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In the middle of the night, Shu Yuan woke up from the heat. In his dream, he was thrown into a fire pit by the gang that bullied him. The scorching hot fire burned him alive.

When he woke up, he realized that there was no fire pit. He was wrapped in layers of sheets, and there was Li Xu hugging him outside the sheets.

Shu Yuan's face was pressed against Li Xu's chest, he could smell the scent of dried flowers from the other party's clothes, he could feel Li Xu's breath above his head, and the fear brought by his dreams and memories gradually dissipated.

The sky outside the window was still not lit, Shu Yuan didn't know the exact time, he moved his body, trying to get out of Li Xu's arms, but the other party didn't sleep deeply at all, Li Xu opened his eyes when he moved.

The eyes of the two met in the dark, Li Xu held his face and rubbed his lower eye sockets with his fingertips: "Go to sleep for a while."

"It's so hot." Shu Yuan pushed Li Xu through the quilt, the temperature of the air conditioner in the room was not low, even at the seaside, this temperature still made Shu Yuan sweat.

Li Xu quickly let go of the person, and with both hands pulled away the blanket that was wrapped around Shu Yuan: "I saw that you were shaking all the time, so I thought it was cold."

Shu Yuan didn't speak, he jumped to the ground, walked out of the room with bare feet on the cold wooden floor, found the kettle and cup, poured a full cup of water into his mouth.

The chaotic thoughts were cleared up under the stimulation of cold water, Shu Yuan shrank to the small sofa with an empty cup, her eyes were sore, it was the result of crying a lot.

There was a sound of "da", orange lights filled the whole room, and the sound of footsteps came from the other side of the floor. Li Xu picked up the kettle and poured out the cold water, reconnected a kettle of fresh water and plugged in the power.

"Aren't you going to sleep?" Li Xu didn't mention anything about what happened before going to bed, "It's only after three o'clock."

He approached slowly, leaning on the arm of the sofa to circle Shu Yuan into his shadow.

"Sleep later." Shu Yuan looked at him, as if trying to find something in his eyes, but the light was too dim, so he couldn't see clearly.

The shadow swayed, he thought that Li Xu was going to stand up, but in the next second his body left the soft sofa, Li Xu picked him up, turned around and changed to Li Xu sitting on the sofa, he You can only sit on each other's lap with your legs apart.

"I'm sorry," Li Xu's voice lowered, he hugged Shu Yuan's body, and rubbed his face under the other's shoulder, "I'm sorry..."

The sofa is not big, Shu Yuan once thought that he was going to fall backward when Li Xu kept getting close, but Li Xu never let go of his hands.

"Did you help me change my clothes?" Shu Yuan put his arms around Li Xu's shoulders and rubbed his hair with his hands.

Li Xu said "yes": "I helped you take a bath," he said in a lower voice, "I didn't touch or look around."

"Thank you..." Shu Yuan's tense nerves relaxed, and he leaned against Li Xu's body.

He knew how ugly he was when he fell into memories, he couldn't hide his secrets, and he couldn't hold back his tears. Liu Mian was so frightened by his state that he fainted at the beginning, and he never showed his out-of-control emotions in front of his family. Pass.

But Li Xu seems to be different. Li Xu respects his flaws and embraces his past, so that he has enough sense of security to stay in the other party's world for a long time.

Pillowing Li Xu's shoulder, Shu Yuan felt the attack of sleepiness. This time he fell asleep much more peacefully than a few hours ago. He seemed to be lying on the clouds, and the light fragrance of flowers enveloped him.

When he woke up again, he was lying on the bed. Clusters of golden sunlight leaked into the room through the floor-to-ceiling windows. Someone was talking outside the room. The two spoke very quickly, as if they were arguing about something.

"Let him sleep a little longer, you guys go," Li Xu pushed Shi Chengjin who came to their room early in the morning, "really, he didn't get enough rest last night."

"No, why didn't he sleep well? Did you do something nasty?" Shi Chengjin was smaller than Li Xu, and when the other party pushed him, he squeezed back into the room. Fuck me, I’m also alive and well.”

"Fuck, who is like you?" Li Xu tugged at him, but failed to hold him, "Don't fucking disturb him!"

"Hey," Shi Chengjin broke into the room smoothly, pointing to Shu Yuan who was hugged by the quilt, "Didn't you just wake up?"

Shu Yuan's condition today is better than Li Xu imagined. He followed everyone to do drainage exercises and ear pressure balance under the guidance of the coach, and took a look at Li Xu through the mirror before going into the water.

Among the group of people, only Song Yuenian and Shen Zhaoshi had obtained their diving certificates, and the rest, except for Gu Qu and Shu Yuan, had experience in snorkeling or deep diving.The first two dived into the water with their companions, Shu Yuan looked at Li Xu who had already jumped into the water, and stretched out his hand to the coach.

It was the first time he came into contact with the underwater world. Small flat, pointed fish of various colors swam past him in a row, and he couldn't catch them.

He was not easy to let go of being led by an unfamiliar person. When the coach led him to see the coral, Li Xu dived over from a distance, made a few gestures to the coach, and then took over him instead of the coach.

When I put my trust in Li Xu's hands, the feeling of relaxation from lying on the clouds in my dream last night came back.The sea water of Mataking Island has high visibility. Li Xu led him to touch the little blue starfish, look for the clownfish hidden in the sea anemone, and watch the huge sea turtle swim past his head.

