Chef God who doesn't want to be an actor is not a good idol

In the theater, almost everyone's eyes were on the big screen.

On the big screen, Zhou Lixin and Tan Jia hugged each other tightly.In the mottled interlaced light and shadow, two figures were frantically entangled together, making blushing panting sounds.

Under the dim light, in a corner where no one noticed, the two figures in the first row slowly approached each other.

Du Ruo didn't know how he got to this point.

The current situation is that Wen Qi holds his hand while wrapping his arms around his waist, and kisses him in the theater where the film premiered.

Due to the tight nerves, Du Ruo's brain was extremely clear, but from the time the two lips touched to the present, his cheeks were silently burning red in the dark.

The movement of Wen Qi's kiss was very gentle, as if he was drinking the red wine that had been stored in the cellar for a long time, slowly testing Du Ruo's teeth with his tongue.

Kissing in a big theater with so many people is really exciting.

What if the person next to you turns around?

What if someone sees you?

……

Because of nervousness, Du Ruo's head was full of messy thoughts.

Obviously, the plot on the big screen didn't take long, but the time of this kiss seemed unprecedentedly long.

Before Wen Qi wanted to go further and deepen the kiss, Du Ruo touched Wen Qi's waist and twisted it hard.

Almost at the same time, Du Ruo moved his head back a certain distance, leaned close to Wen Qi's ear, gritted his teeth and said: "In the next time, you give me a little peace, otherwise..."

Du Ruo didn't say the second half of the "threat" directly, but his current attitude could already be heard from his tone.

Wen Qi didn't want to make people anxious, so he accepted it as soon as he saw it, but he still didn't forget to put a quick kiss on Du Ruo's cheek, and then, under Du Ruo's stare, he turned around with a smirk at the corner of his mouth.

Du Ruo sat facing the big screen again, pursed the corners of her mouth, and tried to turn her attention back to the movie, but the blush on her face could not fade for a long time.

***

The plot in the movie is still going on.

Even after leaving without saying goodbye five years ago, even before the reunion, Tan Jia had told herself thousands of times in his heart.

But all these psychological constructions were instantly shattered at the moment of seeing that person, like an illusory glass space.

Still can't forget.

Still can't get through.

The moment tears fell from the corners of Zhou Lixin's eyes, Tan Jia gently kissed the corners of his eyes, his eyes were empty and blank.

After that night, there seemed to be a silent tacit understanding between Zhou Lixin and Tan Jia.

Tan Jia would go back to Zhou Lixin's home after get off work every day, and when Tan Jia appeared in front of Zhou Lixin's house for the second time after that night, Zhou Lixin didn't say anything, but just took out a pair of exclusive slippers for him.

The "let's break up" that was not mentioned five years ago, the two never mentioned it five years later.

Both of them ignored the blank time of those five years, as if they had never been separated, so they brought the mode of getting along back to the original point before they separated, and started again.

But time does not lie.

Those long five years were like an invisible dividing line between the hearts of the two of them, the emptiness and confusion that could not be filled even if they hugged each other tightly in bed at night.

Both Zhou Lixin and Tan Jia on the big screen are deceiving themselves and others without knowing it, but the audience in the theater has already seen the subtlety of their relationship.

Zhou Lixin and Tan Jia five years ago were just the ignorant first love in their youth, everything was so pure, green and passionate.

But five years later, the two seem to have a better relationship, but when they get along, there seems to be a transparent barrier between them.Both Zhou Lixin and Tan Jia were well aware of this barrier, but none of them took the initiative to break the transparent "glass".

This invisible wall between the two seems to be the distance that Zhou Lixin and Tan Jia actively maintain in their lives for self-protection.

They preserved each other's decency, but lost the fiery honesty of their youth.

Watching Li Xin and Tan Jia getting along on the big screen last week, the audience's mood also changed from joy when the two were reunited at the beginning to worry.

What worried them was not only the missed five years between Zhou Lixin and Tan Jia, but also the emotions hidden in the bottom of their hearts.

When Tan Jia broke out in the bar in front of Zhou Lixin who came to pick him up, many viewers even breathed a sigh of relief.

In the bar, bright lights hit Tan Jia's face, Zhou Lixin stood in front of him, bent down, and supported Tan Jia's body with both hands.

Tan Jia in front of him reeked of alcohol, repeating two sentences over and over again——

"Zhou Lixin."

"Don't go..."

Zhou Lixin lowered his face, making it difficult for people to see the expression on his face. He just stood there quietly, and all the noise and shouts around him seemed to be invisible.

