and first replied to Wei Yu that he had just arrived, and then told Liu Mian that he was leaving the station and would be home in about half an hour.

Shu Yuan dragged two heavy suitcases through the crowd, transferred to the subway, and hailed a taxi. After boarding the car, she leaned against the window and exhaled into her cold hands.

As the new year approaches, the streets are full of festive colors, just like in previous years.Shu Yuan thought of the Spring Festival in the past two years, clutching the phone in his pocket that was covered so warmly, a strong urge drove him to meet Li Xu, but the indifference in the other party's eyes before parting made him shrink back.

In countless late nights, he struggled to wake up because of this strange look in his eyes, and the insomnia cured by Li Xu haunted him again after the other party left.

The car stopped, and the scene outside the window stopped rewinding, as if the pause button was pressed.Shu Yuan regained consciousness, paid the money and got off the car, and stood alone at the gate of the community with two suitcases of luggage.

The remaining power of the phone is low, Shu Yuan scratched the phone case with his fingernails, unlocked the lock screen with determination, and found Li Xu's name from the address book.