Cupid winks

She took a bottle of beer and shook it at me. I shook my head. She opened the beer, took a big sip, and asked me, "Are you going to meet up with your girlfriend this afternoon?"

She arched me and winked: "I think it's quite normal, people have physical needs." She shrugged: "Homosexuals seem to have stronger sexual desires than heterosexuals."

I was speechless and had to laugh.She asked me, "Are you saying that's the same for bisexuals?"

It was my turn to shrug my shoulders. The two of us walked back to the cool air-conditioned room. Xiuxiu climbed to the upper bunk, and I sat on the lower bunk. After my legs failed, Hehe and I changed beds. In fact, we didn’t even have sheets and quilts. It didn't change, it just turned into me sleeping on the bottom and him sleeping on the top.Xiuxiu lay down, and I lay down too, I heard the sound of her flipping a book, after a while, she asked me: "Did you take a bath?"

"Wipe yourself."

"Oh." She said in a flat voice, "It stinks."

I knocked on the bed, and she giggled: "Is it the same smell in the boys' dormitory?"

"No, this is a gay dormitory, and it smells a lot better."

"Have you stayed here before?"

"When I was in college."

"What major did you study in college?"

I play Spider Solitaire with the game sound turned up to max.Xiuxiu spoke very loudly, overshadowing the sound effect: "You read so many medical books, do you want to be a doctor? Did you study medicine in college? You were also reading these books when you were hospitalized. Just dismiss me, or change the subject."

I said, "That's right."

I moved a card wrong and lost the game.I'm sleepy.

"Yes, yes, no, no."

I asked Xiuxiu: "If you don't go home at night, does your husband have any objections?"

She said, "He doesn't come home at night." She laughed, knocked on the bed, and said, "You change the subject if you don't want to answer my question. Unfortunately, I don't have any questions that I don't want to answer. I can answer whatever you ask. .”

She sounded confident, but I didn't have anything to ask, I just didn't want to answer her questions.She asked me again: "Din Tai Fung is your sex buddy? He's pretty handsome."

"Did you see his face today?"

"No, I just saw the profile last time. The profile is quite handsome. He is tall. Next month, you go to remove the plaster and ask him to send you."

I said, "You call him that, I thought I got Din Tai Fung Xiaokai."

"Crazy." Xiuxiu smiled and patted the bed, and I laughed too.

"What does he do?"

"Not sure."

"Huh? You guys just go to bed and don't chat?" The bed board creaked, I looked up, and I lost another game of cards.I sighed and said, "There's nothing to talk about."

"Then you two must be in perfect harmony in bed."

"Fortunately."

"Then what kind of friends with benefits? A co-production that doesn't chat and is just okay."

I want to say, professional needs, but I didn't say it.I couldn't even say it, I was a little surprised at myself, I put down my phone and looked at the upper bunk.Xiuxiu poked her head down to look at me: "Why are you silent?"

I shook my head, smiled, and still didn't speak.What can I say?I know that Ye Haowen is married, and I slept with him for his money. I have hands and feet but I am willing to sell my body to do business with flesh and blood. During the day, I hide in a small room and indulge in outdated games. At night, I hide in the hole of desire. The hunter is waiting in the jungle. When I was a child, I hated my mother for placing the future of being a doctor on me. Now I imagine that if I graduate successfully, I will be a doctor.

I don't want to say that.

Xiuxiu patted the bed rail, I looked at her, her eyes were suddenly very serious, when I was distracted, did she see anything from my face, did she read anything?I touched my face and heard her ask me: "Do you think it is possible for a person to like one, another, and another."

"Isn't this the case when you fall in love? Many people have been in love more than once."

She explained: "No, what I mean is, while liking one person, you also like another person."

"That person may have an imperial dream."

Xiuxiu was overjoyed, and lay back down. There was a creaking sound, and she seemed to be sitting up.She asked, "Can I play with Snake on your phone? Your phone is so retro."

"You play, remember to charge."

"Where's the charger?"

"It's on the side, you can touch it."

"This kind of old mobile phone won't turn on when it runs out of power? But yours is well maintained and looks quite new."

I really want to sleep, very sleepy, I closed my eyes, probably because of tiredness, my nerves became relaxed, and my guard was relaxed, I actually answered her and said: "I am waiting for a call, there is no power You might miss it."

"Isn't there a text message?"

"I missed it. If I call again, no one will pick up."

