waste

Arrived in Kota Kinabalu and then transferred to Tawau. When the tour guide led us to stay at the holiday house on Mataking Island, the night had already completely fallen.

Shu Yuan took a nap in the afternoon and was not sleepy at the moment, but he didn't have any appetite to eat, so he sat by the French window in the room and watched the calm sea under the night.

Tightening his waist, Li Xu hugged him from behind, and asked him in a calm voice, "Does it look good?"

"It's pretty." Shu Yuan didn't break away from him, letting him hold her.

Li Xu, who was not stopped, became even more daring, and tilted his head to kiss Shu Yuan's face: "Go to dinner, they have all passed."

"I don't have much appetite," Shu Yuan hid, "I want to eat something sweet and sour."

"The food in the restaurant is self-service, so where are the fruit skewers?" Li Xu took Shu Yuan's hand, "Let's go, eat first, and walk along the beach after eating."

The others had already taken their seats, and Shen Zhaoshi was being beaten by Shi Chengjin's mouthful of tomato juice. Shi Chengjin whimpered and groaned in pain, but the thin-skinned lawyer Shen didn't want to be beaten again. When he started, everyone in the circle laughed.

"Sweet essence, are you sick?" Han Qiyun scolded while tangling the spaghetti, "If you want to moan, you can moan at night. What do you look like in this big crowd!"

"Ri Ri insists on me humming now, but I can't be disobedient." Shi Chengjin pulled a tissue to wipe Shen Zhaoshi's mouth, "Isn't it, Ri Ri?"

There is a lot of self-service food in the restaurant, and Shu Yuan didn't have an appetite before he came. At this time, Li Xu put a lot of food on his plate, but he didn't think it was enough: "Give me the tongs, I will do it myself."

"Success, then help me pick it up." Li Xu handed over the tongs and the plate.

After dinner, a large group of people ran to the trestle bridge to take pictures. Song Yuenian borrowed a guitar from somewhere and asked Ah Yi to record it for him. Shen Zhaoshi and Shi Chengjin were nowhere to be found. They probably went back to the house early to spend the spring night.

Shu Yuan ate a lot, and when Li Xu took him for a walk on the beach, he hiccupped all the time, which made Li Xu laugh uncontrollably: "Didn't you say you lost your appetite?"

"If you don't eat more, I'm afraid I won't have the strength to go into the water tomorrow." Shu Yuan said shyly.

Walking on the soft sand with bare feet, the sea water overflows the insteps from time to time, it feels very comfortable.Li Xu found a relatively dry place to sit down, pointed to the moon-covered sea and said, "Want to take a picture? Although it is a little less beautiful than in the daytime, it still looks beautiful this way."

"No need," Shu Yuan sat down, "It's enough to keep some of the scenery in my mind. If I look at the photos in the future, I will miss it."

Li Xu always felt that there was something in Shu Yuan's words. He thought of the honor of being locked in the cloakroom without seeing the sun all day long. He wanted to ask some questions but couldn't bear to ask them.

A white light lit up next to him, and Li Xu glanced at Shu Yuan's phone screen: "What are you looking at?"

"The signal is poor." Shu Yuan swiped the phone a few times, pressed the screen off, put it back in his pocket, slowly leaned to the right, and finally leaned on Li Xu's shoulder, "Dog Dog."

Shu Yuan only called Li Xu this title once, and it was not face-to-face in text messages. On the night when Li Xu sent him a mosaic cutout, he said, "Thank you, Dog Dog."

People like Shu Yuan have always been stingy about expressing their emotions, so when they heard the other party address him like this while leaning against him in a relaxed posture, Li Xu's mind went blank for a while, and his heart and eyes were half-closed. The wish to look at the sea.

"Aren't you curious about what happened?" Shu Yuan said with a reproachful tone, "Don't ask me, what birthday present did I prepare for you?"

Layers of waves surged up, not close but seemed to cover people.Li Xu was disturbed by the sound of the rushing waves, and even Shu Yuan's questioning felt like an auditory hallucination.

"My birthday," Li Xu said in surprise, "you know?"

"July 26, tomorrow," Shu Yuan touched Li Xu's hard joints, dexterously inserted his hand into the opponent's palm, then turned over and interlocked with each other's fingers, "I saw it on your ID card."

It turned out to have been remembered since then.

In front of Shu Yuan, Li Xu never felt that he was a giver. He had many things and didn't care about many things, but everything about Shu Yuan was something he cared about and couldn't have.

It's like owning a playground. He doesn't bother to use the entertainment facilities inside to make himself happy, but he hopes that Shuyuan can walk into his territory and feel happy when he touches everything. Even if night comes, the whole playground will be happy. It will also shine bright lights for him.

Shu Yuan clasped his hand, and Li Xu pulled back his thoughts: "Don't give me Wusan, I won't accept it."

"What's your IQ?" Shu Yuan shook off his hand.

"I was eaten by you." Li Xu forcibly pulled him back, leaned over and hugged him into his arms, "I didn't think about it that much, I never expected birthday presents after my mother passed away, my dad always Give it to me, and I will throw it back. Gu Xiang and they also know that I don’t like birthdays. In previous years, I would just get together for a meal and forget it. Everyone tacitly agrees.”

Shu Yuan was stunned, and after a while she began to break free from Li Xu's embrace, feeling ashamed that she was thinking about the other party's birthday so much.

As soon as he stood up, Li Xu pulled him back again, and he staggered and fell to the beach, with the back of his head being protected and pressed under him.