There are no lines in this paragraph, and Zhou Lixin's expression can't be seen.

But the strange thing is that the audience at the scene seemed to be able to empathize with Zhou Lixin at this moment. Just watching this passage, they felt sour and swelled in their hearts, and they were indescribably uncomfortable.

A tear fell from the dim light, leaving traces on Tan Jia's face.

"Don't cry..." Tan Jia held Zhou Lixin's face with both hands, and those teary eyes came into everyone's sight.

Tan Jia gently and piously kissed the person in front of her.

The screen gradually darkened, and the sentence that Zhou Lixin asked in a crying voice seemed to leave a lingering sound in the air——

"Tan Jia, what should we do between us?"

After the bar incident, Zhou Lixin and Tan Jia seemed to have broken the invisible glass between them and entered into a happy love life.

There is no more testing each other, and slowly talking about the things that have been missed while getting along... Both of them are getting along, trying their best to make up for the regrets of the past five years.

Their feelings are so warm, sincere, and pure. When two people embrace each other in the night, it seems that there is only the figure reflected in their own eyes in the vast world.

The night wind blowing by the seaside, Zhou Lixin sat on the rock, looking at the blue sea, Tan Jia approached him quietly, held his hand from behind, and kissed Zhou Lixin's side neck lightly.

Just at this time, the sun rose from the horizon, dragging the two hugging figures on the beach for a long time, and the light gave the shadows a faint halo.

The warm sunshine, the cool sea breeze, the whole picture is unbelievably beautiful.

It's just that above such beauty, there seems to be an invisible shadow, quietly covering it.

Compared with their young and passionate first love, Zhou Lixin and Tan Jia's daily relationship seems to be counting down the clock.

Behind the seemingly smooth relationship, Dou Hong keenly noticed many details.

When playing at the beach, as soon as Tan Jia saw Zhou Lixin coming in, she immediately put down her phone and quickly covered up the unnaturalness in her eyes.

In the dead of night, after Zhou Lixin fell asleep, she opened her eyes alone, stroking Zhou Lixin's hair, Tan Jia, who hadn't fallen asleep for a long time.

Even if the screen of Tan Jia's mobile phone was on and placed on the coffee table, Zhou Lixin would deliberately look away from the information on it.

……

In the seemingly peaceful relationship, the details are full of disobedience.

When Zhou Lixin accompanied the client into the restaurant and happened to see Tan Jia who was also in the restaurant, the surface they had been trying to maintain was finally torn apart.

Opposite Tan Jia sat a young and beautiful woman, with a smile on his lips and impatience in his eyes, but the moment he met Zhou Lixin's gaze, he was completely replaced by shock and panic.

The moment I saw this scene, all the sense of disobedience I discovered before merged into an arrow pointing to the final answer.

That night, Tan Jia kissed Zhou Lixin crazily, terrified, as if exhausting all her strength, pleading in his ear again and again: "Don't go...stay...please..."

But Zhou Lixin still left.

Disappeared from Tan Jia's life without a trace.

Only this time, there is no another "five years", and there is no "reunion" that seems to be accidental.

Seeing this, Dou Hong sighed slightly.

The original author of "404" only used this pen name to write this novel, and many people have speculated whether a certain protagonist in this novel is the original author.There are many people discussing this matter, and it has been discussed for a long time, but there is still no definite answer.

Until the end of the novel, the author did not explain what happened to Zhou Lixin in the end.

And in the timeline of "404", one year after Zhou Lixin and Tan Jia broke up, Huaguo passed the "Gay Marriage Law".

Those pasts, those pasts, are all buried in the 404 before the promulgation of the Gay Marriage Act.

After that, every kiss, every hug, every staggered breath became a scar on the heart.

Can't touch.

cannot be mentioned.

At the end of the movie, Tan Jia was invited back to his high school alma mater to give a speech.

He rejected all accompanying people and walked into the campus alone.

On the boulevard in summer, everything seems so familiar and strange.

When he reached a certain intersection, Tan Jia suddenly stopped, raised his head, and looked towards a certain window. He had done this action thousands of times.

At this moment, it was as if a wind blew up, pulling everything back to that year.

The sun fell on Tan Jia's face, he stared in that direction, slightly curled the corners of his mouth.

Then, he withdrew his gaze, as if nothing had happened, raised his feet again, and walked forward along the boulevard.

As the summer wind lifted Tan Jia's clothes, the figure of that alone figure gradually became hazy.

I don't know if it's because of the picture, or because of the tears welling up in the audience's eyes.