Being in this diamond-like ocean, Shu Yuan’s inner emotions that cannot be released in daily life seemed to be detonated at once. He grabbed Li Xu’s hand that was holding the GoPro to take pictures of him, and groped up to the ring bit by bit. Live each other's neck.

what happened?

Li Xu, who was biting on the breathing tube, couldn't ask any questions. He freed his hand to strangle Shu Yuan's waist, trying to lead him to the sea.

Shu Yuan shook her head, her right hand slid off Li Xu's shoulder, rested on Li Xu's left chest, and drew a heart with her fingertips where she felt the beating of the heart.

I fuck...

Li Xu almost let go of the breathing tube. He clasped Shu Yuan's wrist and dragged him towards the beach with his remaining rationality. On the shore, he took off the mask and breathing tube, and rudely helped Shu Yuan tear off the device, holding the back of the other's head and forcing him to look up, and kissed the mouth that was still breathing go down.

The sun was pouring down from the sky, making both of them feel warm.In a foreign country, Shu Yuan seemed to be very active, he opened his mouth slightly, and touched Li Xu's lips with the tip of his tongue, like seduction or provocation.

The smell of seawater faded during the exchange of saliva between the two of them. Li Xu let go of Shu Yuan, gasped and said, "You want to kill me."

"I don't want to." Shu Yuan looked at his slightly embarrassed look and smiled, at first he didn't smile cheerfully, until he noticed Li Xu's rare red ears, the smile on his mouth widened.

"What did you draw?" Li Xu asked.

Shu Yuan stopped looking at him, said while taking off her flippers: "Guess what."

"I love you." Li Xu said.

The world is quiet.

Of course, it was only a few seconds, and then the sound of the waves came alive again, and Li Xu said it again, just now he said the answer of Shu Yuan, this time he clarified his heart: "I love you."

Shu Yuan carried the flippers and other miscellaneous diving equipment and walked towards the wooden house. Li Xu followed behind, saying like a repeater, "I love you."

"How old are you, don't make promises lightly." Shu Yuan said.

The faster he walked, the tighter Li Xu followed: "I'm only a year younger than you, not to mention I'm nineteen today, not too young."

Shu Yuan's footsteps stopped suddenly, and his back slammed into Li Xu's arms steadily.He didn't look back, his eyes looked at the phosphorescent sea, and when the next wave came up, he whispered: "Happy birthday."

Although Li Xu can't say it's his birthday, but—maybe he is the same as himself, it's not that he didn't love him, but he just waits for someone worthy to remember this day for him.

"Actually, I don't hate birthdays," Li Xu explained when he and Shu Yuan walked on the trailing beach in the afternoon, "I still liked birthdays when my mother was alive, because I think every time I get older, I will I can protect her a bit more."

Shu Yuan shook Li Xu's hand, he was being held by the other party, not trying to break free, but just trying to comfort Li Xu in this way.

"She passed away later, so every birthday, I feel that I am one year away from the day when she left, so I especially don't like birthdays." Li Xu said.

"When Auntie left... How old were you?" Shu Yuan asked while observing Li Xu's face.

Probably because it was well hidden, Li Xu didn't have much grief on his face: "Fifteen, I was in the second year of middle school at the time, and when my mother left, I was still sitting in the classroom and listening to the class carefully."

Four years ago, on the last day of September, 15-year-old Li Xu was picked up from school by the driver Uncle Chen in heavy rain. The mother was already lying on the bier without breath, her face and body covered with a white cloth.

Bai Shuang committed suicide, and maybe before deciding to end her own life, she only regarded it as a passing thought.

She suffered from severe depression. When she fell into the pond in the yard, she didn't even struggle, and even allowed herself to lie flat and sink.

Li Xu didn't dare to lift the white cloth, so he swung his fist at Yao Yilei who was covering his face and crying on the sofa. The 15-year-old boy was like a ferocious little wolf: "You still have a fucking face here! What the hell do you have?" I am qualified to cry! You killed my mother—it was you!!"

"And you—" Yao Yilei was thrown to the ground by his hair, and Li Xu pointed at Li Wenxuan who stepped forward and pulled him, "You don't like my mother and you still haven't divorced her! Her illness is caused by you and this You were forced out by a vixen! I fucking disgust you!"

After that, Li Xu no longer followed Li Wenxuan's wishes, he turned himself into the worst look, seeing the disappointment piled up in the other party's eyes, he felt a strong and happy revenge, burning like wildfire when he was young. The future I dreamed of.

The distance from Tuowei Beach to Little Mataking Island is not too long, and it only took more than half an hour to go around. Li Xu just finished his story.

It was probably a bit late when they started, and the sea had already started to rise when they returned along the trailing beach, and the water was up to their ankles.

Li Xu held Shu Yuan's hand and walked striding through the sea, until he returned to the wooden house, he heaved a sigh of relief, turned around and smiled at the other party: "But now I don't hate birthdays anymore, because I have someone to protect again .”

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I would like to apologize to everyone here, there will be no update tomorrow, and then next Tuesday, I will enter v for two consecutive chapters, one chapter at 12. noon, one chapter at 10:30 p.m., and then three to four chapters a week, the specific update date Will it be clearly stated in the writing of each chapter? Then thank you everyone, really thank you, without the feedback from so many friends in the comment area on "Waste", I will not have the motivation to write it down.Thanks?