"It will stain the clothes..." Shu Yuan lay down on the ground, with the bright moonlight in his eyes, Li Xu clasped his fingers and kissed him.

At this moment, Shu Yuan hoped that the tide would sweep them away and send them back to that winter. He had pride, honor that he didn't need to hide, and Li Xu who stood in front of him.

Both of them were covered in sand when they returned to the wooden house. Before Shu Yuan woke up from the suffocating kiss, Li Xu pushed him into the bathroom again and pressed him against the wall to continue the unfinished kiss.

At this time, Li Xu had no choice but to praise Han Qiyun in his heart for being smart. He booked five single wooden houses for accommodation, which ensured the privacy between each other.He opened the water valve while Shu Yuan was not paying attention, and hot water poured down from the top of his head, instantly soaking their hair and bodies.

"Hot..." Shu Yuan pushed him away, but the water was pouring on him so hard that he couldn't open his eyes.

"Take off your clothes, it's full of sand." Li Xu reacted, but he couldn't control Shu Yuan's poor boy-like appearance. The other party wanted to avoid the water and stand aside, but Li Xu dragged him back to block the shower corner of the room.

Shu Yuan raised his arms to wipe the water off his face, and when he was unprepared, Li Xu lifted the hem of his T-shirt.

The green and pure body was displayed in front of him without any concealment, Li Xu felt a whip being thrown down, throwing his sanity thousands of miles away.

The sound of water flow suddenly stopped, Li Xu turned off the water valve, pressed Shu Yuan, who was dripping all over his body, into his arms, stroked his drooping bangs up with five fingers, and then wiped the water off his face.

"Crazy..." This is the only word Shu Yuan scolded back and forth. He opened his misty eyes, and the ends of his eyes were red from the mist, "You go out, I'll wash first."

"How do I get out?" Li Xu's voice was hoarse, and his eyes lingered on Shu Yuan's chest, "Little dinosaur..."

It's perfectly normal for boys to get along shirtless occasionally, but Li Xu's scorching eyes make Shu Yuan feel unnatural.He pushed him out of the shower with all his strength, but Li Xu held his body tightly so that he had no strength to resist.

The stronger the strength in the waist, the stronger the fear in Shu Yuan's heart. Li Xu buried his head and sprinkled dense and light kisses on his neck, but he couldn't feel the surge of passion/desire at all.He stared blankly at a certain point on the roof, his hands and feet seemed to be soaked in icy snow water, numb every nerve.

Everything in his field of vision lost the color they should have, and the dull black enveloped him, making him feel suffocated for no reason.This kind of suffocation is different from the heat of kissing, it is the pain of dying, which surrounds him heavily.

That's not what he wanted...

"Shu Yuan, Shu Yuan!" Li Xu anxiously called to the person who was soft in his arms, regretting so much that he wanted to slap himself.

The man tucked into his arms has lost his eyesight, trembling while clutching the corners of his clothes covered with wet sand, his blue lips uttered indistinct words, very light, so light that it seemed to evaporate with the mist.

"Don't hit me...don't hit me..."

"It hurts...it hurts...let go..."

"Cold...so cold..."

Tears welled up from Shu Yuan's dazed eyes, more than the water that flowed across his face just now.

While Li Xu scolded herself for being inferior to a beast, she lifted the bath towel from the wooden stand to wrap Shu Yuan's body, picked him up by the waist, and walked out of the bathroom quickly.

As soon as Shu Yuan touched the mattress, he curled up into a ball, Li Xu held his face and coaxed him softly: "Little dinosaur, I'm here, don't be afraid."

Immersed in the inescapable panic of the past, Shu Yuan's hearing automatically turned on the closed mode, he clenched his hands into fists, his face was wiped clean by Li Xu and then wet with tears: "It hurts, it hurts, it hurts..."

Listening to his silent cry for help is the howling cold wind, looking into his eyes is begging for winter snow.

No, there is no snow... It was buckets of cold water poured on him, mixed with the cruel laughter and unbearable insults of the perpetrator.

The injured little dinosaur was protected in his arms by his police dog. Li Xu's desire had receded long ago. What was left was the hatred for the perpetrator and the distress for Shu Yuan. There was no conflict between cruelty and gentleness in him, and he would warm His wings covered Shu Yuan's body, hiding his fierce thoughts in his fists.

"They're all dead," Li Xu whispered in Shu Yuan's ear, "Your police dog killed them, and no one can hurt you again."

A kiss as cool as morning dew fell on Shu Yuan's brow, and Li Xu whispered, "Little Shu Yuan, open your eyes and look at me, I am your dog."

Tired of crying, the little dinosaur didn't open his eyes to look at him, but fell into a deep sleep. The dream must not be good, and his brows kept frowning.

Li Xu hugged Shu Yuan for a long time before he calmed down. He let go of Shu Yuan, carefully took off Shu Yuan's remaining clothes, and took him into the bathtub to take a bath.When doing this, Li Xu didn't care about anything, and even looked away while washing Shu Yuan's body, and couldn't bear to look at it.

In this state, I'm afraid I won't be able to dive tomorrow, Li Xu thought to himself when he carried Shu Yuan, who was clean, to another bed that wasn't wet.Or, he can take his little dinosaur for a walk on the trailing beach, swing on the water swing, or watch the turtles climb ashore and lay eggs.

As long as Shu Yuan is willing, he will bring him here again, no matter how many times.