Xiuxiu asked me "Who are you waiting for a call? Family or ex-boyfriend?"

Xiuxiu said: "If you haven't contacted someone for a long time, then don't wait. If someone you haven't contacted for a long time suddenly contacts you, either someone died or you want to borrow money. You don't want to have both?"

I said: "Does your husband know that you don't go home at night and stay in the boys' dormitory?"

"But you are in a gay dormitory!"

"Did he cheat? Did you guys not have sex?"

Xiuxiu was silent, I cleared my throat, and after a while, Xiuxiu said, "How did you find out? Because you are a sex worker, are you particularly sensitive to whether other people have sex? People who have sex regularly have Wouldn't it smell different? Can you smell it?"

"It's not the same, can't you smell the smell of semen?" I grabbed my clothes and said, all of a sudden, I felt that everything was ridiculous, me and Xiuxiu, she said we are more senior than friends, me and Yehao Wen, we are inferior to friends with benefits. I thought I was the champion of the shameless competition.

I asked Xiuxiu: "Do you want to sleep with me? I can't treat women, I hate women."

Xiuxiu answered me: "I know, you are gay, I know about you, I know everything."

Her voice trembled.

I shouldn't have said any more, but I kept saying, "So what do you want from me? You're an artist. Are you uninspired and looking for inspiration from me? What can I give you? I can only Gives you a sense of superiority."

Xiuxiu turned over, or changed from sitting to lying down, I don't know, the bed board was very loud, very noisy.I kept talking, saying: You can't answer my question anymore.Say: You should go to the person who hurt you, is it your elder or your friend?

She is afraid of men's touch, she thinks friends are used for betrayal and betrayal, she doesn't want to go home, she is close to us men who don't love women, she can wear only pajamas and underwear in front of us panties.Her problems are obvious.

It seems that a relationship higher than that of friends represents the insight into each other's secrets, and then use these secrets to make an invisible weapon to arm yourself, and use it to kill the other party when necessary.

If possible, I would like to be a disabled person with amnesia, both blind and dumb.

I turned off the small light by the bed, pulled up the quilt, and covered my feet.

I heard Xiuxiu climb down, I felt her standing in front of my bed, and I also felt her looking at me with burning eyes.I'm almost burned through.

She walked away softly.

After that, she disappeared for a month, she didn't contact me, and I planned to disappear from her life.Maybe I am destined not to have a closer and higher relationship than friends.

I saw Xiuxiu again on June 6th. I went to the hospital to remove the plaster cast. Xiuxiu was waiting for me at the hospital gate. She accompanied me to remove the plaster cast, accompanied me from upstairs to downstairs, and accompanied me to smoke on the side of the road.She gave me an envelope, inside the envelope was a thin piece of plasterboard with a red snowflake on it, I rubbed it, this time it was not painted with lipstick, it was painted with paint, and there was a ticket to a ballet performance in the envelope .

The play is "Firebird".

She smiled at me and we went to the show together.I watched ballet for the first time, surrounded by people in suits and ties, surrounded by fragrance, I patted my crumpled T-shirt, I smelled sex on myself.Inspired by my limited mobility due to injury, Manager Fan developed a new business, which is similar to live broadcasting. I can do it at home, as long as I have a mobile phone and Internet access.There are more weird people on the Internet, and many people like to watch me masturbate in a wheelchair.

Xiuxiu handed me a performance brochure that was handed out when she entered the venue. According to the brochure, the dance troupe came from Germany, but the main dancer was an Asian, Chinese, named Sun Yu.

5.

Sun Yu plays Firebird, his skin is brown, his body and face are covered with golden glitter powder, and he is wearing a beige tight-fitting costume. His limbs are slender and his muscles are beautiful. He is the most delicate line that can be drawn. The most succinct image of a dancer without a trace of cumbersomeness.He painted red eyeliner and dyed his hair red. At the beginning, his dancing steps were brisk. After the stage lights gradually dimmed, he danced anxiously, struggling, and escaping from something, but the more he evaded, the tighter the light beams chased him. They oppressed him, violated him, and left slender black shadows like giant hands on his flexible body.He danced very fast, with quick steps, spinning on one foot, circle after circle, so fast that it was phantom, he danced like some paintings of Bacon, violent because of the rich colors, full of wild vitality because of the violence .When the firebird was about to die, it had to calm down, had to perch by the lake, pecked its feathers sadly, quietly waited for a fire, died quietly, burned blazingly, and then bathed in the fire